Heeeee! I'm such a pretty bird! <3
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A pride piece done by Shinkei-Shinto that I'm finally, belatedly uploading!
Still feels a bit weird to say it, but for those who weren't aware... I'm trans. Hi.
Not openly, since I'm a timid ball of anxiety living in the American Midwest, which is part of why it feels a little weird to describe myself that way... but it does feel like the appropriate label?
Back in summer of 2020 I finally got around to making a 'sona for myself after lurking on the periphery of furry things for some years. I roughed out two ideas; a whitetail buck that shared all my interests and was just a stand-in with no character of his own, and a classical unicorn that was a sort of a fantasy setting self-insert... and then roughed out a reindeer doe, an inflatable ewe, and a Deerling to round out my potential cast.
Forward to that fall, and it turned out I connected with the doe that ended up becoming Lus a lot more than the whitetail or classical unicorn. I'd played as female characters in video games for a while because given a character creator and zero judgement, I wanted to kick ass in a full-length dress, and I owned a few full-length dresses already... but in hindsight, Lus was sort of an "Oh" moment.
Initially I sort of... didn't address it? Lus was a doe, the gender of the character's owner was just not discussed and not important, and online was a space I could try out being a girl without judgement or baggage? I'm pretty sure people close to me knew anyway.
I went with 'genderfluid' as a label for a while, before sorta... realizing that while I wasn't disgusted by my masc side, I didn't particularly enjoy it either? It was easy and it was... fine, I guess. From there, some more things sorta fell into place? Like that I never had any interest in doing anything with my hair, clothes shopping was always like pulling teeth (unless I was secretly buying something I couldn't be seen in), and I've felt like a bit of an outsider in some male-dominated spaces? And then I finally broke a long-running bad habit I'd been trying for a while to do with the realization it would be unladylike. And then the motivation that made my resolution to exercise more finally stick was wanting to have a good baseline of health going into a transition, if/when that were to happen.
So... uh... yeah. Lus the character is not canonically trans, Lus the person behind the character/represented by the character is trans, and the only part of this gender mess that doesn't feel right is that I'm not great at pulling off a cute doe IRL. Yet.
Go like and leave kind comments on the artist's upload here!
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A pride piece done by Shinkei-Shinto that I'm finally, belatedly uploading!
Still feels a bit weird to say it, but for those who weren't aware... I'm trans. Hi.
Not openly, since I'm a timid ball of anxiety living in the American Midwest, which is part of why it feels a little weird to describe myself that way... but it does feel like the appropriate label?
Back in summer of 2020 I finally got around to making a 'sona for myself after lurking on the periphery of furry things for some years. I roughed out two ideas; a whitetail buck that shared all my interests and was just a stand-in with no character of his own, and a classical unicorn that was a sort of a fantasy setting self-insert... and then roughed out a reindeer doe, an inflatable ewe, and a Deerling to round out my potential cast.
Forward to that fall, and it turned out I connected with the doe that ended up becoming Lus a lot more than the whitetail or classical unicorn. I'd played as female characters in video games for a while because given a character creator and zero judgement, I wanted to kick ass in a full-length dress, and I owned a few full-length dresses already... but in hindsight, Lus was sort of an "Oh" moment.
Initially I sort of... didn't address it? Lus was a doe, the gender of the character's owner was just not discussed and not important, and online was a space I could try out being a girl without judgement or baggage? I'm pretty sure people close to me knew anyway.
I went with 'genderfluid' as a label for a while, before sorta... realizing that while I wasn't disgusted by my masc side, I didn't particularly enjoy it either? It was easy and it was... fine, I guess. From there, some more things sorta fell into place? Like that I never had any interest in doing anything with my hair, clothes shopping was always like pulling teeth (unless I was secretly buying something I couldn't be seen in), and I've felt like a bit of an outsider in some male-dominated spaces? And then I finally broke a long-running bad habit I'd been trying for a while to do with the realization it would be unladylike. And then the motivation that made my resolution to exercise more finally stick was wanting to have a good baseline of health going into a transition, if/when that were to happen.
So... uh... yeah. Lus the character is not canonically trans, Lus the person behind the character/represented by the character is trans, and the only part of this gender mess that doesn't feel right is that I'm not great at pulling off a cute doe IRL. Yet.
Go like and leave kind comments on the artist's upload here!
Category Artwork (Digital) / General Furry Art
Species Peacock
Gender Trans (Female)
Size 1751 x 1940px
Precious peafowl! And oh, this is formal coming out?? CONGRATS Lus!!!!!!
...I'm not sure? I've definitely mentioned being trans before before, for sure in my AnthroCon journal as well as on social media, so I felt it was already publicly out there... but I've never really made a formal announcement or anything. Is it still a coming out if it's just online and everyone there already knows?
The real you is already more of a doe than you realize. You're super cute!!! >:0
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No matter where you end up or how long it takes, I'm so proud of how far you've come in finding yourself!
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No matter where you end up or how long it takes, I'm so proud of how far you've come in finding yourself!
Awww... You're too kind.
I can be cute, I just... being pre-transition I don't naturally look the part, and during moments when I'm battling work, anxiety, high temperatures (which I handle poorly), and/or physical health issues and am more focused on being either professional or comfortable (feels like a lot of those moments recently) it can sometimes kind of feel... awkward to refer to myself as a doe? Not because I'm suddenly against the idea of being a girl, but because it feels like I don't qualify at that moment.
I can be cute, I just... being pre-transition I don't naturally look the part, and during moments when I'm battling work, anxiety, high temperatures (which I handle poorly), and/or physical health issues and am more focused on being either professional or comfortable (feels like a lot of those moments recently) it can sometimes kind of feel... awkward to refer to myself as a doe? Not because I'm suddenly against the idea of being a girl, but because it feels like I don't qualify at that moment.
I understand. It's so hard to feel like your cute self when you can't see her in the mirror. 😔
You'll get there. I know it.
You'll get there. I know it.
*hugs* Super relatable! Just swap out cervines for candids and the self discovery journey ends up being very similar! X3
But give it time, you'll get to be that cute doe before long~ <3
But give it time, you'll get to be that cute doe before long~ <3
Aww… thanks. 2023 has been a bit of a physical and mental health mess though, so we’ll have to see what the timeline for things looks like.
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