Views: 11019
Submissions: 90
Favs: 2244
~ShiningBlue
Not Available...
Stats
Comments Earned: 811
Comments Made: 669
Journals: 2
Comments Made: 669
Journals: 2
Recent Journal
Good Riddance
2 months ago
It's been a few days since I've been away and it feels like nothing has changed. I'm still miserable. Games are losing their fun and music is losing its touch. I'm finding myself losing interest in things I used to enjoy. I thought a break would be good for me, giving me time to think about things but there's nothing to think about. All I've thought about is leaving. Leaving my art behind, leaving my characters behind and leaving Alex behind. I don't think of myself as much of a loss. I don't serve a purpose, I'm a mediocre artist that can't live up to standards that others have, I'm not good at anything else... I'm just a failure. A disappointment. Someone who can't even get their mind set straight. One of the main reasons I've stayed was for the ones that care about me. But I know they'd be much better off not having to deal with me. Dealing with my inconsistency, my self-doubtfulness, my bad head spaces and just me in general. Everyone's got someone better. Better friends they can laugh with, better friends they can create stuff with, better friends they can talk with. I am no one special. As much as I wanted to be, I'm not. I'm easily replaceable and easily forgettable. All I wanted was to be apart of things, feel included, and make something of myself. Aspire to be a great artist that could go on to even animating their own show with his friends! But I don't even know if I want to do that anymore...
My encouragement, determination and motivation have been stripped from me. I hope I can get it back one day. Until then, I shall continue to try my hardest to get myself out of this.
My encouragement, determination and motivation have been stripped from me. I hope I can get it back one day. Until then, I shall continue to try my hardest to get myself out of this.
User Profile
Accepting Trades
Yes Accepting Commissions
Yes Character Species
Canine (Golden Retriever)
Favorite Music
Rock, Pop, Dance, Electronic, Hip-Hop
Favorite TV Shows & Movies
Yellow Submarine/Indiana Jones Trilogy/Sam Raimi Spider-Man Trilogy
Favorite Games
Justice League Heroes/Marvel: Ultimate Alliance/PAC-MAN World 3
Favorite Gaming Platforms
PlayStation, Xbox, Nintendo, & PC
Favorite Animals
Dogs, Cats, Horses, Snakes, Birds, Bunnies & Dragons
Favorite Foods & Drinks
Pizza, Pasta, Burgers & French Fries, and Chicken Nuggets
Favorite Quote
“Forgive your enemies, but never forget their names.”
Don_S_Prime