Odd, normally I don’t remember my dreams, but this time, remember some of it. There were these 3 people, all storytellers. And I was one of them. The other 2 were a young woman, with dreams of becoming a writer, and a man who had very low self confidence. I didn’t catch their names. It kind looked like we were exploring worlds all 3 of us created individually. The other two people, let’s call the writers Jess, and the man with low self confidence Alex for the sake of example. I can’t remember a lot of the worlds we call created, ranging from fan fictions, to personal dreams, to personal experiences, even game shows. I didn’t remember all the details of everything I saw in the dream. Near the end of the dream, after exploring the last world, Alex was still a dragon, and a red one at that. He was still growing in size, and knew that this was what he was meant to be, and how his confidence was being built. Just before all 3 of us parted ways, we all shared one last conversation. This is what we all said
Me: man, this was one crazy adventure. I know to me, this was just a dream, and I may not remember it, but it was fun
Jess: it’s given me ideas for some stories. Full publish stories too
Alex: and being the dragon I am now, I feel more confident and free. Before we all split up and return home, I’d like to say, “thank you” for letting me share this adventure with you.
Me: anytime, Alex. And you look great as a dragon. Just like “chirping bird”
Alex: *laughs*
Jess: yeah, that guy did look amazing
Just then is when I woke up. And the strange thing is, I think I may of share it with others, like our dreams were connected or something

From 10/03/25, I’m going to start drawing and uploading again. The reason why I haven’t uploaded anything for so long is because the last 2 years were difficult for me. I won’t go into details why, but it drew me away from drawing. I’ll start small, and just do some practice sketches which I won’t upload, to get my drawing skills back up again. And I’ll be doing some trades with people. Some I’ll upload, some I’ll keep between me and then. I’ll try to pace myself to make sure I don’t burn out, and take time to take it easy if I need to. It’ll be good to draw again after 2 years

I just had my tooth looked at, I needed to get it filled, I’m okay though, don’t worry. The only thing that’s hurt is my wallet, it cost me over GBP£200! And I was going to use that money for my new washing machine

First, my roof leaks, then I get falsely charged for the repairs which won’t be waved, then another leak, then my tooth breaks, now the drum in my washing machine won’t spin, even when empty. Come on Ridley-Z, focus on the positives

Power’s back, there was no water in it like last time, and been shown what to do if it trips again. And been told to only call to repair it if the fuse box will not turn on. As for now, I’ll just stay up from stress, takes a few hours to get rid of the stress, and call my landlord in the morning to see what to do about the leaks. May be an underline problem for my neighbour above too. And since they have the same landlord, more so. I’ll call my landlord tomorrow morning, as per their guidance, and see what can be done to help stop anymore leaks from happening again, and see if there’s an underlying issue that will affect both me and my neighbour upstairs

I think it’s got something to do with the plumbing or my neighbour’s kids not learning their lessons. And after dark too! I’m going to have to tell my landlord. There could be a problem with the roof or something. Don’t worry. I’m okay. I just need to keep calm

For those that need to know, I’ve stop with trying to find a job. It’s mostly because I’ve been told that if I found a job, my benefits would be affected negatively. Not to mention that I’m listed as unfit for work. Probably because of my disabilities. That’s okay with me, I was only acting out of panic. So, I’m no longer doing that whole job hunting thing, not until I’ve got all the required information first

Looks like I’m going to have to start job hunting soon. I won’t go into details why, but I will say it’s because I’ll need to find new income by March 2026. But I’m trying to look at it positively. Mostly because I’m trying to find something that will fill up my free time, and just watching the TV for most of the day isn’t really a good way to fill in that time. But what kind of job could I get? I’ve got very few qualifications, I can’t remember much of my past before 2010, can’t remember how long I was volunteering at the charity shop before Covid, and the school I went to taught me nothing. Plus, the courses I went to in college (high school for my American friends) were not the ones I wanted to be on

My kitchen roof sprung a leak which shut down my electrical system. Don’t worry, I’m okay. I’m keeping all my electronics off, and I’ve called my landlord about the situation, and they’ve sent someone over. But they could be in at 6pm London Time. I’ll be okay until then


Update, all the electricity is working again, and there was only a little bit of water in the electrical box. Nothing a wet dry vacuum can remove. Thankfully, there was no permanent damage

Today, I woke up to seeing that someone I haven’t spoken to in 2 years said that they accidentally reported me on Discord. I knew this was a scam because I haven’t spoken to the person in question for 2 years. Good thing I just ignored it, closed the DM, and told the person in question about it via a different method. Another friend of mine informed it that this indeed is a scam. Probably to try to get my account. Not gonna happen. I’ve been scammed 3 times in my life, and im not going to get scammed a 4th time

I’m now going away for Christmas, this is one of the few times I get to be with my entire family. I’m really looking forward to seeing them again. I mean, with how big my family is, it’s rare for me to see them all. I’ll be done for the week, and this will be an important Christmas for me, because I’m going to start making amends with my dad. That time too, he and I have been arguing for 17 years. If I don’t see any of you before I return, I wish you a Merry Christmas

Happy birthday to me. It did get off to a shaky start, didn’t get to sleep until about 2am. No more caffeine for me. But then again, something like that was bound to happen, today is Friday the 13th after all. For now, I’m just going to enjoy the day

After 2 more commissions planned for this year, i’m going to take a break from commissioning people for a year. It’s mostly because I’ve got plans to see Tokyo in November 2025. May just be for a week, but I’ve been dreaming about this holiday for 24 years! Even planning 2025’s spends this month for it. I just hope I can keep to it, I’ve been having money problems since I was 6. I’m just too tempted, plus, when I stress, I spend. Mostly on food. Fingers crossed I can keep to it

Tomorrow, I’ve got a doctor’s appointment. I won’t say what it’s about, but it’ll be very uncomfortable. Good thing I’ve been making myself ready for it over the week. And today I’ll need to take medicine for the appointment, and that will not be fun. But if it’s got to be done, it’s got to be done. I’ll let you guys know how I’m feeling on Saturday

That was a scary time, with FA’s back online, I can now talk to a lot of my friends again. I would say something bad to whoever did the hijack, but I’ll let karma do its work. I hope everyone was okay during the past 2 days

I just learned that my Uncle Pete has died last weekend. I knew something felt off. I knew him very well. I don’t know how old he was, but I knew he lead a good life. Rest in peace Uncle Pete

I had this unusual dream, which is unusual because I don’t remember my dreams. If I can recall it correctly, I dreamed that I found this hole in my wall, just big enough to crawl through, with to me back in time about 30 years. I couldn’t tell where I was, but I knew I was in England, and I met this family that seamed very familiar to me. I spent about a year there, with a janitor job at a local school, making friends, helping people out, and the occasional time, I even turned lives around. All without telling anyone about the future. Within that year, I did pickup a few souvenirs, kept a journal, took photos, and most of the money I earned I was putting in a savings account because the mother I was living with had her first child in that year, and the savings account was for the child. All £375 of it. When the year passed, i decided to go back home. In return for letting me stay with them, I let them keep something from my time. Nothing much, just a book. And in return, they gave me a Kodak DC40 camera. I knew it wasn’t the end for me of my relationship with the family, so i decided to give them my address to use when I’m back home, afterwards, I said my goodbyes and returned home, carrying my souvenirs with me in a bag on my back, and returned home. The following day, I checked for that whole again, but it wasn’t there anymore. But all was not loss. I got a letter that day from the family I was staying with 30 years ago, asking to meet with me, mostly because they said i forgot something. I woke up about then, I’m not sure why I had the dream, but I will say this. I’ve never had a dream like that before

My dad has told me he planning to book a surprise for me in London next month, but the ring is, he’s given me no clues to what it is, not even a date. All he’s told me is the city it’ll be in. Ive got a few ideas on what it may be, but nothing concrete on what it’ll be. I mean, London’s 607 square miles, so who know what it’ll be. This was quite the surprise because he and I haven’t been on good terms since I came out to him as a furry (he’s not too keen on them, who knows why) I’ll be sure to create a journal about what it is when the time comes

2023 was a very shaky year for me, I lot a lot of money, got scared by a new policy, and my anxiety hit a whole new level. But it had some good things too. Started to make peace with my dad, saw some anniversaries, and my 30th birthday. Not to mention I ended up getting enough bravery to see 3 horror movies this year, M3GAN, Willy’s Wonderland, and the movie adaptation of Five Nights at Freddy’s. As 2024 is just hours away, I’ve been looking at possible plans for the new year. I’ll be saving some money for my trip to Tokyo in November, seeing a few movies, get back into running, which I haven’t been able to since the pandemic, and fingers crossed, find a way to make a permanent peace with my dad. I better start planning in my diary what to do when. I wish everyone a happy new year, and see you all in 2024

I’m going away for Christmas tomorrow, I’ll probably be back just in time for New Year’s Eve, depending on a few things. If I don’t talk to anybody before I leave, I wish you all a merry Christmas

Today, I’m officially 30 years old. I’ve got a good amount of gifts already, and I’m going make today a rest day for me. Which I think should be allowed for everyone on there birthday

I’m back, I took longer than expected to come back because I felt built out, and I had a new personal low in my life. I’m okay now, and I’m starting to rethink my life, especially with my 30th birthday coming up next month. First off, I’ve realised that I’m spending too much on a lot of things I like, including commissions. Don’t worry, I do love getting commissions from other people, it’s just that I have trouble controlling myself sometimes, so, I’m going to limit myself on that, just 2 more commissions this year, and I’m going to take a break from commissioning people. Especially since I’ve got a holiday coming up in November 2024. Second, I’m going to resume drawing soon, I’ve read and reread that FA policy that got people scared, and I’m sure I’m in the clear on that. I won’t be as frequent as I used to be, maybe one or two drawings a month. Yeah, I’ll resume uploading in 2024, but I can’t say how frequently I’ll be uploading pictures. Thirdly, since the covid pandemic in 2020, my confidence has been shaken like crazy, and my anxiety spiked. So, I’m going to start going out more, to try to find some more friends offline, who knows? Some of the friends I made on FA I’ll meet IRL, but only time will tell on that. Forty, I’ve been working on conquering some of my fears, I won’t say what fears I’ve got, but over my break, I’ve been able to get rid of one of them, which was horror movies. Not easy, but not impossible either. And lastly, for as long as I can remember, me and my dad have been arguing and fighting for years, even in my preteen years, and I’m fed up of constantly arguing with him, he’s in his early 50’s, and I fear the arguments will lead him and me to losing contact with him when he retires. So, on my next visit to him, and every visit afterwards, I’m going to try to make amends with him. And that alone will be a challenge, we’re both hotheads, and we easily lose our cool with each other, but I’ll try to work things out with him.
For now, I think I’ll just focus on getting my walking back to a stable pace again, I’ll talk to you guys soon, and stay safe everyone

I’m still here, but I’m not uploading because the policy has got me too worried to upload. But that’s not the reason why I’m taking a break, I’m just feeling really stressed out lately. It’s even made me quit a game I was playing on mental health reasons, so, I’m going to take a break for the month. I’ll still be on socials, just not as much. I need this break because I’ve been feeling stressed out all year and last year, so, I’m going to take August off to destress and recenter myself. I’ll see you again in September

I don’t know if any of my art will violate the new policy, and I really don’t want to move to another site, I’ve got a lot of friends on FA. I’ve sent a ticket to ask for some help with this, mostly because I don’t know what to do at the moment. For now, I’ll still continue to draw, but I’m holding off uploading anything until I get some clarification. I’m just hoping that none of my artwork will violate the policy update

I’m open for commissions, mostly to help with a small bill I need to pay off to my old energy supplier. They’re asking for about GBP£52. I know it’s not much these days, but they’ve given me 2 months to pay for it. I’ll take donations too for it, PayPal’s helpfuldragon231[at]gmail.com if you want to help. And before anyone asks, no, this will not affect my planned commissions, I’ve delayed most of them because of this anyway