Life update and posting delays
Posted 2 years agoI'm sure some of you have seen me saying I've been working on my art and stories and trying to get something ready to post, but never quite get to that point. Well the reason why is my life has been in major disarray for the past couple years and I haven't had as much spare time as I'd like to work on what I love.
I've been working as a retail store manager, and like many jobs, we don't have a lot of people to help. The schedule has always been super tight, and I have to be ready to be on call if someone can't make it and I have to step in and fill their shift.
Doing this for a few months now has been very physically taxing. I often don't get enough time to rest and recover between my shifts and have been behind on sleep.
The lack of sleep is not helping me climb out the deep dark chasm that has been my mentality. I'm still trying to recover from a few different traumatic positions when everything started going south.
And then there's living with my family. I have never felt like I could express myself openly without worry in that house growing up, and that's still the case. This lead to me growing up as a very quiet and introverted child who was too anxious to even think about making friends until their teen years. I've been wearing a mask in my own home all my life, and with how tired and stressed I've been, I feel like that mask has slowly started to blend together with my reality so I forget the difference sometimes. I have to remind myself who I am because no one around me has seen that for a very long time. And that's hard.
So sorry for all the dark and gloomy stuff. TLDR, I've been on and off a lot of different medications for anxiety trying to find something that works, and I'm just in a fragile state of mind right now. And my body is very sore and tired too. Kitty need sleep u-u
All of that to get some of that out of my head so I can clear my thoughts, and to say please be patient with me, I really do have stuff in the works that I hope to get more time for soon. Thank you. :3
I've been working as a retail store manager, and like many jobs, we don't have a lot of people to help. The schedule has always been super tight, and I have to be ready to be on call if someone can't make it and I have to step in and fill their shift.
Doing this for a few months now has been very physically taxing. I often don't get enough time to rest and recover between my shifts and have been behind on sleep.
The lack of sleep is not helping me climb out the deep dark chasm that has been my mentality. I'm still trying to recover from a few different traumatic positions when everything started going south.
And then there's living with my family. I have never felt like I could express myself openly without worry in that house growing up, and that's still the case. This lead to me growing up as a very quiet and introverted child who was too anxious to even think about making friends until their teen years. I've been wearing a mask in my own home all my life, and with how tired and stressed I've been, I feel like that mask has slowly started to blend together with my reality so I forget the difference sometimes. I have to remind myself who I am because no one around me has seen that for a very long time. And that's hard.
So sorry for all the dark and gloomy stuff. TLDR, I've been on and off a lot of different medications for anxiety trying to find something that works, and I'm just in a fragile state of mind right now. And my body is very sore and tired too. Kitty need sleep u-u
All of that to get some of that out of my head so I can clear my thoughts, and to say please be patient with me, I really do have stuff in the works that I hope to get more time for soon. Thank you. :3
Quick update on things
Posted 2 years agoGonna try to keep this short and sweet, but seeing as I haven't posted anything still, I wanted to give a quick update on where I'm at.
I do still have projects I'm working on, but I'm taking it slow so not to overstress myself as well as make sure I'm satisfied with my work before I'm ready for any uploads. I have a new drawing tablet on the way! It's being handed down to me by my old roomie, and it's much nicer than any of the cheap ones I've owned so far. I'm thinking of doing some random practice doodles on it to get used to using something bigger, and I'll probably try to get some of those posted!
I'm also slowly getting myself back into the swing of writing stories, and have been a lot happier with what I'm writing now!
The main delay has to do with my job. I work a lot, and like many jobs right now, we are very shorthanded and things are rather hectic, which usually leaves me feeling pretty drained after work. I've been saving my money to prepare for an eventual move to somewhere better for me, so that's been priority one right now.
That wasn't as short and sweet as I thought it would be, sorry.
I do still have projects I'm working on, but I'm taking it slow so not to overstress myself as well as make sure I'm satisfied with my work before I'm ready for any uploads. I have a new drawing tablet on the way! It's being handed down to me by my old roomie, and it's much nicer than any of the cheap ones I've owned so far. I'm thinking of doing some random practice doodles on it to get used to using something bigger, and I'll probably try to get some of those posted!
I'm also slowly getting myself back into the swing of writing stories, and have been a lot happier with what I'm writing now!
The main delay has to do with my job. I work a lot, and like many jobs right now, we are very shorthanded and things are rather hectic, which usually leaves me feeling pretty drained after work. I've been saving my money to prepare for an eventual move to somewhere better for me, so that's been priority one right now.
That wasn't as short and sweet as I thought it would be, sorry.
Pausing content uploads again
Posted 2 years agoI really wanted to start working on things that I could have ready to post and share. It had been a long time since I've been able to do so, and I've been feeling like I've fallen behind a ton. Unfortunately it has recently become apparent to me that I tried to jump back into this a little too early, and trying to work on things like stories in what little free time I have is only making things worse for me. We're at a very crazy time in the world, and it's affected us all in one way or another. I'm not happy about having to slow down again, especially since I didn't manage to upload anything first. But I really need to be working on getting myself back to mental stability where I can. Stressing about getting my writing done isn't helping with that. This won't change the content I will be uploading, just the time it takes before I can work on it all again.
I apologize for the time this is taking me, especially if you're someone who I've already promised a story, either as a thank you for something you've done for me, or just because I wanted it to be a fun project for myself. I've still got everything on my list for when I'm ready to continue, and you'll be at the top. Thank you for being patient and understanding with me this far. I only ask that you bear with me for a bit longer.
I apologize for the time this is taking me, especially if you're someone who I've already promised a story, either as a thank you for something you've done for me, or just because I wanted it to be a fun project for myself. I've still got everything on my list for when I'm ready to continue, and you'll be at the top. Thank you for being patient and understanding with me this far. I only ask that you bear with me for a bit longer.
New Account! Fresh Start!
Posted 3 years agoHello, and welcome to my new account! I'm in the process of moving here from my old account umbralfeline
I hadn't been as active in this community as I once was, and have been trying to change that for some time. Unfortunately life is crazy and unpredictable, and I've been trying to manage everything in my personal life first. I'm finally getting back to where I want though! I've been working on some writing projects that I want to upload once they're done. I decided rather than trying to clear the dust I let gather in my old one, it would be easier to keep things organized with a clean slate. Plus I thought of a new name I like too! What do you think? :3
I will still be going back and fourth between this account and the older one for a bit while I get everything I want moved over. I've still got lots of artists whose submissions I'd like to keep up with. I'm gonna have to go through my old watch list to re-watch the people I want. I'm not in too big a rush for that one though. I'm still checking my inbox for the other account for the time being.
Sorry I don't have anything new to share just yet. I can't promise when exactly, but I will definitely try to have something up in the near future. Things like my occupation come first. Need to make money somehow!
Anyone interested in my future works should watch, or check back soon! I appreciate it!
I hadn't been as active in this community as I once was, and have been trying to change that for some time. Unfortunately life is crazy and unpredictable, and I've been trying to manage everything in my personal life first. I'm finally getting back to where I want though! I've been working on some writing projects that I want to upload once they're done. I decided rather than trying to clear the dust I let gather in my old one, it would be easier to keep things organized with a clean slate. Plus I thought of a new name I like too! What do you think? :3
I will still be going back and fourth between this account and the older one for a bit while I get everything I want moved over. I've still got lots of artists whose submissions I'd like to keep up with. I'm gonna have to go through my old watch list to re-watch the people I want. I'm not in too big a rush for that one though. I'm still checking my inbox for the other account for the time being.
Sorry I don't have anything new to share just yet. I can't promise when exactly, but I will definitely try to have something up in the near future. Things like my occupation come first. Need to make money somehow!
Anyone interested in my future works should watch, or check back soon! I appreciate it!