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Hi
a year ago
hello guys it's been a while since I didn't post anything here.
well, something's happened to me, something insane, like a cliche in most yaoi manga titles, and I was in difficulty with yaoi and NSFW stuff for years.
to make it simple in august 2019 my first boyfriend, left me because he discovered that he was gay, but we stayed together for 15 years!!! and he dropped me out a day after the death of his uncle.
This uncle left in hereditary the house, so finally we could move from our parent's house and start a life together.
I don't remember well every detail of that day.
I lost my most important person in one second, and I become depressed.
After talking to him I downloaded two apps, Romeo and Grinder I dint believed the words he had said to me. I had need to see it with my eyes.
But what I discovered was the worst nightmare. he was here in these apps, I found him easily but not with one account after he left me but with two, and one was created in 2011. The Romeo app it's something like Facebook, with a public gallery and I saw his photos and the dates...I was disgusted and betrayed
the world has fallen again for the second time and I was destroyed...
I couldn't draw anything, I couldn't sleep, and the yaoi and NSFW stuff became to me something that makes me feel bad.
I hate him for this !!! I lost my passion and I felt empty.
he was my best friend and a mate in the artistic field too.
I lost 8kg in one month and I didn't talk with anyone in my family I could talk only with my two friends but they lived out of the country
after 3 months I decided to do therapy and it helped me, finally, I could talk to someone with no secrets.
but that it wasn't easy.
The Christmas holidays were the most difficult phase because we had the anniversary. the months passed, the covid arrived but for me, the lockdown was my usual life
I tried to meet someone and I found my actual boyfriend I met him through Tinder. yeh, I used an app for the first time but I found a good guy a nerd with a cosplay photo like a user pic XD.
I don't think I can forgive my first boyfriend for what he did to me but, is not only his fault. Our society in Italy has a retrograde mentality and the family tends to act strange when the child act with homosexual behavior.
He was scared by his dad and his super religious family.
He is catholic too and considers himself an error but anything to do with me.
He had to talk to me when he felt insecure but no, he hides this feeling and uses an app pretending that was all ok.
We weren't supposed to be together from the start, I think.
So now in 2022, I feel better, I lived with my boyfriend (what I met on tinder) and I want to re-start drawing again NSFW stuff, but is not the same as before, something has changed for me.
well, something's happened to me, something insane, like a cliche in most yaoi manga titles, and I was in difficulty with yaoi and NSFW stuff for years.
to make it simple in august 2019 my first boyfriend, left me because he discovered that he was gay, but we stayed together for 15 years!!! and he dropped me out a day after the death of his uncle.
This uncle left in hereditary the house, so finally we could move from our parent's house and start a life together.
I don't remember well every detail of that day.
I lost my most important person in one second, and I become depressed.
After talking to him I downloaded two apps, Romeo and Grinder I dint believed the words he had said to me. I had need to see it with my eyes.
But what I discovered was the worst nightmare. he was here in these apps, I found him easily but not with one account after he left me but with two, and one was created in 2011. The Romeo app it's something like Facebook, with a public gallery and I saw his photos and the dates...I was disgusted and betrayed
the world has fallen again for the second time and I was destroyed...
I couldn't draw anything, I couldn't sleep, and the yaoi and NSFW stuff became to me something that makes me feel bad.
I hate him for this !!! I lost my passion and I felt empty.
he was my best friend and a mate in the artistic field too.
I lost 8kg in one month and I didn't talk with anyone in my family I could talk only with my two friends but they lived out of the country
after 3 months I decided to do therapy and it helped me, finally, I could talk to someone with no secrets.
but that it wasn't easy.
The Christmas holidays were the most difficult phase because we had the anniversary. the months passed, the covid arrived but for me, the lockdown was my usual life
I tried to meet someone and I found my actual boyfriend I met him through Tinder. yeh, I used an app for the first time but I found a good guy a nerd with a cosplay photo like a user pic XD.
I don't think I can forgive my first boyfriend for what he did to me but, is not only his fault. Our society in Italy has a retrograde mentality and the family tends to act strange when the child act with homosexual behavior.
He was scared by his dad and his super religious family.
He is catholic too and considers himself an error but anything to do with me.
He had to talk to me when he felt insecure but no, he hides this feeling and uses an app pretending that was all ok.
We weren't supposed to be together from the start, I think.
So now in 2022, I feel better, I lived with my boyfriend (what I met on tinder) and I want to re-start drawing again NSFW stuff, but is not the same as before, something has changed for me.
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