A bit of vent art I drew a bit ago. Anxiety is all too common with autistics. For some people it can be crippling, disabling. It all leads you to feeling broken and unwanted, like something is "wrong" just because you're different.
As my therapist said (paraphrased): "What's wrong with being different? I would much rather be different and unique than to follow the crowd and be a majority."
March to the beat of your own drum.
Art © Sila
As my therapist said (paraphrased): "What's wrong with being different? I would much rather be different and unique than to follow the crowd and be a majority."
March to the beat of your own drum.
Art © Sila
Category Artwork (Traditional) / Human
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Gender Female
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I relate to this so well you wouldn't believe, the hardship of being different was excrutiating at times when I was a kid... as of today I sometimes get moments when I don't think I belong on this cruel world, how come human nature hates difference so much? ='(
I say DOWN with the scourge of "Big-brother normality" - it hampers the true creative drive, that primal instinctual urge inside us all; that incessant itch that needs scratching every now and then via creative output to inspire true, genuine compassion in the eyes of others by performing courageous and frightening deeds...
Oh yes, bad times were had in the past no doubt - but consider these spiteful memories like doors with crooked hinges that refuse to shut... sometimes even the worst doorways must simply be walked away from, ignored as willfully as possible before returning to the same cycle of being
prone to anxiety attacks, both severe and mild. We just... put up with them in our own ways. Lord knows, I have my methods. Had my methods... in a way, still do. Perhaps. ;3
Oh yes, bad times were had in the past no doubt - but consider these spiteful memories like doors with crooked hinges that refuse to shut... sometimes even the worst doorways must simply be walked away from, ignored as willfully as possible before returning to the same cycle of being
(labeled as a syndromecontagion to society oh how cruel the world to cast a wicked curse oh so)
prone to anxiety attacks, both severe and mild. We just... put up with them in our own ways. Lord knows, I have my methods. Had my methods... in a way, still do. Perhaps. ;3
I have a few friends with autism, and I have a little idea of how hard it is living with it. If you are reading this and have ever felt like you weren't as good as somebody who was 'normal', I want you to know that being different is something to be proud of :3 You are amazing. You are perfect just the way you are. Sometimes I really look up to my friends with autism, because they are some of the most generous, kind, and fun people I know. Never let other people put you down for being 'different', because the only person that is tough enough to be you is you. Keep being different! And love who you are
Im autistic and im jealous of other people can have a 'healthy' normal life.
It's such a struggle to just be happy with self and world at large. High-Functioning Autistic here. Thanks for the kind words, Nimex.
I was upset for days after being silenced by an artist here on FA. I really do my very best to be polite and inoffensive, yet this is the second time that's happened. I wonder if people will be pissed at me for making this posting.
The best years of my life were spent with another gentle autistic person. I believe ASDs should live together. I wish I could find more like myself interested in starting some kind of community.
Autistic people should not try to force themselves into the neurotypical mold. I've had a long life of being freely judged by neurotypical people, despised by neurotypical people, singled out and bullied by groups of neurotypical people, and now I just want to be far away from them forever.
The best years of my life were spent with another gentle autistic person. I believe ASDs should live together. I wish I could find more like myself interested in starting some kind of community.
Autistic people should not try to force themselves into the neurotypical mold. I've had a long life of being freely judged by neurotypical people, despised by neurotypical people, singled out and bullied by groups of neurotypical people, and now I just want to be far away from them forever.
I think together we can find a new way of cooperating. We must stop holding each other to neurotypical standards. A culture of complete honesty can work. It has never been tried.
Moral standards? I've not known many aspies, but the few I have known are entirely honest, gentle people. Why do you say we aren't moral enough?
As for abilities, I can do just about anything, and I can do it well. I can even get along with polite people. All I can't do is deal with people who communicate with grunts, squeaks, eyebrow flashes and genital brandishing, and are immediately mistrustful of those who don't. Just 99% of the populace.
I am confident that I could live with others like myself. I have lived with an aspie and it went well.
As for abilities, I can do just about anything, and I can do it well. I can even get along with polite people. All I can't do is deal with people who communicate with grunts, squeaks, eyebrow flashes and genital brandishing, and are immediately mistrustful of those who don't. Just 99% of the populace.
I am confident that I could live with others like myself. I have lived with an aspie and it went well.
I happen to be one with Asperger's myself, and I have my own set of morals to live up to. Sometimes they prevent me from stepping outside my comfort zone because I am afraid to do anything I view as wrong.
Stand up for your morals. If you can defend them, then they are not wrong. If you can't, then you learn and move on. Just be wary of those you argue with. Some will lie.
My morals have held me back terribly; so it is for all genuinely principled people. Not being able to function in this society is no indication of mental illness.
My morals have held me back terribly; so it is for all genuinely principled people. Not being able to function in this society is no indication of mental illness.
Then I'm lucky I'm defined as the high-functioning type; although I have never been diagnosed with it, I have reason to believe that I'm at a mild level of Asperger's syndrome, but it has to be that, because I used to really be sensitive to loud noises in the form of the school fire alarm (which always had a volume problem) and loud talking of people (especially if the kids were behaving very badly towards a substitute teacher).
Story of my life in this simple picture. Not a soul around me in real life understands Aspergers, not even the doctors I visit. I am surrounded by nothing but the ignorant. I have never received proper help for it.
It is effecting my life. It's ruining my life in fact...well, actually it already has. But judging by your reply, I guess even you won't understand. So just leave me alone....
Some people do need help outside of just not fitting in. Personally, I am actually disabled by the combination of autism, PTSD, Anxiety and sensory processing disorder.
I am unable to drive, walk straight on uneven surfaces, or judge distances to prevent injuries (such as stepping INTO a hole instead of over it). That's all part of the visual processing that fails to work right.
My anxiety leads me to dissociate and shutdown when I hit a certain level of anxiety, often in public places. I'm unable to leave an aisle in a store if I shut down, or find my way to an exit. If a fire alarm goes off, I freeze and can't move- which poses a danger to myself and others.
The sensory issues result in me being hypersensitive to everything around me (complicated with hyper-vigilance from PTSD), which then results in either shutting down completely for hours on end over just a simple outing to the store, or melting down.
I could go on a lot more but I think it's suffice to say some people really do need help to manage the world they're given to live in. I know I do.
Anxiety takes form in so many different ways. Some milder (like stage fright) some so severe that a person can't even get out of bed or leave the house without panicking.
I am unable to drive, walk straight on uneven surfaces, or judge distances to prevent injuries (such as stepping INTO a hole instead of over it). That's all part of the visual processing that fails to work right.
My anxiety leads me to dissociate and shutdown when I hit a certain level of anxiety, often in public places. I'm unable to leave an aisle in a store if I shut down, or find my way to an exit. If a fire alarm goes off, I freeze and can't move- which poses a danger to myself and others.
The sensory issues result in me being hypersensitive to everything around me (complicated with hyper-vigilance from PTSD), which then results in either shutting down completely for hours on end over just a simple outing to the store, or melting down.
I could go on a lot more but I think it's suffice to say some people really do need help to manage the world they're given to live in. I know I do.
Anxiety takes form in so many different ways. Some milder (like stage fright) some so severe that a person can't even get out of bed or leave the house without panicking.
Too lazy to sign into the group account so I'll just reply here.
I wouldn't say I'm typical no, but then again who is typical? If they're autistic then they're likely atypical to begin with. As the saying goes, "If you've met one person with autism, you've met one person."
I don't accuse anyone of anything. I don't even know what the 'No true Scotsman" thing even is. Lol. I'm just putting out a different viewpoint.
I wouldn't say I'm typical no, but then again who is typical? If they're autistic then they're likely atypical to begin with. As the saying goes, "If you've met one person with autism, you've met one person."
I don't accuse anyone of anything. I don't even know what the 'No true Scotsman" thing even is. Lol. I'm just putting out a different viewpoint.
there is no such thing as normal now a days it just a word.
I had some questions for my therapist. I asked him if there was something wrong with me? He said "No, you're a veru unique person." I hope that helps. I also faved this so people will find this website.
I had been seing him a few years. I was worried about certain thoughts I had. He told me not to worry.
In my case in wasn't quite this bad but I have experienced some of it, including the depression but not from my struggles to fit into "normality". although looking back I don't actually remember what caused it. anyways, now at 22 I'm mostly able to cope but it is still a struggle, it's just not as debilitating as when I was younger. funny thing is my Dad was diagnosed at the same time I was when I was in 4th grade. up until that point he didn't know why he had such problems.
take it a step at a time, we're all here playing this same game (life) in our own way and our own pace... a weakness aint something to cry about, it's something to to look into so it won't drag you down. we're all in this and i was the same myself, just take a deep breath and take a firts step, i it'll help this is a song that usually gets me moving even when i'm down
March on - Good Charlotte
http://youtu.be/03q1heLJ-bc
March on - Good Charlotte
http://youtu.be/03q1heLJ-bc
I like being special in a way it makes me feel like I'm a somebody and I have been through qbuse twice and bullies bunch of non understanding jerks thts wht they r but they r just hurting on the inside and wanting a friend
March to the beat of your own drum.
Those are the very words I would've used myself.
Those are the very words I would've used myself.
Sometimes I really feel like an autistic puzzle. Tonight is one of those nights. I just get ignored for long periods of time by people very close to me. I talk and either get talked over, no response, or one word answers then silence. Being the puzzle I am I can't tell if it's me, them, or something else entirely. I feel empty and alone.
At the same time I feel terrible because I all but abandoned people who were actually nice to me for the people I "hang out with" now and feel terrible about it.
I try to make friends and it feels like just when I'm getting close to a person or group of people they begin to distance themselves or abandon me altogether. At work and school they have to interact with me. As soon as I move on to the next semester or another job they stop talking to me. I try to act "normal" but I don't know what it is that I'm doing that sets me apart. I don't know what it is about me that others can tell is different about my behavior and actions. Sure I'm a little quirky here and there but when I want or need to be serious I am... or at least I think I am... I try to be.
I don't know what to do. I feel lost and alone.
At the same time I feel terrible because I all but abandoned people who were actually nice to me for the people I "hang out with" now and feel terrible about it.
I try to make friends and it feels like just when I'm getting close to a person or group of people they begin to distance themselves or abandon me altogether. At work and school they have to interact with me. As soon as I move on to the next semester or another job they stop talking to me. I try to act "normal" but I don't know what it is that I'm doing that sets me apart. I don't know what it is about me that others can tell is different about my behavior and actions. Sure I'm a little quirky here and there but when I want or need to be serious I am... or at least I think I am... I try to be.
I don't know what to do. I feel lost and alone.
I happen to have asperger syndrome, but there are some challenges that I greatly suffer from. At least I am very high functioning. Anxiety is definitely one thing I struggle from, as part of having it. And it makes me sad that there are some real mean-spirited jerks in this world that diss on those who have it and they use the victim's condition as an excuse for why they shouldn't be loved or cared for. These people don't even know that in many places, we have hate crime laws that protect those with these disabilities, so they shouldn't even be doing this kind of nasty thing.
That's why in most places such as college or work, those with disabilities are protected and they can't be discriminated just cause they have it.
I agree with you, no one is normal. We all have something that makes us different.
ah hah hah... ehh, for me?
for me, i guess i just passively started accepting it thanks to my desensitization through the internet.
but eh, such feelings still linger on some hopeless hours.
for me, i guess i just passively started accepting it thanks to my desensitization through the internet.
but eh, such feelings still linger on some hopeless hours.
Whenever I feel down about that I remember the song Lady Gaga sang called Born this way https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wV1FrqwZyKw
Normality is as subjective as the varying intellects that choose to comprehend this, if not then those that choose to label with unconscious narrow mindedness.
yes i know those feelings all to well. i to wish to be normal. but then again what is normal? hmmm i don't know. but still hugs.
I can relate to this, having mild autism really does stop me from getting out of any comfort zone.
As a kid it was a lot more serious and I struggled to communicate, didn't really do much other than make strange hand flapping movements whilst thinking of repetitive thoughts within my imagination, as well as all the other things that I'd rather not say......well maybe watching loads of cartoons.
I still get that sort of behaviour today whilst repetitively listening to catchy music.
But yeah I feel like I'm going round in circles within my zone, This image reminds me of my current situation
As a kid it was a lot more serious and I struggled to communicate, didn't really do much other than make strange hand flapping movements whilst thinking of repetitive thoughts within my imagination, as well as all the other things that I'd rather not say......well maybe watching loads of cartoons.
I still get that sort of behaviour today whilst repetitively listening to catchy music.
But yeah I feel like I'm going round in circles within my zone, This image reminds me of my current situation
I know how it is, sometimes autistic people feel that they 'don't belong in this world'.
Late post here, but I am one with high-functioning autism. I don't know for certain if the old system would have labeled me as Asperger's; I used to think so, but now am not so sure. Life wasn't easy for me, but I did overcome some obstacles. I'm just a slow starter.
If everyone was the same, we would be nothing! And for that, I give you a Shadow Bladeism! (Mainly because I'm bored!)
Shadow Blade: Tough times call for death-by-chocolate Nutella-smothered sweetrolls, a pregnant Mare, and a kind-hearted Soul!
Shadow Blade: Tough times call for death-by-chocolate Nutella-smothered sweetrolls, a pregnant Mare, and a kind-hearted Soul!
Yup. Can relate... and was just feeling that exact same stuff earlier. Lol crazy that art can really hit close to home unintentionally, great piece :)
Nobody can be normal, you have a unique personality that separates you from other people.
I also have autism...
I hate it soooooo much. I mean I'm "smarter" than most people but I'm afraid of what people think of me...
I want to be normal for once in my life...
I hope some people who read this knows what it's like to feel alone...
but here's the thing you're never alone no matter how much you feel that way...
There will always be someone willing to help.
I hate it soooooo much. I mean I'm "smarter" than most people but I'm afraid of what people think of me...
I want to be normal for once in my life...
I hope some people who read this knows what it's like to feel alone...
but here's the thing you're never alone no matter how much you feel that way...
There will always be someone willing to help.
La gente no me entiende...aveces ni yo mismo me entiendo , mis padres creen que miento o me escudo con mi autismo cuando después de aguantarme mucho porfin les digo algo que me molesta (si vivo con mis padres aun), si quiero usar audífonos se quejan , si quiero estar solo "hey veamos una película en familia" si necesito estar solo no les importa, siento que en cualquier minuto voy a explotar, como una estrella que acaba su combustible voy a colapsar ye convertiré en un hoyo negro, aparte de autismo tengo depresión por eso siempre me llaman flojo , y tengo problemas de escritura por eso siempre arrancaban (cuando era niño) las hojas de mis cuadernos.... Porque la gente es así?.... Lamento si escribi esto en español no encontré ningún grupo furry autista en español... Perdón...
Anyone reading this, know that you're not alone in these sufferings. Many people suffer from it outside of autism too. For us autistic people it comes out more earnest, we are more prone to releasing such authentic emotions out in a natural way. There is always justice and hope in this world, do not be afraid, be brave. <3
When I was growing up with autism, I sometimes lashed out when I was feeling overwhelmed. This caused me to get bullied in school and I felt like an outcast. There were times in my life when I wished I did not have autism because I wanted to be like everyone else. But now, I've learned to accept myself for who I am. I am able to control myself and take proper action when overwhelmed with anxiety. Why bother what other people think of you? They don't know you like you know yourself!
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