what the fuck is going on
a year ago
the last two drawings I've posted where stuff I started three weeks ago before I got sick for a week and a half.
all of the sudden now I cannot manage to draw anything new, I can't get my sona right, everything I draw feels dissatisfying and it's frustrating and terrifying, I've already been delaying my side of a trade for weeks, and now I have a commission to draw as well and I'm so scared I might might be unable to do it in decent times because of this.
I hate this so much. how much more is it going to last? what can I do about it?
I really need some help over this.
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I wish I could just disappear and everyone would forget about me, it wouldn't undo any of the pain I've caused, but it would at least prevent me from causing more.
all of the sudden now I cannot manage to draw anything new, I can't get my sona right, everything I draw feels dissatisfying and it's frustrating and terrifying, I've already been delaying my side of a trade for weeks, and now I have a commission to draw as well and I'm so scared I might might be unable to do it in decent times because of this.
I hate this so much. how much more is it going to last? what can I do about it?
I really need some help over this.
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I wish I could just disappear and everyone would forget about me, it wouldn't undo any of the pain I've caused, but it would at least prevent me from causing more.
You'll get out of this, I promise. <3 Sometimes you just need a little break
anyhow I hope you feel better soon. From your previous journal post I've been wanting to ask if you wanna talk on discord sometimes.. but I don't even know if I can be much of a friend atm with my own state and habit of disappearing.
I guess it's still worth a try after all, I'm pretty much always active here and on discord as I don't really have anywhere else to be.
It's going to be alright. You'll be able to figure it out. It's going to take some time, yes. But you can do it. Take a break if you need to. I'm sure this other person will be patient. And if they aren't. It's not the end of the world. Some people just meet to learn to be patient.
It's ok.. Just give yourself some time.