warm
Posted a month agoThings are heating up here, I got my wish about getting into my '77 Sedan DeVille sooner this summer- by the end of the week! At the urgency of my 1992 DeVille suffering a couple of computer-enhanced issues in first the transmission and second the power steering. Looks like its SuperFly Bosozoku time. Its chill, I'm not worried.
The weather has been spectacular, and i finally got out to enjoy it today- the woods are beautiful and so is the sky. a small chill in the air but sunny to keep ya going.
The weather has been spectacular, and i finally got out to enjoy it today- the woods are beautiful and so is the sky. a small chill in the air but sunny to keep ya going.
Thoughs about Volvo
Posted 2 months agoAs you all probably know I daily drove a 1990 Volvo 740 before I got my Cadillacs and I do still have that car with over 300,000 miles, but the ole girl needs some work before I can put her through daily driving duty again. I've also been thinking a lot about what Polestar in 1990 as a division of Volvo Motor Group would look like. I admit I have an american classic car perspective on the whole thing, but the 700 series would have a variant in Polestar and the goal is to make what's essentially a prototype out of my 740.
Anyways, here's some thoughts about what Volvo means to me.
What is Volvo about? What’s a Volvo for?
Its an in-between Cadillac. That is to say, a classic Volvo has the energy, the flash that a Cadillac has, is very suited for its home region and not as well understood outside it, and its extremely distinctive from everything else on the road.
Volvo is the Cadillac of hanging back and seeing how things play out.
You drive a Cadillac one day, then you go back the next in a Volvo to see how things played out. A Volvo can look and act just like a Cadillac- Its not the aesthetic that is the determining factor between the two and why to choose one over the other on a particular drive. Its that background feeling of safety and lack of a spotlight that the Volvo offers as opposed to the forward nature of Cadillac and the spotlight which is put on a Cadillac by social norms that is the reason to choose one over the other for a drive. Every Cadillac owner should also own a Volvo.
You can modify a Volvo in every way and more you can modify a Cadillac and the result will still be the same.
Anyways, here's some thoughts about what Volvo means to me.
What is Volvo about? What’s a Volvo for?
Its an in-between Cadillac. That is to say, a classic Volvo has the energy, the flash that a Cadillac has, is very suited for its home region and not as well understood outside it, and its extremely distinctive from everything else on the road.
Volvo is the Cadillac of hanging back and seeing how things play out.
You drive a Cadillac one day, then you go back the next in a Volvo to see how things played out. A Volvo can look and act just like a Cadillac- Its not the aesthetic that is the determining factor between the two and why to choose one over the other on a particular drive. Its that background feeling of safety and lack of a spotlight that the Volvo offers as opposed to the forward nature of Cadillac and the spotlight which is put on a Cadillac by social norms that is the reason to choose one over the other for a drive. Every Cadillac owner should also own a Volvo.
You can modify a Volvo in every way and more you can modify a Cadillac and the result will still be the same.
AnthroCon
Posted 2 months agoIts been a few years since I'd last gone to AnthroCon. I was a different person back then, but on the cusp of the discovery that would lead me to be the person I am. I'd love to get there again. Its an 8hr drive iirc, and back then I did it with a carfull of friends- Donnie_Onihane, wuffiewolf, and rensaruwatari my trusty ole girl, my 1990 Volvo 740. Stayed at the Omni with rensaruwatari and only really fursuited in the parade. I made the peppercoyote & foxamoore show with wuffiewolf, too. I did a lot of wandering, got the standard T-shirt (which i genuinely like SO MUCH BETTER than the base shirt they used for the super sponsor shirt and while the ss shirt feels weirdly tight, the standard shirt is in my weekly rotation to this day- I'm even wearing it right now!), and at the food. I think they were out of that year's dogbowls because mine is a 2015 for some reason. It was sort of big and overwhelming, and I wasn't very good at making my own fun; that was back when I didn't have the self-esteem to enjoy things on my own. LOL, how times have changed. But GOSH. The energy, that's what I remember the most, rather than the momentary details. I want to feel that energy again, as the new, real me. I wanna snepperstep all over Pittsburgh, and drive a classic Cadillac there. Shoot some great photos & video and get to spend a bunch of time with friends and loved ones. Hit up a few room parties! And definitely get stoned now that I know how much I need x3
Oh and OFCOURSE I gotta get to panels this time! I wanna FINALLY get to an Uncle Kage storyhour, hear the staff stories about what its like running a convention as that's an aspiration of mine, get to some kink panels, and some art panels and I have got to find CassidyTheCivet if she's there, I'm a huge fan! Of course, I also want to find time to volunteer! I love lending a paw when it comes to keeping conventions running smoothly. I would like to see if I can use it as a social cool-down period too, since I would have to deal with running things, but that's entirely different than the emotion that goes into socializing, y'know?
Anyways, yeah that's the long and short of it. I'd love to get to AC.
Oh and OFCOURSE I gotta get to panels this time! I wanna FINALLY get to an Uncle Kage storyhour, hear the staff stories about what its like running a convention as that's an aspiration of mine, get to some kink panels, and some art panels and I have got to find CassidyTheCivet if she's there, I'm a huge fan! Of course, I also want to find time to volunteer! I love lending a paw when it comes to keeping conventions running smoothly. I would like to see if I can use it as a social cool-down period too, since I would have to deal with running things, but that's entirely different than the emotion that goes into socializing, y'know?
Anyways, yeah that's the long and short of it. I'd love to get to AC.
Places
Posted 3 months agoSometimes, you know us Furries just need to go find those places off the beaten human path to be and to take in the world around us. I just want to remind you not to be afraid to get up the courage to wander off where it looks like you could and find those places you'd like to be. If someone sees you? so what. Smile and comment on how lovely the weather is. I know you'll be respectful of the nature around you, nor will you cause problems where problems needn't be.
See you in the woods (and in the towns, and on the streets, and in the stores, and on the trails, and...)
-MP
See you in the woods (and in the towns, and on the streets, and in the stores, and on the trails, and...)
-MP
New Reigion Concepts
Posted 3 months agoI dig the vibes of the GameBoy Pokemon games, gen 1 and 2, in their original formats. So i'm expanding on those regions and sets of Pokemon conceptualizing what would basically be another set of cartridges for the original hardware that extend those games.
The regions, or really they're part of the original regions, are North Johto and North Kanto. You'll find out more about them as I go with the series.
Some time ago I posted some phone photo concept stuff to an old instagram account that's no longer active while i was grouchy and needed to get out last year and the year before. But since that's all gone now so is the data. I remember where i found most of them but I'm not going to be hard on myself if I rearrange routes and the lore a little bit in redoing it here and with digicams.
The first set I'm posting today are taken with the big Sony Mavica (yes the floppy disk camera) the MVC-FD91. Its bigger and more full-featured than the standard models you may have seen before and I adore it. The weather was nice and I wanted to take it out on a genuine shoot before I picked up its sibling the Mavica CD1000 which uses mini CDs to be a companion camera to it.
The regions, or really they're part of the original regions, are North Johto and North Kanto. You'll find out more about them as I go with the series.
Some time ago I posted some phone photo concept stuff to an old instagram account that's no longer active while i was grouchy and needed to get out last year and the year before. But since that's all gone now so is the data. I remember where i found most of them but I'm not going to be hard on myself if I rearrange routes and the lore a little bit in redoing it here and with digicams.
The first set I'm posting today are taken with the big Sony Mavica (yes the floppy disk camera) the MVC-FD91. Its bigger and more full-featured than the standard models you may have seen before and I adore it. The weather was nice and I wanted to take it out on a genuine shoot before I picked up its sibling the Mavica CD1000 which uses mini CDs to be a companion camera to it.
Visualization
Posted 3 months agoDo y'all need to have a thing happen to you/see it happen irl to be able to get the framing and basic shapes before you can draw it or is that just me? I got sick of waiting to see the exact things I was looking for and put everything through a bunch of lenses to be able to put the shapes seen at different times together into the same piece. i admit i do sorely miss seeking out the specific sets of shapes, but even so i couldn't give up this method if i tried. I'm going to use both from now on.
Besides, you can't do that with photo or video the way i like doing photo and video so still need to find those particular things anyways :3
Besides, you can't do that with photo or video the way i like doing photo and video so still need to find those particular things anyways :3
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Posted 3 months agoSo did you know you can create a journal that's completely empty?
Careers and ruining the fun
Posted 3 months agosomething that i've realized recently is that the point of working, whether at a job or a trade, is to build part of your narrative by proxy, away from friends away from social media, and away from passions. its a thing to do. the conversation about whether you should put that much emotional investment into a job to care enough to get burnt out is another conversation that should be had across pretty much everyone these days it seems but not one for this journal.
this journal is about the rise of two kinds of "careers" that not only ruin the fun via bloat and advertisements for the others in the space, but burn those with the career out on something they used to love. Furry commissions, ebay selling and YouTube. You can't avoid all the YCH slots in the browsing submissions tab and begging for commissions journals. half of youtube search results are either the most boring person talking about something they barely understand or essentially just SEO spam. Don't sven get me started on the price gouging taking place on ebay and it fucking up all kinds of second-hand markets that were casually using ebay sold listings to try and price things only to get greedy when ebay sellers faked sales to raise their ratings and try to convince people to pay higher and higher prices. I've done all three of these, I know what this nightmare is like to live. and its no wonder that AI has moved in on trying to take over these spaces, these burnt out husks make outsiders think there's any money in it, and the lazy will always try to take advantage of that.
please, for gosh sakes stop. just stop. this is unsustainable not only for you, but for these communities. people are afraid of joining furry because they think they need all this stuff to get started, stuff you're selling URGENTLY because your car broke down again since you trap yourself in a 2010s car don't take care of and you can't fix instead of something older you could, or your rent is due and you can't afford it because you keep buying the same shooting game reskinned over and over for consoles that nobody can tell apart anymore. You're better than this and you know it. Your disability isn't an excuse, either.
Look. there's more than shitty fast food and retail. find something you could care about. do that. pick a trade, there's a lot of them. and they're always looking for apprentices. you're automatically a million times cooler if you have skills and you can help your friends with them. oh no some bully meanie with different politics might be there. yeah, that's life, people disagree and don't understand issues. what else is new. get over it, treat them like a person, and be the one who changes their mind by proving their bigotry wrong over time. if you keep running scared, you're never going to get anywhere. you're letting what our queer foreparents fought for slip away and honestly that just sucks.
then you know what? you have more money, that trade should make you feel energized and confident, and you will be able to do better for yourself and what you're passionate about. this way of doing things is killing you and its killing your output and you know it. you're not proud of what you make anymore. be honest with yourself. and you're not even making minimum wage in the same hours, you're working more and more stressfully for less money. how does that make any sense?
i want to stand as a signpost to anyone stuck in these "careers" to tell them its okay to let it go. its okay to find something better. its okay to do something outside of what you know, and for fuck's sake stop wasting money on dumb things. i draw whatever and post whatever and furry art has become so much more relaxing and enjoyable. i make youtube videos for fun and they're already coming out so much better and i can actually put love and passion into them. and i sell on ebay on the side, mostly at low prices to redistribute the large amounts of 2nd hand stuff i get for cheap.
i hope one day soon i'm gonna wake up and this nightmare of corporatization of furry, the inflation of ebay, and SEO spam choking the internet is all gone. i hope you'll join me in making that world a reality.
this journal is about the rise of two kinds of "careers" that not only ruin the fun via bloat and advertisements for the others in the space, but burn those with the career out on something they used to love. Furry commissions, ebay selling and YouTube. You can't avoid all the YCH slots in the browsing submissions tab and begging for commissions journals. half of youtube search results are either the most boring person talking about something they barely understand or essentially just SEO spam. Don't sven get me started on the price gouging taking place on ebay and it fucking up all kinds of second-hand markets that were casually using ebay sold listings to try and price things only to get greedy when ebay sellers faked sales to raise their ratings and try to convince people to pay higher and higher prices. I've done all three of these, I know what this nightmare is like to live. and its no wonder that AI has moved in on trying to take over these spaces, these burnt out husks make outsiders think there's any money in it, and the lazy will always try to take advantage of that.
please, for gosh sakes stop. just stop. this is unsustainable not only for you, but for these communities. people are afraid of joining furry because they think they need all this stuff to get started, stuff you're selling URGENTLY because your car broke down again since you trap yourself in a 2010s car don't take care of and you can't fix instead of something older you could, or your rent is due and you can't afford it because you keep buying the same shooting game reskinned over and over for consoles that nobody can tell apart anymore. You're better than this and you know it. Your disability isn't an excuse, either.
Look. there's more than shitty fast food and retail. find something you could care about. do that. pick a trade, there's a lot of them. and they're always looking for apprentices. you're automatically a million times cooler if you have skills and you can help your friends with them. oh no some bully meanie with different politics might be there. yeah, that's life, people disagree and don't understand issues. what else is new. get over it, treat them like a person, and be the one who changes their mind by proving their bigotry wrong over time. if you keep running scared, you're never going to get anywhere. you're letting what our queer foreparents fought for slip away and honestly that just sucks.
then you know what? you have more money, that trade should make you feel energized and confident, and you will be able to do better for yourself and what you're passionate about. this way of doing things is killing you and its killing your output and you know it. you're not proud of what you make anymore. be honest with yourself. and you're not even making minimum wage in the same hours, you're working more and more stressfully for less money. how does that make any sense?
i want to stand as a signpost to anyone stuck in these "careers" to tell them its okay to let it go. its okay to find something better. its okay to do something outside of what you know, and for fuck's sake stop wasting money on dumb things. i draw whatever and post whatever and furry art has become so much more relaxing and enjoyable. i make youtube videos for fun and they're already coming out so much better and i can actually put love and passion into them. and i sell on ebay on the side, mostly at low prices to redistribute the large amounts of 2nd hand stuff i get for cheap.
i hope one day soon i'm gonna wake up and this nightmare of corporatization of furry, the inflation of ebay, and SEO spam choking the internet is all gone. i hope you'll join me in making that world a reality.
Digicams
Posted 4 months agoLately you must have noticed i've been posting a lot of digicam photos. several different cameras, as the make and model are always listed in the description. but perhaps you wonder what i mean when i call them "digicams". Its a slang term from the beginning of digital cameras to differentiate it from the still video cameras from which they diverged. the newest digicam i've been using is 2004. some of them are actually miniDV camcorders utilizing the multimedia card.
Ruffle
Posted 4 months agoSo I'm periodically looking at old fursuit photos from years ago on here and I've come across the old flash uploads being augmented by this thing called "ruffle". it doesn't seem to want to work on my ipad, does anyone who knows more about this stuff know the best way to access these submission?
thx in advance!
thx in advance!
Fursuits and stuff
Posted 5 months agoRecently I've been deep-diving the fursuit tags on here and faving a bunch of old fursuits and old photos of them. Research! The old methods of construction fascinate me, its part the accessibility ofg "hey i could make that", but also I have commissioned back in 2019 and i am personally terrified of getting as involved as i want to be in physical performance at the risk of the $3,000 cat. No, I am not talking about murrsuiting. She's so perfectly done I'm afraid of a seam getting knocked loose or dealing with a broken ear or something of that nature. Somehow she lost her whiskers, I still don't know how (but as whiskers are a slang term for facial hair I am kinda glad they're gone even though that played no part in my asking for the suit to have them in the furst place.) and I don't want anything else to get messed up. SO, incomes the idea that's been kicking around in the back of my head for a long time. Why don't I just make one exactly the way I want it?
Some considerations:
Vision: my gauge for vision is that I want to be able to drive my cars while wearing the head. based on how the border collie head's vision came out last i made my own, i believe this is doable. Mind you, this is practically defined by being able to see around as the car moves forward, and to do some basic maneuvers in a parking lot with no other cars around. If the vision can do this to my standards, it will be able to do anything and everything else i'd want to do with it.
Style: I'm going after my current drawing style with this. I like the edgy symboly, pointed, and detail-oriented way I draw, and bringing it into 3D would bring me a lot of joy. The hair is a very important aspect. And overall, the design being rotoscope-friendly is a priority. and of course, i want to be a bit of a show-off with the kind of stuff i'm doing in sewing so i'm excited to hand-sew the rosettes.
Materials: I want to make a carved foam block head one of these days, but right now i'm going with a mesh and foam base. Jo-ann fabrics got some good fur so i got some in colors closer to my current colors. The feetpaws for my morefurless are built on some velcro sneakers, and i started thinking to myself based on my old plans to use a pair of converse i'd worn well and there's no color i have that i would feel like goes in these paws. at leaste none that are at the point in their wear life that i'd consider the usage. nay, these feetpaws are getting built out of a pair of 1970s leather dress shoes which had been nearly worn-out and patched up.
That's what i've got going on the right front burner right now.
Some considerations:
Vision: my gauge for vision is that I want to be able to drive my cars while wearing the head. based on how the border collie head's vision came out last i made my own, i believe this is doable. Mind you, this is practically defined by being able to see around as the car moves forward, and to do some basic maneuvers in a parking lot with no other cars around. If the vision can do this to my standards, it will be able to do anything and everything else i'd want to do with it.
Style: I'm going after my current drawing style with this. I like the edgy symboly, pointed, and detail-oriented way I draw, and bringing it into 3D would bring me a lot of joy. The hair is a very important aspect. And overall, the design being rotoscope-friendly is a priority. and of course, i want to be a bit of a show-off with the kind of stuff i'm doing in sewing so i'm excited to hand-sew the rosettes.
Materials: I want to make a carved foam block head one of these days, but right now i'm going with a mesh and foam base. Jo-ann fabrics got some good fur so i got some in colors closer to my current colors. The feetpaws for my morefurless are built on some velcro sneakers, and i started thinking to myself based on my old plans to use a pair of converse i'd worn well and there's no color i have that i would feel like goes in these paws. at leaste none that are at the point in their wear life that i'd consider the usage. nay, these feetpaws are getting built out of a pair of 1970s leather dress shoes which had been nearly worn-out and patched up.
That's what i've got going on the right front burner right now.
Dec 1
Posted 5 months agoDo ALL the deer furs turn into reindeer in December, or just some of them?
Mow
Posted 6 months agomow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow mow
Its MY Birthday today
Posted 6 months agoyeah mwahaha today's the day i became everyone's problem 29 years ago. Now you're stuck with me! What're you gonna do about it, huh? You gonna be nice to me and wish me a happy birthday, nerd? Gonna be all "wow Miranda you're so cool and we love you"? I mean, you don't have to, I know its true already. Short of the usual stuff on my list, if you wanna get me something then create something today that breaks free of your typical comfort zone. If you draw digitally, finish something in pencil and paper. Do a clay. Make a video, buy a tape camcorder. If you're already shooting film, be less of a perfectionist and let loose on a roll like its going out of style.You know, that sort of thing. And try acting out your fursona deeper than them just being a starbucks barista because that's your job or whatever, if that applies to you. Be extra and unappologetically Furry on this day of my birth and absolutely nothing else important whatsoever (unless someone else has a birthday then that is important too, but I don't know anybody else who does.). I will be just riding it out here, but please do show me there's still some hope in this dumb post-covid world, will ya?
description wasteland
Posted 6 months agosomething i've noticed in the past few years is how empty a lot of artwork descriptions have gotten. like, i get it you can't say much about a base pose ych that's mass produced. but you COULD link to the commissioner's Fur Affinity gallery at least. This has gotten especially bad with twitter since i assume the deals are going on there and this is just the dumping ground back end for these production line artists. y'know, the ones who spam everything with the barely-different variations and a million of essentially the same picture where all the cats and ferrets and birds look like misshapen dogs. obviously, you can have a fave subject and type of pose, that's cool. i found a user that makes me laugh because he uploads pictures of paw patrol characters eating things and its just a big blob of color for a stomach with a traced version of the product art for a head. I just want to see other furs TRY, okay? I want them to be themselves and not boring and corporate uwu chuds. Sometimes i see the description and its just fucking SEO spam as if that actually effected anything. like come the fuck on, you're an artist not a fucking crypto dropshipping grifter, have some integrity.
look, the description doesn't have to be an eloquent ramble about flowers and bulgey-wulgies. and the art doesn't have to be groundbreaking or even significantly different from your previous pieces and/or extremely time consuming. sometimes all i've got is a couple of words to give some context of why this picture of my fursona in her underwear is different from that picture of my fursona in her underwear. just be genuine, y'know? this is where we are supposed to be able to escape from normies grinding us into perfectionist corporate uwu workers, not for some of y'all to repeat that cycle of abuse upon the rest of us. Let your art take on the animal within, and kill the cop/perfectionist/human/boss in your head that's telling you not to let it.
I post this stuff like this not to lament its happening and leave it at that. Its supposed to piss you off and make you consider how you're doing things. Do you fall into these ruts because you hadn't really thought about it, or perhaps just joined up and assumed this is just how its done? Its easy to do, and its also easy to to better than that and make the page your own. You'll make a lot more friends in this community if you be yourself instead of trying to live up to expectations that do not exist.
look, the description doesn't have to be an eloquent ramble about flowers and bulgey-wulgies. and the art doesn't have to be groundbreaking or even significantly different from your previous pieces and/or extremely time consuming. sometimes all i've got is a couple of words to give some context of why this picture of my fursona in her underwear is different from that picture of my fursona in her underwear. just be genuine, y'know? this is where we are supposed to be able to escape from normies grinding us into perfectionist corporate uwu workers, not for some of y'all to repeat that cycle of abuse upon the rest of us. Let your art take on the animal within, and kill the cop/perfectionist/human/boss in your head that's telling you not to let it.
I post this stuff like this not to lament its happening and leave it at that. Its supposed to piss you off and make you consider how you're doing things. Do you fall into these ruts because you hadn't really thought about it, or perhaps just joined up and assumed this is just how its done? Its easy to do, and its also easy to to better than that and make the page your own. You'll make a lot more friends in this community if you be yourself instead of trying to live up to expectations that do not exist.
Stagnation?
Posted 7 months agoHas anyone else noticed this? When you go browsing through pages on here, there's a lot of extremely identical pieces, mostly full-body with no background in a fairly generic pose like you'd see on the old tumblr/deviantART base pages. there's not much different between them, there's no special attention given to clothes or props, just enough that you know what it is.
and where have the sequences gone? there were some REALLY HOT sequences in kinks like vore, TF and weight gain, but now they're all just one picture with a "poof" between, or the same base with small tweaks. That's what i did years and years ago when i tried it the first time because i wasn't able to picture the stuff between, but that stuff in between is the best part! you get to watch the character go through a series of emotions and circumstances that bring the sequence to life. ambivalence like these new lazy pieces are not interesting. what's causing this? is it the influx of specific-commission artists who just make a template and modify it over and over? y'all know this is exactly what AI does and could replace, right?
i look at stuff through a big-picture lens, that's the way i am. stuff exists and it affects how other things exists and vice versa and so on and so forth. i see how trends come and go and project into the future based on what's happened in history. i saw bigger weirder fantasies had and more interesting pieces done, and i'm seeing an uncomfortable amount of shame of fantasies and shoddy production line stuff being put out.
there's no wrong way to do art, of course. i'm not saying to stop drawing similar poses. hell, i do that myself a lot in self-portraits because i use them as bases to get into fashion design and how colors mix. i'm saying put some extra effort in and put some weird lines you just have a gut feeling should be there. i'm suggesting dream big, don't be ashamed, and be okay with the end result being illustrated instead of lived. i'm telling you to stop letting bullies that got into our community shame you into hiding again.
the more intricate and unashamed a kink piece is, the more of the fantasy is lived out. the more of the fantasy is lived out, the less likely one could be to seek it out irl. for me, i'm really into the fantasy of weight gain. i love the thought of getting so large and falling in love with my growing tummy, being soft and others loving how soft i am so they keep feeding me making me even softer. When the art didn't meet what i felt like i needed, and back when my drawing skills weren't up to it, i took it to irl to feel what i wanted to feel......and i've regretted it ever since. i hate being fat, its made thing i love to do more difficult and ruined a lot of the fun i have in a non-sexual passion of vintage fashion because now nothing fits. i knew someone who wanted to get eaten by a whale because his vore kink was too strong, but he ended up becoming a huge vore artist who dealt in detail so i suppose it paid off and hope he's found it better.
i know writing a journal isn't going to fix this issue at large. but what i can do is be someone who makes the kind of art i want to see and inspire others to make their art more elaborate and personalized in the process. so that's what i'll do.
in conclusion, fuck gentrification of communities, fuck prude losers who take their self-imposed shame out on others who are proud of how weird they are, and fuck capitalism and its commodification of our artistic expression.
and where have the sequences gone? there were some REALLY HOT sequences in kinks like vore, TF and weight gain, but now they're all just one picture with a "poof" between, or the same base with small tweaks. That's what i did years and years ago when i tried it the first time because i wasn't able to picture the stuff between, but that stuff in between is the best part! you get to watch the character go through a series of emotions and circumstances that bring the sequence to life. ambivalence like these new lazy pieces are not interesting. what's causing this? is it the influx of specific-commission artists who just make a template and modify it over and over? y'all know this is exactly what AI does and could replace, right?
i look at stuff through a big-picture lens, that's the way i am. stuff exists and it affects how other things exists and vice versa and so on and so forth. i see how trends come and go and project into the future based on what's happened in history. i saw bigger weirder fantasies had and more interesting pieces done, and i'm seeing an uncomfortable amount of shame of fantasies and shoddy production line stuff being put out.
there's no wrong way to do art, of course. i'm not saying to stop drawing similar poses. hell, i do that myself a lot in self-portraits because i use them as bases to get into fashion design and how colors mix. i'm saying put some extra effort in and put some weird lines you just have a gut feeling should be there. i'm suggesting dream big, don't be ashamed, and be okay with the end result being illustrated instead of lived. i'm telling you to stop letting bullies that got into our community shame you into hiding again.
the more intricate and unashamed a kink piece is, the more of the fantasy is lived out. the more of the fantasy is lived out, the less likely one could be to seek it out irl. for me, i'm really into the fantasy of weight gain. i love the thought of getting so large and falling in love with my growing tummy, being soft and others loving how soft i am so they keep feeding me making me even softer. When the art didn't meet what i felt like i needed, and back when my drawing skills weren't up to it, i took it to irl to feel what i wanted to feel......and i've regretted it ever since. i hate being fat, its made thing i love to do more difficult and ruined a lot of the fun i have in a non-sexual passion of vintage fashion because now nothing fits. i knew someone who wanted to get eaten by a whale because his vore kink was too strong, but he ended up becoming a huge vore artist who dealt in detail so i suppose it paid off and hope he's found it better.
i know writing a journal isn't going to fix this issue at large. but what i can do is be someone who makes the kind of art i want to see and inspire others to make their art more elaborate and personalized in the process. so that's what i'll do.
in conclusion, fuck gentrification of communities, fuck prude losers who take their self-imposed shame out on others who are proud of how weird they are, and fuck capitalism and its commodification of our artistic expression.
Where Do We Go From Here
Posted 7 months agoIts a bit of a hot topic I've noticed lately to give some thoughts about the future and what's going on and all that jazz. If asked, I give one of two wildly different answers depending on how I'm asked. Distinction is VERY IMPORTANT.
"What will the future be like?"
"What would you want the future to be like?"
These trigger two VERY different reactions. Sure, my answer for one is actually the same as the other, but when asked out of the blue, the former elicits a different feeling than the later. The former becomes clouded with how everything feels wrong due to events 3 years ago out of my control and I'm exceedingly doom and gloom about my outlook and can't be much else until a certain fox gets off her butt and exercise ball and makes good. So you'll have me go on and on about the misery of the nonsense of the 2010s and its bleed over into the 2020s and post-covid cowardice and blah blah blah because that's all anything feels like and its where I'm trapped until, well, like I said.
But realistically, I know the future is better than that. I know that all that shit I have my grievances with is unsustainable and will fade to gone as it should. The stuff I like is the stuff that makes sense, and things are in place to keep that sustainable too while also meeting the needs of the people. Etc etc etc. And thank fuck that world is inherently queer so there's nothing to even consider being afraid of like some kind of braindead eggboy would be.
Anyways, I've already done a manifesto's worth of ranting on these subjects across the 3 websites internet so I won't bore you with rehashing the details here. Now, if you'll excuse me, I've got a fursuit to plan, some electronics to fix, a couple videos to tape, a product to research, a shirt to sew, and a big plush dog to snuggle in nothing but my underwear.
Till we bark again
"What will the future be like?"
"What would you want the future to be like?"
These trigger two VERY different reactions. Sure, my answer for one is actually the same as the other, but when asked out of the blue, the former elicits a different feeling than the later. The former becomes clouded with how everything feels wrong due to events 3 years ago out of my control and I'm exceedingly doom and gloom about my outlook and can't be much else until a certain fox gets off her butt and exercise ball and makes good. So you'll have me go on and on about the misery of the nonsense of the 2010s and its bleed over into the 2020s and post-covid cowardice and blah blah blah because that's all anything feels like and its where I'm trapped until, well, like I said.
But realistically, I know the future is better than that. I know that all that shit I have my grievances with is unsustainable and will fade to gone as it should. The stuff I like is the stuff that makes sense, and things are in place to keep that sustainable too while also meeting the needs of the people. Etc etc etc. And thank fuck that world is inherently queer so there's nothing to even consider being afraid of like some kind of braindead eggboy would be.
Anyways, I've already done a manifesto's worth of ranting on these subjects across the 3 websites internet so I won't bore you with rehashing the details here. Now, if you'll excuse me, I've got a fursuit to plan, some electronics to fix, a couple videos to tape, a product to research, a shirt to sew, and a big plush dog to snuggle in nothing but my underwear.
Till we bark again
Kinktober
Posted 8 months agoOkay so lemme start this off by saying I'm using the theming to do more personal kink works rather than taking commissions, and this is the only place you'll hear me calling that this.
But I've found that I've been drawing a lot of fashion lately, and posting a lot of photos, but not so much like, kink stuff. I miss it, y'know? And I'd love to be able to delve in more where I've been a bit shy to in the past. So I'm gonna be pushing myself a lil this October to make more kink art that has more going on. What's the pooltoy doing, who's there to see me in my undies, what's so much fun about wearing diapers, what am i doing/eating to get so fat, transformation sequences both giving and receiving with reactions, so on and so forth.
Feel free to suggest some stuff in the comments here because I wanna gather a bunch of inspiration.
But I've found that I've been drawing a lot of fashion lately, and posting a lot of photos, but not so much like, kink stuff. I miss it, y'know? And I'd love to be able to delve in more where I've been a bit shy to in the past. So I'm gonna be pushing myself a lil this October to make more kink art that has more going on. What's the pooltoy doing, who's there to see me in my undies, what's so much fun about wearing diapers, what am i doing/eating to get so fat, transformation sequences both giving and receiving with reactions, so on and so forth.
Feel free to suggest some stuff in the comments here because I wanna gather a bunch of inspiration.
Bluesky
Posted 8 months agoAfter lamenting it for a while because i still had a bad taste in my mouth over twitter and was pretty chill with just mastodon, i made an account with bluesky.
But then, when I was finally getting into the swing of it, it logged me out and won't accept my password to log back in. It was doing this with the app earlier and I had decided to just use it on desktop (that way it wouldn't have the potential to become twitter again via sheer accessibility) but now I can't log in at all. The email its supposed to send to let me reset the password hasn't arrived yet despite it being about 24 hours at this point
Come to think of it, it displayed my email within settings as "-gmai.com" missing the "l" in "gmail" I wonder if that's part of the problem, but i couldn't edit it while logged in so it doesn't seem like that would have been helpful in preventing this on my end, hopefully the devs see this while its still small and can help out. That's my username that I used there. Sure I have two variants, but I choose whether I want the descriptor or the verb of "snepperstep" based on how I want to approach the platform. I can't just use the other one now that I've begun forming an opinion and perspective. And I'm not about to pull another one out of thin air, that's my interpersonal identity online that I feel comfortable using to sign into those places since my fursona's name IS MY ACTUAL NAME and I don't like being a person name account. (fwiw, Fur Affinity, if i could change my username so I wouldn't have to abandon what I've been painstakingly building here since 2010, I'd use SnepperStepping because its seeing what I've felt and made and done in review by proxy. the steps like footprints being seeked by a noir private eye in a trench coat and fedora holding a magnifying glass. SnepperStepper, like my mastodon, is more personal than proxy. I AM the snepper stepper who IS snepper stepping and LEAVING the snepper steps. i have that name there because i intend to keep is small.)
So over all, I liked it a lot and I know that getting a platform off the ground takes a lot of work and the team has a lot on their plate in these early days so I'm not mad or anything or think they're doing a bad job. But from this perspective on the site what I'd really like to see them do. *wikifur can take some notes on this too with their asinine ban-on-signup spam prevention policy requiring DMing a mod on twitter ~which elon permabanned me from because i spit facts about how dangerous and scammy teslas are~ which is a fucking scavenger hunt to even figure out in the first place* --- There needs to be an email-based contact for the devs and support run by a person so someone in my position can contact them about this. there needs to be a way to edit the email from inside the account, probably with the use of the password for verification. i'd prefer to keep it phone-number-free so there needs to be something else for verification and definitely a way to actually contact them. Twitter sucked because you couldn't contact anybody there to actually get any help except maybe from the inside by tweeting them, which is insane, especially with all the money they made from those same users they wouldn't help by selling their data. Twitter also got too big for their own britches, which is why that knucklehead bought it in the first place, it was a power move. Bluesky is gonna want to stay middle-sized at most, and with all the different platforms that sprung forth since twitter's own personal 9/11 i think that's not only okay but ideal in making it unique and special, the kind of place you can get "pee" and "piss" trending at 2am us time alongside a bunch of german stuff, or 9/11 jokes because its absolutely insane the contrast we, the generation who saw it happen on live tv between episodes of blues clues, have witnessed in the years that followed without getting some up-and-coming puriteen screaming at us, where there's no need for replyguys or bots clogging up posts like a cgi artery in a plaque reduction medication commercial, or in-fighting because everyone's takes are for their friends not for the world, and where the nazis really won't even bother with it because it won't gain them any sizable platform they can abuse. Genuinely, and this is coming from a self-professed anti-social-media advocate who wants everyone to go the fuck outside and make real world queer spaces to visit instead of doing it online; Bluesky, in the short few days I had access, felt like the golden days that made me fall in love with Twitter way back when and meet all the friends I love to this day, when the world i knew wasn't a fucking disaster and maybe just maybe I'd be happy and have a good life if i could just get that appointment to get those hormones and drive there in my 1969 Cadillac Fleetwood Brougham which I restored myself to get them feeling like a glamorous star AND a dorky hipster beatnik at the same time. cest la vie.
But then, when I was finally getting into the swing of it, it logged me out and won't accept my password to log back in. It was doing this with the app earlier and I had decided to just use it on desktop (that way it wouldn't have the potential to become twitter again via sheer accessibility) but now I can't log in at all. The email its supposed to send to let me reset the password hasn't arrived yet despite it being about 24 hours at this point
Come to think of it, it displayed my email within settings as "-gmai.com" missing the "l" in "gmail" I wonder if that's part of the problem, but i couldn't edit it while logged in so it doesn't seem like that would have been helpful in preventing this on my end, hopefully the devs see this while its still small and can help out. That's my username that I used there. Sure I have two variants, but I choose whether I want the descriptor or the verb of "snepperstep" based on how I want to approach the platform. I can't just use the other one now that I've begun forming an opinion and perspective. And I'm not about to pull another one out of thin air, that's my interpersonal identity online that I feel comfortable using to sign into those places since my fursona's name IS MY ACTUAL NAME and I don't like being a person name account. (fwiw, Fur Affinity, if i could change my username so I wouldn't have to abandon what I've been painstakingly building here since 2010, I'd use SnepperStepping because its seeing what I've felt and made and done in review by proxy. the steps like footprints being seeked by a noir private eye in a trench coat and fedora holding a magnifying glass. SnepperStepper, like my mastodon, is more personal than proxy. I AM the snepper stepper who IS snepper stepping and LEAVING the snepper steps. i have that name there because i intend to keep is small.)
So over all, I liked it a lot and I know that getting a platform off the ground takes a lot of work and the team has a lot on their plate in these early days so I'm not mad or anything or think they're doing a bad job. But from this perspective on the site what I'd really like to see them do. *wikifur can take some notes on this too with their asinine ban-on-signup spam prevention policy requiring DMing a mod on twitter ~which elon permabanned me from because i spit facts about how dangerous and scammy teslas are~ which is a fucking scavenger hunt to even figure out in the first place* --- There needs to be an email-based contact for the devs and support run by a person so someone in my position can contact them about this. there needs to be a way to edit the email from inside the account, probably with the use of the password for verification. i'd prefer to keep it phone-number-free so there needs to be something else for verification and definitely a way to actually contact them. Twitter sucked because you couldn't contact anybody there to actually get any help except maybe from the inside by tweeting them, which is insane, especially with all the money they made from those same users they wouldn't help by selling their data. Twitter also got too big for their own britches, which is why that knucklehead bought it in the first place, it was a power move. Bluesky is gonna want to stay middle-sized at most, and with all the different platforms that sprung forth since twitter's own personal 9/11 i think that's not only okay but ideal in making it unique and special, the kind of place you can get "pee" and "piss" trending at 2am us time alongside a bunch of german stuff, or 9/11 jokes because its absolutely insane the contrast we, the generation who saw it happen on live tv between episodes of blues clues, have witnessed in the years that followed without getting some up-and-coming puriteen screaming at us, where there's no need for replyguys or bots clogging up posts like a cgi artery in a plaque reduction medication commercial, or in-fighting because everyone's takes are for their friends not for the world, and where the nazis really won't even bother with it because it won't gain them any sizable platform they can abuse. Genuinely, and this is coming from a self-professed anti-social-media advocate who wants everyone to go the fuck outside and make real world queer spaces to visit instead of doing it online; Bluesky, in the short few days I had access, felt like the golden days that made me fall in love with Twitter way back when and meet all the friends I love to this day, when the world i knew wasn't a fucking disaster and maybe just maybe I'd be happy and have a good life if i could just get that appointment to get those hormones and drive there in my 1969 Cadillac Fleetwood Brougham which I restored myself to get them feeling like a glamorous star AND a dorky hipster beatnik at the same time. cest la vie.
Love/hate, did it ever used to be great
Posted 8 months agoIts conflicting, you know? WERE things actually better, or did we develop the image of what was in hindsight having a clearer picture? You know how I am. So it might be surprising to you to know that yeah, I believe that we paint a picture of what could've should've and would've to make yesterday better, while today faces the same unknowns of the future that yesterday did when it was the day before's tomorrow. I've been doing some reflecting on things more personal to me than times I didn't live through and compare/contrasting times I did live through with my experiences of it. I've come to realize that when we're going through something we are less involved in those specifics and its more about some other thing we may not even consider anymore. Looking at an earlier point in my life, back when I was posting on this account the first time around and I was deeply concerned with finding a romantic partner. It consumed me, I felt like I needed everyone to know I was gay and all that. What that guided me on was sketchbook after sketchbook of comics and drawings and all kinds of characters that never saw posting on here because I was afflicted with the perfectionist bug which made me believe that if I posted "unfinished" works, people wouldn't like me or it would "tank my reputation". Of course, that all comes with reflection because what I was going through at the time was a massive amount of depression and gender dysphoria that manifested in giving up on everything I wanted to do in life or even just for fun and retreating from my family and friends because I didn't feel like "he" deserved any love or kindness. Now I just think he's one of those idiots in those movies where the entire conflict happens because two characters miscommunicated and then can't just fucking sit down together and talk about it so a bunch or crazy bullshit happens and.....
I digress.
These thoughts surfaced again today while I had some video about the Y2k aesthetic on during lunch. I've always had mixed feelings about it but couldn't figure out why. I like it, its visually pleasing and there's a lot of elements that I like a whole lot. (tbh that's like, high-2010s for me. I just never got any of that locally, only the shitty grayscale placeholder hellhole that erased everything from before it. I dig those hexagon lights and the light strips and stuff but all that ever showed up were those miserable podcars and the horrible cheap led lightbulbs and i just want my mean metal machines powered by explosions and warm- literally and visually - incandescent bulbs back.) But I didn't get much of that either. I've always lived in a sort of cultural liminal space, and if I'm being honest I like that sort of space because I'm very much the culture clean-up crew and enjoy keeping the flame and making art out of junk. In my parents' house it was still the 80s in the 90s; still the 90s in the 2000s; still the 2000s in the 2010s, etc.
But what I realized is that I'm not into the Y2k aesthetic so much because its everything that replaced the stuff I am intimately involved with beyond nostalgia into genuine passion such as film, video tape, audio tape, public phones and pre-computer techniques of creation. Y2K signaled the end of all that by replacing it with digital, DVDs, CDs, cellphones and wide-spread software. Those things aren't inherently bad and I have the interest in aspects like early software for windows 95/98/me/2000/xp/nt, DVD bonus features, and CDs as a medium. But every aspect of it, especially the latter, is just not nearly as interesting as the comparative scope of their predecessors in my opinion.
But I also realize that living with it kinda sucks if you NEED IT NOW. There's maintenance. There's cleaning. There's very specific things you should not do especially if you are prone a certain way. You have to be very aware of yourself and re-organize your life to some degree. If you get into it out of genuine interest, you will do this without a second thought. If you are interested out of pure nostalgia, you will be sorely disappointed.
So what now, right? Maybe the 2020s has something interesting to offer by the end of it having lived through it, but for now its just the worst part of the 2010s, people who can't see the actual, answer is right under their nose and that the actual problem isn't other people but rather capitalism and the way people treat one another under it. But I don't have the time to get political. What I do have the time for is to tell you that you can actually build that past time you genuinely believe in around you, and its actually a lot easier than you think it'll be. Sometimes it comes in stages, sometimes it will come all at once, and sometimes it won't come at all but those are the times you'll find something even better waiting for you on the other side of the disappointment.
I digress.
These thoughts surfaced again today while I had some video about the Y2k aesthetic on during lunch. I've always had mixed feelings about it but couldn't figure out why. I like it, its visually pleasing and there's a lot of elements that I like a whole lot. (tbh that's like, high-2010s for me. I just never got any of that locally, only the shitty grayscale placeholder hellhole that erased everything from before it. I dig those hexagon lights and the light strips and stuff but all that ever showed up were those miserable podcars and the horrible cheap led lightbulbs and i just want my mean metal machines powered by explosions and warm- literally and visually - incandescent bulbs back.) But I didn't get much of that either. I've always lived in a sort of cultural liminal space, and if I'm being honest I like that sort of space because I'm very much the culture clean-up crew and enjoy keeping the flame and making art out of junk. In my parents' house it was still the 80s in the 90s; still the 90s in the 2000s; still the 2000s in the 2010s, etc.
But what I realized is that I'm not into the Y2k aesthetic so much because its everything that replaced the stuff I am intimately involved with beyond nostalgia into genuine passion such as film, video tape, audio tape, public phones and pre-computer techniques of creation. Y2K signaled the end of all that by replacing it with digital, DVDs, CDs, cellphones and wide-spread software. Those things aren't inherently bad and I have the interest in aspects like early software for windows 95/98/me/2000/xp/nt, DVD bonus features, and CDs as a medium. But every aspect of it, especially the latter, is just not nearly as interesting as the comparative scope of their predecessors in my opinion.
But I also realize that living with it kinda sucks if you NEED IT NOW. There's maintenance. There's cleaning. There's very specific things you should not do especially if you are prone a certain way. You have to be very aware of yourself and re-organize your life to some degree. If you get into it out of genuine interest, you will do this without a second thought. If you are interested out of pure nostalgia, you will be sorely disappointed.
So what now, right? Maybe the 2020s has something interesting to offer by the end of it having lived through it, but for now its just the worst part of the 2010s, people who can't see the actual, answer is right under their nose and that the actual problem isn't other people but rather capitalism and the way people treat one another under it. But I don't have the time to get political. What I do have the time for is to tell you that you can actually build that past time you genuinely believe in around you, and its actually a lot easier than you think it'll be. Sometimes it comes in stages, sometimes it will come all at once, and sometimes it won't come at all but those are the times you'll find something even better waiting for you on the other side of the disappointment.
Animation
Posted 8 months agoY'know I haven't seen much around lately. I don't really count that thing that started with late family guy where everything is lazy and barely moves and could have been a generic sitcom with flesh and blood actors without changing anything as animation, fwiw. and the cgi stuff makes it difficult to tell what's what. Its not that I see computer animation as lesser, but when I'm looking for something to inspire, say, claymation stuff if I can't tell if its actually physical clay or not I don't get what I'm looking for out of it. I'm self-taught with everything I pick up while getting pointers here and there from people who have been doing that kind of thing for a while. Often when I've been at something for a while the inspiration comes from a much wider and less-related pool of stuff, but when I'm just getting started with it the more related and specific the inspiration the better. I mean, I've just made the first somewhat fluid bouncing ball animation I've ever done last week. I'm still on the basics. And claymation I'm still getting the shapes down. I've had some experience half-assing this stuff a loooong time ago, what with the Cold Case delorean episode ending that use to be on youtube before they took it down for having that cyndi lauper song in it that i made in what like 2010 or something and all the clay play from when I was a kid, but gosh is it all so rusty. Besides, what did survive of my initial attempts at animation (and not much did) its all pretty much on par with that lazy faux-imation and I'm not happy with it whatsoever. I know I've got the theory in there right and good since I've had an eye for it all my life, and I did pretty good with the Disney Magic Artist DeLuxe CD-ROM animation 101, lol.
Sometimes it makes me want to actually be into bondage or something because thanks to ADHD I tend to be a bit distracted while I work on stuff and that cuts sessions short on anything I'm doing before I have to start another session. Imagining it like I'm tied up or something and enjoying it might have worked but not being able to move my arms being very much not okay made sure bondage is not my jam and never will be. At least not being the one who is tied up, anyways. But this is not a journal about that~
But yeah, I wonder what else could be done. Maybe something with Transformation? Perhaps Inflation somehow??? dunno.
Sometimes it makes me want to actually be into bondage or something because thanks to ADHD I tend to be a bit distracted while I work on stuff and that cuts sessions short on anything I'm doing before I have to start another session. Imagining it like I'm tied up or something and enjoying it might have worked but not being able to move my arms being very much not okay made sure bondage is not my jam and never will be. At least not being the one who is tied up, anyways. But this is not a journal about that~
But yeah, I wonder what else could be done. Maybe something with Transformation? Perhaps Inflation somehow??? dunno.
Content Filter
Posted 9 months agoOkay so I did a bit of an experiment, because I know in the past I've gotten a lot of views on underwear pics but recently not so much. I'd started putting them under "mature" because imo its just easier to have all the kink stuff I draw under that and pay it no further mind. But i'd get less than otherwise.
Keep in mind I don't do this for the views and usually I'm getting less than 100 views on stuff, maybe because its not generic digital stuff, maybe because I don't promote on social media, i don't care. I draw and create because I love doing it; and I create for myself, not an audience.
So after that typical lackluster performance I switched the most recent two to "General" because they didn't include bulges or anything so its one of those so-kink-its-less-inherently-sexual deals. Wouldn't you know it they pulled the usual numbers from before? Like fuck, I thought this site was by default full of kinky fuckers who kept the filter on NSFW, but apparently there's a lot of PRUDES running around with it set to SFW only.
[Insert my usual rant about how the sanitization of furry in recent years to try to convince normies we're like them for some godforsaken reason instead of owning being weirdos has really diluted the energy here and in queer spaces in general to where its almost like the spaces that used to be raw, artsy, sexual and inherently counterculture were redesigned for children and people who otherwise have nothing to do with us to occupy our space which is how you get labeled as "creeps" and infested with "nazzys" in the first place......]
Anyways this is just an observation about all this stuff that's been on my mind and results from a little test. Hope it makes ya think.
Keep furry weird, and keep it unmarketable (and yes that includes generic digital ych commission stuff- buy from artists that care about their work, not just simplify a process for profit!) because that's how we'll keep it around.
Keep in mind I don't do this for the views and usually I'm getting less than 100 views on stuff, maybe because its not generic digital stuff, maybe because I don't promote on social media, i don't care. I draw and create because I love doing it; and I create for myself, not an audience.
So after that typical lackluster performance I switched the most recent two to "General" because they didn't include bulges or anything so its one of those so-kink-its-less-inherently-sexual deals. Wouldn't you know it they pulled the usual numbers from before? Like fuck, I thought this site was by default full of kinky fuckers who kept the filter on NSFW, but apparently there's a lot of PRUDES running around with it set to SFW only.
[Insert my usual rant about how the sanitization of furry in recent years to try to convince normies we're like them for some godforsaken reason instead of owning being weirdos has really diluted the energy here and in queer spaces in general to where its almost like the spaces that used to be raw, artsy, sexual and inherently counterculture were redesigned for children and people who otherwise have nothing to do with us to occupy our space which is how you get labeled as "creeps" and infested with "nazzys" in the first place......]
Anyways this is just an observation about all this stuff that's been on my mind and results from a little test. Hope it makes ya think.
Keep furry weird, and keep it unmarketable (and yes that includes generic digital ych commission stuff- buy from artists that care about their work, not just simplify a process for profit!) because that's how we'll keep it around.
Uploads!
Posted 10 months agoYeah, you thought you were safe from seeing my rough work with all the film photos and marker pieces, eh? Well guess again! mwahaha!
I'm Her
Posted 10 months agoWhiling away the hours in castles and ivory towers time is long and late and yet it hasn't sapped away the powers to take back that which was once mine to burn with flames and give a sign that all is well and not forgotten while the eve continues to hotten the eyes the nose the mouth, that smile like the warm embrace of a crocodile a gator with whom i found my love all from below my dearest dove
i know its tacky i know its lame the way i hold this fickle flame like stars shooting off into the night i wish you here with all my might let miles be damned and costs get fucked with a lot of wishing and some good lucked 7 years a stretch no one should suffer away from both and one another on different paths with different lives the interim cutting like a thousand knives
of drinking nights and party drugs the way we swept ourselves under the rug like nothing, like animals not fit for life like a foreign land with hammer and scythe fuck the past and gaze in wonder all the chaos booming like thunder distant now, strumming like fire on this highway overpass in streetlight bathed in orange glow the flick of the tail the turn of the wrist and just like that is how we kissed.
its how we kissed.
it will be okay.
i know its tacky i know its lame the way i hold this fickle flame like stars shooting off into the night i wish you here with all my might let miles be damned and costs get fucked with a lot of wishing and some good lucked 7 years a stretch no one should suffer away from both and one another on different paths with different lives the interim cutting like a thousand knives
of drinking nights and party drugs the way we swept ourselves under the rug like nothing, like animals not fit for life like a foreign land with hammer and scythe fuck the past and gaze in wonder all the chaos booming like thunder distant now, strumming like fire on this highway overpass in streetlight bathed in orange glow the flick of the tail the turn of the wrist and just like that is how we kissed.
its how we kissed.
it will be okay.
Some things I've finished up as of late
Posted 10 months agoI'm someone who has a lot of projects on-paw at any given time. Most have been started then set aside. ADHD is a bitch. But I've been putting serious effort into finishing some of these.
For one thing, all those film photos I uploaded recently are actually from like 2019, but I had sat on them because I didn't know what to make of them. Some recent self-reflection revealed an interesting story to tell, so I finally put the scans online. I consider them started in 2019 and finished in 2023.
Then there's the decade shirt and the as-of-yet-un-posted blanks bowling shirt. As stated in that submission's description, that shirt was started in 2013 and I finally finished it this year. Technically its just shy of a decade as i started in in the autumn, but hey whatever. The bowling shirt sat for only about 4 or 5 years, and now its done too. I got in some other sewing that wasn't quite noteworthy here, like a couple jillows (that's a pillow made out of old jeans legs) some daisy dukes and some scrap doodles. Soft sculpture is fun. Anyways.
Then there's the matter of all my video tapes. I'm in the process of viewing my entire collection to do a sort & purge so everything's out all over the place while I watch and re-box them. Movies are seperate from f\craft tapes and my own home movies were all mixed in and need to be sorted out, etc. That's resulted in a couple of VCR repairs needing doing on some of the less capable models and so that's been slow going since I'm still learning about how those things work. I'm very good at replacing belts, but if there's a capacitor that went bad that's gonna take some doing, y'know?
While in the midst of that, I finally set up my old desktop, which i still prefer to getting a new one. That's handling video tape rips now. But that took some finagling to get going too.
And of course there's the swag lamps. I'd finished a conversion on an old ceiling lamp from the 1970s but used a brass chain and gold cord since that's what I had on-paw. The fixtures on the lamp are brushed nickel. So finally, last night, I threaded the silver cord through the brushed nickel chain (every other rung for flexibility.....) and wired it back up. Its running better than ever over my workbench. And the brass chain is freed up for another swag lamp project which has brass fixtures this time.
My 1970s Sears-Kenmore sewing machine had also been giving me a lot of guff for a while, but that's long since been sorted with some oil and loose bolt tightening.
I finished up reading "Christine" by Stephen King (TWICE), as well as Larry Niven's "Ringworld" and "Ringworld Engineers". I'm still getting my footing back in reading after the aforementioned ADHD took my love for it away many years ago. I used to devour books, and now I'm building that steam back up. Thanks to my buddy douglasfur for sending me some old airport novels, the exact kind of thing that i find endearingly easy to get into. But my ability to picture what I'm reading is coming back so vivid and I'm thrilled!
If you've been on my hub channel on youtube, you'll have seen the new video "Top 10 Grimace", a video that is really meant to get me back into the swing of videomaking and fursuiting and easier with a less perfectionist take on it all. The perfectionism was just ruining the whole thing and if I'm being brutally honest, the sloppiness of a work in the ways that I'm sloppy directly make it more enjoyable to me. Perfection, on the other paw is boring. cest la vie, tel est l'art. You'll also have noticed that the soundtrack sounds professional but also doesn't. Thank my 100-monkeys-at-typewriters approach to music and the 1990s Alesis QS6 my dad gave me when he got a different model for his music studio ages ago. The Yamaha DX-21 will make an appearance at some point too. That roadblock with feeling i had to make specifically perfect pop music or whatever (even though it was 1980s or 1970s pop music and not modern stuff) is demolished and the juices are flowing.
If I had time here I'd go into all the clay and fursuitmaking and plans and this and that, but I really do have to get back to the boringer cleaning part of getting this stuff done. Here's to whatever project breadcrumbs I pick up next.....~
For one thing, all those film photos I uploaded recently are actually from like 2019, but I had sat on them because I didn't know what to make of them. Some recent self-reflection revealed an interesting story to tell, so I finally put the scans online. I consider them started in 2019 and finished in 2023.
Then there's the decade shirt and the as-of-yet-un-posted blanks bowling shirt. As stated in that submission's description, that shirt was started in 2013 and I finally finished it this year. Technically its just shy of a decade as i started in in the autumn, but hey whatever. The bowling shirt sat for only about 4 or 5 years, and now its done too. I got in some other sewing that wasn't quite noteworthy here, like a couple jillows (that's a pillow made out of old jeans legs) some daisy dukes and some scrap doodles. Soft sculpture is fun. Anyways.
Then there's the matter of all my video tapes. I'm in the process of viewing my entire collection to do a sort & purge so everything's out all over the place while I watch and re-box them. Movies are seperate from f\craft tapes and my own home movies were all mixed in and need to be sorted out, etc. That's resulted in a couple of VCR repairs needing doing on some of the less capable models and so that's been slow going since I'm still learning about how those things work. I'm very good at replacing belts, but if there's a capacitor that went bad that's gonna take some doing, y'know?
While in the midst of that, I finally set up my old desktop, which i still prefer to getting a new one. That's handling video tape rips now. But that took some finagling to get going too.
And of course there's the swag lamps. I'd finished a conversion on an old ceiling lamp from the 1970s but used a brass chain and gold cord since that's what I had on-paw. The fixtures on the lamp are brushed nickel. So finally, last night, I threaded the silver cord through the brushed nickel chain (every other rung for flexibility.....) and wired it back up. Its running better than ever over my workbench. And the brass chain is freed up for another swag lamp project which has brass fixtures this time.
My 1970s Sears-Kenmore sewing machine had also been giving me a lot of guff for a while, but that's long since been sorted with some oil and loose bolt tightening.
I finished up reading "Christine" by Stephen King (TWICE), as well as Larry Niven's "Ringworld" and "Ringworld Engineers". I'm still getting my footing back in reading after the aforementioned ADHD took my love for it away many years ago. I used to devour books, and now I'm building that steam back up. Thanks to my buddy douglasfur for sending me some old airport novels, the exact kind of thing that i find endearingly easy to get into. But my ability to picture what I'm reading is coming back so vivid and I'm thrilled!
If you've been on my hub channel on youtube, you'll have seen the new video "Top 10 Grimace", a video that is really meant to get me back into the swing of videomaking and fursuiting and easier with a less perfectionist take on it all. The perfectionism was just ruining the whole thing and if I'm being brutally honest, the sloppiness of a work in the ways that I'm sloppy directly make it more enjoyable to me. Perfection, on the other paw is boring. cest la vie, tel est l'art. You'll also have noticed that the soundtrack sounds professional but also doesn't. Thank my 100-monkeys-at-typewriters approach to music and the 1990s Alesis QS6 my dad gave me when he got a different model for his music studio ages ago. The Yamaha DX-21 will make an appearance at some point too. That roadblock with feeling i had to make specifically perfect pop music or whatever (even though it was 1980s or 1970s pop music and not modern stuff) is demolished and the juices are flowing.
If I had time here I'd go into all the clay and fursuitmaking and plans and this and that, but I really do have to get back to the boringer cleaning part of getting this stuff done. Here's to whatever project breadcrumbs I pick up next.....~