Some news about me, my artworks and 2018.
Posted 5 years agoHello there, I make this journal to give some news.
I don't like to talk about that in public, but I think it's can be nice to do it now. Will help some of you to understand the situation and not force me to explain all, one more time (always pain for me).
For almost 10 months, I suffer from a serious health problem that impact deeply all my life for present and future. I still don't know if a full recovery will be possible one day... For now I only expect a stable situation that will allow me to be back to a more or less "normal" life. It was expected for this fall firstly, now delayed to early 2019.
Even if it's look similar to my 2011 accident, they are no link with it. I never expected something worst could happen like that. This level of pain was really extreme that I never thought it was possible. Fortunately, after 10 months, pain is now more or less controlled and thing evolve... It's really really show but go most of time on the good way, even if they're are very bad episodes...
The consequence of all that is really chaotic in my life. I spend all theses 10 months on bed with heavy treatment. I can't work, I can't move, I can't do any activity and my mobility is affected. This is the reason why I don't post lot things last time and I cancel all planned conventions since October 2017.
Sadly it will continue for coming times...
Last September (2017), I had an iPad Pro for my bday. Finally the only way to be able to draw a little, only days I'm not too bad. Still difficult from bed and really painful. I hope it not impact too much my artworks and don't make so ugly things. About usual and traditional drawing, that's totally impossible for me to make it now. Same for Livepics that I miss so much. I don't know when I will be able restart usual drawings (end 2018, 2019...). Until this moment, I still have this iPad art option and I will try use it when I can.
You can follow my artworks on Twitter @TitashMeerkat or on my Telegram channel. I limit the sharing to theses 2 networks for now because they allow easy and quick sharing. I will upgrade FA and others networks when I will be better and able to go on my computer.
As you can imagine all that impact badly my mood and treatment make all worst. Feel really depressive and bad most of times. If you find me cold, rude or distant, I'm sorry. After 10 months suffering and loneliness, I'm not really in mood to talk or be social anymore. The situation make me switch between sadness and angryness.
In addition to that I have to support very bad behaviors on IM: People (and friends) that act like asshole. That's crazy how some people can be so bad and painful. I don't know who I can trust me consider as real friends... I finally chose to change my phone number and abandon my old Telegram account to make me free of this shit. In same way, first bad message on any networks I will insta-block (friends or not). Sorry for the few persons that are not like the persons I talk. For now my priority is care about myself in this chaotic period. I will see later if I will change anything...
I miss a lot convention. Sadly not possible for now. I hope I will be able to make a convention soon. For now I cancel everything until 2019. I planned to go to NFC 2019 after the cancellation of the 2018 edition. Too early to have final decision: health evolution and the fact that I can't work until I'm better, make this plan more and more difficult... I hope 2019 will allow me to have little fun...
Thank you to Patreon patrons that continue support me even if I made less artworks. That's so nice. You contribute to make my everyday better: I mostly use your money to buy equipments that allow me to draw in easier way from the bed. My bed is like a new desk, now. Because you, I can draw with less difficulties and less pain.
Big thanks to the very few persons that was always here from beginning and support me and help me in this hell. It's sad to see how lonely we are when life fall and pieces... But theses persons are only one that can give hope and desire to fight even if it's difficult.
Thank you to the nice message I received sometime. It make everyday less sad.
Hope I wrote in not so bad English.
Miss you. Hugs
I don't like to talk about that in public, but I think it's can be nice to do it now. Will help some of you to understand the situation and not force me to explain all, one more time (always pain for me).
For almost 10 months, I suffer from a serious health problem that impact deeply all my life for present and future. I still don't know if a full recovery will be possible one day... For now I only expect a stable situation that will allow me to be back to a more or less "normal" life. It was expected for this fall firstly, now delayed to early 2019.
Even if it's look similar to my 2011 accident, they are no link with it. I never expected something worst could happen like that. This level of pain was really extreme that I never thought it was possible. Fortunately, after 10 months, pain is now more or less controlled and thing evolve... It's really really show but go most of time on the good way, even if they're are very bad episodes...
The consequence of all that is really chaotic in my life. I spend all theses 10 months on bed with heavy treatment. I can't work, I can't move, I can't do any activity and my mobility is affected. This is the reason why I don't post lot things last time and I cancel all planned conventions since October 2017.
Sadly it will continue for coming times...
Last September (2017), I had an iPad Pro for my bday. Finally the only way to be able to draw a little, only days I'm not too bad. Still difficult from bed and really painful. I hope it not impact too much my artworks and don't make so ugly things. About usual and traditional drawing, that's totally impossible for me to make it now. Same for Livepics that I miss so much. I don't know when I will be able restart usual drawings (end 2018, 2019...). Until this moment, I still have this iPad art option and I will try use it when I can.
You can follow my artworks on Twitter @TitashMeerkat or on my Telegram channel. I limit the sharing to theses 2 networks for now because they allow easy and quick sharing. I will upgrade FA and others networks when I will be better and able to go on my computer.
As you can imagine all that impact badly my mood and treatment make all worst. Feel really depressive and bad most of times. If you find me cold, rude or distant, I'm sorry. After 10 months suffering and loneliness, I'm not really in mood to talk or be social anymore. The situation make me switch between sadness and angryness.
In addition to that I have to support very bad behaviors on IM: People (and friends) that act like asshole. That's crazy how some people can be so bad and painful. I don't know who I can trust me consider as real friends... I finally chose to change my phone number and abandon my old Telegram account to make me free of this shit. In same way, first bad message on any networks I will insta-block (friends or not). Sorry for the few persons that are not like the persons I talk. For now my priority is care about myself in this chaotic period. I will see later if I will change anything...
I miss a lot convention. Sadly not possible for now. I hope I will be able to make a convention soon. For now I cancel everything until 2019. I planned to go to NFC 2019 after the cancellation of the 2018 edition. Too early to have final decision: health evolution and the fact that I can't work until I'm better, make this plan more and more difficult... I hope 2019 will allow me to have little fun...
Thank you to Patreon patrons that continue support me even if I made less artworks. That's so nice. You contribute to make my everyday better: I mostly use your money to buy equipments that allow me to draw in easier way from the bed. My bed is like a new desk, now. Because you, I can draw with less difficulties and less pain.
Big thanks to the very few persons that was always here from beginning and support me and help me in this hell. It's sad to see how lonely we are when life fall and pieces... But theses persons are only one that can give hope and desire to fight even if it's difficult.
Thank you to the nice message I received sometime. It make everyday less sad.
Hope I wrote in not so bad English.
Miss you. Hugs
Some news about end 2017 and next...
Posted 6 years agoHello.
I write this journal to explain a little my actual situation, since some asked...
Since august-september I have some health troubles that made this second part of 2017 really difficult. Situation become chaotic one month ago with another thing. Now I'm blocked in bed with morphine between home, doctors and hospital for 4 weeks. I can't move, I can't draw, I can't work... Not lot things I can do actually. With this week end exams, we finally know what's wrong and a real treatment will finally start. Will still be long to be back in stable situation but if everything go well I hope to leave this bed arround xmas or early january and restart slowly things although I know that the times that will follow will be quite difficult too.
For this reason I needed to stop my Livepic series. I will restart it when I will be enough well for that... Maybe January or February or March... I don't know for now. I can't wait to restart it. Maybe in slow mode to restart slowly (every 2 or 3 weeks).
Until that I have another littles series of digital pics to replace it. An idea I wanted to do for long. I start the firsts pics when I was enough well to draw from bed on the ipad pro. I hope I will not need to stop it too because pain not allow me to draw from bed too theses days.
I don't know if I will be able to post it here, FA is not easy to use in my situation. But you can follow it on Twitter or on my Telegram Channel.
I can't make traditional drawings too obviousely.
Sadly my plan to go to NFC and have table at the DD there is now over. It's painful but I need to cancel it. :(
For now I don't have plan for 2018. Difficult to plan anything when I don't have visibility on the future...
After a chaotic 2017 about conventions or vacations, 2018 seem to take the same way...
If you need to contact me, prefer Twitter DM or Telegram. Not easy to be online in my situation, I'm ultra late in emails and every others networks.
Thanks for the few that support me and help me last times. <3
Sorry if the journal is badly writed, not easy for me in my situation, as you can imagin...
See you very soon here.
I write this journal to explain a little my actual situation, since some asked...
Since august-september I have some health troubles that made this second part of 2017 really difficult. Situation become chaotic one month ago with another thing. Now I'm blocked in bed with morphine between home, doctors and hospital for 4 weeks. I can't move, I can't draw, I can't work... Not lot things I can do actually. With this week end exams, we finally know what's wrong and a real treatment will finally start. Will still be long to be back in stable situation but if everything go well I hope to leave this bed arround xmas or early january and restart slowly things although I know that the times that will follow will be quite difficult too.
For this reason I needed to stop my Livepic series. I will restart it when I will be enough well for that... Maybe January or February or March... I don't know for now. I can't wait to restart it. Maybe in slow mode to restart slowly (every 2 or 3 weeks).
Until that I have another littles series of digital pics to replace it. An idea I wanted to do for long. I start the firsts pics when I was enough well to draw from bed on the ipad pro. I hope I will not need to stop it too because pain not allow me to draw from bed too theses days.
I don't know if I will be able to post it here, FA is not easy to use in my situation. But you can follow it on Twitter or on my Telegram Channel.
I can't make traditional drawings too obviousely.
Sadly my plan to go to NFC and have table at the DD there is now over. It's painful but I need to cancel it. :(
For now I don't have plan for 2018. Difficult to plan anything when I don't have visibility on the future...
After a chaotic 2017 about conventions or vacations, 2018 seem to take the same way...
If you need to contact me, prefer Twitter DM or Telegram. Not easy to be online in my situation, I'm ultra late in emails and every others networks.
Thanks for the few that support me and help me last times. <3
Sorry if the journal is badly writed, not easy for me in my situation, as you can imagin...
See you very soon here.
About EF 2017
Posted 6 years agoBecause lot peoples ask if I will be there...
No I will not be at EF. I don't had a room whith their new registration system, reason why I abandon the option to go.
Hope see you soon in future con. Nothing planed for now...
No I will not be at EF. I don't had a room whith their new registration system, reason why I abandon the option to go.
Hope see you soon in future con. Nothing planed for now...
EAST7
Posted 6 years agoHey!
Next week, I will be at the EAST7, in Suhl Germany.
That's all... See you there if you go. :)
I don't plan to bring Artbooks there... Mostly "vacations" con for me after very bad times.
But if you go to EAST7 and want to buy one (15€) there, please ask me before later today : tuesday 11th 10:30 CET.
Via email contact[at]titash.net or Twitter @TitashMeerkat.
And I can bring it. (Limited to very little quantity)
Next week, I will be at the EAST7, in Suhl Germany.
That's all... See you there if you go. :)
I don't plan to bring Artbooks there... Mostly "vacations" con for me after very bad times.
But if you go to EAST7 and want to buy one (15€) there, please ask me before later today : tuesday 11th 10:30 CET.
Via email contact[at]titash.net or Twitter @TitashMeerkat.
And I can bring it. (Limited to very little quantity)
Some news...
Posted 7 years agoHello there,
A journal to give some news because last times push me to take a distance with everything and everybody.
Maybe this journal will help you understand why I am distant from all networks for months. It’s difficult to keep a smile in front of peoples when everything in your life is falling.
Since Christmas 2016, an accumulation of rather bad news, health troubles and important personal problems have turn my life in hell and plunged me into a state of burnout and then depression... I still try to fight against it, even if it’s really start to be better for few days.
One of the consequences: I can’t draw. I don’t do anything since the last days of 2016. That had never happened to me before. Not really an art block (I don’t think so). I have ideas and desires but when I get in front of the sheet, I cannot. And sometimes it’s even physically impossible.
That’s why you seen nothing from me for long time. Fortunately, it’s slowly change and I try draw things sometime. Mostly Livepics because they require a lot of attention and concentration and it saves me from thinking about something else for a while. I keep in archives for now, because not in mood to share. Hope coming days will continues in this direction…
For 2017 I have no convention planed. Because all that plus many other things, I missed NFC, CFz or EF… I wanted to make one (or two) from these three for 2017. I’m sad about that. For now, I have no plan for 2017 or 2018… Sorry for the ones I promise I will be there. Hope can see all you IRL very soon.
I planned to make a fursuit outing with Pucky or Titash at the Anime con “Japan Touch” in Lyon, mid-April. I’m not sure to be able to do it, in my actual situation. I will take a decision, the days before the event.
The desire to make real and work on many new or old projects is slowly come back and I think it’s something good. Thanks to the one who help me last times… and for the others, if you want to help me, thanks to don’t talk about this period anymore, with me. I don’t have the mood and desire for that and I would like to turn the page as a possible… if it’s possible.
I hope back to normal in coming days/weeks and have fun toggether a before.
A journal to give some news because last times push me to take a distance with everything and everybody.
Maybe this journal will help you understand why I am distant from all networks for months. It’s difficult to keep a smile in front of peoples when everything in your life is falling.
Since Christmas 2016, an accumulation of rather bad news, health troubles and important personal problems have turn my life in hell and plunged me into a state of burnout and then depression... I still try to fight against it, even if it’s really start to be better for few days.
One of the consequences: I can’t draw. I don’t do anything since the last days of 2016. That had never happened to me before. Not really an art block (I don’t think so). I have ideas and desires but when I get in front of the sheet, I cannot. And sometimes it’s even physically impossible.
That’s why you seen nothing from me for long time. Fortunately, it’s slowly change and I try draw things sometime. Mostly Livepics because they require a lot of attention and concentration and it saves me from thinking about something else for a while. I keep in archives for now, because not in mood to share. Hope coming days will continues in this direction…
For 2017 I have no convention planed. Because all that plus many other things, I missed NFC, CFz or EF… I wanted to make one (or two) from these three for 2017. I’m sad about that. For now, I have no plan for 2017 or 2018… Sorry for the ones I promise I will be there. Hope can see all you IRL very soon.
I planned to make a fursuit outing with Pucky or Titash at the Anime con “Japan Touch” in Lyon, mid-April. I’m not sure to be able to do it, in my actual situation. I will take a decision, the days before the event.
The desire to make real and work on many new or old projects is slowly come back and I think it’s something good. Thanks to the one who help me last times… and for the others, if you want to help me, thanks to don’t talk about this period anymore, with me. I don’t have the mood and desire for that and I would like to turn the page as a possible… if it’s possible.
I hope back to normal in coming days/weeks and have fun toggether a before.
Futerkon 2015
Posted 8 years agoHello there,
Tomorow my trip to Futerkon (Poland) where I am invited as guest of honor, will start. I’m really really stressed because it will be the first time I made an event/convention in this condition HaHa... and really happy too. It will be nice to meet all you. :)
I’m really curious to visit Poland. It will be my first time there and I’m really happy for that.
Mini me and maxi me will be there. ;)
If everything go well I will have data here and mostly upgrate my main Twitter account @TitashMeerkat. You can follow me there.
See you... :)
Tomorow my trip to Futerkon (Poland) where I am invited as guest of honor, will start. I’m really really stressed because it will be the first time I made an event/convention in this condition HaHa... and really happy too. It will be nice to meet all you. :)
I’m really curious to visit Poland. It will be my first time there and I’m really happy for that.
Mini me and maxi me will be there. ;)
If everything go well I will have data here and mostly upgrate my main Twitter account @TitashMeerkat. You can follow me there.
See you... :)