So. I don't want to bother you with all my personal stuff. I just wanted to write this new journal because currently my life is really really going downhill. The unstable building of my life is about to fall down and I really don't know what will happen next.

So, quick summary:

- My 16 years old kitty is a bit sick. She is currently under treatment, but well, it is not a full guarantee that she is going to fully recover and she's of course lived so long until this point, so it wouldn't be strange that her health could be getting worse soon. Due to several things I currently don't have any close physical friends, she is pretty much my only friend and losing her would be very very complicated.

- Yesterday after a quick visit to ophthalmologist I confirmed that I'm 100% unable to drive. My sight is too far away from reaching my country regulations to get a license so... I will never be able to drive a vehicle... Which is not the end of the world, but well. I was excited of trying it out this year, but... I'm afraid it won't happen this year and any other year in the rest of my life.

- The job position I'm waiting for as a teacher is still a mystery. No communication, no news. I'm completely blind in what is happening there. I will go to search for more information this Monday, but I'm getting more and more worried that due to the reduction of students in the town there will be simply no job position for me and all the money, time, attention and resources spent in this extremely slow process of two and a half years is going to be wasted.

Due to all of those situations I've been sleeping really bad, having a really awful mood and basically not wanting anything, so I've been facing at least 8 really hard days till now and I'm not sure how many more days like those ones I will have. The comic Scales at School will be still suspended for another week and for the moment during indefinite time. The number of artworks and its quality may be reduced too. I'm sorry, I hope you can have some patience with me. I'm not sure what exactly is going to happen. January was such a hard month and February is not going better. I personally don't have any hopes that things are going to turn into a better direction, so... I don't know at all what to expect.

That's all for now. Thanks...