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I've always had an intense fetish for subjugation by transformation. In these scenarios, I'm always playing the role of a helpless, submissive or unwilling victim. It's something I have struggled with throughout my life. I've only recently come to terms with my bizarre sexual preferences, mustering up the courage to maintain this semi-anonymous project of writing some of these fantasies as stories for others to enjoy, and I'm rather taken aback by the warm response my readers have for my work.
I generally prefer unwilling transformation from human to something else. Within the world of the stories I write, the phenomenon of physical transformation is acknowledged as being as absurd, frightening, and conceptually impossible as if it happened today in our real world. The genuine psychological ramifications of such a traumatic violation of bodily autonomy and human dignity is what gives me gratification. The idea that you could lose so much control that not even your body is your own, the idea that someone could reshape it as they pleased to fulfill whatever sick, twisted or sinister desires they had, the idea of desperately grappling with the fact that your normal life has been completely destroyed now that you're stuck with a new form and must contend all the horrible implications of such a change... it's utterly tantalizing to me.
I understand if you're not into emotionally traumatic, erotic transformations that violate the Geneva Conventions. If that doesn't float your boat, sincere apologies if the content made you uncomfortable. I'd suggest turning your attention elsewhere.
My commissions are open! I have enough under my belt and have received enough positive feedback that I can feel reasonably comfortable saying this more clearly. All money I receive in commissions will be donated to local food banks at the end of the year. The same goes with shinies. I don't know what those are, but if I receive those, that'll also be added to the donation pool.
My trades are also open, but this is more tentative; unless there's a serious incentive for me to do so, I'd rather turn my attention to a whole slew of backlogged ideas I want to write, or any commissions I have cooking.
I don't do RP, sorry.
As previously mentioned, this is something of a semi-anonymous project, hence the 'random' letters that make up my alias, 'czxsewq'. It's hard to remember or say, so if you need an easier way to colloquially refer to me, you can call me by my author pseudonym Qwesky Xerzac (pronounced Kwes-key Sir-zack), or just Qwesky.
Lastly, I love feedback! Got a compliment, comment, or critique? I'm open to it all.
Click here to see my project and commission queue.
I generally prefer unwilling transformation from human to something else. Within the world of the stories I write, the phenomenon of physical transformation is acknowledged as being as absurd, frightening, and conceptually impossible as if it happened today in our real world. The genuine psychological ramifications of such a traumatic violation of bodily autonomy and human dignity is what gives me gratification. The idea that you could lose so much control that not even your body is your own, the idea that someone could reshape it as they pleased to fulfill whatever sick, twisted or sinister desires they had, the idea of desperately grappling with the fact that your normal life has been completely destroyed now that you're stuck with a new form and must contend all the horrible implications of such a change... it's utterly tantalizing to me.
I understand if you're not into emotionally traumatic, erotic transformations that violate the Geneva Conventions. If that doesn't float your boat, sincere apologies if the content made you uncomfortable. I'd suggest turning your attention elsewhere.
My commissions are open! I have enough under my belt and have received enough positive feedback that I can feel reasonably comfortable saying this more clearly. All money I receive in commissions will be donated to local food banks at the end of the year. The same goes with shinies. I don't know what those are, but if I receive those, that'll also be added to the donation pool.
My trades are also open, but this is more tentative; unless there's a serious incentive for me to do so, I'd rather turn my attention to a whole slew of backlogged ideas I want to write, or any commissions I have cooking.
I don't do RP, sorry.
As previously mentioned, this is something of a semi-anonymous project, hence the 'random' letters that make up my alias, 'czxsewq'. It's hard to remember or say, so if you need an easier way to colloquially refer to me, you can call me by my author pseudonym Qwesky Xerzac (pronounced Kwes-key Sir-zack), or just Qwesky.
Lastly, I love feedback! Got a compliment, comment, or critique? I'm open to it all.
Click here to see my project and commission queue.
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I'll try to keep walking, despite a grim future.
3 weeks ago
Hello there. It has been quite some time.
First, two new commissions are nearly complete. Sincere apologies, I know progress has been pitiful.
Naturally, each story needs a new icon. There's a small problem. I normally use Photoshop to construct the icons, but for a variety of reasons, one of which is my distaste of the generative AI tools built in, I've dropped it and had to remake them in another program.
I'm going to make something very clear here: I abhor generative AI in creative contexts, and I want to distance myself with its active users and advocates. It has created so much depression towards both my creative future, and the future in general. Not only does it steal from and exploit the already vulnerable and oft-disrespected creatives who work so hard to hone their skills, it represents a disturbing portent: a world where people's attachment to art is facile, clinging to surface aesthetics and specific preferred attributes rather than the human heart that lives within each word of a story, each stroke of a drawing. A world where people see art as merely content or commodity, something to be optimized, sold, and exploited, rather than something to be cherished for the catharsis and passion that lies therein. A world where human engagement with art ceases to be human.
Similarly, I find no justification for the abhorrent notion that it should be adapted in one's workflow. Even beyond the obvious ethical considerations, it is contrary to the very reason you would make art in the first place. Why cede opportunities to express yourself creatively, and instead, opt to curate and refine the Frankenstein-ed output of artists who actually had the courage to actually create? You will notice that for the time being, Fantasy Fragments I and II have been taken down. In my stories, I try to use creative commons photographs as baselines to add a little thematic flavor, but for Fantasy Fragments, I needed some nebulous, spacey and abstract background to create a "dream-like" feel, and relied on a third-party website to create it. Though this was well before the tech had any useful sophistication, I'm not ok with it. I don't know what it was trained on. It was a blunder, and thus, I am correcting it now.
I digress. I'm not here to discuss this, nor interested in doing so at the moment. Point is, the Fantasy Fragments icons needed a complete rework, and I'd like your feedback. You can view them here: https://ibb.co/album/Sszn8J
Candidates A and B for the fantasy fragments are a horrifically primitive sketch and a silhouette version of it (I am not an artist, but I take solace in the sincerity of the effort). It's meant to represent the second fragment from it, where myriad people are swiftly merged into a tentacled, serpentine beast of erogenous flesh. If these are preferred, Fantasy Fragments II will be redone in a similar fashion. C and D bring up something I had always intended: a striking logo or calling card. This is a symbol I have always wanted to integrate into my story labels as it has a certain degree of personal meaning, but couldn't find a way to weave them in. Similarly, I've tried conceptualizing the use of this symbol for my regular stories. I would be interested to hear which of these icons you think works best, or if you think a combination of elements or unconsidered option would work better.
Lastly, a small life update. There have been significant upheavals in my life. Again. I have been dealing with extreme depression (sometimes suicidal ideation), most of which stems from extreme dread regarding the future and self-esteem problems. I am also moving very soon, as I am changing my field of work, and though I have not disclosed what that career was, my leaving it is in part due to the aforementioned reasons. Transitioning to a new one has been far more challenging than anticipated, and money is likely going to be much, much tighter. What this means is that in the future, I may not be able to do charity commissions like I originally did. It's going to take a few months to figure out how much I can make in my new career and how it compares against the ever rising cost of living. However, regardless of what I decide, all existing commissions in my queue will still have their proceeds donated upon completion. Those were the terms established when I took them, so I will abide by that promise. New commissions are going to be paused for the moment, both so I can just focus on clearing my current queue and so I can properly come up with new terms when I open them up again.
...
There are times when things feel darkest, when all I want to do is find a comfortable end, and I ponder what point there is to persist when it will only get darker. Even so, I have severely overdue obligations to myself and others, and I'll do my best to step forward and fulfill them to the best of my ability. At the end of the day, there isn't anything left that I can do, but to create.
First, two new commissions are nearly complete. Sincere apologies, I know progress has been pitiful.
Naturally, each story needs a new icon. There's a small problem. I normally use Photoshop to construct the icons, but for a variety of reasons, one of which is my distaste of the generative AI tools built in, I've dropped it and had to remake them in another program.
I'm going to make something very clear here: I abhor generative AI in creative contexts, and I want to distance myself with its active users and advocates. It has created so much depression towards both my creative future, and the future in general. Not only does it steal from and exploit the already vulnerable and oft-disrespected creatives who work so hard to hone their skills, it represents a disturbing portent: a world where people's attachment to art is facile, clinging to surface aesthetics and specific preferred attributes rather than the human heart that lives within each word of a story, each stroke of a drawing. A world where people see art as merely content or commodity, something to be optimized, sold, and exploited, rather than something to be cherished for the catharsis and passion that lies therein. A world where human engagement with art ceases to be human.
Similarly, I find no justification for the abhorrent notion that it should be adapted in one's workflow. Even beyond the obvious ethical considerations, it is contrary to the very reason you would make art in the first place. Why cede opportunities to express yourself creatively, and instead, opt to curate and refine the Frankenstein-ed output of artists who actually had the courage to actually create? You will notice that for the time being, Fantasy Fragments I and II have been taken down. In my stories, I try to use creative commons photographs as baselines to add a little thematic flavor, but for Fantasy Fragments, I needed some nebulous, spacey and abstract background to create a "dream-like" feel, and relied on a third-party website to create it. Though this was well before the tech had any useful sophistication, I'm not ok with it. I don't know what it was trained on. It was a blunder, and thus, I am correcting it now.
I digress. I'm not here to discuss this, nor interested in doing so at the moment. Point is, the Fantasy Fragments icons needed a complete rework, and I'd like your feedback. You can view them here: https://ibb.co/album/Sszn8J
Candidates A and B for the fantasy fragments are a horrifically primitive sketch and a silhouette version of it (I am not an artist, but I take solace in the sincerity of the effort). It's meant to represent the second fragment from it, where myriad people are swiftly merged into a tentacled, serpentine beast of erogenous flesh. If these are preferred, Fantasy Fragments II will be redone in a similar fashion. C and D bring up something I had always intended: a striking logo or calling card. This is a symbol I have always wanted to integrate into my story labels as it has a certain degree of personal meaning, but couldn't find a way to weave them in. Similarly, I've tried conceptualizing the use of this symbol for my regular stories. I would be interested to hear which of these icons you think works best, or if you think a combination of elements or unconsidered option would work better.
Lastly, a small life update. There have been significant upheavals in my life. Again. I have been dealing with extreme depression (sometimes suicidal ideation), most of which stems from extreme dread regarding the future and self-esteem problems. I am also moving very soon, as I am changing my field of work, and though I have not disclosed what that career was, my leaving it is in part due to the aforementioned reasons. Transitioning to a new one has been far more challenging than anticipated, and money is likely going to be much, much tighter. What this means is that in the future, I may not be able to do charity commissions like I originally did. It's going to take a few months to figure out how much I can make in my new career and how it compares against the ever rising cost of living. However, regardless of what I decide, all existing commissions in my queue will still have their proceeds donated upon completion. Those were the terms established when I took them, so I will abide by that promise. New commissions are going to be paused for the moment, both so I can just focus on clearing my current queue and so I can properly come up with new terms when I open them up again.
...
There are times when things feel darkest, when all I want to do is find a comfortable end, and I ponder what point there is to persist when it will only get darker. Even so, I have severely overdue obligations to myself and others, and I'll do my best to step forward and fulfill them to the best of my ability. At the end of the day, there isn't anything left that I can do, but to create.
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