To all 53 of you who watch this account and may read it, thank you, thank you lol

Let’s get the rough stuff out of the way first.

But for real. I’ve actualy for the most part been back for about 2 years just kind of doing my own thing. Turns out, being reclusive and socially kept away from others while leaning on just 2 people for friendship isn’t healthy, for everyone involved. Who would have thought? Well during my time of kinda just enjoying my life, I really started to grasp as what ever I could do or buy to keep myself entertained with life as things seemed to become stagnant. About a year ago I realize now I developed a very clingy obnoxious and toxic attitude towards life without really realizing it and I just did what I wanted.

Because of this, 6 months ago I lost my best friend of 6 years because I went behind their back and got art of them without their permission and it devistated them. Losing this person in my life emotionally destroyed me and I let my life spiral out of control for 3-4 months where I almost lost my job and I pretty much stopped eating.

Thankfully, I had people in my life there to pull me out of this darkness and show me that it is not worth giving up on life. But a chance to improve and become a better person because of it. I don’t know if the right people will ever see this, but I owe my life to a handful of now close friends who never just threw me away like trash through all my crying and mental breakdowns and helping me find reason to keep going on. Thank you.



With that out of the way, the good stuff! Or well... the way forwards stuff.

About two years ago, I got a new suit that I call Starburst, you can find my new FA here  just-another-cat this is a SFW account for the most part. Adult content is else where. I have another suit that I call Berry and you can see pictures of her on that account too :)

If you’ve read or skimmed down this far, I owe you a cookie, I know it’s rough to read through these lengthy journals, let alone even bother these days. But if I’ve ever met you, I 100% want to put in the effort to reconnect and rebuild a friendship we used to have. Even if we only kind of knew each other. I realized the more around people I am, the better of a person I am. So I want to be that person people used to enjoy being around like back in 2013-2014.

Give me time to adjust as I’m trying VERY hard to be a more social butterfly and accepting person :) but I will make the effort if you reach out to me. I promise.



Thanks for reading, this was a pour my heart out journal and an attempt to rebuild my life, please following me back on my new FA account, you can also reach me on telegram StarburstCandy and Twitter StarburstSaber.