Basically just the title of this...

looking at my art just makes me depressed right now. I want to draw, but honestly lack any and all motivations to do so..

I'm still looking for any kind of work, which has been a constant struggle in it's own right. Kind of have something at a seasonal store, but that's only lasting maybe a week and a half.

I'd still love to take a few commissions and start both drawing and earning again, though clearly I suck at self promotion, self motivation, or even being consistent with anything, so I remain stuck here in perpetuity...

I don't know what to do anymore, and the days and months going by all feel the same... constantly busy but feeling like I'm getting no where or not really doing anything even though I am running around doing chores and errands incessently.

I have no social life outside of my family and roommates, and even then I'm most constantly by myself. This has let me explore inward and outward quite a bit mentally and even perhaps spiritually, though I still feel like I'm stuck going in circles with not much to show for it...



~ ventilation completed?

Not really sure if there's a point to posting this beyond venting, but whatever.