Last place to sign off of. Starting over, tired of hurting myself with mistakes and hurting others around me as well. Over and over i lose control and how i keep comfortable an calm hurts people around me and when i hurt others it hurts me and just spirals out of control. I’ve only told a few people this has been in debate with the wish no one stops me. I am not harming myself im simply not going to be hyper anymore. If you find me elsewhere i wont turn you away just i will not be talking. Im done with this. To all my close friends i do honestly love you to death thank you for making life bearable, but as so many have told me i need to act for myself for once and not do everything for others. This is just that. Being selfish.

Always over thinking....

Worst year of my life. Things are starting to look up a tiny bit but fuck, this year just really fucken blows... i just want everything to be done with and to start a fresh year, an pray i do better.


Hope everyone is well.

Was just told people are spreading about I am obsessive, possessive, talk about em like im a drug infused puppy, that im a stalker. I guess im a horrible friend that uses others to get to them, that i never enjoyed their company or how much they actually helped me. If that how i made em feel then i am truly sorry for making them feel used. But this I cant take. This year is ass, and i regret every damn day of it outside 2 things that have happened. I regret ever believing my life was going to get better that i had found people i could finally stay with an feel accepted. No just put my mask back on an fool everyone. Be what they want you to be. Trust those damn voices in your head. Everyone is out to fucking get you. You are only prey.

how you can start a year the happiest you have ever felt in your life and by the end be feeling worse then you ever have in your life. slowly picking myself up off the floor from my own mistakes, hopefuly things will be good again, already feeling better because of the amazing people still in my life... hope i can fix things but traveling forward as tho they cant. not my place to hate that will get me no where... not even hating myself. Made mistakes, learn from them an move on, I dont forgive my own mistakes but that doesnt mean I need to hold onto them like I have. heres to doing better next year with hope.

Ever just not feeling yourself, like you without wanting to put on a mask for show to people because you no longer want to show them who you really are? feels like it. I dont want to be someone else, I just want to be me again.

just feel my life is falling apart.

Hello! Im pretty trash at this game as wondering if i could get any help on it ‘v’. Currently just derpin on a aura build so need someone to actualy do shit for me cuz i dont hurt a damn fly. Curently if i do im Out of mana in 2 spell waves an screaming about

things are gonna get better real soon.

Broke contact with someone very dear to me. Im happy to hear from them but scared to death of hurting em more.

When was there a ui update?

i didnt pick to be born like this. I hate fearing everyone and everything, wondering endlessly if everyone is using me or hates me. I hate the endless panic when around people, the never ending self doubt that they actually care or just view me as a burden. Feeling inferior to everyone and knowing i serve no purpos among the people i call my friends or love. I dont want to play this game of life anymore, Im sick of feeling misserable, tired, hateful, sad 24/7. I want it all to end

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Ive been awake sense 720 this morning, went to bed again at 930 because i had nothing to do, no one i know is online at this time. woke up at 2. sat around doing nothing until around 5. msged a few people who came online. but that ended quickly. its now 630 and im gonna go back to bed. there is absolutly nothing to do here, i really fucking hate living in germany. i want to just go home now.