Divinity
13 years ago
I feel the need to write this journal although most likely no one will see it.
If you've ever talked to me, I've gotten mad at you, its that simple. But it isnt...
My whole life I've been someone who can somehow find a way to convince myself that every time I make a mistake, its someone elses fault.
This behavior is something that gets me by, but... its cost me so many friendships its unbelievable.
To everyone that I've lost because of a stupid hot headed argument, or me being a jerk, or just being generally unfair, im sorry.
It took me losing all my friends to realize that the way ive been acting wasnt justified. Ive always told myself that my friends are gone because they were assholes, and at times it was true. But what are the odds that everyone ive met and talked to on a regular basis all magically turned into assholes? They didnt, it was me.
If your name is on this list, then you're one of many that ive mistreated and I am sorry for hurting (there are more).
Cody N, Quinn, Alex C, Chris S, Nick C, Deonte H, Brenden S, Chris W, Keith R, Josh S, Daniel G, Kiba S, Jason, ScorkZ, Wanny T, Blade H, Kohta.
I apologize because its been so long ive forgotten some peoples last names or never learned their real names.
Anyways, I believe people can change. So I'll get started now.
Totally inspirational music:
http://www.youtube.com/user/Colorle.....69/ITJ0FxXZ4_U
If you've ever talked to me, I've gotten mad at you, its that simple. But it isnt...
My whole life I've been someone who can somehow find a way to convince myself that every time I make a mistake, its someone elses fault.
This behavior is something that gets me by, but... its cost me so many friendships its unbelievable.
To everyone that I've lost because of a stupid hot headed argument, or me being a jerk, or just being generally unfair, im sorry.
It took me losing all my friends to realize that the way ive been acting wasnt justified. Ive always told myself that my friends are gone because they were assholes, and at times it was true. But what are the odds that everyone ive met and talked to on a regular basis all magically turned into assholes? They didnt, it was me.
If your name is on this list, then you're one of many that ive mistreated and I am sorry for hurting (there are more).
Cody N, Quinn, Alex C, Chris S, Nick C, Deonte H, Brenden S, Chris W, Keith R, Josh S, Daniel G, Kiba S, Jason, ScorkZ, Wanny T, Blade H, Kohta.
I apologize because its been so long ive forgotten some peoples last names or never learned their real names.
Anyways, I believe people can change. So I'll get started now.
Totally inspirational music:
http://www.youtube.com/user/Colorle.....69/ITJ0FxXZ4_U
awww *hugs you close*
<3
*pet your head softly*
But you're the one who deleted me...
I wish you used your FA..