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NEED HELP after unsuccessful mastectomy (Crowdfunding)
a year ago
A warm welcome to everyone that found my appeal for funds! My name is Cecil. I am 25 years old and I am doing a postgrad training to become a psychotherapist. Also, I live in the beautiful city of Hamburg.
For you to understand how I ended up raising money, I should mention that I was not always called Cecil. In fact, I was born with female genitals. However, from an early age on I realized that I felt myself being male.
My transition:
Everyone informed about the current situation concerning woman-to-man-transition (or vice versa) in the context of the law knows that applying for cost absorption is difficult. Both bureaucratic and surgical efforts for gender reassignment require tedious and long-lasting application procedures to have a chance for funding by insurance. Hence, I invested a considerable amount of energy and time to come to the point where I am today. I started taking Testosterone and preparing for my deeply desired mastectomy about a year ago. In order to achieve the latter, I had to attend a year of psychotherapy in advance which also included a psychiatric and psychotherapeutic examination – everything on my own expanses. Moreover, I had to create a CV about my trans life as a justification of my identity. For my insurer to take over the costs, I had to attend several surgical, gynecological and endocrinilogical assessements as well as regular visits with my GP. I managed all of these procedures while studying, taking exams, working part time and having a normal day to day life. During all that time, I never lost my smile and I always pursued my dream of a mastectomy. I was buoyed. I also used the time for preparation and researched all kinds of information on pre- and postsurgical measurement such as correct scar treatment or possible complications that could occur during or after surgery.
My Failed Mastectomy:
On December, 6th 2021 my long-desired mastectomy was done for which I had had to grant a lot of intimate insights into my private sphere in advance. After the surgery was done, everything seemed to go well and I was excited and very happy. I was released from hospital at the 5th day post-op and felt good. I thought my new life was about to begin and I could finally take off… However, after three days I realized that something was wrong. I wasn’t feeling well and also the wounds weren’t looking to great. In the night between December 15th and 16th my life partner took me back to the hospital where the mastectomy had been done. During the examination, they diagnosed an infection on the left sided breast and early signs of necrosis. The beginning of the necrosis indicated that the infection must have started very soon after the surgery. I was treated with antibiotics for seven days thereafter and had to rest. This was a very bad/difficult time for me. Additional to suffering from pain I blamed myself that I should have recognised the infection earlier or taken more care of the healing process. On top of that, not knowing whether the antibiotics would work was gruelling since the doctors were not able to make any predictions in that regard. And most of all, Covid doubled my troubles. I was alone a lot during this time. I was isolated in my room and visits were hardly allowed. Thus, my fears of a possible second surgery and my worries concerning my future were torturing me. Luckily, the antibiotics were able to reduce the infection. However, the necrosis was so much advanced already that the left nipple died and a painful scar overgrowth developed. Although I am taking a lot of care of the scar tissue and receiving physical therapy, I am still experiencing a lot of pain around the scar. Also, the lymph nodes and lymphatics are still painfully swollen (lymphedema). Most of all, it is very painful for me to look at the scarred side of my body. It reminds me (constantly) of the difficult time after the mastectomy. Currently, I suffer intensely because of the bad results. My surgeon recommended a medically pigmentation of the nipple with a 3D-replica and wrote a letter of recommendation for my insurer. This treatment is usually used to replicate the nipple of women who received breast cancer treatment and lost their nipple due to surgery. My insurer did not grant the absorption of costs, even though I filed an objection.
My wish:
With the pigmentation treatment/tattooing of my left nipple the results of the complication of the mastectomy would become invisible. Thus, I could finally have closure for this traumatic experience. I would like to look down at myself and watch myself in the mirror and not be reminded of the complications of the surgery. Moreover, I want all the negative emotions associated with the surgery to be replaced by positive feelings - which should have been there in the first place! I want to be proud and confident when showing my breast and finally feel comfortable in my own body.
I am grateful for every donation. And of course, by the end of the journey, I will present you the result of the pigmentation treatment.
Thank you so much, all you loving people who like to support me! uwu
[b]Link: [/b] https://www.spendenseite.de/hilfe-n.....nekrose/-45252
For you to understand how I ended up raising money, I should mention that I was not always called Cecil. In fact, I was born with female genitals. However, from an early age on I realized that I felt myself being male.
My transition:
Everyone informed about the current situation concerning woman-to-man-transition (or vice versa) in the context of the law knows that applying for cost absorption is difficult. Both bureaucratic and surgical efforts for gender reassignment require tedious and long-lasting application procedures to have a chance for funding by insurance. Hence, I invested a considerable amount of energy and time to come to the point where I am today. I started taking Testosterone and preparing for my deeply desired mastectomy about a year ago. In order to achieve the latter, I had to attend a year of psychotherapy in advance which also included a psychiatric and psychotherapeutic examination – everything on my own expanses. Moreover, I had to create a CV about my trans life as a justification of my identity. For my insurer to take over the costs, I had to attend several surgical, gynecological and endocrinilogical assessements as well as regular visits with my GP. I managed all of these procedures while studying, taking exams, working part time and having a normal day to day life. During all that time, I never lost my smile and I always pursued my dream of a mastectomy. I was buoyed. I also used the time for preparation and researched all kinds of information on pre- and postsurgical measurement such as correct scar treatment or possible complications that could occur during or after surgery.
My Failed Mastectomy:
On December, 6th 2021 my long-desired mastectomy was done for which I had had to grant a lot of intimate insights into my private sphere in advance. After the surgery was done, everything seemed to go well and I was excited and very happy. I was released from hospital at the 5th day post-op and felt good. I thought my new life was about to begin and I could finally take off… However, after three days I realized that something was wrong. I wasn’t feeling well and also the wounds weren’t looking to great. In the night between December 15th and 16th my life partner took me back to the hospital where the mastectomy had been done. During the examination, they diagnosed an infection on the left sided breast and early signs of necrosis. The beginning of the necrosis indicated that the infection must have started very soon after the surgery. I was treated with antibiotics for seven days thereafter and had to rest. This was a very bad/difficult time for me. Additional to suffering from pain I blamed myself that I should have recognised the infection earlier or taken more care of the healing process. On top of that, not knowing whether the antibiotics would work was gruelling since the doctors were not able to make any predictions in that regard. And most of all, Covid doubled my troubles. I was alone a lot during this time. I was isolated in my room and visits were hardly allowed. Thus, my fears of a possible second surgery and my worries concerning my future were torturing me. Luckily, the antibiotics were able to reduce the infection. However, the necrosis was so much advanced already that the left nipple died and a painful scar overgrowth developed. Although I am taking a lot of care of the scar tissue and receiving physical therapy, I am still experiencing a lot of pain around the scar. Also, the lymph nodes and lymphatics are still painfully swollen (lymphedema). Most of all, it is very painful for me to look at the scarred side of my body. It reminds me (constantly) of the difficult time after the mastectomy. Currently, I suffer intensely because of the bad results. My surgeon recommended a medically pigmentation of the nipple with a 3D-replica and wrote a letter of recommendation for my insurer. This treatment is usually used to replicate the nipple of women who received breast cancer treatment and lost their nipple due to surgery. My insurer did not grant the absorption of costs, even though I filed an objection.
My wish:
With the pigmentation treatment/tattooing of my left nipple the results of the complication of the mastectomy would become invisible. Thus, I could finally have closure for this traumatic experience. I would like to look down at myself and watch myself in the mirror and not be reminded of the complications of the surgery. Moreover, I want all the negative emotions associated with the surgery to be replaced by positive feelings - which should have been there in the first place! I want to be proud and confident when showing my breast and finally feel comfortable in my own body.
I am grateful for every donation. And of course, by the end of the journey, I will present you the result of the pigmentation treatment.
Thank you so much, all you loving people who like to support me! uwu
[b]Link: [/b] https://www.spendenseite.de/hilfe-n.....nekrose/-45252
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