Detoxing
Posted 4 months agoDetoxing doesn’t feel good and I am so tired of going through these cycles of being dumb and abusing my body and then realizing I am abusing my body and stopping abruptly.
Happy 2024!
Posted 4 months agoOkay okay so I am day drinking but today is a day you are allowed to do that
I just want everyone to know that I appreciate you and thank you so much for following me <3
I hope you have a great 2024 and make of it whatever you wish. Fail or succeed or excel or just chill out, it is your year!
Love,
Noia
I just want everyone to know that I appreciate you and thank you so much for following me <3
I hope you have a great 2024 and make of it whatever you wish. Fail or succeed or excel or just chill out, it is your year!
Love,
Noia
Oops
Posted 5 months agoToday I did a pretty bad thing and day drank
Like a lot
I do not remember doing the laundry or making the bed but I did while drinking it would seem
But really, far worse than doing chores, I harassed a friend and was weird at them and now I feel so bad X.x
Time to once again try to rein in my drinking.
So cyclical.
Like a lot
I do not remember doing the laundry or making the bed but I did while drinking it would seem
But really, far worse than doing chores, I harassed a friend and was weird at them and now I feel so bad X.x
Time to once again try to rein in my drinking.
So cyclical.
Hello
Posted 9 months agoHi! I was gone for a while but am back :]
I don’t want to get all detailey about it but I got spooked by some communications and some possible doxing but I think it’s okay and I overreacted.
Butbutbut, I did remove some posts and don’t plan on drawing lewd things for a while, and probably won’t be very communicative for a while. Please don’t be offended!
I have met some very lovely people here and I don’t mean to just ghost you! But I have to be safe and keep my mental health in mind.
Annnd if I owed you a drawing or something, especially a porny thing, sorry but I won’t finish it. Please understand.
Geeze I sound melodramatic
But anyways I might start drawing again some time and I hope everyone is well and okay :]
I don’t want to get all detailey about it but I got spooked by some communications and some possible doxing but I think it’s okay and I overreacted.
Butbutbut, I did remove some posts and don’t plan on drawing lewd things for a while, and probably won’t be very communicative for a while. Please don’t be offended!
I have met some very lovely people here and I don’t mean to just ghost you! But I have to be safe and keep my mental health in mind.
Annnd if I owed you a drawing or something, especially a porny thing, sorry but I won’t finish it. Please understand.
Geeze I sound melodramatic
But anyways I might start drawing again some time and I hope everyone is well and okay :]
Addiction and where I am at
Posted a year agoI have been thinking a lot lately about where I am with my drinking.
Labeling myself “alcoholic” and talking about it a lot and all that stuff. At first I thought it might make it worse and like normalize it with myself… but I think it keeps me frequently aware of it.
Obviously with my posts and what I talk about and stuff it is pretty clear I am still drinking a lot but… I feel pretty free at this point.
I drink and hide it from my husband (well we drink together but I mean my late night drinkies) and all of that still, but the constant itchiness over it is so much weaker. It’s still there sometimes but I can just avoid it much much more often. The nagging at the back of my head and anxious feeling in my chest about needing to drink is something I can ignore a lot better now
So it’s like… I am an alcoholic. I know that. And I won’t kid myself about the issue being resolved but it’s just… a lot better than I have been. I just looked through my gallery and my vent posts and stuff and I just feel like I’ve suddenly cleared some big hurdle.
This isn’t really something worth celebrating but it’s something, you know?
Labeling myself “alcoholic” and talking about it a lot and all that stuff. At first I thought it might make it worse and like normalize it with myself… but I think it keeps me frequently aware of it.
Obviously with my posts and what I talk about and stuff it is pretty clear I am still drinking a lot but… I feel pretty free at this point.
I drink and hide it from my husband (well we drink together but I mean my late night drinkies) and all of that still, but the constant itchiness over it is so much weaker. It’s still there sometimes but I can just avoid it much much more often. The nagging at the back of my head and anxious feeling in my chest about needing to drink is something I can ignore a lot better now
So it’s like… I am an alcoholic. I know that. And I won’t kid myself about the issue being resolved but it’s just… a lot better than I have been. I just looked through my gallery and my vent posts and stuff and I just feel like I’ve suddenly cleared some big hurdle.
This isn’t really something worth celebrating but it’s something, you know?
Oopsie
Posted a year agoI stored a bunch of vodka in a Tupperware. Then I just drank it like five minutes ago. It smelled like poison and had a really really bad aftertaste. I think the plastic leeched into the vodka?? Now I am paranoid (paraNOIA lol) that I just drank a bunch of cancer.
The lesson here is to hide your liquor from your husband in a glass jar :]
The lesson here is to hide your liquor from your husband in a glass jar :]
NSFW Account
Posted 2 years agoHi!
Thank you so much for reading :0
I have been in kind of a weird place the last year or so. I used to be pretty against sharing my lewd stuff buuuuttt.
Anyways here is my nsfw account!
Noiasmut
If you are interested in such things, please give me a watch. The account will be spammed with reposts probably at first. I guess I need to look to see if that’s against any rules first.
I will continue to share not smut here :]
Thank you so much!
Noia
Thank you so much for reading :0
I have been in kind of a weird place the last year or so. I used to be pretty against sharing my lewd stuff buuuuttt.
Anyways here is my nsfw account!
Noiasmut
If you are interested in such things, please give me a watch. The account will be spammed with reposts probably at first. I guess I need to look to see if that’s against any rules first.
I will continue to share not smut here :]
Thank you so much!
Noia
Delays
Posted 2 years agoHi!
I owe a few people some stuff- if that includes you, sorry I am taking so long.
Maybe I say this a lot but I recently have been dealing with some very significant life things.
I am okay but it caused some upset at the time and am only now getting on track.
Thank you for your patience!
I owe a few people some stuff- if that includes you, sorry I am taking so long.
Maybe I say this a lot but I recently have been dealing with some very significant life things.
I am okay but it caused some upset at the time and am only now getting on track.
Thank you for your patience!
Raffle Winners
Posted 2 years agoWow oh wow thank you to all who participated!
I was not very clear with my post since uh I was drinking but I figured I’d attempt to kind of broadcast who won.
I am actually going to announce two YEAH TWO winners. I will just take way longer for winner number two’s prize :x
Winners!
“First” place is 14, DayDragon22
“Second” is 8, The-Gamer-Groundhog
Thanks again, I will pm you both :]
I was not very clear with my post since uh I was drinking but I figured I’d attempt to kind of broadcast who won.
I am actually going to announce two YEAH TWO winners. I will just take way longer for winner number two’s prize :x
Winners!
“First” place is 14, DayDragon22
“Second” is 8, The-Gamer-Groundhog
Thanks again, I will pm you both :]
Alcohol
Posted 2 years agoI have to admit
That more often than not
I use alcohol to help me be creative
Sometime
It is t good to rme
That more often than not
I use alcohol to help me be creative
Sometime
It is t good to rme
Illness TMI and maybe nsfw stuff
Posted 2 years agoHello beautiful wonderful people
I am going to complain now, okay?
I have been sick pretty much since Christmas. On top of that, period.
I am such a mucus coughy headachey groinachey mess
Uuugghhhhhhh
I spend my nights with a hot water bottle and NyQuil and lately have to just drink myself to sleep cause of unstoppable night-coughing fits, like tonight. I have vodka stomach uuuggghh
One day I will be better and will draw again.
Also also also
I have been considering how nsfw stuff appears in my account
When I first started out with my online presence on f-list, I kept things only sfw. Sometimes, lately, I just want to draw a butt, though. I am thinking of making a separate nsfw account, but would anyone care if I just keep it on this account?? I know I don’t have a huge following or anything but I don’t want to offend anyone.
Please be well and drink lots of water and GET A FLU SHOT and any other vaccination you can get your hands on.
Ilu all
Noia
I am going to complain now, okay?
I have been sick pretty much since Christmas. On top of that, period.
I am such a mucus coughy headachey groinachey mess
Uuugghhhhhhh
I spend my nights with a hot water bottle and NyQuil and lately have to just drink myself to sleep cause of unstoppable night-coughing fits, like tonight. I have vodka stomach uuuggghh
One day I will be better and will draw again.
Also also also
I have been considering how nsfw stuff appears in my account
When I first started out with my online presence on f-list, I kept things only sfw. Sometimes, lately, I just want to draw a butt, though. I am thinking of making a separate nsfw account, but would anyone care if I just keep it on this account?? I know I don’t have a huge following or anything but I don’t want to offend anyone.
Please be well and drink lots of water and GET A FLU SHOT and any other vaccination you can get your hands on.
Ilu all
Noia
Hiatus again :0
Posted 2 years agoHihihi!
Thank you so much for watching me!
Given some personal stuff, I’ll be scarce for a while.
Be well!
Noia
Thank you so much for watching me!
Given some personal stuff, I’ll be scarce for a while.
Be well!
Noia
Video Games
Posted 2 years agoHoly cow
Everything
Is Deltarune
Or Undertale
And I have
Never played either o.o
I don’t play a lot of video games. I feel so left behind!
:0 just being silly please have a good day :0
Everything
Is Deltarune
Or Undertale
And I have
Never played either o.o
I don’t play a lot of video games. I feel so left behind!
:0 just being silly please have a good day :0
Sobriety?
Posted 2 years agoI think I am at day 21 of not drinking.
That’s three weeks
That’s about a month
Haha it is not easy no no. I don’t have anything to do at night without drinking.
Not at all trying to stop altogether. Just… seeing if I can for a while. But wow.
The itchy feeling is mostly gone. It is good. Still very little inspiration to draw without it though.
Hm what else. I have been exercising again. I was losing weight for a while which is bad since my BMI is like already on the brink of being underweight, exercising and eating more helps.
Annnd. Um. I am studying for work related stuff again so I feel a little more fulfilled from that.
That’s more or less it.
Thank you for reading and humoring me :]
That’s three weeks
That’s about a month
Haha it is not easy no no. I don’t have anything to do at night without drinking.
Not at all trying to stop altogether. Just… seeing if I can for a while. But wow.
The itchy feeling is mostly gone. It is good. Still very little inspiration to draw without it though.
Hm what else. I have been exercising again. I was losing weight for a while which is bad since my BMI is like already on the brink of being underweight, exercising and eating more helps.
Annnd. Um. I am studying for work related stuff again so I feel a little more fulfilled from that.
That’s more or less it.
Thank you for reading and humoring me :]
Alcoholism
Posted 3 years agoThis is a drama post! Beware!
And mostly just me complaining
So really, just move along. I just need an outlet.
I have drank every night for about the past 3 weeks.
Not a ton, mostly, but at least enough to get buzzed. I typically do it when my partner is asleep but not always.
It is just... normal. I feel normal doing it. I feel more creative, relaxed, less anxious.
I also feel very depressed, embarrassed and helpless.
I have said it before elsewhere but it is an itch. If you have ever heard of other addicts with an itch, it is that. A weird sensation that is maybe in the back of my head, maybe my whole body, just an urge.
I alternate between shame, embracing it (this some of my silly recipes) and not caring at all.
I am not seeking help, again, I just kind of need an outlet.
It is a weird situation to be in.
And mostly just me complaining
So really, just move along. I just need an outlet.
I have drank every night for about the past 3 weeks.
Not a ton, mostly, but at least enough to get buzzed. I typically do it when my partner is asleep but not always.
It is just... normal. I feel normal doing it. I feel more creative, relaxed, less anxious.
I also feel very depressed, embarrassed and helpless.
I have said it before elsewhere but it is an itch. If you have ever heard of other addicts with an itch, it is that. A weird sensation that is maybe in the back of my head, maybe my whole body, just an urge.
I alternate between shame, embracing it (this some of my silly recipes) and not caring at all.
I am not seeking help, again, I just kind of need an outlet.
It is a weird situation to be in.
Drink More Water
Posted 3 years agoMe me me
I am going to talk about me
And complain
You have been warned
I have an exam today for some continued learning stuff my employer sponsors. I have been studying every night for about a month and a half.
I am stressed.
I drank last night (surprise) and maybe went overboard but mostly I DIDN’T DRINK ENOUGH WATER. I am usually very careful to but nooo.
I am stressed.
Drink more water! Like before and while drinking and just all the time. Hangovers are terrible terrible.
I am stressed.
Thank you for reading. Be well and go get a glass of water like right now.
I am going to talk about me
And complain
You have been warned
I have an exam today for some continued learning stuff my employer sponsors. I have been studying every night for about a month and a half.
I am stressed.
I drank last night (surprise) and maybe went overboard but mostly I DIDN’T DRINK ENOUGH WATER. I am usually very careful to but nooo.
I am stressed.
Drink more water! Like before and while drinking and just all the time. Hangovers are terrible terrible.
I am stressed.
Thank you for reading. Be well and go get a glass of water like right now.
Using my art
Posted 3 years agoHALO HI Hello hey
FYI, if I have ever made art for you or one of your characters you are free to use it however you wish! I just ask for credit. So like these free doodle things I have been doing, for example. Repost all you want!
Obviously this is subject to change and doesn’t count if I specify otherwise in the post details or whatever. Don’t be a jerk. Also uh Noia is mine. She is my OC. Not that I have experienced art theft but I guess I should put that down somewhere, right?
Thank you for reading!
FYI, if I have ever made art for you or one of your characters you are free to use it however you wish! I just ask for credit. So like these free doodle things I have been doing, for example. Repost all you want!
Obviously this is subject to change and doesn’t count if I specify otherwise in the post details or whatever. Don’t be a jerk. Also uh Noia is mine. She is my OC. Not that I have experienced art theft but I guess I should put that down somewhere, right?
Thank you for reading!
Keeping Things
Posted 3 years agoHello! Hi! Heyheyheyheyheyheyhey!
I hope you, person reading this, are well. Thank you for stopping by.
Just an FYI about my art if I give you a trade or gift or whatever: I do not keep my raws, or however artsy people refer to their renders. I delete them as soon as I post. Sorry if that impacts you!
Uhhhhh that is all!
I hope you, person reading this, are well. Thank you for stopping by.
Just an FYI about my art if I give you a trade or gift or whatever: I do not keep my raws, or however artsy people refer to their renders. I delete them as soon as I post. Sorry if that impacts you!
Uhhhhh that is all!