Journal Update - 5/3/2024
a month ago
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☙‧︎⊰─✥︎✪ JOURNAL UPDATE ✪✥︎─⊱‧︎❧
WARNING: This journal is heavy, and contains talk of death and suicide involving a friend of mine. So if this sort of material makes you uneasy, please don't read.
Hey everybody, I hope you're all doing well. So um... I wasn't going to write this journal until Sunday, but I decided I couldn't wait, because it's important that I have some form of closure.. My friend Adrianna, who I've been friends with for many years, lost her battle with her depression & her will to live on the 24th of April. Several people would know her by the small handful of alias names she'd used over the years over on DeviantArt, Adiesky, xXSpraying-SkunkXx, and in more recent years, Rose_Jortz, or simply as just, Rosie~ I'd first met her on DeviantArt back in the day when the site wasn't complete garbage. Her and I shared our love for skunks and what they did best, and we both weren't aware of what kinks were at the time lol. That being said, I was about 16 or 17 at the time & she was 14 or 15, and she would attract much older guys looking to ERP with her, being perverted in the comments section and such. I knew that sort of thing wasn't right, especially after I got to know her better and learned she was younger than I was, so I did my best to deter creepy pricks from trying to role-play with her and stuff, at least until she disappeared from the site because her account was banned (why I have no idea, I was never told and I will likely never know for sure..). She would resurface like, a year and a half later with a new account, one that focused more on the kinky side of skunk furs. Apparently I was a huge inspiration for her when I was just starting out with art myself ^w^; However, with her parents discovering her, erm, interests.. She would once again go silent for.. quite a few years until she resurfaced again and we started talking! She loved my artwork and how much I'd improved since she last saw my works, and she wanted to get back into doing art again herself (which she did) and she would go on to make some amazing pieces~ Of course, she had her hardships, she was doing the whole college thing to become a teacher(which, she did), and there was plenty of heartache and drama with her loved ones too. However, her relationship with her girlfriend (who I won't name for Rosie's sake..) had become rather rough for one reason or another, and they sadly parted ways.. This.. changed Rosie, it.. broke her.. She would eventually date again, but only be met with more heartache when her boyfriend at the time tragically and suddenly passed away from health complications. Having her message me when it happened crushed me, but only because I knew how much more it crushed her... I did my best to check on her, to console her as best as I could, and she would trudge onwards with a smile on her face, always smiling and always looking out for other's well-beings, but never alluding to the pain and suffering she was shouldering, before it became too much for her.. From my understanding, she'd left state and went completely silent - turning off her phone and stuff, and cutting off any way to communicate with her. She left behind a pinned notice on her Facebook, saying her goodbyes to her family and students and she disappeared. I'd heard, she may have gone to a hotel in her final hours, and as for the method of her choosing, I do not know, nor do I wish to.. My only regret was not being able to do more for her.. But not even I knew the full extent of her pain or sorrow.. I only hope Rosie is someplace warm and at peace, with other loved ones who were waiting for her on the other side. I hope she had a painless end, and it was a quick one.. My heart aches every time I think about her and her life's story and I miss her dearly.. If there comes a day where we're able to cross paths again, I'm gonna boop her on the nose so hard!! ..And then I'm going to give her a long, long hug..
Artwork - Due to recent events, I've been struggling to do any artwork.. I've been doing small doodles here and there, but nothing major. Grief really is a bitch, and definitely demotivating when you're trying to get some creative stuff done. I'll pick myself up off the ground in due time, just.. it might take me a bit. I plan on keeping the memory of Rosie's characters alive, I'll likely create entries in my ToyHouse with artwork of them, but we'll see.
Gaming - I've been trying to play some games here and there to keep my mind distracted. Hyping myself up with new game trailers for the games I've been looking forward to, and even focusing on the fact that my wife (bless her~) is getting me a new computer when her income taxes come back.. But it's easier said than done.. Because try as I might, this depression and grief isn't so easily beaten.. I'll keep trying though.
Collectibles - My mother reached out to me a little while ago and is getting ready to send me yet another package of my stuff. What she'll send me, I have no idea, but I am excited about it. I also got a new Transformers figure the other day thanks to my brother, and he even went and ordered me like, 2 more? They have yet to arrive in the mail, but they're on the way apparently. Other than that, nothing else of mention has really happened, at least not yet.
☙‧︎⊰─✥︎✪ Quick Notes ✪✥︎─⊱‧︎❧
☑ Said Goodbye to a dear friend of mine..
☑ Been struggling to stay positive and motivated thanks to grief & depression
☑ Been crying spontaneously
☙‧︎⊰─✥︎✪ Secondlife Marketplace ✪✥︎─⊱‧︎❧
I'm a content creator in second life, a virtual online world where you can do pretty much anything you want!
If you happen to have an account on the game, and you're a nerd much like myself, you can visit my store for
avatars, weapons and accessories I've made based off various cartoons and video games. Visit the link below
to get started~!
☑ https://marketplace.secondlife.com/stores/59681
WARNING: This journal is heavy, and contains talk of death and suicide involving a friend of mine. So if this sort of material makes you uneasy, please don't read.
Hey everybody, I hope you're all doing well. So um... I wasn't going to write this journal until Sunday, but I decided I couldn't wait, because it's important that I have some form of closure.. My friend Adrianna, who I've been friends with for many years, lost her battle with her depression & her will to live on the 24th of April. Several people would know her by the small handful of alias names she'd used over the years over on DeviantArt, Adiesky, xXSpraying-SkunkXx, and in more recent years, Rose_Jortz, or simply as just, Rosie~ I'd first met her on DeviantArt back in the day when the site wasn't complete garbage. Her and I shared our love for skunks and what they did best, and we both weren't aware of what kinks were at the time lol. That being said, I was about 16 or 17 at the time & she was 14 or 15, and she would attract much older guys looking to ERP with her, being perverted in the comments section and such. I knew that sort of thing wasn't right, especially after I got to know her better and learned she was younger than I was, so I did my best to deter creepy pricks from trying to role-play with her and stuff, at least until she disappeared from the site because her account was banned (why I have no idea, I was never told and I will likely never know for sure..). She would resurface like, a year and a half later with a new account, one that focused more on the kinky side of skunk furs. Apparently I was a huge inspiration for her when I was just starting out with art myself ^w^; However, with her parents discovering her, erm, interests.. She would once again go silent for.. quite a few years until she resurfaced again and we started talking! She loved my artwork and how much I'd improved since she last saw my works, and she wanted to get back into doing art again herself (which she did) and she would go on to make some amazing pieces~ Of course, she had her hardships, she was doing the whole college thing to become a teacher(which, she did), and there was plenty of heartache and drama with her loved ones too. However, her relationship with her girlfriend (who I won't name for Rosie's sake..) had become rather rough for one reason or another, and they sadly parted ways.. This.. changed Rosie, it.. broke her.. She would eventually date again, but only be met with more heartache when her boyfriend at the time tragically and suddenly passed away from health complications. Having her message me when it happened crushed me, but only because I knew how much more it crushed her... I did my best to check on her, to console her as best as I could, and she would trudge onwards with a smile on her face, always smiling and always looking out for other's well-beings, but never alluding to the pain and suffering she was shouldering, before it became too much for her.. From my understanding, she'd left state and went completely silent - turning off her phone and stuff, and cutting off any way to communicate with her. She left behind a pinned notice on her Facebook, saying her goodbyes to her family and students and she disappeared. I'd heard, she may have gone to a hotel in her final hours, and as for the method of her choosing, I do not know, nor do I wish to.. My only regret was not being able to do more for her.. But not even I knew the full extent of her pain or sorrow.. I only hope Rosie is someplace warm and at peace, with other loved ones who were waiting for her on the other side. I hope she had a painless end, and it was a quick one.. My heart aches every time I think about her and her life's story and I miss her dearly.. If there comes a day where we're able to cross paths again, I'm gonna boop her on the nose so hard!! ..And then I'm going to give her a long, long hug..
Artwork - Due to recent events, I've been struggling to do any artwork.. I've been doing small doodles here and there, but nothing major. Grief really is a bitch, and definitely demotivating when you're trying to get some creative stuff done. I'll pick myself up off the ground in due time, just.. it might take me a bit. I plan on keeping the memory of Rosie's characters alive, I'll likely create entries in my ToyHouse with artwork of them, but we'll see.
Gaming - I've been trying to play some games here and there to keep my mind distracted. Hyping myself up with new game trailers for the games I've been looking forward to, and even focusing on the fact that my wife (bless her~) is getting me a new computer when her income taxes come back.. But it's easier said than done.. Because try as I might, this depression and grief isn't so easily beaten.. I'll keep trying though.
Collectibles - My mother reached out to me a little while ago and is getting ready to send me yet another package of my stuff. What she'll send me, I have no idea, but I am excited about it. I also got a new Transformers figure the other day thanks to my brother, and he even went and ordered me like, 2 more? They have yet to arrive in the mail, but they're on the way apparently. Other than that, nothing else of mention has really happened, at least not yet.
☙‧︎⊰─✥︎✪ Quick Notes ✪✥︎─⊱‧︎❧
☑ Said Goodbye to a dear friend of mine..
☑ Been struggling to stay positive and motivated thanks to grief & depression
☑ Been crying spontaneously
☙‧︎⊰─✥︎✪ Secondlife Marketplace ✪✥︎─⊱‧︎❧
I'm a content creator in second life, a virtual online world where you can do pretty much anything you want!
If you happen to have an account on the game, and you're a nerd much like myself, you can visit my store for
avatars, weapons and accessories I've made based off various cartoons and video games. Visit the link below
to get started~!
☑ https://marketplace.secondlife.com/stores/59681
With much love and hugs, and a shoulder should you need it,
Mika, aka Rheia Silvercloud in SL.