Lyrics:
And I know that.
Sometimes it ain't enough, and I own that.
And I'm sorry if I can't be enough for you.
Sometimes it ain't enough, and I know that.
Sometimes it ain't enough, and I own that.
And I'm sorry if I can't be enough.
If I can't be enough for you.
For you.
Details:
Heya everybuddy! This one's a bit more special than usual in terms of my stuff: I have battled a long battle with myself since I started posting here on FA so long ago. Before then my music was an escape for me, something I just played at home when I was upset, which was often. Though, when I got my first computer, I started to work on my own personal style. The instruments that I played at home impressed people but it wasn't me, it was piano and violin and other wonderful instruments. Just not me. And after so many years (10+) I am still so conflicted, not so sure of what my style is even. I'm in the middle of thinking that I can't even identify my own style because I like so many different things and express myself in so many ways. I like "classical" instruments but don't like "classical" music. I like edm but don't like it too abrasive, but also not too naively happy, and not just for the sake of dancing to a beat. I enjoy a combination of modern electronic and acoustic instruments, sound synthesis, vocals and classic all sorts of things. I guess I fall into a sort of "electronica" or "indie" style, rather open ended, or a mutt style haha. Anyway... my point is that I often doubt myself as to what I even like, and am sometimes influenced by what others may think of my music and therefore I change it in a way that makes it ingenuine to myself, regardless of how it is received. That's mostly what I did for a long portion of my early posts here, and is why I am so conflicted. Though... as of the last maybe two years I have been refining what I want and going about what I want for my music and it's very freeing. I think it's paid off, those are the songs that get the most attention, and it makes me feel validated and happy about showing my true colors even though they are often dark or sad, that's who I am. I think showing the dark and sad helps me feel welcomed and together in what many go through, so that we can feel better about it. I don't show my sadness to wallow in it or to encourage it, atleast I don't mean to! My music may sound sad or bitter sometimes... often, but the goal is always to show that I can be better. To express how I've conquered those feelings and how I've turned them into strength and experience.
This song is about that doubt, that freedom, that bitterness that bubbles up inside like the feeling of choking when you need to cry but is released in a flood that leaves you nostalgic and... happy. Relieved, I think! I hope this song helps you find the strength within to make the music that you want to make for yourself. Regardless of what anyone says, if you enjoy it, that's what matters the most. I'll try to get there with ya~!
I chose this thumbnail because I think a butterfly on the nose is a similar situation here. Sometimes butterflies will choose you because of things you have done, and sometimes because of things you didn't mean to do. They may leave or avoid you for the same reasons. It's up to you to decide if you want to change yourself for butterflies, or change yourself for yourself. Butterflies may come regardless, so I choose to work on myself for me, to be my own butterfly too.
If yur wonderin' why this one is so short, it's because this is my submission for this year's Express Yourself Contest~!
And I know that.
Sometimes it ain't enough, and I own that.
And I'm sorry if I can't be enough for you.
Sometimes it ain't enough, and I know that.
Sometimes it ain't enough, and I own that.
And I'm sorry if I can't be enough.
If I can't be enough for you.
For you.
Details:
Heya everybuddy! This one's a bit more special than usual in terms of my stuff: I have battled a long battle with myself since I started posting here on FA so long ago. Before then my music was an escape for me, something I just played at home when I was upset, which was often. Though, when I got my first computer, I started to work on my own personal style. The instruments that I played at home impressed people but it wasn't me, it was piano and violin and other wonderful instruments. Just not me. And after so many years (10+) I am still so conflicted, not so sure of what my style is even. I'm in the middle of thinking that I can't even identify my own style because I like so many different things and express myself in so many ways. I like "classical" instruments but don't like "classical" music. I like edm but don't like it too abrasive, but also not too naively happy, and not just for the sake of dancing to a beat. I enjoy a combination of modern electronic and acoustic instruments, sound synthesis, vocals and classic all sorts of things. I guess I fall into a sort of "electronica" or "indie" style, rather open ended, or a mutt style haha. Anyway... my point is that I often doubt myself as to what I even like, and am sometimes influenced by what others may think of my music and therefore I change it in a way that makes it ingenuine to myself, regardless of how it is received. That's mostly what I did for a long portion of my early posts here, and is why I am so conflicted. Though... as of the last maybe two years I have been refining what I want and going about what I want for my music and it's very freeing. I think it's paid off, those are the songs that get the most attention, and it makes me feel validated and happy about showing my true colors even though they are often dark or sad, that's who I am. I think showing the dark and sad helps me feel welcomed and together in what many go through, so that we can feel better about it. I don't show my sadness to wallow in it or to encourage it, atleast I don't mean to! My music may sound sad or bitter sometimes... often, but the goal is always to show that I can be better. To express how I've conquered those feelings and how I've turned them into strength and experience.
This song is about that doubt, that freedom, that bitterness that bubbles up inside like the feeling of choking when you need to cry but is released in a flood that leaves you nostalgic and... happy. Relieved, I think! I hope this song helps you find the strength within to make the music that you want to make for yourself. Regardless of what anyone says, if you enjoy it, that's what matters the most. I'll try to get there with ya~!
I chose this thumbnail because I think a butterfly on the nose is a similar situation here. Sometimes butterflies will choose you because of things you have done, and sometimes because of things you didn't mean to do. They may leave or avoid you for the same reasons. It's up to you to decide if you want to change yourself for butterflies, or change yourself for yourself. Butterflies may come regardless, so I choose to work on myself for me, to be my own butterfly too.
If yur wonderin' why this one is so short, it's because this is my submission for this year's Express Yourself Contest~!
Category Music / Other Music
Species Unspecified / Any
Gender Any
Size 100 x 100px
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hell yeah it was, I was reminded as well of my dear friend, they went through something similar with the varying styles in art, its really nice looking back to those times
Also yeah, I really appreciate your acknowledgement of the sad and bitter times becoming something of strength and for betterment.
Well awesome then! I'm glad you could be reminded of a good friend and I'm happy that you enjoyed the song. I'm also honored that you appreciate the message behind it, these things take time as all and it's nice to hear about others who have gone through similar.
The song hurts now but I still carry the same sentiments, thank you for this work
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