35 years old
Posted 3 months agoI am three and a half decades old now.
Discord Server & Telegram art channel
Posted 4 months agoI have made a discord group if anyone is interested in joining.
https://discord.gg/wMFBNrtF8e
It is a work in progress, new channels and roles will be created in time. I may also change the name.
I also made a telegram art channel. I am finding it's easy to post art to a telegram channel, I will probably post there first so it's a good way to see stuff I get. Obviously 18+.
https://t.me/+5yqFuy6p7pk4NmJh
https://discord.gg/wMFBNrtF8e
It is a work in progress, new channels and roles will be created in time. I may also change the name.
I also made a telegram art channel. I am finding it's easy to post art to a telegram channel, I will probably post there first so it's a good way to see stuff I get. Obviously 18+.
https://t.me/+5yqFuy6p7pk4NmJh
Bluesky
Posted 9 months agoUploading to other sites
Posted a year agoTomorrow is June 7th, the day the new AUP 2.7 rule goes into effect. I do not think this will affect me since none of my characters are cubs/digimon/pokemon.
That being said, I have started uploading art to three other sites:
Inkbunny:
https://inkbunny.net/CodArk2
SoFurry:
https://codark2.sofurry.com
Weasyl:
https://www.weasyl.com/~codark2
I plan to upload most of the stuff I currently have in my FA gallery over to the other sites (and then some, like the alt versions of some pics I didn't upload here). Once the other sites are caught up I will resume new uploads on all four sites.
Yes, I plan to stay on FA (assuming Dragoneer doesn't come out tomorrow like the Oprah meme going "You get banned and you get banned and you get banned, everybody's getting banned!") BUT it doesn't hurt to put my stuff up on other sites.
That being said, I have started uploading art to three other sites:
Inkbunny:
https://inkbunny.net/CodArk2
SoFurry:
https://codark2.sofurry.com
Weasyl:
https://www.weasyl.com/~codark2
I plan to upload most of the stuff I currently have in my FA gallery over to the other sites (and then some, like the alt versions of some pics I didn't upload here). Once the other sites are caught up I will resume new uploads on all four sites.
Yes, I plan to stay on FA (assuming Dragoneer doesn't come out tomorrow like the Oprah meme going "You get banned and you get banned and you get banned, everybody's getting banned!") BUT it doesn't hurt to put my stuff up on other sites.
obligatory birthday journal
Posted a year agoToday I am 34.
Merry Christmas
Posted a year agoFashionably late, but still on Christmas Day...
Hope your Christmas was a good one and you got decent stuff, or that it at least didn't suck. Here's to a happier new year in 2023!
Hope your Christmas was a good one and you got decent stuff, or that it at least didn't suck. Here's to a happier new year in 2023!
Loaf journal
Posted a year ago*loafs*
It's too hot to do much besides loafing.
It's too hot to do much besides loafing.
Finally 2021 ended.
Posted 2 years agoWell, its been a while since I posted a journal again. 2021's been one of those years. Actually two of those years. It basically feels like this:
Since I didn't say much of anything last year or this year, both a lot and little have happened since 2020. So here's the past year(s) recap:
My father dying in February 2020 sparked a depressive episode that lasted for the better part of a year. (No he didn't die of COVID, it was an abdominal aortic aneurysm.) But it was sudden and unexpected and happened just before COVID got bad which basically crystalized that state of mind for a year as everything went on lockdown and got upended.
My mom works as a ER nurse and is in her 60s and has been working throughout the pandemic. Most people act like she has the plague because she deals with COVID patients on a near daily basis and so don't want to be around her. So I became the only one she can talk to. So I have had a front row seat to the Great Medical Worker Burnout of 2021 through her. I got fully vaccinated against COVID in March and got a booster late in December, all Pfizer.
Neither I nor my mom have had COVID in any of its variations so far despite being around it a lot. Delta wreaked havoc around me earlier in 2021. My entire family (besides my mom and I) got it, two members of my extended family died form COVID and one more will likely die soon from post-delta heart complications.
My workplace changed a lot because of COVID: In June management insisted on having an in person meeting with the IT department. Because of that Delta tore through my workplace, the manager of the IT department died and many others were infected in one of the earliest Delta outbreaks. Four of my coworkers died and two others were debilitated to the point that they couldn't work. So guess who got a "you have the most experience and by the way half your department is dead fix this now plz" promotion? Whee. Except undead HR HATES that I got it, because I don't have the magical piece of paper called a bachelors degree. But HR can't find anyone to fill the slot (or any of the other positions, for that matter) because deadly pandemics make people not want to work. Imagine that. And with the qualifications they are asking for at the salary they are asking for there's been no takers, so I have stayed in the position by default. HR has been trying to make it hard and now I am having to play the Boxhecking Bureaucratic Bullshit game and get another degree (or two) to keep the position. HR would apparently rather have the position be unfilled than have someone with less than a bachelor's degree running the IT department.
Which means that I started college, again. HR says I have to have a minimum of an "IT specific degree", but left out the level of degree I need to have (despite strongly implying that it should be a bachelor's). So for now I am pursuing an associates degree in cybersecurity since, having an associates degree (General Studies), a networking certificate, a programming certificate, and several industry certs I only have to take 6 classes, two of which I have already done this last semester. I should be done with this degree by the end of 2022. After that I will likely be doing a bachelor's either by Fall of 2022 or in 2023 since that's what I am being pushed toward. We will see though.
So basically im in a "done with it all" mood at the moment. The last two years felt like an unending marathon of death and stupidity. I am hopeful 2022 won't keep it going but I also live in reality so I know better. Still Ii am hopeful 2022 will see less of it.
Sorry I haven't uploaded any art here, yes I am still getting furry art, I just have been lax about uploading it. I may eventually make a telegram channel for it as well as putting stuff up here. So I guess that is something to look forward to in 2022.
I am honestly hoping that the next year is a good one for everyone.
Since I didn't say much of anything last year or this year, both a lot and little have happened since 2020. So here's the past year(s) recap:
My father dying in February 2020 sparked a depressive episode that lasted for the better part of a year. (No he didn't die of COVID, it was an abdominal aortic aneurysm.) But it was sudden and unexpected and happened just before COVID got bad which basically crystalized that state of mind for a year as everything went on lockdown and got upended.
My mom works as a ER nurse and is in her 60s and has been working throughout the pandemic. Most people act like she has the plague because she deals with COVID patients on a near daily basis and so don't want to be around her. So I became the only one she can talk to. So I have had a front row seat to the Great Medical Worker Burnout of 2021 through her. I got fully vaccinated against COVID in March and got a booster late in December, all Pfizer.
Neither I nor my mom have had COVID in any of its variations so far despite being around it a lot. Delta wreaked havoc around me earlier in 2021. My entire family (besides my mom and I) got it, two members of my extended family died form COVID and one more will likely die soon from post-delta heart complications.
My workplace changed a lot because of COVID: In June management insisted on having an in person meeting with the IT department. Because of that Delta tore through my workplace, the manager of the IT department died and many others were infected in one of the earliest Delta outbreaks. Four of my coworkers died and two others were debilitated to the point that they couldn't work. So guess who got a "you have the most experience and by the way half your department is dead fix this now plz" promotion? Whee. Except undead HR HATES that I got it, because I don't have the magical piece of paper called a bachelors degree. But HR can't find anyone to fill the slot (or any of the other positions, for that matter) because deadly pandemics make people not want to work. Imagine that. And with the qualifications they are asking for at the salary they are asking for there's been no takers, so I have stayed in the position by default. HR has been trying to make it hard and now I am having to play the Boxhecking Bureaucratic Bullshit game and get another degree (or two) to keep the position. HR would apparently rather have the position be unfilled than have someone with less than a bachelor's degree running the IT department.
Which means that I started college, again. HR says I have to have a minimum of an "IT specific degree", but left out the level of degree I need to have (despite strongly implying that it should be a bachelor's). So for now I am pursuing an associates degree in cybersecurity since, having an associates degree (General Studies), a networking certificate, a programming certificate, and several industry certs I only have to take 6 classes, two of which I have already done this last semester. I should be done with this degree by the end of 2022. After that I will likely be doing a bachelor's either by Fall of 2022 or in 2023 since that's what I am being pushed toward. We will see though.
So basically im in a "done with it all" mood at the moment. The last two years felt like an unending marathon of death and stupidity. I am hopeful 2022 won't keep it going but I also live in reality so I know better. Still Ii am hopeful 2022 will see less of it.
Sorry I haven't uploaded any art here, yes I am still getting furry art, I just have been lax about uploading it. I may eventually make a telegram channel for it as well as putting stuff up here. So I guess that is something to look forward to in 2022.
I am honestly hoping that the next year is a good one for everyone.
Another orbit complete
Posted 3 years agoI am now 32 years old.
been a while since last journal, so figured why not.
been a while since last journal, so figured why not.
Death in the family, I will be away
Posted 4 years agoI will be away for several days starting tomorrow. My father passed away, so I'll be going to his funeral in Arkansas. I will likely not be online much during that time or very talkative and likely after.
Another birthday and where else to find me
Posted 4 years agoI turned 31 today. but haven't been able to make a journal about it because of the DDOS issues going on. So yeah, getting up there. I am not old though, I'm 21 with a decade of experience.
Anyway, because people keep trying to take the site offline, there are other places to find me or get in contact with me if the site is down for an extended time period (though they have been on my front page, but most don't look it over :v)
Twitter- https://twitter.com/codark2. I retweet a lot of NSFW stuff, but one can often reach me here
Telegram- https://t.me/CodArk2. primary messenger application
Discord- CodArk2#6844. alternative messenger application
Facebook- https://www.facebook.com/serith.abrasoka I don't use this a lot, but the messenger app is ok
Steam-https://steamcommunity.com/id/floofydragon. I don't RP here, just add if into games
Deviantart, im CodArk2 on, thoguh I have mostly the really old art on it and don't really do much on it besides occasionally having things. Sofurry, Inkbunny and Weasyl, I don't have anything on them, but I am CodArk2 on all of them, yay consistency. Furrynetwork, I am codark2.
Of course, FA will be my primary art site for now, but there are other places to reach me if you want to.
Anyway, because people keep trying to take the site offline, there are other places to find me or get in contact with me if the site is down for an extended time period (though they have been on my front page, but most don't look it over :v)
Twitter- https://twitter.com/codark2. I retweet a lot of NSFW stuff, but one can often reach me here
Telegram- https://t.me/CodArk2. primary messenger application
Discord- CodArk2#6844. alternative messenger application
Facebook- https://www.facebook.com/serith.abrasoka I don't use this a lot, but the messenger app is ok
Steam-https://steamcommunity.com/id/floofydragon. I don't RP here, just add if into games
Deviantart, im CodArk2 on, thoguh I have mostly the really old art on it and don't really do much on it besides occasionally having things. Sofurry, Inkbunny and Weasyl, I don't have anything on them, but I am CodArk2 on all of them, yay consistency. Furrynetwork, I am codark2.
Of course, FA will be my primary art site for now, but there are other places to reach me if you want to.
The decade ends/ Happy new Year
Posted 4 years agoSo we have reached the end of another year. Hopefully the next year and decade is better for everyone than the year and decade we are leaving behind. I wish everyone a happy new year!
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2019 was actually a pretty good year for me overall. It was a year of rest and recovery from previous years. The major damage to my house was finally completely fixed and living arrangements went back to how they were before. Health issues popped up and were dealt with quickly and are under control or improving. I have gotten new art stuff, I've just been kinda lazy in uploading it but more will be up soon.
The decade started off much the same way: multiple eye surgeries, a big hurricane, economic crash and Great Recession making it impossible to find employment on top of not doing so well in college at that time led to me falling into a long depression that stated off the decade. Things steadily got better for a few years until the utterly terrible year that was 2013, which was the nadir of the decade for me. From there I went back to college, got a job, got an associates degree, quit a job, got a better job, the living situation changed, and here we are. I've generally toned down making journals since no one reads these things anyway.
I don't usually make resolutions for new year, since I tend to make longer term plans that are independent of the yearly timeframe, like finishing off a Bachelors degree (something I will likely do in the coming decade).
Here's oping the new decade is a great one for everyone.
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2019 was actually a pretty good year for me overall. It was a year of rest and recovery from previous years. The major damage to my house was finally completely fixed and living arrangements went back to how they were before. Health issues popped up and were dealt with quickly and are under control or improving. I have gotten new art stuff, I've just been kinda lazy in uploading it but more will be up soon.
The decade started off much the same way: multiple eye surgeries, a big hurricane, economic crash and Great Recession making it impossible to find employment on top of not doing so well in college at that time led to me falling into a long depression that stated off the decade. Things steadily got better for a few years until the utterly terrible year that was 2013, which was the nadir of the decade for me. From there I went back to college, got a job, got an associates degree, quit a job, got a better job, the living situation changed, and here we are. I've generally toned down making journals since no one reads these things anyway.
I don't usually make resolutions for new year, since I tend to make longer term plans that are independent of the yearly timeframe, like finishing off a Bachelors degree (something I will likely do in the coming decade).
Here's oping the new decade is a great one for everyone.
Uploading art
Posted 5 years agoSorry I have been lazy about uploading art. I have stuff form as far back as October of last year that I need to upload. I don't want to upload everything in one day, but I will probably upload everything from the end of 2018 today, so prepare for a bit of an art flood. After that there will be a few a day til I get caught up.
I try to get art form various artists, so Keep in mind some pics may be of lower quality than others while others feature odd kinks/fetishes. This does not mean every pic I get in the future will contain that sort of content or have the same level of quality. However if you don't like jockstraps or locker rooms you're definately watching the wrong account :v
I try to get art form various artists, so Keep in mind some pics may be of lower quality than others while others feature odd kinks/fetishes. This does not mean every pic I get in the future will contain that sort of content or have the same level of quality. However if you don't like jockstraps or locker rooms you're definately watching the wrong account :v
Another year older
Posted 5 years agoI turned 30 today. I'm getting old.
Happy new year
Posted 5 years ago2019 has arrived in Texas. Happy new year everyone!
Looking back on 2018.
Posted 5 years agoI know people don't really read journals anymore, but here is an update on my situation if anyone is interested.
2018 was a weird year for me personally with some good things and some bad things. Overall good though.
The first 5 months of the year were spent doing college, for a occupation skills award. I basically decided to expand my knowledge of web design and learn about database technology. It was not too stressful for me overall.
I took no classes in the summer, but did take one class in the fall. The class was computer Science 2. It was a java language class, and java is quite a bit harder than python. The class was considerably more difficult than the two classes I took in the spring semester, even though it was only one class. We got the book we were required to have two weeks late because of publisher issues, because it was a new book, and ended up having to read 1300+ pages in 14 weeks while constantly taking tests and quizzes and doing projects on it. Its actually a good thing I only took one class for that semester, most of the class didn't do so well but I managed to barely squeak out an A in it. Still, it has taken a toll.
I will not be taking any classes in the spring, and possibly all of 2019. The only other class that I would have to take at this college is a statistics class before going for my bachelors at a university, but there just isn't any energy there to do it right now. I need recharging time as far as school goes. I have an associates degree already, no student debt, and can go onto a bachelors degree when I have the energy to do so.
The biggest change this year was my brother and his wife moving out. They got their own place earlier this year and moved out at the end of July. This has meant a quieter house at a reasonable temperature, not the 75 to 85 F they tended to prefer. It has also meant an improvement in physical health in that I'm back to a healthy body weight for the first time in five years. I was one of the few Americans that were clincially underweight prior to them moving out. My bothers wife was a militant vegan who took to throwing out anything with meat or dairy in it and pretty much anything processed, and she refused to compromise. Them moving out has also lifted the "stiver syndrome" I've had to get out as fast as possible and the depression whenever it would fail. It's been the main reason I went back to college, then kept going. While I do intend to get a bachelors degree, it's become a less pressing issue.
I turn 30 in 2019 in February. This actually depress me. Even a few years ago I thought by this time I would be on my own and have a good job, but it hasn't seemed to happen yet. My younger brother was able to move out on his own after getting a job that pays more than mine does, despite having less education than I do and less experience in his field than I have in mine, so its depression mixed with jealousy. I don't often feel jealousy but for some reason I do in this case. Normally it would drive me to outcompete but the energy just isn't there right now. I feel tired even though I have been able to take more classes in the past and work more hours, and it just makes me feel old, since I can't seem to handle what I used to just a few years ago.
Basically 2019 is going to probably be a year of recuperation at this point. If the past is prologue by march I should have my energy back and may end up taking classes in the summer or fall before going on to bachelors degree, but right now I am just worn out by 2018.
Hopefully by this time next year I don't feel this way and things are better. And hopefully everyone has a good 2019.
2018 was a weird year for me personally with some good things and some bad things. Overall good though.
The first 5 months of the year were spent doing college, for a occupation skills award. I basically decided to expand my knowledge of web design and learn about database technology. It was not too stressful for me overall.
I took no classes in the summer, but did take one class in the fall. The class was computer Science 2. It was a java language class, and java is quite a bit harder than python. The class was considerably more difficult than the two classes I took in the spring semester, even though it was only one class. We got the book we were required to have two weeks late because of publisher issues, because it was a new book, and ended up having to read 1300+ pages in 14 weeks while constantly taking tests and quizzes and doing projects on it. Its actually a good thing I only took one class for that semester, most of the class didn't do so well but I managed to barely squeak out an A in it. Still, it has taken a toll.
I will not be taking any classes in the spring, and possibly all of 2019. The only other class that I would have to take at this college is a statistics class before going for my bachelors at a university, but there just isn't any energy there to do it right now. I need recharging time as far as school goes. I have an associates degree already, no student debt, and can go onto a bachelors degree when I have the energy to do so.
The biggest change this year was my brother and his wife moving out. They got their own place earlier this year and moved out at the end of July. This has meant a quieter house at a reasonable temperature, not the 75 to 85 F they tended to prefer. It has also meant an improvement in physical health in that I'm back to a healthy body weight for the first time in five years. I was one of the few Americans that were clincially underweight prior to them moving out. My bothers wife was a militant vegan who took to throwing out anything with meat or dairy in it and pretty much anything processed, and she refused to compromise. Them moving out has also lifted the "stiver syndrome" I've had to get out as fast as possible and the depression whenever it would fail. It's been the main reason I went back to college, then kept going. While I do intend to get a bachelors degree, it's become a less pressing issue.
I turn 30 in 2019 in February. This actually depress me. Even a few years ago I thought by this time I would be on my own and have a good job, but it hasn't seemed to happen yet. My younger brother was able to move out on his own after getting a job that pays more than mine does, despite having less education than I do and less experience in his field than I have in mine, so its depression mixed with jealousy. I don't often feel jealousy but for some reason I do in this case. Normally it would drive me to outcompete but the energy just isn't there right now. I feel tired even though I have been able to take more classes in the past and work more hours, and it just makes me feel old, since I can't seem to handle what I used to just a few years ago.
Basically 2019 is going to probably be a year of recuperation at this point. If the past is prologue by march I should have my energy back and may end up taking classes in the summer or fall before going on to bachelors degree, but right now I am just worn out by 2018.
Hopefully by this time next year I don't feel this way and things are better. And hopefully everyone has a good 2019.
12 years on FA
Posted 6 years agoI noticed that today is the 12th year anniversary of joining FA. How time flies.
So Serith, what are you doing this summer?
Posted 6 years agoNot a lot, actually.
People keep asking me, so I figured I would make a journal about it.
I am finished with classes for the semester. Unlike the last two years where I took classes all summer, I am not doing so this year. I passed my classes for the previous semester. I also now have a Microsoft certification in SQL server.
I still work for the college, but for now my work is remote. Construction and renovations on campus mean no air conditioning in the building, I do have to go in sometimes to manually do stuff, but its pretty uncommon. So for at least the next 2 months or so I will be loafing around my house away form the evil entity known as sunlight *hiss*. In fall I will resume classes, though how many yet, I dunno.
Hopefully everyone has a great summer.
People keep asking me, so I figured I would make a journal about it.
I am finished with classes for the semester. Unlike the last two years where I took classes all summer, I am not doing so this year. I passed my classes for the previous semester. I also now have a Microsoft certification in SQL server.
I still work for the college, but for now my work is remote. Construction and renovations on campus mean no air conditioning in the building, I do have to go in sometimes to manually do stuff, but its pretty uncommon. So for at least the next 2 months or so I will be loafing around my house away form the evil entity known as sunlight *hiss*. In fall I will resume classes, though how many yet, I dunno.
Hopefully everyone has a great summer.
Birthday today
Posted 6 years agoSo now I am 29. Another year closer to being old by furry fandom standards, middle aged by societies standards.
My cat died
Posted 9 years agoAs some know by now, my cat, Dot, died this last Tuesday. It has been a busy week which is why I am posting about it now.
My cat, Dot, died on the 20th. She had been sick and losing weight for most of the last month. Her behavior started changing around thanksgiving spending more time in the bathroom, and doing odd things like drinking water from the shower and toilet, even though she had water in a bowl.I think part of it was my brother s wife (who works at a petsmart) changed her food over to some kind of health food she did not like. She aced more tired, and started eating less, and by mid December had pretty much stopped eating. We tried changing food back to what she had been eating, but she wouldn't eat any of it. The day before christmas eve she started vomiting,but the vets were closed until the 29th because f the holiday, so we took her then. They gave her meds to suppress the nausea they said was causing the vomiting. It seemed to work for a while, then she started again after two days, and they were closed for new years. I paid my truck off on the 3rd, which took most of my money.
We tried taking her to the vet on the 5th , but they were too busy to see her for that entire week (mostly due to dogs eating christmas ornaments and other holiday related stuff). By this time she had lost most of her weight and was laying around all the time, not moving much, but would still purr and lean into petting. I registered for my final semester of college the next week, which took almost all the money I had left. I asked my family to help with eh vet bills, but they balked and ended up spending that whole week arguing about it. My brothers wife finally agreed to take her on Thursday, but instead of taking her the next day like I had asked, she wanted to wait until Monday, except the vet was closed on Monday because it was martin luther king day.
Dot had not slept on my bed, as she usually did, instead sleeping on the fluffy rug in the bathroom. I got up early because I heard one of the dogs whining (the same one that usually chases dot around), only to find the cat collapsed in the hallway, drooling on the floor. I think she was trying to get to my room, but couldn't make it on her own. I shooed the dog away and tried to get her to respond, when I spoke she perked up, then I picked her up. She started purring a bit and kneading at my arm and licking my shirt. Being half asleep because it was 5:45 am i took her to the bed and laid her under the covers with me to warm up. She stayed there and purred and kneaded me for a bit before she started to get up and push out from under the covers, then went to near the foot of the bed, then came up near the pillow and laid there facing the wall though about 10 minutes later she rolled over and faced me, purred a bit then got a vacant expression before snapping back and purring. I had to do my morning thing, bathroom, shower and the like, though she would yowl constantly when I left the room and go quiet when I laid on the bed and purr softly. Around this point I knew she was actively dying and there was nothing that could be done .
I petted her and talked to her for a while, until my mom got home from work, and did the same for a while, until my sister in law came in wanting to take her to the vet. We both told her it was pointless, she would die shortly and the vet couldn't do anything, but she insisted. I wanted to keep her on my lap, but she said she had to go in the cage, which the cat did not like, and then had to take her car because she parked behind me. So she had to sit in a cage , yowling, which the loud music she had playing did little to drown out. When we got there, I took her out of the cage and took her inside in my arms, getting yelled after that too, even though no one was there. The cat by now is clinging to me, and meowing and having breathing issues and shaking,moving her paws like she was walking and such, before seeming to calm down, purring a bit and kneading like she had on the bed, then leaned out to rub my hand, which she did when she wanted to be petted, so i rubbed over her head and chin, which she specially liked since she purred louder, until the purring stopped. She died there on my lap. The vet tried reviving her but she was dead.
I then had to go to work. I had told them I wanted her cremated, ashes sent back. I then had to leave. So I'm at work, go through my day. Only to get home and find out she had told them not to return the ashes because it was cheaper, even though I had already said I would reimburse her for any charges. Call over there and they need payment for it, so I have to drive across town in rush hour traffic to get there, only to find its $125 and they didn't charge anything for the visit (which she was saying they did). So paid for that, then had to drive across town, and get ready for college, which started that night, then came home after 2 hours of that. Then had to go through arguing and guilt tripping from her for another hour until I snapped at her and she shut up.
Her ashes came back Friday,in a box, which I put int he window, since she liked being int he window.
Dot w as part of a litter of kittens born to Buttons (another family pet, died when I was 8) and was one of 3 kittens that survived, two males, one female. Being 5 at the time, I named the three after the Animaniacs, Yakko, wakko and Dot. The other two were given homes, Dot stuck with us.
Dot was 20 years old, born April 14th 1994 and dying on January 20th 2015. Cause of death was Feline Hepatic Lipidosis, a liver disease caused when cats don't eat I think it was a mix of things that caused it, I was working full time so she may have had separation anxiety, my brothers wife brought in 3 dogs, one of whom kept chasing her around, said sister in law also changed her food, and was always obnoxiously and inconsiderately loud, adding more stress, she may have also gotten some cleaner when drinking from the toilet or shower.It was likely a combination of factors. I still have a feeling of guilt for some of them, that if a few things had been different, she would still be sitting there purring on my bed.
I would liek to think she liked it here. Goodnight Dot. You will be missed.
My cat, Dot, died on the 20th. She had been sick and losing weight for most of the last month. Her behavior started changing around thanksgiving spending more time in the bathroom, and doing odd things like drinking water from the shower and toilet, even though she had water in a bowl.I think part of it was my brother s wife (who works at a petsmart) changed her food over to some kind of health food she did not like. She aced more tired, and started eating less, and by mid December had pretty much stopped eating. We tried changing food back to what she had been eating, but she wouldn't eat any of it. The day before christmas eve she started vomiting,but the vets were closed until the 29th because f the holiday, so we took her then. They gave her meds to suppress the nausea they said was causing the vomiting. It seemed to work for a while, then she started again after two days, and they were closed for new years. I paid my truck off on the 3rd, which took most of my money.
We tried taking her to the vet on the 5th , but they were too busy to see her for that entire week (mostly due to dogs eating christmas ornaments and other holiday related stuff). By this time she had lost most of her weight and was laying around all the time, not moving much, but would still purr and lean into petting. I registered for my final semester of college the next week, which took almost all the money I had left. I asked my family to help with eh vet bills, but they balked and ended up spending that whole week arguing about it. My brothers wife finally agreed to take her on Thursday, but instead of taking her the next day like I had asked, she wanted to wait until Monday, except the vet was closed on Monday because it was martin luther king day.
Dot had not slept on my bed, as she usually did, instead sleeping on the fluffy rug in the bathroom. I got up early because I heard one of the dogs whining (the same one that usually chases dot around), only to find the cat collapsed in the hallway, drooling on the floor. I think she was trying to get to my room, but couldn't make it on her own. I shooed the dog away and tried to get her to respond, when I spoke she perked up, then I picked her up. She started purring a bit and kneading at my arm and licking my shirt. Being half asleep because it was 5:45 am i took her to the bed and laid her under the covers with me to warm up. She stayed there and purred and kneaded me for a bit before she started to get up and push out from under the covers, then went to near the foot of the bed, then came up near the pillow and laid there facing the wall though about 10 minutes later she rolled over and faced me, purred a bit then got a vacant expression before snapping back and purring. I had to do my morning thing, bathroom, shower and the like, though she would yowl constantly when I left the room and go quiet when I laid on the bed and purr softly. Around this point I knew she was actively dying and there was nothing that could be done .
I petted her and talked to her for a while, until my mom got home from work, and did the same for a while, until my sister in law came in wanting to take her to the vet. We both told her it was pointless, she would die shortly and the vet couldn't do anything, but she insisted. I wanted to keep her on my lap, but she said she had to go in the cage, which the cat did not like, and then had to take her car because she parked behind me. So she had to sit in a cage , yowling, which the loud music she had playing did little to drown out. When we got there, I took her out of the cage and took her inside in my arms, getting yelled after that too, even though no one was there. The cat by now is clinging to me, and meowing and having breathing issues and shaking,moving her paws like she was walking and such, before seeming to calm down, purring a bit and kneading like she had on the bed, then leaned out to rub my hand, which she did when she wanted to be petted, so i rubbed over her head and chin, which she specially liked since she purred louder, until the purring stopped. She died there on my lap. The vet tried reviving her but she was dead.
I then had to go to work. I had told them I wanted her cremated, ashes sent back. I then had to leave. So I'm at work, go through my day. Only to get home and find out she had told them not to return the ashes because it was cheaper, even though I had already said I would reimburse her for any charges. Call over there and they need payment for it, so I have to drive across town in rush hour traffic to get there, only to find its $125 and they didn't charge anything for the visit (which she was saying they did). So paid for that, then had to drive across town, and get ready for college, which started that night, then came home after 2 hours of that. Then had to go through arguing and guilt tripping from her for another hour until I snapped at her and she shut up.
Her ashes came back Friday,in a box, which I put int he window, since she liked being int he window.
Dot w as part of a litter of kittens born to Buttons (another family pet, died when I was 8) and was one of 3 kittens that survived, two males, one female. Being 5 at the time, I named the three after the Animaniacs, Yakko, wakko and Dot. The other two were given homes, Dot stuck with us.
Dot was 20 years old, born April 14th 1994 and dying on January 20th 2015. Cause of death was Feline Hepatic Lipidosis, a liver disease caused when cats don't eat I think it was a mix of things that caused it, I was working full time so she may have had separation anxiety, my brothers wife brought in 3 dogs, one of whom kept chasing her around, said sister in law also changed her food, and was always obnoxiously and inconsiderately loud, adding more stress, she may have also gotten some cleaner when drinking from the toilet or shower.It was likely a combination of factors. I still have a feeling of guilt for some of them, that if a few things had been different, she would still be sitting there purring on my bed.
I would liek to think she liked it here. Goodnight Dot. You will be missed.
BDSM Test
Posted 9 years agoI figured why not. Not really a surprise to me, though it might surprise some of my RP partners.
Test is here if you want to do it yourself: http://bdsmtest.org/
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79% Experimentalist
71% Dominant
64% Submissive
61% Brat Tamer
59% Degradation Receiver
59% Voyeur
58% Primal (Prey)
56% Brat
55% Daddy/Mommy
55% Degradation Giver
54% Bondage Giver
54% Girl/Boy
51% Primal (Predator)
50% Non-monogamist
45% Sadist
40% Master/Mistress
40% Slave
38% Exhibitionist
29% Masochist
29% Vanilla
25% Bondage Receiver
12% All-Rounder
12% Pervert
https://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=54713
Test is here if you want to do it yourself: http://bdsmtest.org/
100% Switch
79% Experimentalist
71% Dominant
64% Submissive
61% Brat Tamer
59% Degradation Receiver
59% Voyeur
58% Primal (Prey)
56% Brat
55% Daddy/Mommy
55% Degradation Giver
54% Bondage Giver
54% Girl/Boy
51% Primal (Predator)
50% Non-monogamist
45% Sadist
40% Master/Mistress
40% Slave
38% Exhibitionist
29% Masochist
29% Vanilla
25% Bondage Receiver
12% All-Rounder
12% Pervert
https://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=54713
This is so true
Posted 10 years agoThis comic. Everything about it, is 100 percent true.
http://oglaf.com/submission/
Subs have been getting more like this lately, so this comic made me laugh for a good while at how true it is. I am a switch, which is becoming hard since most submissive people see me as sub since I am not a pure dom. I am sorely tempted to call them out like this.
Also, dragon sex toy salesmen
http://oglaf.com/lonelymountain/
http://oglaf.com/submission/
Subs have been getting more like this lately, so this comic made me laugh for a good while at how true it is. I am a switch, which is becoming hard since most submissive people see me as sub since I am not a pure dom. I am sorely tempted to call them out like this.
Also, dragon sex toy salesmen
http://oglaf.com/lonelymountain/