Should I do a raffle??
Posted a year agoI kinda wanna do one but I have no idea how- should I do one???
Clarity
Posted a year agoHello everyone, I had a very bad time recently with the passing of my Nana and the loss of four friends that caused a prolonged manic depression. To add to this I have been without my medication for quite some time which was why I chose to hide. I was deeply unsettled and scared of talking to some people and just wanted to hide.
I believe that this episode is cooling down now but I still need a day or two before I can be certain. Due to my BPD, I tend to suffer from dissociative memory loss and may not remember everything from the last month or so, which is why I tend to hyper-focus on my diaries, but I may not be able to remember everything we have done together wishing this time.
For those who I have been incredibly emotional and irrational around I am very sorry, I have no excuse for my behaviour other than I was not myself. I had moments of clarity but most of the time I was just a mess.
Losing my Nana was very hard for me and I believe that is what caused my recent behaviour. I lost two friends and then my Nana back to back and I became convinced in my mania that I should lose all of my friends as a sense of divine justice.
It was through the rational of Izzy, Bridget, Augi, Val, Nala, and Pheo as well as the causal calls I had with a lot of you (Kaz, Mike/Donut and many more) that I was slowly able to grasp the feeling of normal again.
I promise to be better from here on out as I am expecting a shipment of medication here soon. I am deeply sorry for all the stress I have caused you all due to my mania and will do my best to make up for, it and prevent this from happening again.
I value everyone here, and again I am truly sorry for my behaviour. I promise it will not happen again.
I believe that this episode is cooling down now but I still need a day or two before I can be certain. Due to my BPD, I tend to suffer from dissociative memory loss and may not remember everything from the last month or so, which is why I tend to hyper-focus on my diaries, but I may not be able to remember everything we have done together wishing this time.
For those who I have been incredibly emotional and irrational around I am very sorry, I have no excuse for my behaviour other than I was not myself. I had moments of clarity but most of the time I was just a mess.
Losing my Nana was very hard for me and I believe that is what caused my recent behaviour. I lost two friends and then my Nana back to back and I became convinced in my mania that I should lose all of my friends as a sense of divine justice.
It was through the rational of Izzy, Bridget, Augi, Val, Nala, and Pheo as well as the causal calls I had with a lot of you (Kaz, Mike/Donut and many more) that I was slowly able to grasp the feeling of normal again.
I promise to be better from here on out as I am expecting a shipment of medication here soon. I am deeply sorry for all the stress I have caused you all due to my mania and will do my best to make up for, it and prevent this from happening again.
I value everyone here, and again I am truly sorry for my behaviour. I promise it will not happen again.
Inactivity.
Posted a year agoSalutations everyone, I am sorry to say that my Nana passed away.
Because of this I may be rather inactive.
I will still post any art that I draw during this time but I may not be responsive, and for that I apologise.
For those of you who follow my Instagram and Twitter this applies there as well.
Thank you for reading and please, stay safe.
Because of this I may be rather inactive.
I will still post any art that I draw during this time but I may not be responsive, and for that I apologise.
For those of you who follow my Instagram and Twitter this applies there as well.
Thank you for reading and please, stay safe.
Melti is Almost Complete~!
Posted a year agoSalutations~!
I do hope you are all doing well~! Please let me know how you have been as I have not been as involved or present on here recently~!
Oh goodness so much has happened since I joined this site, I made friends, lost a few, and really started living, but there is one problem~!
I’m not being me! I think I need to explain that I love learning and sometimes I just get so enthralled by people that I don’t talk about me as much as I should.
Melti’s design, while almost me, is not quite there yet. You see, I put my trauma into her, I put my friends into her, but there is not enough Melti inside her. She is more or less a caricature of who I am. Not truly me.
Recently I had something happen to me that caused me to realise that I don’t really express myself in any real way. Even my closest friends do not know me all too well. That’s because I have a personal problem and just didn’t think I was interesting, but I want my best friends to think of me as their best friend…and I want to be myself.
So after this newest Halloween commission from the lovely M_mugs I think it will be time for Melti to really be me. To keep what I have but to take out a little less trauma and add a little more…well…Melti to Melti. So I’m having a few things designed, an outfit, some shoes, and maybe a species change.
Because I am more than my trauma, and I am more than my friends. I am a puppy girl too~! I should just be me so that I can really bond with people~!
I hope…that you will all accept me for who I am. Because I would rather be hated for being myself than loved for living a lie.
I do hope you are all doing well~! Please let me know how you have been as I have not been as involved or present on here recently~!
Oh goodness so much has happened since I joined this site, I made friends, lost a few, and really started living, but there is one problem~!
I’m not being me! I think I need to explain that I love learning and sometimes I just get so enthralled by people that I don’t talk about me as much as I should.
Melti’s design, while almost me, is not quite there yet. You see, I put my trauma into her, I put my friends into her, but there is not enough Melti inside her. She is more or less a caricature of who I am. Not truly me.
Recently I had something happen to me that caused me to realise that I don’t really express myself in any real way. Even my closest friends do not know me all too well. That’s because I have a personal problem and just didn’t think I was interesting, but I want my best friends to think of me as their best friend…and I want to be myself.
So after this newest Halloween commission from the lovely M_mugs I think it will be time for Melti to really be me. To keep what I have but to take out a little less trauma and add a little more…well…Melti to Melti. So I’m having a few things designed, an outfit, some shoes, and maybe a species change.
Because I am more than my trauma, and I am more than my friends. I am a puppy girl too~! I should just be me so that I can really bond with people~!
I hope…that you will all accept me for who I am. Because I would rather be hated for being myself than loved for living a lie.
Explaining Melti’s Design
Posted a year agoSalutations~!
Recently I have noticed that many have been curious as to Melti’s design and what she really is~ so I thought I would break down all her design aspects (big and small~) and really talk about why Melti is the way that she is and what makes me, well...me~!
Content warning: Implied feelings of Suicide, past trauma, abduction, and mentions of transphobia (mentioned in a sense of me overcoming that, but I do understand if you wish to know before hand.)
So let’s start with the more easy notes:
Melti is technically a Chimera but I want to come up with my own little name for my little zombie sona~! But for now that’s what we will call her~! Now for all of her design here~!!
Melti’s Neck Band -
Melti’s neckband is based on my friend Venus as without her I would have lost my mind, hence why the band keeps Melti’s head on her body as without it it would actually fall off. The neckband is tied to Melti’s a Bell as Venus introduced me to my friend Mina.
Melti’s Bell -
The bell for Mina, represents how I had an affinity for them in the first place and how we have that in common and just like the bell I tend to ring Mina when I really need it, even if it can be a little much sometimes~ it also helps because I find Mina and bells to be calming. It is also close to her stitches and heart to how Mina protects my heart and makes me feel all warm and safe.
Sheep Product Tag -
Melti’s “721” sheep tag has a double meaning, I had a friend named Caprine and while we do not talk anymore she left a big impact on my life and was a nice support system while we knew eachother. The “721” serves as the number meaning “I love you” that way I can share that I love everyone as I truly would hold hands with the whole world if I could. It also is in the same hundred as Caprine’s was in (their’s being 777) it shows that despite the fact that we no longer speak that she had an impact on me and I will always have love for her.
Blue Puzzle Piece Earring -
The blue puzzle piece is to honour my very close friend Slushy. She was one of my two first ever friends (I met them at the same time). Slushy found me when I was broken and so lost, I struggled to see myself and I defined who I was but what happened to me. Slushy showed me that I can be loved despite what happened to me she helped me remember certain parts of myself that I thought was damaged and she put my pieces back together. Slushy, like the earring on Melti, is my missing piece. She completed me and handed me what I needed so that I could be complete. She put my puzzle together and handed me the piece that I lost. She was the first person I could ever hug. To me, she is a dear and beloved soul.
Melti’s Eyes -
Melti’s green eyes and butterfly iris are based on Riley. A person who has become a brother to me, a person who helped me communicate with the world. He helps me see the world in a new light and explained that when there is a lot of bad that you can focus on the bright side. He told me that if you have a pile of waste that it can become compost for even a single flower. To show me this he took a picture of something he stumbled upon, a butterfly relaxing on a pile of trash. This image was very impactful to me and truly changed my view in the world into something so positive and that was thanks to him. The green are the colour of Riley’s eyes and the butterfly is that symbol that inspired me.
Melti’s Stars -
This one smaller aspect of Melti’s design is really simple~ when I grew up the show that opened my eyes to the larger world at large was Steven Universe. I always knew I was neither cis gender nor heterosexual. I just lacked the words or ideas to explain it. When I was in middle school I vividly remember seeing Rose’s and Pearl’s relationship (before it was revealed in it’s entirety) as well as giant woman and thinking “I wish I could have something like this” and “these people can be happy so I should be able to as well~!” I remember the first Steven Bomb on Cartoon Network and watching Jail Break with such joy~ and seeing the reveal of Garnet being a fusion and the utter joy I felt when realising my theory was right~! The next one I remember was “Message Received” and so on. I was so obsessed with the show and I loved the movie~! The star represents that show and how it opened my eyes to the world at large as well as my self expression. It was a show where the villains did not have to die, and that was something I always wanted as a kid. I love redemption stories. The reason the star is now red is because it pays homage to Spinel my favourite character who I relate to. After I was taken I was told to do something very bad and to wait for someone who would never come. It took me a long time to become rational and further realise the horror I had lived just like Spinel and just like her I found someone new in Tempest like how Spinel found someone new in Steven.
Melti’s Tentacles -
Melti’s Tentacles are given to me by my someone very special, Tempest. We both enjoyed the works of Howard Philips Lovecraft and one of the first times we spoke it really helped break the ice between us. That and a certain biker drawing that he had commissioned. I always had a passion for tentacles and the unseen as written by Lovecraft. To me his work was not scarey but rather comforting. In a world that is truly indifferent to humans we are all equal and capable of branching out into the known and unknown facets of the universe and making our own decisions. It feels hopeful in an indifferent sense to me and I treasured that growing up, so overtime I really felt that it was warm. I find the concept of Lovecraft’s work to have a simple meaning. The theme being that it is not about us and that the universe will go on without us, without a single care, no matter how badly I fumble, no matter how much I fall, the world is truly indifferent to my mistakes. I can only grow because the universe has no prejudice against me.
In a way Lovecraft’s writing takes the form of medicine against being depressed and taking humanity's inhumanity and self destructive nature all to seriously.
While we are no big deal to such an incomprehensible being such as Yog-Sothoth, it will remember us long after we are gone. It remembers us, no matter how small we are. It all feels warm.
Now I can love everyone like I used to~ I can love all my friends and even more~!!!
Melti’s Horn’s & Scars -
Believe it or not but Melti used to have a completely different design before I even joined the furry fandom. I had always felt drawn to the community and dearly wanted to make a sona so I attempted and made her Milkbunny look but with a more dear feeling to it. The hearts back then represented my love for the entire world and how I was very happy go lucky, but it also defined an event in my life that deeply harmed me.
I was kidnapped and hurt horribly by someone, it destroyed me and it felt as if my thoughts, my feelings, my mind, and my body were were violated and as though I was forced to change. So her horns were broken, snapped into what is now. I kept them because to me it shows that I am scarred by what happened but I am recovering and growing in so many other ways and to remove the horns completely is to deny that I was hurt at all.
Melti is me embracing my scars and growing as a person and while that, and this scar is something I am proud to have survived, and I could never have been able to call myself a survivor or even a real person without everyone. Without Mina, Venus, Tempest, Sarah, Riley, Slushy and Kelly I would never have been to accept myself.
Melti’s Bandages -
Melti’s bandages are simple, it’s me covering my self-harm scars as well as me embracing my love of Mummy’s. You see Melti as mentioned earlier is my scars and my healing process she is more me than me. I wear long sleeves wherever I go so they are figuratively and literally my bandages. So this is my way of expressing that all the while showing my embrace of the Frankenstein and Mummy aesthetic~!
Melti’s whole point is she is me and my scars but the meaning of her is this: “You can accept your pain through the people who give you a reason to keep moving forward.” My friends now, are nicer to me than anyone else has ever been in my whole life. So I think I am starting to beat my depression. Day by day~! Which is good as Melti represents me and healing and look I am healing now~!
Melti being a Frankenstein’s Monster | Chimera like Sona:
Melti has her stitches and Frankenstein Zombie aesthetic because when I was outed as trans my Grandmother called me a freak and “Frankenstein’s Monster” because I would be “cutting myself up to become an abomination” and that hurt me so so much…it tore my heart out. I have struggled a lot with feeling like “a monster” and “inhuman” for who I am. It was only through my friend Jasper and Tempest that I was able to properly find myself.
To add onto this I felt like I was supposed to die at one point and many people from my past had told me to leave this world. To me, this is me reclaiming that label, that insult, that truly, truly, hurt me and turning it into something empowering. Yes I am an amalgamation of parts but I am the pieces my friends gave me, not something I stole, and not an abomination. I am just…me~ and that’s okay~! I’m complicated and that’s why my design has so many parts~!
Melti Pubby Ears -
I like being Pubby Therian. Pubby is cute.
Melti’s Glasses - I always wanted round gasses growing up.
Melti’s Hair - I have red (cherry-cola dyed) hair and I like it.
Melti’s Deer Hooves - I like nature and deers to me are one of the most eloquent animals that live in the woods. It is also loosely inspired by a poni sona from this girl Sarah, she doesn’t actually have hooves but to me it feels like I am being close to her. That she helps me walk. That she keeps me safe and plays games and let’s me watch. She makes me happy and I am glad to follow the yellow brick road with her.
MELTI’S SHOES -
The shoes are based on an old show and doll line called “Monster High,” one of the characters I really connected with was Draculora and she had these wonderful shoes that I truly adored, I also wanted a similar brand of shoes called “Converse” growing up but I was never allowed because my parents said they were too “girly.”
The stickers are a form of self expression and each one of them has their own special meaning. The idea for the sticker-esc shoes came from the Sparkle Dog community, I saw someone had made a concept for those type of shoes and I really adored them and wanted my own pair.
Puppy Stickers -
I struggled to really embrace myself in Melti in the fact that I did not put me now into them. So I decided to hone in on what I adore.
Some of the simpler stickers to explain is the “Bark” “Silly Puppy” and “Woof” I truly connect with dogs and adore them so much, and I love having collars and puppy things like a kennel. I am also a puppy Therian so that is a little bit of a factor as well. So I put that all in there as a form of self expression.
Squirtle Shell Peace Shoe Sticker -
Growing up I loved the Pokémon Squirtle and is a weird way it was my shell, it protected me from the darkness of the real world I was in. Pokémon and Digimon were my escape.
The peace sign represents PLUR, a philosophy that I follow to this day. It makes me deeply happy now and it is just an outlook on life that my friend Slushy introduced me to. PLUR is my new shell. My new hope and my new smile.
Supernatural Mark of Cain Sticker -
This one is just because I loved supernatural. It has a lot of meaning behind it but I mostly picked it because I love religion, I love the interpretation of the mark, and I love the show. I had a chance to pay it tribute and I took it.
Vaccum Shroom Sticker -
Growing up I loved the game Bowser’s Inside Story, in fact it was one of my favourites and first games growing up. Aside from Kingdom Hearts and Epic Mickey I would argue this one has had the largest impact upon me. It changed my writing and the villain who used this mushroom on Bowser was my favourite. It even influenced my taste in music, that being Fawful’s theme which caused me to get into jazz. This game and this mushroom represents me just having carefree fun!
Paopu Fruit Sticker -
A Paopu Fruit is a star-shaped fruit native to Destiny Islands in the Kingdom Hearts series. It resembles the star fruit. According to legend, "If two people share one, their destinies become intertwined. They'll remain a part of each other's lives no matter what." To me I would eat this fruit with my friends and my beloved. Our destinies are forever intertwined and through our love I shall prevail and I shall have the power to live again.
“Widdle Devil” Shoe Sticker -
The phrase “widdle devil” is not that meaningful but it is something that I refer to myself as a lot. I tease my close friends and call myself a “widdle devil” and “evil” when I tease them or hug them. It is just something that is uniquely me that I giggle when I say so I decided to put that on there as it really was something I just made to giggle with my friends.
Rimaru Tempest with Echidna Hair Piece -
The reason I picked Rimaru is because it was the first anime Tess and I watched together until the end. He’s just a slime wearing a Re Zero Item showing how we mixed our interests together. We bonded over Slime and Re: Zero, our theories and reactions brought us together…and most importantly…every step I take I walk with Tess! He makes me happy and I love him dearly.
Snail & Fygg Shoe Sticker -
The glowing fygg with a snail on it has a double meaning. The snail represents my love of my adorable slime babies~ because I myself am a snail Mom~! I cherish them so very much and they help me move forward and make me smile. The golden fygg comes from a Nintendo DS game called “Dragon Quest IX.” In this game a Fygg is the fruit the grows on the Yggdrasil Tree upon receiving some amount of Benevolessence.
Fyggs have the power to make the dreams of those who eat them come true, but the wish is not really granted in the way you may expect. To me, it represents how when I first played this game as a child that it made my dreams come true. You could make avatars and just be in this vast and lovely world that was filled with amazing creatures. To me, the fruit represents how even now I still, dream, and sometimes these wishes of mine come true in the strange of ways.
My favourite of them being the Wight Knight. His story really resonated with me because he was trying to find and save his lost love only to realise he was a man out of time. A dead hero. Someone’s who dream could no longer fulfilled. It was through his final death that he was able to see his loved one again, and as a kid the thought that someone’s deepest wish can come true made me feel safe and happy. I loved it so very much.
No one knows that the girl they talked to, Marionette, is actually dead. They aren’t ever going to figure out whose grave the third grave is. In a sense, they have both already been forgotten since no one ever really knew them. The townspeople will just be waiting in blissful ignorance for years and years for news of Marion to return home. But she won’t. Ever. And they’ll start to wonder and worry. They’ll never have closure. Only confusion and regret.
I teared up a little when the housekeeper dragged the doll back inside to wait for her dead friend’s return because it’s a tragedy that will echo for years to come. A doll no one knew was a person left to wait in a room that’s become an unknown memorial for a friend who no one knew died and who no one ever will. And it’s even worse that it’s partially Marionette’s “fault” for not herself really understanding what Marion’s death meant or how to convey what was happening to the townspeople.
No one knows that the girl they talked to, Marionette, is actually dead. They aren’t ever going to figure out whose grave the third grave is. In a sense, they have both already been forgotten since no one ever really knew them. The townspeople will just be waiting in blissful ignorance for years and years for news of Marion to return home. But she won’t. Ever. And they’ll start to wonder and worry. They’ll never have closure. Only confusion and regret.
I teared up a little when the housekeeper dragged the doll back inside to wait for her dead friend’s return because it’s a tragedy that will echo for years to come. A doll no one knew was a person left to wait in a room that’s become an unknown memorial for a friend who no one knew died and who no one ever will. And it’s even worse that it’s partially Marionette’s “fault” for not herself really understanding what Marion’s death meant or how to convey what was happening to the townspeople.
It showed me that even when people die, that they aren’t forgotten it showed me that we can either live like the townsfolk and struggle and worry in a form of denial, waiting for a smile that we will never see again, or accept that they are gone, and love the memories of who they were and not how they fell. We can either accept the truth, or live a sorrowful lie, and because my grandma had just died of cancer at the time this side quest killed me as a kid. I remember deeply wishing for her to come back and acting like she would walk in at any moment, but she was gone.
Now, as an adult, I relate to Marionette more than the townsfolk. I am not the person before me, and I won’t live like she did. I won’t live a tragic fate wishing to be someone else, and living a life that was never meant for me. I’m going to branch out and be happy, keep my past in tact yes, but move on from it. Because I am more than my abuse. I am more than the girl who “died” I am more. I am me.
I am more than the girl who was kidnapped, I am more than the girl who attempted to leave. I am someone who dreams, I am someone who smiles and I am someone who loves.
Recently I have noticed that many have been curious as to Melti’s design and what she really is~ so I thought I would break down all her design aspects (big and small~) and really talk about why Melti is the way that she is and what makes me, well...me~!
Content warning: Implied feelings of Suicide, past trauma, abduction, and mentions of transphobia (mentioned in a sense of me overcoming that, but I do understand if you wish to know before hand.)
So let’s start with the more easy notes:
Melti is technically a Chimera but I want to come up with my own little name for my little zombie sona~! But for now that’s what we will call her~! Now for all of her design here~!!
Melti’s Neck Band -
Melti’s neckband is based on my friend Venus as without her I would have lost my mind, hence why the band keeps Melti’s head on her body as without it it would actually fall off. The neckband is tied to Melti’s a Bell as Venus introduced me to my friend Mina.
Melti’s Bell -
The bell for Mina, represents how I had an affinity for them in the first place and how we have that in common and just like the bell I tend to ring Mina when I really need it, even if it can be a little much sometimes~ it also helps because I find Mina and bells to be calming. It is also close to her stitches and heart to how Mina protects my heart and makes me feel all warm and safe.
Sheep Product Tag -
Melti’s “721” sheep tag has a double meaning, I had a friend named Caprine and while we do not talk anymore she left a big impact on my life and was a nice support system while we knew eachother. The “721” serves as the number meaning “I love you” that way I can share that I love everyone as I truly would hold hands with the whole world if I could. It also is in the same hundred as Caprine’s was in (their’s being 777) it shows that despite the fact that we no longer speak that she had an impact on me and I will always have love for her.
Blue Puzzle Piece Earring -
The blue puzzle piece is to honour my very close friend Slushy. She was one of my two first ever friends (I met them at the same time). Slushy found me when I was broken and so lost, I struggled to see myself and I defined who I was but what happened to me. Slushy showed me that I can be loved despite what happened to me she helped me remember certain parts of myself that I thought was damaged and she put my pieces back together. Slushy, like the earring on Melti, is my missing piece. She completed me and handed me what I needed so that I could be complete. She put my puzzle together and handed me the piece that I lost. She was the first person I could ever hug. To me, she is a dear and beloved soul.
Melti’s Eyes -
Melti’s green eyes and butterfly iris are based on Riley. A person who has become a brother to me, a person who helped me communicate with the world. He helps me see the world in a new light and explained that when there is a lot of bad that you can focus on the bright side. He told me that if you have a pile of waste that it can become compost for even a single flower. To show me this he took a picture of something he stumbled upon, a butterfly relaxing on a pile of trash. This image was very impactful to me and truly changed my view in the world into something so positive and that was thanks to him. The green are the colour of Riley’s eyes and the butterfly is that symbol that inspired me.
Melti’s Stars -
This one smaller aspect of Melti’s design is really simple~ when I grew up the show that opened my eyes to the larger world at large was Steven Universe. I always knew I was neither cis gender nor heterosexual. I just lacked the words or ideas to explain it. When I was in middle school I vividly remember seeing Rose’s and Pearl’s relationship (before it was revealed in it’s entirety) as well as giant woman and thinking “I wish I could have something like this” and “these people can be happy so I should be able to as well~!” I remember the first Steven Bomb on Cartoon Network and watching Jail Break with such joy~ and seeing the reveal of Garnet being a fusion and the utter joy I felt when realising my theory was right~! The next one I remember was “Message Received” and so on. I was so obsessed with the show and I loved the movie~! The star represents that show and how it opened my eyes to the world at large as well as my self expression. It was a show where the villains did not have to die, and that was something I always wanted as a kid. I love redemption stories. The reason the star is now red is because it pays homage to Spinel my favourite character who I relate to. After I was taken I was told to do something very bad and to wait for someone who would never come. It took me a long time to become rational and further realise the horror I had lived just like Spinel and just like her I found someone new in Tempest like how Spinel found someone new in Steven.
Melti’s Tentacles -
Melti’s Tentacles are given to me by my someone very special, Tempest. We both enjoyed the works of Howard Philips Lovecraft and one of the first times we spoke it really helped break the ice between us. That and a certain biker drawing that he had commissioned. I always had a passion for tentacles and the unseen as written by Lovecraft. To me his work was not scarey but rather comforting. In a world that is truly indifferent to humans we are all equal and capable of branching out into the known and unknown facets of the universe and making our own decisions. It feels hopeful in an indifferent sense to me and I treasured that growing up, so overtime I really felt that it was warm. I find the concept of Lovecraft’s work to have a simple meaning. The theme being that it is not about us and that the universe will go on without us, without a single care, no matter how badly I fumble, no matter how much I fall, the world is truly indifferent to my mistakes. I can only grow because the universe has no prejudice against me.
In a way Lovecraft’s writing takes the form of medicine against being depressed and taking humanity's inhumanity and self destructive nature all to seriously.
While we are no big deal to such an incomprehensible being such as Yog-Sothoth, it will remember us long after we are gone. It remembers us, no matter how small we are. It all feels warm.
Now I can love everyone like I used to~ I can love all my friends and even more~!!!
Melti’s Horn’s & Scars -
Believe it or not but Melti used to have a completely different design before I even joined the furry fandom. I had always felt drawn to the community and dearly wanted to make a sona so I attempted and made her Milkbunny look but with a more dear feeling to it. The hearts back then represented my love for the entire world and how I was very happy go lucky, but it also defined an event in my life that deeply harmed me.
I was kidnapped and hurt horribly by someone, it destroyed me and it felt as if my thoughts, my feelings, my mind, and my body were were violated and as though I was forced to change. So her horns were broken, snapped into what is now. I kept them because to me it shows that I am scarred by what happened but I am recovering and growing in so many other ways and to remove the horns completely is to deny that I was hurt at all.
Melti is me embracing my scars and growing as a person and while that, and this scar is something I am proud to have survived, and I could never have been able to call myself a survivor or even a real person without everyone. Without Mina, Venus, Tempest, Sarah, Riley, Slushy and Kelly I would never have been to accept myself.
Melti’s Bandages -
Melti’s bandages are simple, it’s me covering my self-harm scars as well as me embracing my love of Mummy’s. You see Melti as mentioned earlier is my scars and my healing process she is more me than me. I wear long sleeves wherever I go so they are figuratively and literally my bandages. So this is my way of expressing that all the while showing my embrace of the Frankenstein and Mummy aesthetic~!
Melti’s whole point is she is me and my scars but the meaning of her is this: “You can accept your pain through the people who give you a reason to keep moving forward.” My friends now, are nicer to me than anyone else has ever been in my whole life. So I think I am starting to beat my depression. Day by day~! Which is good as Melti represents me and healing and look I am healing now~!
Melti being a Frankenstein’s Monster | Chimera like Sona:
Melti has her stitches and Frankenstein Zombie aesthetic because when I was outed as trans my Grandmother called me a freak and “Frankenstein’s Monster” because I would be “cutting myself up to become an abomination” and that hurt me so so much…it tore my heart out. I have struggled a lot with feeling like “a monster” and “inhuman” for who I am. It was only through my friend Jasper and Tempest that I was able to properly find myself.
To add onto this I felt like I was supposed to die at one point and many people from my past had told me to leave this world. To me, this is me reclaiming that label, that insult, that truly, truly, hurt me and turning it into something empowering. Yes I am an amalgamation of parts but I am the pieces my friends gave me, not something I stole, and not an abomination. I am just…me~ and that’s okay~! I’m complicated and that’s why my design has so many parts~!
Melti Pubby Ears -
I like being Pubby Therian. Pubby is cute.
Melti’s Glasses - I always wanted round gasses growing up.
Melti’s Hair - I have red (cherry-cola dyed) hair and I like it.
Melti’s Deer Hooves - I like nature and deers to me are one of the most eloquent animals that live in the woods. It is also loosely inspired by a poni sona from this girl Sarah, she doesn’t actually have hooves but to me it feels like I am being close to her. That she helps me walk. That she keeps me safe and plays games and let’s me watch. She makes me happy and I am glad to follow the yellow brick road with her.
MELTI’S SHOES -
The shoes are based on an old show and doll line called “Monster High,” one of the characters I really connected with was Draculora and she had these wonderful shoes that I truly adored, I also wanted a similar brand of shoes called “Converse” growing up but I was never allowed because my parents said they were too “girly.”
The stickers are a form of self expression and each one of them has their own special meaning. The idea for the sticker-esc shoes came from the Sparkle Dog community, I saw someone had made a concept for those type of shoes and I really adored them and wanted my own pair.
Puppy Stickers -
I struggled to really embrace myself in Melti in the fact that I did not put me now into them. So I decided to hone in on what I adore.
Some of the simpler stickers to explain is the “Bark” “Silly Puppy” and “Woof” I truly connect with dogs and adore them so much, and I love having collars and puppy things like a kennel. I am also a puppy Therian so that is a little bit of a factor as well. So I put that all in there as a form of self expression.
Squirtle Shell Peace Shoe Sticker -
Growing up I loved the Pokémon Squirtle and is a weird way it was my shell, it protected me from the darkness of the real world I was in. Pokémon and Digimon were my escape.
The peace sign represents PLUR, a philosophy that I follow to this day. It makes me deeply happy now and it is just an outlook on life that my friend Slushy introduced me to. PLUR is my new shell. My new hope and my new smile.
Supernatural Mark of Cain Sticker -
This one is just because I loved supernatural. It has a lot of meaning behind it but I mostly picked it because I love religion, I love the interpretation of the mark, and I love the show. I had a chance to pay it tribute and I took it.
Vaccum Shroom Sticker -
Growing up I loved the game Bowser’s Inside Story, in fact it was one of my favourites and first games growing up. Aside from Kingdom Hearts and Epic Mickey I would argue this one has had the largest impact upon me. It changed my writing and the villain who used this mushroom on Bowser was my favourite. It even influenced my taste in music, that being Fawful’s theme which caused me to get into jazz. This game and this mushroom represents me just having carefree fun!
Paopu Fruit Sticker -
A Paopu Fruit is a star-shaped fruit native to Destiny Islands in the Kingdom Hearts series. It resembles the star fruit. According to legend, "If two people share one, their destinies become intertwined. They'll remain a part of each other's lives no matter what." To me I would eat this fruit with my friends and my beloved. Our destinies are forever intertwined and through our love I shall prevail and I shall have the power to live again.
“Widdle Devil” Shoe Sticker -
The phrase “widdle devil” is not that meaningful but it is something that I refer to myself as a lot. I tease my close friends and call myself a “widdle devil” and “evil” when I tease them or hug them. It is just something that is uniquely me that I giggle when I say so I decided to put that on there as it really was something I just made to giggle with my friends.
Rimaru Tempest with Echidna Hair Piece -
The reason I picked Rimaru is because it was the first anime Tess and I watched together until the end. He’s just a slime wearing a Re Zero Item showing how we mixed our interests together. We bonded over Slime and Re: Zero, our theories and reactions brought us together…and most importantly…every step I take I walk with Tess! He makes me happy and I love him dearly.
Snail & Fygg Shoe Sticker -
The glowing fygg with a snail on it has a double meaning. The snail represents my love of my adorable slime babies~ because I myself am a snail Mom~! I cherish them so very much and they help me move forward and make me smile. The golden fygg comes from a Nintendo DS game called “Dragon Quest IX.” In this game a Fygg is the fruit the grows on the Yggdrasil Tree upon receiving some amount of Benevolessence.
Fyggs have the power to make the dreams of those who eat them come true, but the wish is not really granted in the way you may expect. To me, it represents how when I first played this game as a child that it made my dreams come true. You could make avatars and just be in this vast and lovely world that was filled with amazing creatures. To me, the fruit represents how even now I still, dream, and sometimes these wishes of mine come true in the strange of ways.
My favourite of them being the Wight Knight. His story really resonated with me because he was trying to find and save his lost love only to realise he was a man out of time. A dead hero. Someone’s who dream could no longer fulfilled. It was through his final death that he was able to see his loved one again, and as a kid the thought that someone’s deepest wish can come true made me feel safe and happy. I loved it so very much.
No one knows that the girl they talked to, Marionette, is actually dead. They aren’t ever going to figure out whose grave the third grave is. In a sense, they have both already been forgotten since no one ever really knew them. The townspeople will just be waiting in blissful ignorance for years and years for news of Marion to return home. But she won’t. Ever. And they’ll start to wonder and worry. They’ll never have closure. Only confusion and regret.
I teared up a little when the housekeeper dragged the doll back inside to wait for her dead friend’s return because it’s a tragedy that will echo for years to come. A doll no one knew was a person left to wait in a room that’s become an unknown memorial for a friend who no one knew died and who no one ever will. And it’s even worse that it’s partially Marionette’s “fault” for not herself really understanding what Marion’s death meant or how to convey what was happening to the townspeople.
No one knows that the girl they talked to, Marionette, is actually dead. They aren’t ever going to figure out whose grave the third grave is. In a sense, they have both already been forgotten since no one ever really knew them. The townspeople will just be waiting in blissful ignorance for years and years for news of Marion to return home. But she won’t. Ever. And they’ll start to wonder and worry. They’ll never have closure. Only confusion and regret.
I teared up a little when the housekeeper dragged the doll back inside to wait for her dead friend’s return because it’s a tragedy that will echo for years to come. A doll no one knew was a person left to wait in a room that’s become an unknown memorial for a friend who no one knew died and who no one ever will. And it’s even worse that it’s partially Marionette’s “fault” for not herself really understanding what Marion’s death meant or how to convey what was happening to the townspeople.
It showed me that even when people die, that they aren’t forgotten it showed me that we can either live like the townsfolk and struggle and worry in a form of denial, waiting for a smile that we will never see again, or accept that they are gone, and love the memories of who they were and not how they fell. We can either accept the truth, or live a sorrowful lie, and because my grandma had just died of cancer at the time this side quest killed me as a kid. I remember deeply wishing for her to come back and acting like she would walk in at any moment, but she was gone.
Now, as an adult, I relate to Marionette more than the townsfolk. I am not the person before me, and I won’t live like she did. I won’t live a tragic fate wishing to be someone else, and living a life that was never meant for me. I’m going to branch out and be happy, keep my past in tact yes, but move on from it. Because I am more than my abuse. I am more than the girl who “died” I am more. I am me.
I am more than the girl who was kidnapped, I am more than the girl who attempted to leave. I am someone who dreams, I am someone who smiles and I am someone who loves.
Things are Looking Up~!
Posted a year agoSalutations everyone~!
I know this is going to come off as sappy…as overtly positive or emotional, but honestly, I am okay with that. I smiled and laughed and cried these last two months, and I found some people to call friends… so many people I never knew I could have been friends with just because I joined this fandom.
Pudding, Caprine, Riley, Tess, Noel, you are easily the sweetest people I have ever met and I am so glad to have met you. You are all so…well amazing! You make me feel safe.
PuddingPuppy
Pudding, you bring smiles to my very soul, you are there when no one else was and were my first ever friend~ now to me, you are like family, and I want you in my life forever because, I just adore you with all of my heart and soul.
queencaprine
Caprine…You helped me smile again and your down to Earth attitude and ability to help me pick myself up and keep me grounded in reality, well…it just makes so much safer and a better person. I feel like I am improving every day because of you and Pudding.
GodEmperorTempest
Tess, you are just fun to be around, your stories are so amazing and I adore watching movies with you and looking at old fan fictions I wrote in a time I cannot recall. You are turning my bad memories into something I can laugh at, and that makes me feel lighter…
Riley_the_Huskywolf
Riley, my Bruder, you make me smile and glimmer with kindness, you helped me get my phone, which has helped me make friends. You are such a kind person and I adore having you here with me even if you are all the way across the world. Learning about you and Koda was so fun and I just like our chats even if they are brief now.
fizziepaw
Lastly, Noel, you helped raise awareness about my situation on Twitter. You helped me get funding for my new home and are just as sweet as a dream. We should certainly talk more as you are my biggest inspiration as an artist and just a lovely person to be around.
Everyone else, thank you. For being here to see my story.
I know this is going to come off as sappy…as overtly positive or emotional, but honestly, I am okay with that. I smiled and laughed and cried these last two months, and I found some people to call friends… so many people I never knew I could have been friends with just because I joined this fandom.
Pudding, Caprine, Riley, Tess, Noel, you are easily the sweetest people I have ever met and I am so glad to have met you. You are all so…well amazing! You make me feel safe.
PuddingPuppy
Pudding, you bring smiles to my very soul, you are there when no one else was and were my first ever friend~ now to me, you are like family, and I want you in my life forever because, I just adore you with all of my heart and soul.
queencaprine
Caprine…You helped me smile again and your down to Earth attitude and ability to help me pick myself up and keep me grounded in reality, well…it just makes so much safer and a better person. I feel like I am improving every day because of you and Pudding.
GodEmperorTempest
Tess, you are just fun to be around, your stories are so amazing and I adore watching movies with you and looking at old fan fictions I wrote in a time I cannot recall. You are turning my bad memories into something I can laugh at, and that makes me feel lighter…
Riley_the_Huskywolf
Riley, my Bruder, you make me smile and glimmer with kindness, you helped me get my phone, which has helped me make friends. You are such a kind person and I adore having you here with me even if you are all the way across the world. Learning about you and Koda was so fun and I just like our chats even if they are brief now.
fizziepaw
Lastly, Noel, you helped raise awareness about my situation on Twitter. You helped me get funding for my new home and are just as sweet as a dream. We should certainly talk more as you are my biggest inspiration as an artist and just a lovely person to be around.
Everyone else, thank you. For being here to see my story.
Thank You for the Warm Welcome~!
Posted a year agoSalutations~!
I have been on Furaffinity for around a month as of today~! I am so elated by all of your sweet words of praise and welcome! So many of you have sent me the most kind notes whilst allowing me to hear your stories! If I may be so bold as to say, this month has been so much brighter for me. I have had endured quite a bit over my life time and I was truly at a low point when my friend Fantasma_Folf (on Twitter) told me to stop waiting for something to happen and just do something that made me happy. So I embraced it and I tried to reach out and make friends for the first time in so very long. Although I am far from social, talking with everyone has been such an amazing experience and has truly brought a smile to my face throughout these many moons. To think that when I put myself out there that twenty-one people could watch me and be so open and kind...well I feel an all surrounding feeling of comfort and surprise! As such I wanted to make a thank you journal to everyone who has given me a new place to express myself. A place to call home. I know I cannot do the amazing feelings I have felt this month any sense of justice, but I really do want to express how gracious I am for everyone who I have connected with. I may not even be able to give proper credit to everyone who was so kind, but I do wish to try!
PuddingPuppy
Welcomed me in the kindest manner and taught me about her ways with cooking and how amazing people can be! She welcomed me with open arms when we spoke and she is one of the most generous people this bookworm has ever met! It was so incredible to meet another trans woman on this platform and getting to know about her work and college was such an enriching experience for me. She truly is a selfless soul that I hope to call a best friend one day!
Riley_the_Huskywolf
He was one of the first people to reach out to me on Furaffinity and his kindness truly shows no bounds. I am so proud to be able to call him my Bruder and teacher! He even is going so far as to teach me German, a language I have always had an interest in. I could not write in a manner that could give my feelings for Ry-Ry justice. I have spoken to him every day since we first met and each time he has opened my eyes to new perspectives and taught me so much. He is someone I truly am proud to have met in my lifetime. In a way, he is like a hero to me. I really look up to him and he makes me very happy!
CharlieCharles
He showed me that my adoration of history was not something exclusive to myself. It is always so much fun talking to him about the hypothetical worlds we could have experienced if a culture had even the most slightest of changes. I just adored hearing him talk about his love for his partner, learning about others is my most favourite thing in the entire world so listening to his story and how he met his partner, well it made me smile. To know how two people can build eachother up in such an incredible way, well, it gives me hope! Charlie is an absolutely astounding person!
queencaprine
We have not been in contact for the longest of times just yet but learning about the origin of a certain sheep fursona and the appeal of a satanic or "edgy" aesthetic just made me smile so much. Our conversations, to me, have been a dream. From a small story of how a fursona was made to a potential redesign or even how work can be stressful, Caprine has showed me what I believe the very best of the fandom can be. Caprine even offered to commission me, which just made my day! I really wish to grow closer as time passes as you are so warm and welcoming!
SolarStar
Has broadened my perspective of the furry fandom as a whole. It is so wonderful to talk to a bisexual who is open to explaining what it means to have a baby fursona and learn of his care for Slenderman. I truly hope we can grow closer as time passes. He truly is fun to talk to and his simple thank you for watching made me feel so safe and secure. I just adore him!
Hacker_sleuth
Showed me that there is more to the fandom than just those who are seeking friends, Hacker showed me that even mother's can be on here and that this is a passion I can keep as long as it makes me happy. She is just one of the most wholesome people I have ever connected with, and such an amazing Mother to her two children. I really wish to bond with her even more as I stay in the fandom and really immerse myself within its depths.
All of these people who may or may not even know eachother have lifted me up this month and given me something to look forward to everyday. I never thought I could truly have friends, but these people have proven me wrong so many times. I really hope that we can all grow closer as time goes on, and it would be so amazing if I could draw us together! Each and every one of you are so spectacular and generous. Thank you so much for the warm welcome! Someone very close to me once said that "You can find friends out there, even two close friends is enough to have a found family" and to think that what she said could come true...well my gratitude and surprise could not grow much larger! So once again, I thank all of you!
You are all so amazing! Let's grow closer!
I have been on Furaffinity for around a month as of today~! I am so elated by all of your sweet words of praise and welcome! So many of you have sent me the most kind notes whilst allowing me to hear your stories! If I may be so bold as to say, this month has been so much brighter for me. I have had endured quite a bit over my life time and I was truly at a low point when my friend Fantasma_Folf (on Twitter) told me to stop waiting for something to happen and just do something that made me happy. So I embraced it and I tried to reach out and make friends for the first time in so very long. Although I am far from social, talking with everyone has been such an amazing experience and has truly brought a smile to my face throughout these many moons. To think that when I put myself out there that twenty-one people could watch me and be so open and kind...well I feel an all surrounding feeling of comfort and surprise! As such I wanted to make a thank you journal to everyone who has given me a new place to express myself. A place to call home. I know I cannot do the amazing feelings I have felt this month any sense of justice, but I really do want to express how gracious I am for everyone who I have connected with. I may not even be able to give proper credit to everyone who was so kind, but I do wish to try!
PuddingPuppy
Welcomed me in the kindest manner and taught me about her ways with cooking and how amazing people can be! She welcomed me with open arms when we spoke and she is one of the most generous people this bookworm has ever met! It was so incredible to meet another trans woman on this platform and getting to know about her work and college was such an enriching experience for me. She truly is a selfless soul that I hope to call a best friend one day!
Riley_the_Huskywolf
He was one of the first people to reach out to me on Furaffinity and his kindness truly shows no bounds. I am so proud to be able to call him my Bruder and teacher! He even is going so far as to teach me German, a language I have always had an interest in. I could not write in a manner that could give my feelings for Ry-Ry justice. I have spoken to him every day since we first met and each time he has opened my eyes to new perspectives and taught me so much. He is someone I truly am proud to have met in my lifetime. In a way, he is like a hero to me. I really look up to him and he makes me very happy!
CharlieCharles
He showed me that my adoration of history was not something exclusive to myself. It is always so much fun talking to him about the hypothetical worlds we could have experienced if a culture had even the most slightest of changes. I just adored hearing him talk about his love for his partner, learning about others is my most favourite thing in the entire world so listening to his story and how he met his partner, well it made me smile. To know how two people can build eachother up in such an incredible way, well, it gives me hope! Charlie is an absolutely astounding person!
queencaprine
We have not been in contact for the longest of times just yet but learning about the origin of a certain sheep fursona and the appeal of a satanic or "edgy" aesthetic just made me smile so much. Our conversations, to me, have been a dream. From a small story of how a fursona was made to a potential redesign or even how work can be stressful, Caprine has showed me what I believe the very best of the fandom can be. Caprine even offered to commission me, which just made my day! I really wish to grow closer as time passes as you are so warm and welcoming!
SolarStar
Has broadened my perspective of the furry fandom as a whole. It is so wonderful to talk to a bisexual who is open to explaining what it means to have a baby fursona and learn of his care for Slenderman. I truly hope we can grow closer as time passes. He truly is fun to talk to and his simple thank you for watching made me feel so safe and secure. I just adore him!
Hacker_sleuth
Showed me that there is more to the fandom than just those who are seeking friends, Hacker showed me that even mother's can be on here and that this is a passion I can keep as long as it makes me happy. She is just one of the most wholesome people I have ever connected with, and such an amazing Mother to her two children. I really wish to bond with her even more as I stay in the fandom and really immerse myself within its depths.
All of these people who may or may not even know eachother have lifted me up this month and given me something to look forward to everyday. I never thought I could truly have friends, but these people have proven me wrong so many times. I really hope that we can all grow closer as time goes on, and it would be so amazing if I could draw us together! Each and every one of you are so spectacular and generous. Thank you so much for the warm welcome! Someone very close to me once said that "You can find friends out there, even two close friends is enough to have a found family" and to think that what she said could come true...well my gratitude and surprise could not grow much larger! So once again, I thank all of you!
You are all so amazing! Let's grow closer!
Please Share Your Artist Recomendations!
Posted 2 years agoSalutations~!
I know it has been a little while since I last posted, but I just wanted to reach out and ask for assistance directly from anyone who is willing to listen. I am still a little unfamilliar with a lot of goings on here relating to how commisions work and who I should reach out to, but I truly wish to start having art done in the future! I am not in the best place financially right now so I may be unable to start reaching out to artists directly but I did want to ask so that I could have a point of reference or just people who I should have in mind to have work done on my character? I do not mind if the artist draws digitally or tradionally either!
What I truly desire is to have art done with others, but I do not know if that is allowed or how it may work in practice. I hope it is alright to ask you this, if you are willing to share an artist you admire or someone you have had a postive interraction with I would just be truly grateful.
I also really would like to start drawing more, I know I use the traditional art a little more than most, or so it seems, but I was hoping I could try to draw more characters as I do not really know how to draw side profiles and I am a little behind on drawing more of my own. So if you know someone who is alright with me drawing their character please let me know, I am well aware that I am not the best artist out there, but I really do wish to improve! If you do know someone please understand that I use a Smart TV to post and so it might take me a little while to send an image because I have someone help me take pictures.
Lastly,
I would like to give everyone who has welcomed me so warmly a proper thank you! I have never truly felt safe online before but all of you are so kind that I could not just stay quiet about it! I intend on making a proper post thanking everyone very soon!
Current Artists I wish to commission:
- m_mugs ✅
- MochaTeeny
- Hacker_sleuth ✅
I know it has been a little while since I last posted, but I just wanted to reach out and ask for assistance directly from anyone who is willing to listen. I am still a little unfamilliar with a lot of goings on here relating to how commisions work and who I should reach out to, but I truly wish to start having art done in the future! I am not in the best place financially right now so I may be unable to start reaching out to artists directly but I did want to ask so that I could have a point of reference or just people who I should have in mind to have work done on my character? I do not mind if the artist draws digitally or tradionally either!
What I truly desire is to have art done with others, but I do not know if that is allowed or how it may work in practice. I hope it is alright to ask you this, if you are willing to share an artist you admire or someone you have had a postive interraction with I would just be truly grateful.
I also really would like to start drawing more, I know I use the traditional art a little more than most, or so it seems, but I was hoping I could try to draw more characters as I do not really know how to draw side profiles and I am a little behind on drawing more of my own. So if you know someone who is alright with me drawing their character please let me know, I am well aware that I am not the best artist out there, but I really do wish to improve! If you do know someone please understand that I use a Smart TV to post and so it might take me a little while to send an image because I have someone help me take pictures.
Lastly,
I would like to give everyone who has welcomed me so warmly a proper thank you! I have never truly felt safe online before but all of you are so kind that I could not just stay quiet about it! I intend on making a proper post thanking everyone very soon!
Current Artists I wish to commission:
- m_mugs ✅
- MochaTeeny
- Hacker_sleuth ✅
Salutations~!!
Posted 2 years agoSalutations~!
My name is Melti, or Beatrice~! I am a little bit new to this fandom and I am really unsure what to say precisely, but I thought I should make this journal just to serve as an introduction in hopes that we can bond and be friends!
So, now is the time to share a little bit about myself I suppose. I am a trans girl, located in the States, and I do not really have a label sexuality wise. I am a Kemetic Omnist and I am a snail mom to the most adorable little slimes~ Milo, Jesse, Walter, Wednesday, and Muder Death Killer~! They are just the highlights of my day~!
I may embrace my more open energy and simply be a: sparkle creature Frankenstein’s monster PLUR Therian monster drinking tentacle it/its girl Dungeon Master gay transy kinshifting zombie stichy wondergirl on here~!
I try my best to be optimistic and kind to all who I interract with, but I am rather shy so it is hard for me to really reach out to others directly. That is why I was hoping that reading about me would have you wish to reach out!
As for my hobbies, I am not much of a gamer persé, but I do quite enjoy a few games, those being Re Zero: Prophecy of the Throne, Marvel's Spider-Man for the Playstation 4 as well as its sister series Miles Morales, Animal Crossing, Mario & Luigi: Bowser's Inside Story, Detroit: Become Human, Five Nights at Freddy's, Celeste, Cult of the Lamb and Zelda: Skyward Sword HD. The game I come back to and enjoy the most is 'Epic Mickey' on the Wii, it is such a fun time to explore and paint everything.
I wish to get into table top roleplaying games such as DnD, but I just have not had the time or friends to start a campaign.
I just adore writing, I am working on a novel at this very moment in fact. It is called SM-100 and it is a true passion project of mine that I have been working towards refining for many years. Reading is my favourite thing to do to pass the time, I am currently reading the Re: Zero Light Novels, but I also like a lot of classic literature such as 'Hamlet' and Bram Stoker's 'Dracula' with a major book that inspired my personal writing being 'Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?' it truly is amazing and I would highly suggest that you consider reading it if you have not done so already.
I also have a few shows and movies that I enjoy which are 'Supernatural,' 'Code Geass,' 'Death Note,' 'Morbius,' and all of the Spider-Man films.
I joined the furry fandom in June of this year, but I had a passing interest in it for a while now, I had already made a fursona prior to the one I have now, but I decided it would be nice to start fresh and really give my fursona some thought! A friend of mine, :FantasmaFolf:, told me to make one so I decided to stop waiting for a chance and teach myself to draw!
I am aware I am not the best artist out there as I have only been drawing for a few months now, but it really is so much fun to create! I knew a lot of people use their fursona's to represent themselves and I wanted to try that as well and so, Melti was born! She is a hybrid species and I actually have a journal explaining her design~!
If you want to make a new friend or just have someone to lend you an ear about your day and its troubles I do welcome you to message me, I could really use a friend. I am not all to knowledgable about role-playing as it is not something I do often, but I suppose I could try if someone was willing to teach me.
With that being said, I do hope we can be friends! Please Note me any time!
Stay safe~!
My name is Melti, or Beatrice~! I am a little bit new to this fandom and I am really unsure what to say precisely, but I thought I should make this journal just to serve as an introduction in hopes that we can bond and be friends!
So, now is the time to share a little bit about myself I suppose. I am a trans girl, located in the States, and I do not really have a label sexuality wise. I am a Kemetic Omnist and I am a snail mom to the most adorable little slimes~ Milo, Jesse, Walter, Wednesday, and Muder Death Killer~! They are just the highlights of my day~!
I may embrace my more open energy and simply be a: sparkle creature Frankenstein’s monster PLUR Therian monster drinking tentacle it/its girl Dungeon Master gay transy kinshifting zombie stichy wondergirl on here~!
I try my best to be optimistic and kind to all who I interract with, but I am rather shy so it is hard for me to really reach out to others directly. That is why I was hoping that reading about me would have you wish to reach out!
As for my hobbies, I am not much of a gamer persé, but I do quite enjoy a few games, those being Re Zero: Prophecy of the Throne, Marvel's Spider-Man for the Playstation 4 as well as its sister series Miles Morales, Animal Crossing, Mario & Luigi: Bowser's Inside Story, Detroit: Become Human, Five Nights at Freddy's, Celeste, Cult of the Lamb and Zelda: Skyward Sword HD. The game I come back to and enjoy the most is 'Epic Mickey' on the Wii, it is such a fun time to explore and paint everything.
I wish to get into table top roleplaying games such as DnD, but I just have not had the time or friends to start a campaign.
I just adore writing, I am working on a novel at this very moment in fact. It is called SM-100 and it is a true passion project of mine that I have been working towards refining for many years. Reading is my favourite thing to do to pass the time, I am currently reading the Re: Zero Light Novels, but I also like a lot of classic literature such as 'Hamlet' and Bram Stoker's 'Dracula' with a major book that inspired my personal writing being 'Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?' it truly is amazing and I would highly suggest that you consider reading it if you have not done so already.
I also have a few shows and movies that I enjoy which are 'Supernatural,' 'Code Geass,' 'Death Note,' 'Morbius,' and all of the Spider-Man films.
I joined the furry fandom in June of this year, but I had a passing interest in it for a while now, I had already made a fursona prior to the one I have now, but I decided it would be nice to start fresh and really give my fursona some thought! A friend of mine, :FantasmaFolf:, told me to make one so I decided to stop waiting for a chance and teach myself to draw!
I am aware I am not the best artist out there as I have only been drawing for a few months now, but it really is so much fun to create! I knew a lot of people use their fursona's to represent themselves and I wanted to try that as well and so, Melti was born! She is a hybrid species and I actually have a journal explaining her design~!
If you want to make a new friend or just have someone to lend you an ear about your day and its troubles I do welcome you to message me, I could really use a friend. I am not all to knowledgable about role-playing as it is not something I do often, but I suppose I could try if someone was willing to teach me.
With that being said, I do hope we can be friends! Please Note me any time!
Stay safe~!