Hello! Hello... Hey... To anyone who might read this...

I've been gone for a while. Things have not exactly been interesting since I left last time. Oh, I mean, a lot has happened, of course, but nothing really worth telling here I'd say. Unless someone is interested? He he, let me know if so!

Anyway, I mostly left because of the way I was feeling towards... Well, all of this. It's not a clear decision I took on the day I left, it just kind of happened slowly and without me even realizing it at first. When I finally came to understand what had happened, I then realized some things. Which made me stay away from here even longer, and even made me consider maybe never coming back, or at least for a long time.

I've realize things about friendships in this fandom. About my part, my role in it, about its promises. I found answers that left me upset and saddened. I felt betrayed, I stopped looking at everything I loved about this fandom, I lost the pleasure, the happiness I once had towards it. I stopped drawing. I slowly drifted away.

But in the meantime, I didn't just stay there, doing nothing. I explored some things about myself that I had never dared thinking about exploring before. I went all out, I experienced something new... And I liked it. A lot. It certainly changed me, for the better or the worse, that I don't know. But I think I feel better now.

Now, why am I suddenly back, on this beautiful summer evening? What exactly do I expect from now on? Will I stay, or will I be leaving again? I don't know. I don't know at all. The future is a mysterious thing that has always scared me, so I won't try to predict, or even hope for things.

But here I am, once again. And for the ones that still remember me, for the ones that will have taken the time to read through this entire journal...

Thank you. You are awesome, and I'd love to hear from you.

Sincerely,
Your friendly blue wolf,

~Lunclaw