Learning 2D/drawing again, where to post results?
Posted a month agoI've been trying to get back into trying to learn drawing and though about where I could post the results.
I've been primarily doing 3d art for the longest time due to traumatic hand injury that caused nerve damage, but I've recently gone through a book called "Draw Stronger: Self-Care For Cartoonists and Other Visual Artists" by "Kriota Willber" that helped me to somewhat overcome this handicap of mine when I got into texture drawing to fix baking errors.
I'm not going to lie, it's all going to look like total shit for a while and I've been thinking of getting a second account started with a new "persona"/username. Posting on it would be super inconsistent as I'd still be focusing on 3d and my cybersec studies/career.
Honestly I don't even know if I'm burned out of 3d, reached a point where I started to stagnate again OR my new adhd medication just making me starting to get disinterested in 3d in general.
I've been primarily doing 3d art for the longest time due to traumatic hand injury that caused nerve damage, but I've recently gone through a book called "Draw Stronger: Self-Care For Cartoonists and Other Visual Artists" by "Kriota Willber" that helped me to somewhat overcome this handicap of mine when I got into texture drawing to fix baking errors.
I'm not going to lie, it's all going to look like total shit for a while and I've been thinking of getting a second account started with a new "persona"/username. Posting on it would be super inconsistent as I'd still be focusing on 3d and my cybersec studies/career.
Honestly I don't even know if I'm burned out of 3d, reached a point where I started to stagnate again OR my new adhd medication just making me starting to get disinterested in 3d in general.
Planned Outage for thatworgen.art on 28th of May
Posted a year agoPlanned Service Outage on 28-05-2023 for service downscaling due to lack of funding and increased Hosting & RIPE IP failover cost. Thatworgen.art and Wolfhaus.me will be affected. Sorry, hosting things is expensive.
Now on Mastodon!
Posted 2 years agoGot a Mastodon instance now, feel free to follow me there!
https://wolfhaus.me/@thatworgen
y tho?
Recently me and other 3D artists got hit with a shadowban on Twitter for unknown reasons (its gone now thankfully), so I decided to prepare for a worst case scenario, ala Twitter's version of the Tumblr 2018 exodus.
...also I've spent two weeks rewritting the deployment stack for Mastodon so I might as well use the fruits of my labor...
https://wolfhaus.me/@thatworgen
y tho?
Recently me and other 3D artists got hit with a shadowban on Twitter for unknown reasons (its gone now thankfully), so I decided to prepare for a worst case scenario, ala Twitter's version of the Tumblr 2018 exodus.
...also I've spent two weeks rewritting the deployment stack for Mastodon so I might as well use the fruits of my labor...
Ditching Pillowfort
Posted 2 years agoHey All
I have made the decision to stop posting my art on Pillowfort, as it appears that the platform is pretty much dead on arrival. There's also only 7 different notifications total for over two months, so it also looks like nobody is really using it as well.
I also ran into issues trying to upload content on it and there's no room for growth on the platform, as registrations are still locked behind a paywall.
I might come back to it once its less dead and registrations are open, or use a different platform entirely, but pillowfort is just a no go unfortunately.
I have made the decision to stop posting my art on Pillowfort, as it appears that the platform is pretty much dead on arrival. There's also only 7 different notifications total for over two months, so it also looks like nobody is really using it as well.
I also ran into issues trying to upload content on it and there's no room for growth on the platform, as registrations are still locked behind a paywall.
I might come back to it once its less dead and registrations are open, or use a different platform entirely, but pillowfort is just a no go unfortunately.
I got Patreon now!
Posted 2 years agoHey y'all, I got Patreon now!
https://www.patreon.com/thatworgen
Does this mean there's going to be exclusive content now?
No, this is purely if you just want to support me. I will never lock any content including hi-rez versions of my art behind Patreon. The only benefit you get is just an access to Patreon-only channel on my discord server with me occassionally posting a WIP and such to keep things fair.
Why?
Simple. Servers cost money and there's a lot of you now.
What are the juicy technical details as of why?
I've been self-hosting thatworgen.art on two rented dedicated servers (Not a fancy HA cluster, just manual DNS switch if main box goes dead while secondary holds backups. Nginx scary.) for cheap, but the influx of people is causing load issues on the weak hardware and causing the 100mbps link to get saturated even with Cloudflare in place (only 50% of traffic is cached with CDN and running backups just straight up kills it). Recently I've been getting random reboots on one of the servers (if you're in my discord you probably saw that I got woken up by multiple emails about server being kaput from my provider) and the distro I use is EoL in 6 months (Thanks Redhat), so its time for an upgrade. Plan is either to with scalable VPS or a more beefy dedicated server that actually has iKVM and gigabit link.
https://www.patreon.com/thatworgen
Does this mean there's going to be exclusive content now?
No, this is purely if you just want to support me. I will never lock any content including hi-rez versions of my art behind Patreon. The only benefit you get is just an access to Patreon-only channel on my discord server with me occassionally posting a WIP and such to keep things fair.
Why?
Simple. Servers cost money and there's a lot of you now.
What are the juicy technical details as of why?
I've been self-hosting thatworgen.art on two rented dedicated servers (Not a fancy HA cluster, just manual DNS switch if main box goes dead while secondary holds backups. Nginx scary.) for cheap, but the influx of people is causing load issues on the weak hardware and causing the 100mbps link to get saturated even with Cloudflare in place (only 50% of traffic is cached with CDN and running backups just straight up kills it). Recently I've been getting random reboots on one of the servers (if you're in my discord you probably saw that I got woken up by multiple emails about server being kaput from my provider) and the distro I use is EoL in 6 months (Thanks Redhat), so its time for an upgrade. Plan is either to with scalable VPS or a more beefy dedicated server that actually has iKVM and gigabit link.
I have Pillowfort now!
Posted 3 years agoHey! I now have a Pillowfort account, go follow it if yourself have a PF account! I uploaded my entire gallery onto it as well.
https://www.pillowfort.social/thatworgen
Also sorry for causing PF to go down for 4 months, but hey their bug bounty program works at least!
"What even is Pillowfort?"
It's one of the Tumblr clones that spawned after the NSFW exodus
"Y Tho"
Newgrounds doesn't like me, Tumblr is still dead and I'm not aware about any other site where I can dump my content.
I also have backups and can recover from baremetal disaster but datacenters can catch on fire still.
"Isn't it like filled with security holes like swiss cheese?"
I was paid a bug bounty by Pillowfort for identifying security holes and getting them to fix it. That's also the reason why they took the entire site down for a few months and hired a security auditor. Still buggy af though.
https://www.pillowfort.social/thatworgen
Also sorry for causing PF to go down for 4 months, but hey their bug bounty program works at least!
"What even is Pillowfort?"
It's one of the Tumblr clones that spawned after the NSFW exodus
"Y Tho"
Newgrounds doesn't like me, Tumblr is still dead and I'm not aware about any other site where I can dump my content.
I also have backups and can recover from baremetal disaster but datacenters can catch on fire still.
"Isn't it like filled with security holes like swiss cheese?"
I was paid a bug bounty by Pillowfort for identifying security holes and getting them to fix it. That's also the reason why they took the entire site down for a few months and hired a security auditor. Still buggy af though.
Uploading commissioned stuff from the past into scraps
Posted 3 years agoPretty much the title, expect to see some stuff
Domain change!
Posted 3 years agoblog.heykidwannayiff.com is now thatworgen.art!
So what does this mean with the previous posts that contain the old domain? What about the domain in the watermarks?
The old domain now redirects to the new one, but still pointing you to the content you want to go to. Its like nothing happened!
So what does this mean with the previous posts that contain the old domain? What about the domain in the watermarks?
The old domain now redirects to the new one, but still pointing you to the content you want to go to. Its like nothing happened!
Art Posting Analysis of 2020 and Site update
Posted 3 years agoI think that statistics are neat, so I thought that I'd make a write up of what I observed from all of the data I've hoarded through the year, it even might help some people to even defeat the algorithm and figure out when to post and when not to post. Some people might think this is revealing stuff that's behind the curtain that will lead into losing money and customers, but hey, it's not like I'm earning any money from this.
But first, site updates!
Site updates:
-Site now has a new coat of paint, going from black, white and grey color scheme to dark blue across the board.
-NSFW Notification! You shouldn't be really going to sites like these if you're underage.
-Since midnight 31th of December 2020, the server is now using content distribution network to deal with the massive load of traffic saturating the 100mbps link the server uses. Over 8 gigs of traffic served from the CDN in the first 12 hours! Unfortunately this breaks the automation that posts new content on Discord every time I upload something, but it stops getting the server to its knees every time I upload something and the traffic floods in.
The Anal-ytics:
This is not meant to look like boasting about "haha look at how much traffic I have", I just want to share some of the data that I hoard. No I'm not going to show off the Grafana dashboard full of graphs for my power usage (unless you like that kind of content?). I'm consolidating data from only 2 sources as FA doesn't have any native way of viewing or exporting the amount of views, favorites or comments and you can't easily punch in the numbers into an InfluxDB database and have pretty Grafana graphs to look at. The data from the site are skewed to the low side in terms of user visits, as the data is scraped off webserver access logs that have been anonymized to comply with GDPR.
I think you'll start to see a pattern with some months and why I was forced to either upgrade to a better hosting or start utilizing a CDN. You will also see that the growth on twitter is just basically you being at the mercy of the algorithm, while on FA it is the timing when you upload. I found out that uploading around midnight GMT+0 on Fridays onto FA is the idea sweet-spot, as Europeans are still awake because they don't have work tomorrow and people from the west coast are just returning home from work, making it ideal for most people to view the published content.
I don't really bother with data from e621, 'tis a silly place. Every time I upload something there its like "why is my post sitting in red for over a day now???" with no explanation and its only use is to just dump images on it in case my server catches on fire (AGAIN) or I die and nobody pays for the server bills or domain renewals. Bit morbid but once you spend a month in hospital dying you start to think about this stuff. One interesting thing I discovered is, that if you upload stuff onto e621, it will appear on rule34 in a few days, as rule34 scrapes the content off e621. Seems a bit unfriendly but it solves the issue of having to upload stuff onto ANOTHER place.
Now... The DATA!
January:
569 number of visits to the site for which 302 were unique and 3.30GB bandwidth was used. 6,902 tweet impressions and 17 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Commission: Lyndrael"
February:
448 number of visits to the site for which 253 were unique and 2.70GB bandwidth was used. 9,170 tweet impressions and 9 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Commission: DegenerateBael"
March:
827 number of visits to the site for which 421 were unique and 8.00GB bandwidth was used. 13.7K tweet impressions and 46 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Pirate Trouble"
April:
744 number of visits to the site for which 376 were unique and 7.31GB bandwidth was used. 19.1K tweet impressions and 47 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "A new foe has appeared"
May:
511 number of visits to the site for which 304 were unique and 6.99GB (nice) bandwidth was used. 13.5K tweet impressions and 22 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Sticky Defeat" with "Choose your words wisely" almost beating it to the punch
June:
578 number of visits to the site for which 315 were unique and 7.91GB bandwidth was used. 12K tweet impressions and 11 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Midnight spear polishing services"
July:
656 number of visits to the site for which 364 were unique and 12.34GB bandwidth was used. 21.5K tweet impressions and 38 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Onlyworgs"
August:
785 number of visits to the site for which 367 were unique and 14.25GB bandwidth was used. 23.8K tweet impressions and 37 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Warrior's backside"
September:
768 number of visits to the site for which 362 were unique and 18.78GB bandwidth was used. 16.7K tweet impressions and 22 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Rough Filling"
October:
774 number of visits to the site for which 378 were unique and 18.72GB bandwidth was used. 22.4K tweet impressions and 28 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Pumpkin Spice Worgen - Female version"
November:
855 number of visits to the site for which 474 were unique and 20.90GB bandwidth was used. 17.6K tweet impressions and 19 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Easy Theft - Alt Version"
December:
929 number of visits to the site for which 511 were unique and 33.14GB bandwidth (oh my GOD) was used. 19.5K tweet impressions and 18 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Petrifying Surprise - Female version"
The large dip in May is mainly because I started a new job back then and had to focus on it more, followed by sickness that got me in the ER again and then I moved to a new place. Then from July to October, I thought that I have fully growth into the kind of niche stuff I make and carried on as usual, although saddened by the lack of new watches or unique visitors, until november and then december. I'm going to be honest, I have no idea what happened there.
Well hopefully you enjoyed this wall of text about the numbers that my content generates.
But first, site updates!
Site updates:
-Site now has a new coat of paint, going from black, white and grey color scheme to dark blue across the board.
-NSFW Notification! You shouldn't be really going to sites like these if you're underage.
-Since midnight 31th of December 2020, the server is now using content distribution network to deal with the massive load of traffic saturating the 100mbps link the server uses. Over 8 gigs of traffic served from the CDN in the first 12 hours! Unfortunately this breaks the automation that posts new content on Discord every time I upload something, but it stops getting the server to its knees every time I upload something and the traffic floods in.
The Anal-ytics:
This is not meant to look like boasting about "haha look at how much traffic I have", I just want to share some of the data that I hoard. No I'm not going to show off the Grafana dashboard full of graphs for my power usage (unless you like that kind of content?). I'm consolidating data from only 2 sources as FA doesn't have any native way of viewing or exporting the amount of views, favorites or comments and you can't easily punch in the numbers into an InfluxDB database and have pretty Grafana graphs to look at. The data from the site are skewed to the low side in terms of user visits, as the data is scraped off webserver access logs that have been anonymized to comply with GDPR.
I think you'll start to see a pattern with some months and why I was forced to either upgrade to a better hosting or start utilizing a CDN. You will also see that the growth on twitter is just basically you being at the mercy of the algorithm, while on FA it is the timing when you upload. I found out that uploading around midnight GMT+0 on Fridays onto FA is the idea sweet-spot, as Europeans are still awake because they don't have work tomorrow and people from the west coast are just returning home from work, making it ideal for most people to view the published content.
I don't really bother with data from e621, 'tis a silly place. Every time I upload something there its like "why is my post sitting in red for over a day now???" with no explanation and its only use is to just dump images on it in case my server catches on fire (AGAIN) or I die and nobody pays for the server bills or domain renewals. Bit morbid but once you spend a month in hospital dying you start to think about this stuff. One interesting thing I discovered is, that if you upload stuff onto e621, it will appear on rule34 in a few days, as rule34 scrapes the content off e621. Seems a bit unfriendly but it solves the issue of having to upload stuff onto ANOTHER place.
Now... The DATA!
January:
569 number of visits to the site for which 302 were unique and 3.30GB bandwidth was used. 6,902 tweet impressions and 17 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Commission: Lyndrael"
February:
448 number of visits to the site for which 253 were unique and 2.70GB bandwidth was used. 9,170 tweet impressions and 9 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Commission: DegenerateBael"
March:
827 number of visits to the site for which 421 were unique and 8.00GB bandwidth was used. 13.7K tweet impressions and 46 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Pirate Trouble"
April:
744 number of visits to the site for which 376 were unique and 7.31GB bandwidth was used. 19.1K tweet impressions and 47 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "A new foe has appeared"
May:
511 number of visits to the site for which 304 were unique and 6.99GB (nice) bandwidth was used. 13.5K tweet impressions and 22 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Sticky Defeat" with "Choose your words wisely" almost beating it to the punch
June:
578 number of visits to the site for which 315 were unique and 7.91GB bandwidth was used. 12K tweet impressions and 11 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Midnight spear polishing services"
July:
656 number of visits to the site for which 364 were unique and 12.34GB bandwidth was used. 21.5K tweet impressions and 38 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Onlyworgs"
August:
785 number of visits to the site for which 367 were unique and 14.25GB bandwidth was used. 23.8K tweet impressions and 37 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Warrior's backside"
September:
768 number of visits to the site for which 362 were unique and 18.78GB bandwidth was used. 16.7K tweet impressions and 22 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Rough Filling"
October:
774 number of visits to the site for which 378 were unique and 18.72GB bandwidth was used. 22.4K tweet impressions and 28 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Pumpkin Spice Worgen - Female version"
November:
855 number of visits to the site for which 474 were unique and 20.90GB bandwidth was used. 17.6K tweet impressions and 19 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Easy Theft - Alt Version"
December:
929 number of visits to the site for which 511 were unique and 33.14GB bandwidth (oh my GOD) was used. 19.5K tweet impressions and 18 new followers on Twitter. Most popular piece was "Petrifying Surprise - Female version"
The large dip in May is mainly because I started a new job back then and had to focus on it more, followed by sickness that got me in the ER again and then I moved to a new place. Then from July to October, I thought that I have fully growth into the kind of niche stuff I make and carried on as usual, although saddened by the lack of new watches or unique visitors, until november and then december. I'm going to be honest, I have no idea what happened there.
Well hopefully you enjoyed this wall of text about the numbers that my content generates.
Patched RenderDoc Release, an alternative to NinjaRipper
Posted 3 years agoAre you one of the last remaining and cool people that still rip models and port them into other things? Have you tried to use RenderDoc in the past when Ninjaripper failed you, but found it to just make the game crash under Dx11? Do you want to debug graphic issues of a game/3d application that you're modding to figure out how broken your mod is? Are you lazy to download visual studio, clone a git repo, change a specific line in a cpp file and compile the project? Then I got just the thing for you!
Patched RenderDoc v1.11 with way better game compatibility
https://github.com/thunderysteak/re.....modified-v1.11
Technical details in the forum post:
https://knockout.chat/thread/17765
TL;DR: Turns out, the reason why RenderDoc didn't work with most retail Dx11 applications and made them crash is because it has the proper honor system of a debugging application because it was never intented to be used with non-debug 3d applications. A tiny edit that removes the honor system makes the thing compatible with way more things.
Patched RenderDoc v1.11 with way better game compatibility
https://github.com/thunderysteak/re.....modified-v1.11
Technical details in the forum post:
https://knockout.chat/thread/17765
TL;DR: Turns out, the reason why RenderDoc didn't work with most retail Dx11 applications and made them crash is because it has the proper honor system of a debugging application because it was never intented to be used with non-debug 3d applications. A tiny edit that removes the honor system makes the thing compatible with way more things.
Elder Scrolls: Online model datamining write-up
Posted 4 years agoSince last week I've been kind of working on Elder Scrolls Online model data mining.
You can read the whole detailed write-up on Knockout.
Yes, at this stage you can export almost all ESO models with this branch of LSLib.
"Does this mean what I think it means?"
Yes
"Steak aren't you supposed to be relaxing?"
Shut
You can read the whole detailed write-up on Knockout.
Yes, at this stage you can export almost all ESO models with this branch of LSLib.
"Does this mean what I think it means?"
Yes
"Steak aren't you supposed to be relaxing?"
Shut
Possible Warframe stuff
Posted 4 years agoRight, so, I had one of those zero impulse control moments and got some WF models in.
The model I tested stuff with was with Valkyr
https://i.heykidwannayiff.com/100103.png
https://i.heykidwannayiff.com/20122a.png
Even got the tint masks to work correctly
https://i.heykidwannayiff.com/e5934a.mp4
Its without any rig but I can do that easily.
Let me know guys if you do want to see some warframe stuff in the future
The model I tested stuff with was with Valkyr
https://i.heykidwannayiff.com/100103.png
https://i.heykidwannayiff.com/20122a.png
Even got the tint masks to work correctly
https://i.heykidwannayiff.com/e5934a.mp4
Its without any rig but I can do that easily.
Let me know guys if you do want to see some warframe stuff in the future
Merry chrimbsmus
Posted 4 years agoIt crubsmush
Merry crismchbus
Merry crismchbus
Discord server
Posted 4 years agoHey, all popular kids seem to be doing this discord server thing.
https://discord.gg/QS6FJuu
No drama thx.
https://discord.gg/QS6FJuu
No drama thx.
"Who knew rock bottom had a basement?"
Posted 4 years agoI know that one month is not really considered a radio silence, but it feels like September was really fucked up and just really long, and it seems like October is gonna get way worse, seeing as it already got to a pretty bad point on just the 3rd day of the month. tl;dr below.
So what the hell happened you ask?
I don't even know where to start. I was stuck sick for a month, with the two weeks ending up in hospital and then getting diagnosis of being too stressed out and suffering from a hardcore burnout that caused hormone imbalance and royally fucked me up. After I was seen by over 10 doctors in the ward, The last one that saw me told me my diagnosis, and in order to get me fixed up, I was told not to do night shifts anymore, being suggested to attend outpatient stress management sessions at the hospital, stop with doing overtime and to generally not overwork myself. Didn't do any renders in the meantime, because it is kinda also considered work and I did it when I got home off work and didn't have shift the next day. Anyway, I thought that the nightmarish hospital stay was the worst that could have happened (Have you ever been in the A&E stuck for 3 days without any sleep or food, then sedated "for the pain" you don't have after passing triage and then sat in a chair positioned in such a way, you're just watching people die and flatline on the monitors while randomly passing in and out of consciousness? Cuz I have. Fuck that hospital), but guess who was wrong? This dude!
Went to a GP for a follow-up a week later, since I wasn't given any discharge papers and didn't know what to do, since I had signs of UTI (It was just bladder irritated from one liter of vodka), and left with the "suicidal" label somehow, being told to get counseling and be put on antidepressants. My GP even called me yesterday to check up on me if I haven't sudoku'd yet.
But wait, it gets worse! Waaaayyy worse!
Today I got fired from the job I relocated across Europe for, due of my medical reasons and the diagnosis of not being able to do shift based work anymore. Ok to be honest, my manager really tried to make me stay by relocating me to a different position in the team, but someone broke chain of command, snitching that I wasn't really interested in the new role I ended up as due of planning to internally transfer once my probation period passes. That forced my manager to fire me, since his hands were tied and he couldn't do anything.
So what happens now?
I got 3 months until I run out of cash if I don't find a new job. After that? Well, my life insurance covers remains transfer to my country of origin, so that's one plan. Also no therapy or GP for the time being, I can't afford it.
Tl;dr
Landed in hospital due of hormone imbalance because of being overstressed and burnt out from being overworked, no longer being allowed to do shift work while I'm employed in a shift based position, get labeled as clinically depressed and suicidal and then get fired from the job I relocated across half of Europe for.
How the actual fuck do you crawl out of something like this
So what the hell happened you ask?
I don't even know where to start. I was stuck sick for a month, with the two weeks ending up in hospital and then getting diagnosis of being too stressed out and suffering from a hardcore burnout that caused hormone imbalance and royally fucked me up. After I was seen by over 10 doctors in the ward, The last one that saw me told me my diagnosis, and in order to get me fixed up, I was told not to do night shifts anymore, being suggested to attend outpatient stress management sessions at the hospital, stop with doing overtime and to generally not overwork myself. Didn't do any renders in the meantime, because it is kinda also considered work and I did it when I got home off work and didn't have shift the next day. Anyway, I thought that the nightmarish hospital stay was the worst that could have happened (Have you ever been in the A&E stuck for 3 days without any sleep or food, then sedated "for the pain" you don't have after passing triage and then sat in a chair positioned in such a way, you're just watching people die and flatline on the monitors while randomly passing in and out of consciousness? Cuz I have. Fuck that hospital), but guess who was wrong? This dude!
Went to a GP for a follow-up a week later, since I wasn't given any discharge papers and didn't know what to do, since I had signs of UTI (It was just bladder irritated from one liter of vodka), and left with the "suicidal" label somehow, being told to get counseling and be put on antidepressants. My GP even called me yesterday to check up on me if I haven't sudoku'd yet.
But wait, it gets worse! Waaaayyy worse!
Today I got fired from the job I relocated across Europe for, due of my medical reasons and the diagnosis of not being able to do shift based work anymore. Ok to be honest, my manager really tried to make me stay by relocating me to a different position in the team, but someone broke chain of command, snitching that I wasn't really interested in the new role I ended up as due of planning to internally transfer once my probation period passes. That forced my manager to fire me, since his hands were tied and he couldn't do anything.
So what happens now?
I got 3 months until I run out of cash if I don't find a new job. After that? Well, my life insurance covers remains transfer to my country of origin, so that's one plan. Also no therapy or GP for the time being, I can't afford it.
Tl;dr
Landed in hospital due of hormone imbalance because of being overstressed and burnt out from being overworked, no longer being allowed to do shift work while I'm employed in a shift based position, get labeled as clinically depressed and suicidal and then get fired from the job I relocated across half of Europe for.
How the actual fuck do you crawl out of something like this
Tutorials and guides
Posted 4 years agoI was thinking about making guides for tech stuff and 3d model stuff, seeing as knowledge should be shared and people could use that information.
I used to write documentation how to get stuff out of WoW and get it working in SFM, but both of those sites are is no longer functional. The github for that site is still available though and with some magic, you could find some information from the dead wiki on the server that's in zombie mode. I used to do this stuff on Tumblr but since that's gone, where would I even put that kind of stuff?
If I wrote or made video guides, in what way would people want them to be shared? An image or text in FA's scraps? A blog post on my website with a new journal alerting about a new guide being written? A wiki where people can add their own stuff?
Mind you, the guides wouldn't be for just 3D stuff only, I'd be stuff like setting up backup solution or getting your own webserver and blog up as well.
Please comment on the journal your opinions on what I should do. Kinda miss doing this kind of stuff, and if I go poof one day, the knowledge will go poof with me as well because it wasn't shared.
I used to write documentation how to get stuff out of WoW and get it working in SFM, but both of those sites are is no longer functional. The github for that site is still available though and with some magic, you could find some information from the dead wiki on the server that's in zombie mode. I used to do this stuff on Tumblr but since that's gone, where would I even put that kind of stuff?
If I wrote or made video guides, in what way would people want them to be shared? An image or text in FA's scraps? A blog post on my website with a new journal alerting about a new guide being written? A wiki where people can add their own stuff?
Mind you, the guides wouldn't be for just 3D stuff only, I'd be stuff like setting up backup solution or getting your own webserver and blog up as well.
Please comment on the journal your opinions on what I should do. Kinda miss doing this kind of stuff, and if I go poof one day, the knowledge will go poof with me as well because it wasn't shared.
New models are happening
Posted 4 years agoAnd all of you need to see the cursed thing I have created the moment I pried it out of the game files.
Thanks to Hunman for quickly writing up a semi-destructive script for quickly datamining new files and my friend supplying me with booze.
Turns out that M2 files have their .skin IDs in the SFID chunk and actually point to the specific File IDs. The job went far easier because Blizz was lazy and replaced the old model with a new one instead using the _HD suffix.
Thanks to Hunman for quickly writing up a semi-destructive script for quickly datamining new files and my friend supplying me with booze.
Turns out that M2 files have their .skin IDs in the SFID chunk and actually point to the specific File IDs. The job went far easier because Blizz was lazy and replaced the old model with a new one instead using the _HD suffix.
[ZOMBIE NOISES]
Posted 5 years agoHELLO I'M BACK KINDA.
"How's Ireland going my dog?"
Godawful.
Still stuck on a laptop and I've already had to move to a second place because of a godawful landlord, Turns out they rented the room while they were selling the house and I wasn't even allowed to use the washer or the kitchen. Also their whole extended family lived there with their newborn baby, Noped from there as soon as I was able to (after almost 3 weeks living on fastfood and instant noodles). Thankfully I have at least one friend here that helped me out with the laundry and helping me not to go crazy. The new place I found is okay, but the internet is 2001 tier and it feels like I'll get stabbed or knocked off a scooter in this area. Following a series of unfortunate events, my old phone had to be replaced, as it lacked bands that Three uses and it only had 40% of its original capacity, my first paycheck got emergency taxed even after submitting my PPS number and work's tax number on revenue,ie and my desktop got knackered in shipping, so I have to replace things. CPU Cooler is zip tied. Currently waiting for KBC to get my bank account open and then figure out how to get better internet here. Oh yeah I've got driver's license now.
I'm still somehow managing okay, so that's okay I guess?If someone could recommend a good psychiatrist/therapist in Dublin that'd be grand. Slide the recommendation into my DMs thanks.
I'll be getting my desktop back up and running soon I think, so expect a new render soon, I promise. If not just knock off the idiot on an electric scooter driving on the right when you see him.
TL;DR
-Moved twice already
-Still stuck on laptop
-Internet a shit
-Paycheck thanos snapped
-Computer br0ken
"How's Ireland going my dog?"
Godawful.
Still stuck on a laptop and I've already had to move to a second place because of a godawful landlord, Turns out they rented the room while they were selling the house and I wasn't even allowed to use the washer or the kitchen. Also their whole extended family lived there with their newborn baby, Noped from there as soon as I was able to (after almost 3 weeks living on fastfood and instant noodles). Thankfully I have at least one friend here that helped me out with the laundry and helping me not to go crazy. The new place I found is okay, but the internet is 2001 tier and it feels like I'll get stabbed or knocked off a scooter in this area. Following a series of unfortunate events, my old phone had to be replaced, as it lacked bands that Three uses and it only had 40% of its original capacity, my first paycheck got emergency taxed even after submitting my PPS number and work's tax number on revenue,ie and my desktop got knackered in shipping, so I have to replace things. CPU Cooler is zip tied. Currently waiting for KBC to get my bank account open and then figure out how to get better internet here. Oh yeah I've got driver's license now.
I'm still somehow managing okay, so that's okay I guess?
I'll be getting my desktop back up and running soon I think, so expect a new render soon, I promise. If not just knock off the idiot on an electric scooter driving on the right when you see him.
TL;DR
-Moved twice already
-Still stuck on laptop
-Internet a shit
-Paycheck thanos snapped
-Computer br0ken
Server got Pwned, sites are gone
Posted 5 years ago"Press F to Pay respects"
Q: What happened?
A: MySQL database got hacked, all databases got wiped, got left with a ransom note (bottom is secondary server on how its supposed to look like) to pay 0.2 BTC to get the dbs back. Wikimedia and Wordpress sites are dead. Direct links still function. Perforce Helix server is also dead. All project file versioning is lost, and only way to go to older version of a file is through Veeam backup recovery from my NAS (which has a degraded RAID for a month now whoops).
Q: When did it happen?
A: 18th of April 2019, 13:16 UTC. I was having a lunch with coworkers when it happened.
Q: Any backups?
A: NOPE.
Q: What sites got affected
A: blog.heykidwannayiff.com, wowg.ovh, daisypayne.heykidwannayiff.com. Possibly others too. All content on those sites were lost.
Q: How did that happen?
A: Possibly a zero day vulnerability in ISPConfig management module or Wordpress CMS. The server was updated every week via yum-cron, ClamAV scans were ran weekly, Wordpress sites were automatically updated and patched via an update plugin and was hardened as best as possible.
Q: Don't you run monitoring software to prevent these kind of stuff?
A: Didn't get notified for any /etc/passwd changes, successful logins or rkhunter catching anything or any rootkits.
Q: What happens now?
A: We go with the nuclear option. New server ordered and waiting for it to be deployed, then the migration process can begin.
Q: Will you still use Wordpress?
A: Fuck anything PHP related honestly, so probably not.
Q: "Where the pronz @??"
A: Lost my porn making mojo. Also recently converted the default WoW rig to 3DS Max's biped. So, probably soon? Idk. No idea.
Q: What happened?
A: MySQL database got hacked, all databases got wiped, got left with a ransom note (bottom is secondary server on how its supposed to look like) to pay 0.2 BTC to get the dbs back. Wikimedia and Wordpress sites are dead. Direct links still function. Perforce Helix server is also dead. All project file versioning is lost, and only way to go to older version of a file is through Veeam backup recovery from my NAS (which has a degraded RAID for a month now whoops).
Q: When did it happen?
A: 18th of April 2019, 13:16 UTC. I was having a lunch with coworkers when it happened.
Q: Any backups?
A: NOPE.
Q: What sites got affected
A: blog.heykidwannayiff.com, wowg.ovh, daisypayne.heykidwannayiff.com. Possibly others too. All content on those sites were lost.
Q: How did that happen?
A: Possibly a zero day vulnerability in ISPConfig management module or Wordpress CMS. The server was updated every week via yum-cron, ClamAV scans were ran weekly, Wordpress sites were automatically updated and patched via an update plugin and was hardened as best as possible.
Q: Don't you run monitoring software to prevent these kind of stuff?
A: Didn't get notified for any /etc/passwd changes, successful logins or rkhunter catching anything or any rootkits.
Q: What happens now?
A: We go with the nuclear option. New server ordered and waiting for it to be deployed, then the migration process can begin.
Q: Will you still use Wordpress?
A: Fuck anything PHP related honestly, so probably not.
Q: "Where the pronz @??"
A: Lost my porn making mojo. Also recently converted the default WoW rig to 3DS Max's biped. So, probably soon? Idk. No idea.
Moving to Ireland! What now?
Posted 5 years agoOkay so I'm typing this while I should have been asleep 3 hours ago.
I've got the job offer after the 6 hour in-person interview, and I'll be moving to Ireland in basically less than two months. There are a lot of strings attached though. There's no relocation package, the location of my workplace is secret due of security risks and I basically don't have anywhere to stay in Dublin. I'll have to Airbnb for around a month until I get some money before I can rent some single room flat or shared house/flat with someone.
What does this basically mean you ask?
I have to leave everything back in my old country. After April, I will no longer be able to make renders for an unspecified time until I find a place to live and rebuild my workstation. I can't really render stuff or play videogames on T440p, so rendering is completely out of option. Will also need to fix it. The HDD has several bad sectors and is failing and the screen needs to be replaced soon. I also won't have any data to work with. I'll pull all of my drives and send them off to a friend to hold them in storage for safekeeping, along with my NAS.
So more hardships to overcome, and basically just a notice that more downtime in the future will happen.
I've got the job offer after the 6 hour in-person interview, and I'll be moving to Ireland in basically less than two months. There are a lot of strings attached though. There's no relocation package, the location of my workplace is secret due of security risks and I basically don't have anywhere to stay in Dublin. I'll have to Airbnb for around a month until I get some money before I can rent some single room flat or shared house/flat with someone.
What does this basically mean you ask?
I have to leave everything back in my old country. After April, I will no longer be able to make renders for an unspecified time until I find a place to live and rebuild my workstation. I can't really render stuff or play videogames on T440p, so rendering is completely out of option. Will also need to fix it. The HDD has several bad sectors and is failing and the screen needs to be replaced soon. I also won't have any data to work with. I'll pull all of my drives and send them off to a friend to hold them in storage for safekeeping, along with my NAS.
So more hardships to overcome, and basically just a notice that more downtime in the future will happen.
An update of why this profile is covered in cobwebs
Posted 5 years agoAlternatively, "Where the new worgen art at".
Oh boy where do I start. I guess I'll give it into 3 blocks:
Art related and technical
In a nutshell, there's absolutely zero time. I've been redoing the worgen model to be more "modular", because y'all get tired of seeing the same dog over and over again really soon and this will really speed up the workflow. By modular I mean swappable parts. Change the hair, armor, ears or boots on the fly. Also been trying to use 3DS Max's IK system and get it to work on the model, but that's a whole new can of worms of buggy clusterfuck. I don't really know what's up with 3DS Max and just breaking in really weird ways. Like here it just moves bones on its own when saving and loading the same save https://my.mixtape.moe/gciton.mp4 like bruh what the fuck is this shit
Then there's an issue with hardware. A 4th gen Core i5 and GTX 950 is really not enough for rendering these days. The reason why I never make animations is because I'd have to wait 24 hours for each frame or switch out renderers. No, GPU V-Ray RT rendering fails due of lack of VRAM. Sure, I could offload it to a dedicated server, but my home server runs on Core 2 Duo with a barely alive mobo and the dedicated server I have is just a mere Atom with 2 GB of RAM. At this point I feel like I should just wait for the worgen model update, because I'll be basically wasting time trying to polish a turd that will get a new version in a month or two (I HOPE). I'm also creatively in the trash. I can't really come up with any poses. Yesterday I was working for 5 hours on a single pose, trying to get it to look right, but in the end it looked absolutely crap, so I canned it. This isn't just a single time this happened. Last week on the weekend I tried to come up with something, stared at 3ds max window with a worgen in the middle for ten minutes trying to figure out what to make, followed by 30 minutes browsing e621 for any refs for a pose until I have given up.
I don't even know where to post about the technicalities, post materials for others, post WiPs or just post about unrelated projects that have nothing to do with my art. Yeah I've got an ESP8266 to connect to non-IoT Azure via RESTful API and send JSON data over Https that the chip can't even do natively, but who cares for that stuff.
Work
My life has turned out to be, incredibly busy after the new years? The place I work at currently requires for me to have a driver's license, but I was accepted even without one because they lacked people that would stay in the office. Now, a new project at work started (Can't share almost any details due of NDAs) that requires someone who speaks English really good, but it also requires a lot of driving. Because of this, I rushed out to get driver's license, and this past month has been just a nightmarish circle of work, driving school, sleep on constant loop. Also yolo I'm constantly pulling overtime until I burst into flames because need $$$ to fix my house. On top of having to remember over 1000 exam answers and model situations, I still have to constantly learn new crap for work and test out stuff in my home lab. Also I'm applying for a new job that's outside of my country, so if I get accepted and will have to relocate, that's even more downtime.
Health
Here's a surprise one. During the eye tests for driver's license, doctor discovered that I suffer from Red-Green color blindness. This basically got me thinking that all of the renders I have done have bad color balance and just shockingly bad colors. I've been also "lightly" sick for the past month, dumping ibuprofen and paracetamol into my system to just stay functional. This took a toll in a form of me getting actually heavily sick, and I'm on 3rd set of antibiotics without really any signs of recovery. Both of my ear canals are shot and I'm partially deaf on my right ear. Basically caught some nasty form of virus infection that made me bedridden. Don't munch ibuprofen and actually go to a doctor when feeling sick kids.
TL;DR
My health is down the dumpster, I'm also colorblind, really busy with IRL crap, got hit in the face with an art block and I've been basically rendering polished turds on a system that cost 300 Eur at the time when it was new. Wait did this just become a rant post?
I'm in for a hell of a ride.
Oh boy where do I start. I guess I'll give it into 3 blocks:
Art related and technical
In a nutshell, there's absolutely zero time. I've been redoing the worgen model to be more "modular", because y'all get tired of seeing the same dog over and over again really soon and this will really speed up the workflow. By modular I mean swappable parts. Change the hair, armor, ears or boots on the fly. Also been trying to use 3DS Max's IK system and get it to work on the model, but that's a whole new can of worms of buggy clusterfuck. I don't really know what's up with 3DS Max and just breaking in really weird ways. Like here it just moves bones on its own when saving and loading the same save https://my.mixtape.moe/gciton.mp4 like bruh what the fuck is this shit
Then there's an issue with hardware. A 4th gen Core i5 and GTX 950 is really not enough for rendering these days. The reason why I never make animations is because I'd have to wait 24 hours for each frame or switch out renderers. No, GPU V-Ray RT rendering fails due of lack of VRAM. Sure, I could offload it to a dedicated server, but my home server runs on Core 2 Duo with a barely alive mobo and the dedicated server I have is just a mere Atom with 2 GB of RAM. At this point I feel like I should just wait for the worgen model update, because I'll be basically wasting time trying to polish a turd that will get a new version in a month or two (I HOPE). I'm also creatively in the trash. I can't really come up with any poses. Yesterday I was working for 5 hours on a single pose, trying to get it to look right, but in the end it looked absolutely crap, so I canned it. This isn't just a single time this happened. Last week on the weekend I tried to come up with something, stared at 3ds max window with a worgen in the middle for ten minutes trying to figure out what to make, followed by 30 minutes browsing e621 for any refs for a pose until I have given up.
I don't even know where to post about the technicalities, post materials for others, post WiPs or just post about unrelated projects that have nothing to do with my art. Yeah I've got an ESP8266 to connect to non-IoT Azure via RESTful API and send JSON data over Https that the chip can't even do natively, but who cares for that stuff.
Work
My life has turned out to be, incredibly busy after the new years? The place I work at currently requires for me to have a driver's license, but I was accepted even without one because they lacked people that would stay in the office. Now, a new project at work started (Can't share almost any details due of NDAs) that requires someone who speaks English really good, but it also requires a lot of driving. Because of this, I rushed out to get driver's license, and this past month has been just a nightmarish circle of work, driving school, sleep on constant loop. Also yolo I'm constantly pulling overtime until I burst into flames because need $$$ to fix my house. On top of having to remember over 1000 exam answers and model situations, I still have to constantly learn new crap for work and test out stuff in my home lab. Also I'm applying for a new job that's outside of my country, so if I get accepted and will have to relocate, that's even more downtime.
Health
Here's a surprise one. During the eye tests for driver's license, doctor discovered that I suffer from Red-Green color blindness. This basically got me thinking that all of the renders I have done have bad color balance and just shockingly bad colors. I've been also "lightly" sick for the past month, dumping ibuprofen and paracetamol into my system to just stay functional. This took a toll in a form of me getting actually heavily sick, and I'm on 3rd set of antibiotics without really any signs of recovery. Both of my ear canals are shot and I'm partially deaf on my right ear. Basically caught some nasty form of virus infection that made me bedridden. Don't munch ibuprofen and actually go to a doctor when feeling sick kids.
TL;DR
My health is down the dumpster, I'm also colorblind, really busy with IRL crap, got hit in the face with an art block and I've been basically rendering polished turds on a system that cost 300 Eur at the time when it was new. Wait did this just become a rant post?
I'm in for a hell of a ride.
God Jul y'all
Posted 5 years agoMerry Christmas, I still have no idea how to use FA.