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~Aucastrucci19
Gydram the Quiet | Balaenopteridae Draconis | Age: 27
Greetings traveler, I bid you welcome to this whale durg's humble cavern. The real treasure that exists in this cavern is friendship and how that is tested over time to earn trust. I am a young green whale dragon that mudlarks along the New England mudflats looking for history and treasure. I am usually a calm, curious and considerate whale dragon that is on his journey in life at obtaining a divine sense of happiness, peace and balance. Even though I am very active irl, I am courteous at giving you the time for a conversation and to be thoughtful of my friends daily. Gydram belongs to the depths of the ocean and to my soul alone. My talent is just in my ability to perform hard work, be an open learner and to create something beautiful. Thank you very kindly for spending the time to be here and have a good day!
Motto of the HMS Glowworm- Ex tenebris lux : 'Out of darkness light'.
༺ ╔═════════════════╝☩Family & Tribe ☩╚═══════════════╗༻
🌹☩ Fairest & Beautiful Cinnamon Bun ☩🌹
✨ 🌺 🌺 ✨
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🌹☩ Big Sister of the Forest ☩🌹
🍀 🍀
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🌹☩ Water Sisters of the Atlantic ☩🌹
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🌹☩ Kind Prince & Mentor ☩🌹
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🌹☩ Brothers in Arms ☩🌹
🛡️ <3⚔️
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12/22/2022
a year ago
The year has been a very turbulent and trying one from all other years that I could recall in my life. I feel that its probably best to explain in this journal why I have been this way for the year. Mainly a coming of age year at best, but one with a very hefty price. Some of you will recall for how I was very distressed at certain points throughout the year when I believed that my parasitic subconscious was taking me down after a handful of traumatic events.
I could not get over the loss of Titan back in October of 2021 and Roxy was just a 6 month old female black golden retriever that we had just bought from a breeder shortly afterwards, but then she suffered a liver shunt with a combination of gross negligence on the vets for pushing us to the side like robots and treating us like garbage. They gave her the wrong nutrition/ medicine and she was rushed to an emergency hospital, where it was discovered that the shunt had already severely damaged her nervous system and was decided to terminate her to end her suffering. As you probably are aware, I've been eager to be able to get out of 'home' for some time as the last few years with the pandemic has revealed a lot of interesting colors, not the good ones amongst parents. I have tried to be outgoing and to try to start a life that I could share with someone that could appreciate a bit of happiness, enthusiasm and some sense of being level-headed amongst the bullshit that goes on in society. Tried to start relationships, but ended in misery. Most irl are just awful or careless about meaningful friendships.
That is not the end of it. My mom apparently had breast cancer that she knew about for 7 years and had to tell me that close to my birthday. Been stabbed in the finger with a piece of glass, but did not need stitches. Had different physical strains at times, but pushed on. School...I have been very tired and doubtful as it has only brought stress and more demands that I can't take as much as I use to. Professors are shit as they don't fuckin care about success of students in the boot camp and are condescending along with all of the TAs. I had another dog become terribly ill with hookworm too. All three dogs became sick because my father either did not care to pick-up any rabbit feces in the yard or lacked being conscious of their well-being without the aid of my mother to help confirm something was wrong. We have a new puppy, but he also got a bit of a cough going with some gas. My father feeds small bits of scraps of food from the table and then does not pay attention to him when he is out in the yard (Hint: that is why 3/4 of the time the dogs became ill). His excuse is that "Oh, I can't pick it up. You know how hard it is?". Had to watch another dog that almost died on me with feeding him canned dog food while my parents were went to Napa, California for a week. On top of that, I had to go get medicine every few days, attend three hour long sessions for organic chem with balancing time to feed the dog his medicine, then go to work. Organic chem for one month as a summer course was shit and too much to take in for a short period of time.
Next, I had to take care of my parents when they both became ill for a week after their vacation trip to California. I lost a former general manager and good man from battling terminal brain cancer, where my parents had threatened me out of mass hysteria and fear that I would bring 'covid' to the funeral, but it was only allergies from all of the dense pollen outside causing a sinus infection. Telling me to shut the fuck-up and obey. My relationship with them is stretched very thin that one or two more, I will leave all together. Its like, "Oh, why have you not used Life360?". Well, if all of you have decided to make your own decision at turning off you locations all together, why should I be criticized for not having it anymore if there is no use for it?
Also, I have no real relationship between my brother and sister as they have both decided among themselves that they will only communicate and care for each other on their terms. Never have I received message from them in five years asking "How things going?" aside from the loss of Roxy. I get the blame for things that my father is responsible for doing. For instance, how he thought I broke the water value for washing my equipment, but being conscious as I am now, I was gentle and knew the limitations. Turns out, there was no broken value. The new puppy hit a button on the oven that popped off, called a repairman, only for my mom to discover it screws back on. Tells me every now and then that I work a 'shit job' at a lobster shop, and demand me to 'think big'. Saying 'good that your working more' as a way to say that I am kept busy..As if I have not been given any breaks at all from working. I have worked all year between work, school and home. Money does not buy happiness and happiness is constantly changing as Aristotle once put it. They assume I have a hearing problem...but I remember much.. So much. I occasionally have to put up with my dad's periods as he likes to just sit back as a couch potato, stare into the void on all of his devices to not care for his well-being or being conscious of how others are when he decides to lash out. I almost didn't want to get them any presents for how they have all acted this year.
I don't formal accept apologizes out of pride, but out of justification and leaving that to some deity or god to decide on. I only accept apologizes when there is more action instead of a few words that bring transformation and understanding their issues in the long run, not in a matter two days. These are not acceptable living conditions for not just this year, but for the last 15+ years that has brought upon my depression. I want to be able to sustain a family, but I cannot make them decide on how they want to sustain it as they have clearly like to shut me down constantly and don't wish to hear any truth or reason. I prefer the simple life, something that can last till I am gone. Therefore, removing myself from the household by next May will likely be the only option unless there is a level of understanding on their part to self-reflect on their actions.
I could not get over the loss of Titan back in October of 2021 and Roxy was just a 6 month old female black golden retriever that we had just bought from a breeder shortly afterwards, but then she suffered a liver shunt with a combination of gross negligence on the vets for pushing us to the side like robots and treating us like garbage. They gave her the wrong nutrition/ medicine and she was rushed to an emergency hospital, where it was discovered that the shunt had already severely damaged her nervous system and was decided to terminate her to end her suffering. As you probably are aware, I've been eager to be able to get out of 'home' for some time as the last few years with the pandemic has revealed a lot of interesting colors, not the good ones amongst parents. I have tried to be outgoing and to try to start a life that I could share with someone that could appreciate a bit of happiness, enthusiasm and some sense of being level-headed amongst the bullshit that goes on in society. Tried to start relationships, but ended in misery. Most irl are just awful or careless about meaningful friendships.
That is not the end of it. My mom apparently had breast cancer that she knew about for 7 years and had to tell me that close to my birthday. Been stabbed in the finger with a piece of glass, but did not need stitches. Had different physical strains at times, but pushed on. School...I have been very tired and doubtful as it has only brought stress and more demands that I can't take as much as I use to. Professors are shit as they don't fuckin care about success of students in the boot camp and are condescending along with all of the TAs. I had another dog become terribly ill with hookworm too. All three dogs became sick because my father either did not care to pick-up any rabbit feces in the yard or lacked being conscious of their well-being without the aid of my mother to help confirm something was wrong. We have a new puppy, but he also got a bit of a cough going with some gas. My father feeds small bits of scraps of food from the table and then does not pay attention to him when he is out in the yard (Hint: that is why 3/4 of the time the dogs became ill). His excuse is that "Oh, I can't pick it up. You know how hard it is?". Had to watch another dog that almost died on me with feeding him canned dog food while my parents were went to Napa, California for a week. On top of that, I had to go get medicine every few days, attend three hour long sessions for organic chem with balancing time to feed the dog his medicine, then go to work. Organic chem for one month as a summer course was shit and too much to take in for a short period of time.
Next, I had to take care of my parents when they both became ill for a week after their vacation trip to California. I lost a former general manager and good man from battling terminal brain cancer, where my parents had threatened me out of mass hysteria and fear that I would bring 'covid' to the funeral, but it was only allergies from all of the dense pollen outside causing a sinus infection. Telling me to shut the fuck-up and obey. My relationship with them is stretched very thin that one or two more, I will leave all together. Its like, "Oh, why have you not used Life360?". Well, if all of you have decided to make your own decision at turning off you locations all together, why should I be criticized for not having it anymore if there is no use for it?
Also, I have no real relationship between my brother and sister as they have both decided among themselves that they will only communicate and care for each other on their terms. Never have I received message from them in five years asking "How things going?" aside from the loss of Roxy. I get the blame for things that my father is responsible for doing. For instance, how he thought I broke the water value for washing my equipment, but being conscious as I am now, I was gentle and knew the limitations. Turns out, there was no broken value. The new puppy hit a button on the oven that popped off, called a repairman, only for my mom to discover it screws back on. Tells me every now and then that I work a 'shit job' at a lobster shop, and demand me to 'think big'. Saying 'good that your working more' as a way to say that I am kept busy..As if I have not been given any breaks at all from working. I have worked all year between work, school and home. Money does not buy happiness and happiness is constantly changing as Aristotle once put it. They assume I have a hearing problem...but I remember much.. So much. I occasionally have to put up with my dad's periods as he likes to just sit back as a couch potato, stare into the void on all of his devices to not care for his well-being or being conscious of how others are when he decides to lash out. I almost didn't want to get them any presents for how they have all acted this year.
I don't formal accept apologizes out of pride, but out of justification and leaving that to some deity or god to decide on. I only accept apologizes when there is more action instead of a few words that bring transformation and understanding their issues in the long run, not in a matter two days. These are not acceptable living conditions for not just this year, but for the last 15+ years that has brought upon my depression. I want to be able to sustain a family, but I cannot make them decide on how they want to sustain it as they have clearly like to shut me down constantly and don't wish to hear any truth or reason. I prefer the simple life, something that can last till I am gone. Therefore, removing myself from the household by next May will likely be the only option unless there is a level of understanding on their part to self-reflect on their actions.
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