okaaay so!!!!!!!!1 truly hoping you have great holidays meanwhile i wanna say something
it was a BIG year for me. like dark forest, dark and foggy, dark, foggy, you’re myopic, and your legs are about to drown cos it's a swamp instead of solid land
there were SO MANY events that i cannot believe all of them contained by ONE year, moving, depression, airplanes, ego’s death, concerts, i got my first tattoo, i tattooed one of my mates, a lotta new people, campfires, I CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN i don’t remember which one tho, NEARLY DIED OKAY, i saw bear tracks and mountain flowers, i lay in a hammock looking at the stars and thinking about my home village, how far away i am and the fire was burning down, i walked around small mountain towns and was taking pics as if it all was a cinema, got new 35mm film camera, just the perfect one — hard to resist. there was a lotta talking, a lotta thinking, a lotta stupid dark stuff in my head and relief as well, another one moving, not forced this time
i know i’m not a social person at all, i know clearly now i don’t need a social approval, it was years i wanted to be wished by other people, but it’s gone. i don’t need active life with a lotta mates and traveling, i know i’m autistic and i know where i’m supposed to be, i know who i never will be. i know i’m a good friend. i know i’m a good artist. i know i’m not THAT bad at words as i used to believe. i know i’m a honest person. i know i always do my best but even if it’s not always really needed, it’s still better to make a fair effort than not. i know i don’t need to prove it to anyone anymore just like you don’t need to prove me grass is green but it all in fact boils down to
nothing
it means nothing, my words mean nothing, it's a small spot in a big world
what is really important — the things we do, not things we are
the process of learning means something. the move itself, the life. i’m moving forward step by step, getting better and you bet i’ll never stop at it. there’s always a new sky to touch yk
year ago i was as lost as never
now — let’s be honest — still lost, cos it’s fuckingly long way, i truly believe tho, i’m at better state than ever. like you know there’s a long way ahead but you’re fine just cos you know what you’re gonna do
stay alive, i will
p.s. probably there are some unclear thoughts here and some typos cos i didn't really check this text out but it comes from my silly heart so i hope i'm acquitted. thanks for reading :)
it was a BIG year for me. like dark forest, dark and foggy, dark, foggy, you’re myopic, and your legs are about to drown cos it's a swamp instead of solid land
there were SO MANY events that i cannot believe all of them contained by ONE year, moving, depression, airplanes, ego’s death, concerts, i got my first tattoo, i tattooed one of my mates, a lotta new people, campfires, I CLIMBED A MOUNTAIN i don’t remember which one tho, NEARLY DIED OKAY, i saw bear tracks and mountain flowers, i lay in a hammock looking at the stars and thinking about my home village, how far away i am and the fire was burning down, i walked around small mountain towns and was taking pics as if it all was a cinema, got new 35mm film camera, just the perfect one — hard to resist. there was a lotta talking, a lotta thinking, a lotta stupid dark stuff in my head and relief as well, another one moving, not forced this time
i know i’m not a social person at all, i know clearly now i don’t need a social approval, it was years i wanted to be wished by other people, but it’s gone. i don’t need active life with a lotta mates and traveling, i know i’m autistic and i know where i’m supposed to be, i know who i never will be. i know i’m a good friend. i know i’m a good artist. i know i’m not THAT bad at words as i used to believe. i know i’m a honest person. i know i always do my best but even if it’s not always really needed, it’s still better to make a fair effort than not. i know i don’t need to prove it to anyone anymore just like you don’t need to prove me grass is green but it all in fact boils down to
nothing
it means nothing, my words mean nothing, it's a small spot in a big world
what is really important — the things we do, not things we are
the process of learning means something. the move itself, the life. i’m moving forward step by step, getting better and you bet i’ll never stop at it. there’s always a new sky to touch yk
year ago i was as lost as never
now — let’s be honest — still lost, cos it’s fuckingly long way, i truly believe tho, i’m at better state than ever. like you know there’s a long way ahead but you’re fine just cos you know what you’re gonna do
stay alive, i will
p.s. probably there are some unclear thoughts here and some typos cos i didn't really check this text out but it comes from my silly heart so i hope i'm acquitted. thanks for reading :)
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Happy to hear things are looking up for you! To the future and better years to come, happy new year ^w^
Happy New Year! Best wishes for 2024 and beyond, hope things just keep getting better for you from here.
Beautifully atmospheric piece by the way, love the angle and lighting.
Beautifully atmospheric piece by the way, love the angle and lighting.
I usually not paying much attention to text here , because people are not used to share thoughts with others as honest as they can and putting borders with standard sentences (That’s not bad, I just used to see the same looking descriptions, they are cute and charming at their own way!), but this time I spent some time in bed to read that huge text and followed into it because I felt the same way and was extremely sad. Hope you will feel lightness this year, while adaptation and all those new things for you🥺
It is great that you experienced much and know what causes your comfortable condition, you’re brave, I hope I could climb up on the mounts too)
Sorry for mistakes, my English is still improving ☺️
It is great that you experienced much and know what causes your comfortable condition, you’re brave, I hope I could climb up on the mounts too)
Sorry for mistakes, my English is still improving ☺️
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