I know the feeling... Mind is fading while something keeps infesting your own thoughts, never letting find peace or calm for even a moment... While the body dissolves or attacks itself trying to get rid of something... A threat? a parasite? itself? Regardless of what it is, body just seeks to destroy itself... To find peace from the torment that plagues it...

For attacks/seizures its probably just a result of nervous breakdown due to stress overload. Still worth checking in with doctors just in case. Can only wish you luck with your situation. And if possible to try avoid as many stressors as possible. Some things can wait for a day longer so you could look after yourself instead.

Hugs to you

As for the attacks/seizures, I do finally have a diagnosis for the condition. It's just that it progresses in ways that surprize me and make me go through coping all over again xd But you are right, it's greatly influenced by stress. Sadly usually it's the conditions around us that stress us out. Can't really get rid of that. Thought I'm trying my best

Wow, I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you're able to lose some of the stressors that have been plaguing you, and that your condition improves. It really is crazy what afflictions emerge as symptoms of stress. During particular stressful periods of my life, it felt like I was playing roulette with what seemingly random symptoms I would experience next, although in hindsight it seems it was moreso of conditions I already had, but the stress made them flare up in ways I previously did not experience. Best of luck to you in managing everything moving forward, and hopefully your burdens will be eased.
And of course, amazing art as usual!

Thank you, hope that everything in your life goes well and those things won't bother you in the future