A little hope, a young spirit. Chapter 1: a troubled childhood.


I toss and turn as I sleep within my bed fit for a 20-year-old, I moan and groan as my eyes tighten, and I've begun to wave my hand paws. For I'm was dreaming of a specific part of my childhood that I'd rather forget than remember, for I've never had a good one to say the least about my past. I'm dreaming of two figures arguing and fighting, and then one of them was leaving out the front door, and then the other one was abandoning me within an alleyway.

Who were these two figures I'm dreaming about? Well, they were my mom and dad, well, my real mom and dad anyway, in this stream is a memory of what happened to me many years ago when I was three years old. Because all my real parents ever did was argue and fight.


I've even seen my father scratch my mom's face once. That moment traumatized me in fear as I hid behind the kitchen door hoping my parents did not notice me… I couldn't feel safe at home. My real parents fighting and arguing traumatized me, every night was filled with trembling and fear.


And every day was full of pain and suffering. My real mom would go to an overwork job to pay off the bills, while my father did nothing but sit in his living room chair and read his newspaper. He would not interact or even talk to me at all during the day.


Even when occasionally I tried to reunite them, he didn't give one care about me, not even if I've got hurt… as for my mom.


Well, one night, after some more arguing, I was in bed when I woke up feeling a bit thirsty. So I pulled off my blanket, got out of bed, then went downstairs to get a drink of water… when I heard a door open.  Turning to the direction of where I've heard the door, my expression becomes surprised, as I found my real mom holding her briefcase and putting her coat on.


I've asked her what was she doing up so late, and if she was going somewhere... but instead of just answering my question, she just placed her right hand paw on my right shoulder, told me to keep being a good girl pup, turned away from me and just walked out the front door.

My eyes welled up with tears for what I've just witnessed, my mom had just left without a second thought… of me.


Then one day after a week when my mom left, dad called me to get into the car. He also asked me to pack my suitcase because he was taking me somewhere. Remembering, my mom wanted me to keep being a good girl.


I obeyed as I'd packed my suitcase, with everything I needed. walked out the house and got in the car... after a long drive within the car, dad parked in a parking lot, turn the cars engine off got out the front of the car, he walked to the back to let me out as well.


As I get out of the car I'd tighten my grip on my suitcase before I've noticed we were in an unpleasant part of town, I'd hesitated to ask him why we were here but his angry look frightened me too much to say a single word.


Walking ahead of me as he walked into a alleyway dad say for me to follow, I obeyed once more as I'm still remembered my mom wanting me to be a good girl pup.


Me and dad walked into the old alleyway, where we saw two full trash cans and an old rusty broken car. I've begin to Quiver and shiver, as I'd started to fearfully wonder why my dad brought me out here.


So I've gathered up my courage, and asked why he brought me out here, can't we just go home? Father remain silent he turned to face me with an Stern looking his eyes. He then just turned away and start walking out of the alley I'd attempt to follow him, but he just let out loud growl at me which frightened me back off.


Dad began to speak in an angry frustrated voice telling me that I was no longer welcoming his house I've have been kicked out. My heart skips a beat as i've listened ti my dad.


He told me I'll never be his daughter and that mom was wrong to have me, he went on and on about all the things we've been through and I've turned three. With all that said I've felt my heart breaking as I fall to my knees get out a few soft whimpers and then start crying to myself.


But Dad just scared me with a look of Disapproval, he turned away from me again and walked away... out of the alleyway. I tried a force a smile upon my face, and waited patiently for him to turn around and come get me for I've hoped he was joking.


But I'd the improving wrong as I heard my start the car and drive away and that's when I'd known I've been abandoned. I teared up once more I curled up into a bowl and cried my eyes out, until I couldn't cry anymore.


I got hold of myself got up on my feet pause and walked straight out of the alley hoping to find a house I could live in, of course with all the bad people living here none of them will let me in. Just When I Was about to give up.


I'd found a big building with a huge shine that said orphanage on it, knowing I'm never going to be allowed home, I walked up to the front door and knocked on it and wait sadly eager to get in.


I waited and waited until I heard the lock of the door unlock and the door open slightly to show a fur woman willing to let me in.


You'd probably think things would have got better in the orphanage, but no they weren't They better than living with my real parents, for all the other orphaned furs made fun of me, teased me even pushed me around, telling me I'll never be adopted because I was worthless no one would ever care for me just like how my dad told me stuff like that.


Sometimes I'd even tried to get the orphanage workers to convince them otherwise, but they're always too busy.


And even when orphanage workers tried to convince the other kid fur otherwise. None of the Orphaned kid furs would ever listened to them.


And every time on an adoption day the other Orphaned furs would tell the parents that try to adopt me that I'm nothing… I'm a worthless puppy… I'll won't belong to anyone and that I'm a waste of life just like my dad said.

But worst of all, because the orphanage workers were too busy with all the other kids furs coming and going, I'd had to learn to potty training myself, which at first didn't turn out very well since I was only three.


But overtime I've started to get better. At the age of 7, I was finally in training pants and was ready to learn how to use the potty properly.


I've still been going to school even as an orphan, but that was way worse for it was the same as the orphanage, everyone teasing me for being abandoned at the age of three, and some of the more even making fun of me for not being potty-trained already… it broke my heart to the point where I'd would cry to myself about it.


Until one day that changed when I've met nick , a loyal brown, light tan and white fured deer buck, to help me overcome my Sadness and my fears of being left having no friends at school and the orphanage, he asked me not to let them get to me. And I should focus on what's happening right now. Your life is going to get better soon enough, he told me and I knew… he was right.


Because as soon as I've turned 11 I'd finally potty-trained myself all by myself, the orphanage workers were proud of me for being potty-trained now which meant I'd can finally wear big girls pants and not diapers anymore because they just remind me of me being free and my parents and things got better as well.


Then a few days later, I've met two loving women furs. That were willing to adopt me they were two loving mothers, and they adopted me because they liked that I was special even after I told them my life story and how bad my life had been… so far.



They felt sorry for me, for they never heard of such a heartless for abandoning their own child in an alleyway. So without a second fault the two mothers signed the papers and adopted me and I couldn't be happier for I knew my life it's about to get better or so I fought.

See even after I've potty trained myself every year on the exact day my real dad abandoned me I always end up wetting the bed, my two new adopted mothers try to help me get through these kind of things for they didn't really mind if I had an accident or not for they knew it was only on their specific day.



In my sleep my eyes teared up seeing these memories, I moan to myself in my sleep, sometimes I wish I could have a second childhood, but I know that is impossible. But what I didn't know is that something about that was about to change… FOREVER


BEEP…  BEEP…  BEEP…  BEEP…  BEEP… I hear my digital alarm clock ringing its usual beep, on the bedside table next to me. Slowly I awaken and see streams of light piercing through the blinds of my window and across my room. I reach my hand paw out to the bedside table and press the snooze button on my alarm clock, soft groaning as I rub my eyes awake.


Okay… okay I'm awake. With my alarm clock turned off, I sit myself up on my bed, then stretch my arm paws and let out a big yawn.

M my face then saddens, as my mind thinks, of my dream. That dream again… it gets worse every time I see it. I look down in depression, thinking about my real mom who left out of anger, and my real dad who abandoned me in an alleyway, all those years ago.


Even when I turned 20 last month, my mind still thinks back to my troubled childhood, my eyes tear up as my mind races. I can't believe he didn't want me after she left! Did I mean nothing to him? Was what he said about me true was I a waste of Good Life? My eyes tear up from all those thoughts rushing in all at once in my mind.


Sniffling to myself as I tried to hold back my sad thoughts and tears, from the memories of those dreams, smiled at The Fort of those memories by then sad and again I to remembering all those hard times they had on my childhood


My mind pauses for a moment, I've noticed an odd sensation despite the warmth of my blanket, I noticed that my underside is kind of damp.


OH NO! Not again. In a panic I'd jump out of bed I then quickly run over to the wall and switch on the lights. Now with better lighting I run back to my bed... pulled back the sheets only to verify my worst fears, for what I saw right in the middle of my bed was a big wet spot.


I let out a sigh, yep... as usual because of that dream... I wet the bed... again. As mentioned before I wet the bed every single year on the exact day where my real das abandoned me. A wave of emotions goes over me as Tears start to form in my eyes I tried to hold it back but with no use. I fall to my knees, as my eyes tear up once more, I allow a few sniffles before quietly crying to myself...


Why is it so hard to move forward? Your life got better now, you don't have to worry about those bad things anymore your mother left you with Dad and then he abandoned you in an alleyway where you had to find an orphanage to go home for a while. Until you met your two new mothers


As a quietly cried to myself I don't notice the door of my room opening, and in come one of my two moms. carrie purrlynn, a very motherly Albino cat who was one of my two mothers adopted me, she was the best mother I ever had. She lived and cared about me no matter what happened to me, she would always be there for me when I feel scared or alone.


She worked in a daycare, as a caretaker because she was so moverly it made a perfect job for her one where she can put her motherly skills to good use, some days she would come home and explain her day-to-day routine with me and her wife, how she had always feed little ones make sure they're all safe even have to change all their diapers. but she didn't mind not... one bit.


Wearing usual purple blouse skirt daycare apron, she noticed me on the floor crying to myself she gets a concern to look on her face, "Caitlin? Are you... okay?" She asked me, I turned to face her and she notices the tears in my eyes then she looked up my bed and saw the Wet Spot On It.


"oh... did you have that Dream again?" She asked concerned again normally I wouldn't really answer but because I was so sad I just give a simple nod as Tears still ran down my face.


carrie's motherly Instincts kicked in and she immediately walked over to me a raptor arms around my body to give me a big hug as I cried into her chest. "Kate sweetie it's okay. It's just a bad dream remember?" She said to me and she started rubbing my head trying to help me relax and calm down.


I did know it was just a dream but it was a dream of what happened to me as a child and I couldn't figure out what to do about it I can't exactly change the past sometimes I wish I could just turn back time but I know that it's just impossible there's no way I could do that... right?


As I continue to cry in her chest mom Lydia spoke again "Caitlin, it's okay it was all just a bad dream I know your life was so hard when you breed little but if it wasn't would you have still met me or... my wife... or your new friend?" Mom carrie's question caught me off guard.


As I grow up before turning 20, as I already mentioned in Primary School I met my handy best friend Nick, he was pretty smart for his age and always willing to lend a helping hand, when we first met I was being bullied by the other students my age for not being potty trained yet, and being abandoned by my own father.


So Nick came up and stood up for me protecting me from all the other furs, who dare teased or made fun of me for it, and we've been best friends ever since he was very smart sometimes you would find him in the library studying a lot of books I got interested in that and studied along with him I was just as smart as he was.


One time after being adopted I've found him in the arcade, he claimed he had finished all his homework and decided to take a little break through the arcade his favorite greens were all the racing games.

That's when I started to discover I may have been a bit of a tomboy for I didn't really like girly things very much dollies fairies princesses they don't really... approve to me.

I'm more into cars dinosaurs choo choo trains superheroes all that kind of stuff and Nick helped me embrace that because every so often, we would go to the arcade and challenge each other to some games most of the time I would end up winning and most of the time he would win but we really didn't mind as long as we had fun. And even to this day me and him still go to the arcade sometimes for we have been friends since for today we first met.


And then when I was adopted and got into high school I met my two other friends alec and Stephanie, alec is a dark brown light brown German Shepherd. We first met him when me and Nick we're leaving school and heading home.


I invited Nick to my house for a little bit of a study session and for a bit of a round of gaming, when we notice a crowd of furs big and small It looked like some kind of commotion was going on. Me and Nick wondered was going on was there some sort of Fight going, we try to ignore the crowd and just head straight home but our curiosity got the better of Us


Not wasting any time, me and nick went over to see what the commotion was all about. We thought it was a fight, but it actually wasn't. It could be called a battle. But it wasn't like a 'fight' battle. In the center of the crowd were a tiger in a black hoodie with the hood up and baggy jeans and our soon to be friend alec wearing a red hoodie, a grey cap, and black jeans. There was also a boombox.


It was certainly different from the fight we were expecting it looked a little more like a dance off.


Both furs start the music and broke down into break dancing, everyone was cheering for the tiger for who was called the black Blur, alec did some handstands some flips even some spins on his head. The black Blur tried his best to keep up but there was no use as he was out of breath and collapsed onto the ground.


The crowd cheered and clapped for Alec even me an Nick did as well, tune everyone packed up their things and left and Alec got off the ground and we went and greeted him saying he was so cool out there, he thanked us and from that moment on we found out we had lots in common he liked it video games just as much as me and Nick did and we also found out once we got to know him a lot better


he wanted to be a singer one day we found that out when we heard him singing in the shower he had such a beautiful voice, so nowadays when I turned 20 you would mostly see him like somewhere in in town singing in front of a camera with Nick recording for pawdTube music videos. It wasn't just for views online it was also to help his parents earned some money in a way his family were a bit poor to say the least and he wanted to help out and therefore we declared to help him out as well hoping that he could earn enough money so he can get into college over time he did and we got enough money for him and his parents to afford College.

Nick and Alec still do pawTube music videos every now and then. as they find it quite fun to be to be with each other... if you ask me I'm beginning to think they developed some feelings for each other as they seem to be flustered a lot when they go around one another.


Which is really weird because I was sure Alec would be looking for a girlfriend since we found out he was also a lady's man but no I guess I was wrong sometimes I would hear him try to Hint to Nick if he liked him or not lick maybe smart but he didn't really get the idea yet but he hopes Someday he would.


As for Nick well I kind of found out he liked him since we first met him since I noticed he started blushing and looking at Alec really weirdly almost like he was in a loving trance, Nick would often try and see if he can get Alec to hang out with him every so often but he's quite happy just taking it slow and music videos with him until one day he'll finally confessed his feelings to him... when he's ready.


Next in high school I met Stephanie, during gym class, I wasn't really good at Sports at first until I met Stephanie a light brown and and white furred spaniel dog, the sport we were doing was basketball it was the game where you had to like try to throw an orange ball into a hoop.

As obvious I was never good at the first time, but that soon changed when I met Stephanie she was natural at the game never missed one hoop she was kind of like Michael pawdan. We became friends over our love for sports and because she was a tomboy as well like me she didn't really much care for girly things she was more into the voice side of things.


Like video games monster trucks cars. You name it she likes it but what really made us became friends was because of her tragedy as well you see after the game of basketball me and her decide to go home but she said she had to prepare for a funeral.


For her mother had just died two months ago, and I can tell she was obviously in a deep depression because of it. No one else would attend to the funeral with her so I decided to go with her to say goodbye to her mother her father was never really much around for her but I kind of knew what it was like I told her about my harsh and and that my dad left me an alleyway when I was three.


She kind of felt sorrow for me but we were kind of the same in a way but I'm pretty sure she was glad for me to be there in her hour of need


Then came to college me and the others all went to separate colleges. I'd was a bit sad that we all have to go to it separate College, but I knew we would all still be friends even in separate colleges.


And in my classroom I met my final friend a weird but super sweet and a bit pudgy blonde furrd bear, named Holly. Mean her met during art class and we were told to paint something from our past what we'd liked best and I decided to paint my favorite tv show after my new mothers adopted me I watched a very special show that was mostly aimed for younger furs.


It was called choo choo Geoffrey, the show was about talking trains with faces getting into mischief quite a lot, the main character was Jeffrey himself a big red steam engine who can be a bit mischievous at times but he does get the job done, and learn available lesson as well. During the lesson I decided to paint Geoffrey since he was the main character of the show and he was my favorite out of all the other engines.


When I done my picture I soon notice Holly herself was painting Geoffrey just like me, that's the way I knew me and her both loved the show i've asked her if me and friends can come over to her house one Saturday.... she said yes.


During the visit to her house me my friends kind of notice she was a bit of a scatterbrain and a bit of a happy going bear for one moment she would be timid the next he would be all... ditzy


For example after we came to our house and showing us her collection of choochoo Jeffrey toys and collectibles. She tripped and fell and lost her rectangular glasses she was wearing, she shouted out EEEEKKKK then got all flustered and looked left and right for them.


we offered to help how to look for them, we all got on all fours and helped look around the floor. But in the end Holly spotted them not to far from where we were and looked happy. She picked them up from the ground. She then stated to us that her vision's not totally bad, but it's 100% with these on. Her Mom always said 'Why go for less when you can go for 100. At statement made us all raised in eyebrow as we thought she  was... unusual. As mentioned before 1 second she would be timid the next he would be ditzy.


She took a look at her glasses and noticed that they weren't cracked. She stated that They're not broken. And That would have been baaaaaad. After wiping them clean, she then put them on and thanked us for helping her find them. We all welcome to her but we were still a little bit weirded out.


When I asked her why she liked choochoo Jeffrey so much, she got in a cheery matter, an excitedly told us to come to her room to show as her collection of choochoo Jeffrey toys plushies collectibles anything that was related to Jeffrey.


She even went on to explain that no one ever noticedes her at school, she replied because no one likes to show she watches and even when some of them do notice her she gets bullied a lot because of liking a child's TV show, she stated You would think since. Even though some furs don't act grown up they would still like childish things. But no they have to go and still acts like a grown up, even though they still like or have things from their childhood which is a perfectly normal part of life. Holly started to sound infuriated. "I mean just because I'm a College student, doesn't mean, I have to give up on my childish things, you you can still keep them and give them to others to make happy! And you don't always have to laugh at me because of it EVERYTIME I COME AROUND! I MEAN, COME ON!"


Me and the others had 'freaked out' expressions on their faces and took a step back from holly. She realized this and cools down a bit.

After taking a deep breath, she started to sound calmer. She apologised to to all of us, After some awkward silence from us and Holly, I've decided we should all get some slushies Nick Alec and Stephanie all fought that was a good idea as they liked the refreshing flavors of slushies.


Holly was trying to hold in her joy, saying that she is forever grateful for that and ran straight ahead of us, as holly ran more and more ahead of us we all started to feel more... concern on whether it was a good idea to let her join us.



After minutes later, we got our slushies and drank them outside of the store. me Nick Alec and Stephanie only got one flavor... Holly on the other paw got 6 different layers of colors. Red, blue, green, orange, white, and purple. Holly drinked up her slushie, really quickly and was already getting brain freeze.


Holly holded her throbbing head has it hurted from the brain freeze. After the throbbing stopped, she just went back to sipping again. Once again, she got brain freeze.

Nick suggested for her to slow down witch will her help not get brain freeze, but she said back to him that she liked the feeling, she  stated that it's like when you have really spicy food? You like it cause it makes you feel alive.


I of course got that the others... not so much, after finishing our slushy drinks, the oldest side it was time for us to all go home but before we did Holly talk to us and asked. You think I'm weird don't you?


We all tried to deny this but Holly was too smart and she knew all too well that we all thought she was weird, of course we didn't really mind it after all we fought she was pretty unique, and we didn't mind if she was weird or not we liked her just the way she was.


This made Holly very happy that she finally made some friends, I think that's why I found the myself comfortable around her cuz we've both been through similar problems in our lives mine with my childhood and holly with her adult Hood.


Do You Want to Know a Secret? After the quick times when I started hanging around with her a lot, and even though I'm still confused about it... I kind of... maybe started gining some feelings of affection for her, I've never been attached to someone like before, I'm even more surprised that is for another girl.


I've first found out I had these feelings when Holly came into college, one day with a bloody nose I took her to the bathroom to get a tissue to help with it. As I held the tissue on turn nose I've started flustered around her with her beautiful face and her pretty hair, so as I'd cleaned up her nose and face I said without thinking, "you should be more careful with your... pretty face." I've said that quietly but still loud enough for Holly to hear and when she did she had a shocked expression on her face.


Realizing what I've just said, I drop the tissue and cover my muzzle in shock as well, I was so embarrassed I said that and right in front of her so without a second thought I ran out the bathroom. A few days after that Holly acted like it didn't happen she was flattered at least which means she didn't know I had feelings for her yet.


I've been meaning to try and hint at it and ask if you liked me as well but after that embarrassing moment I couldn't find myself to mention it again. Sigh, Holly, someday I'm gonna tell you these feelings, maybe next this year or next year.


As I was going through those happy moments of my life in my mind I didn't notice I mentioned that last part out in front of my mom carrie, who smiled with a sly look on her face. "thinking about your true love again sweetie?" Mom asked.


I've always tried to keep my love for hollu a secret from them. But it seems like it was pointless now. Yet, I'd still want to try and hide tha like any other kind of far would "I... I don't know what you're..." I've said. stammering a bit.

"Kate, stop." Carrie said halting me. "Remember what I told you. Even when you think a mother knows, a mother knows."


Yeah I knew we was only a maritime until ever one of my adopted mothers found out about it, more specifically carrie herself, giant hide a secret from her anyway. For as I was growing up I've kept many secrets to myself and yet somehow like she's mentioned as a mother she always knows.


I blush to myself knowing her mother's Instincts were always correct, "that's not just that sweetie your life got better and now you don't have to live in such hard times anymore mom carrie said to me as motherly as she patted my black bob cut styled black colored hair fur.


She- she's right your life did get better Caitlin and now it's time to focus on the positives not the negatives. so with that I smiled happier than I ever was before and gave my adopted mother cat a big hug. She hugged me back a we giggled to ourselves.


Ending the hug looks into my eyes, "Caitlin sweetie, didn't you promise mother Nelly, That you and your friends were going to help, with the big unveiling of her new archaeological find at the museum today?" She asked me with a sly look as she raised an eyebrow.


My eyes open widen in shock for I found out I've been home this whole time I looked to my alarm clock, and found out that nearly a whole hours been by. Mother Nelly worked as an archaeologist for a museum and she found something truly amazing.


Know it was gonna cover up a lot of guests in the museum she asked me my friends to help out with it and now realizing I was late, I gasped as i get up on my feet pause and run straight out of my room, "thanks for reminding me mom!" I'd shout out in a hurry, as I left my room to go get breakfast and get dressed as quick as I can.


END OF CHAPTER!