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Leave our lives behind,
And watch the stars go out.
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music: Dubstar - Stars
I can't draw something fun and bright for myself like orders for my customers.
I'm just drowning in emptiness and the desire for death
Leave our lives behind,
And watch the stars go out.
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music: Dubstar - Stars
I can't draw something fun and bright for myself like orders for my customers.
I'm just drowning in emptiness and the desire for death
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It's hard to treat yourself with nice art, especially when the inner mood isn't as cheery and happy. Even so.. the amount of raw emotion you put into these personal pieces can be felt even at a glance, and that is the kind of art that sticks with people. We see the cute art, and the lewd art, but what we remember is the feelings these emotional pieces give us. I may just be a quiet lurker, but your art stuns me each time. I share it with friends. It's distinct, it's something I don't see every day. The amount of care you put into the facial expressions, the composition, the lighting, it's gorgeous, and I always love to see more.
Even if you're in a dark place of emptiness right now, I hope it'll be filled with stars and wonder in time. Please be safe, and know that a random internet stranger would miss you and your art.
Even if you're in a dark place of emptiness right now, I hope it'll be filled with stars and wonder in time. Please be safe, and know that a random internet stranger would miss you and your art.
I am very surprised that some people see my attitude to my drawings, because it's true. No matter how bad I feel, I try to overcome it so as not to draw orders in a bad mood and put all the care I can into them. Many people know me as an artist who draws really slow , but I can’t just take it and spit on the canvas to make it come out beautifully and with soul. It takes a lot of time and I'm not talking about the process of creation, I'm talking about the mood and my personal state.
s0rry f0r the cringe typing, my o key is br0ken s0 I have t0 use zer0s.
Y0ur pers0nal artw0rk is my fav 0ver y0ur bright c0mmissi0ns, m0stly because i feel like i am in a similar situati0n. I draw w0rk that my cust0mers like and what they ch0se t0 make themselves feel better, while my pers0nal art is always vent, always gl00my stuff 0r just s0mber and I always feel very guilty f0r 0nly ever drawing that f0r myself because "i bet my f0ll0wers are tired 0f this. I relate specially with the t0pic 0f wishing 0ne's 0wn death, which is s0mething i always imagine t00.
What I can say is drawing stuff like this is a mirr0r t0 y0ur s0ul, reflecti0n y0ur inner dem0ns, and its a type 0f s0luti0n t0 share them t0 the w0rld and perhaps in s0me future find the strength t0 battle them. Th0 als0, and this might s0und eg0istic, it is art like this that help 0ther pe0ple alike t0 me t0 relate and feel better that 0utthere theres 0thers wh0 can perhaps understand, and idk just feel a bit less al0ne?
BUT beautiful artw0rk, d0nt ever feel at guilt f0r p0sting it. I h0pe that y0u find less gl00my days, just like n0t everything has t0 be happy, n0t everything needs t0 be sad.
Y0ur pers0nal artw0rk is my fav 0ver y0ur bright c0mmissi0ns, m0stly because i feel like i am in a similar situati0n. I draw w0rk that my cust0mers like and what they ch0se t0 make themselves feel better, while my pers0nal art is always vent, always gl00my stuff 0r just s0mber and I always feel very guilty f0r 0nly ever drawing that f0r myself because "i bet my f0ll0wers are tired 0f this. I relate specially with the t0pic 0f wishing 0ne's 0wn death, which is s0mething i always imagine t00.
What I can say is drawing stuff like this is a mirr0r t0 y0ur s0ul, reflecti0n y0ur inner dem0ns, and its a type 0f s0luti0n t0 share them t0 the w0rld and perhaps in s0me future find the strength t0 battle them. Th0 als0, and this might s0und eg0istic, it is art like this that help 0ther pe0ple alike t0 me t0 relate and feel better that 0utthere theres 0thers wh0 can perhaps understand, and idk just feel a bit less al0ne?
BUT beautiful artw0rk, d0nt ever feel at guilt f0r p0sting it. I h0pe that y0u find less gl00my days, just like n0t everything has t0 be happy, n0t everything needs t0 be sad.
I am very grateful that you shared your thoughts on this. Also, I really understand what you're talking about.
However, I live in a society where such work is commonplace and for many people it can mean absolutely nothing.
It looks like : " Oh, you are broken? Well, everybody broken. nothing special"
I understand that I draw all these works only for myself. Just for myself and all.
And every time I'm surprised when someone reacts to them like you.
Thank you for your understanding. You have a very rich inner world if you feel the same through my pictures as I do.
However, I live in a society where such work is commonplace and for many people it can mean absolutely nothing.
It looks like : " Oh, you are broken? Well, everybody broken. nothing special"
I understand that I draw all these works only for myself. Just for myself and all.
And every time I'm surprised when someone reacts to them like you.
Thank you for your understanding. You have a very rich inner world if you feel the same through my pictures as I do.
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