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Hello all. I am someone who LOVE LOVES LOVES art in all forms. Be it visual, writing, crafting, and everything in between. That being the case, I'm ALWAYS keeping my eyes peeled for more artists to commission. As there are a TON of very talented artists out there. And I'm rather excited in getting all kinds of art for my characters as well as my OC fursona. I love canines the most only to have large feline take second place for me. As my sona is a hybrid of my first favorite animal and my second mixed together. Least my version of it without getting too far off of natural colors and hues and all that jazz.
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🎮Video games, I'm a HUGE HUGE HUGE fan of all kinds of video games! Be it RTS, Shooters, Indies, Sandbox, and so on and so forth. Only video games I'm not too big of fan of are simulator games.🎮
🏊♂️Swimming! OMG Do I enjoy swimming so much! Though I've lost touch with my watery side over the last several years due to not having friends to go swimming with. As lets be real here, that's the MAIN way to have fun at the pool after all.🏊♂️
🎱Playing billiards, everything from stripes and solids, to eight ball, and beyond.🎱
📙Story telling. As I LOVE to tell stories in all forms of media. Be it threw writing them directly in many different forms. Or creating a base in a strategy game or any game that has building mechanics for that matter and create my own stories from them.📙
🎃I absolutely ADORE Halloween in ALL its aspects. Doubly so for telling stories in the dark next to a campfire.🎃
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I'm always happy to meet new people, be it artists, friends, etc. As I aim to not only make my bonds with my current friends stronger. But also meet some potentially new friendos. As one can never have too many good friends right?
Not really interested in Rping really. At least not right now. May change my mind later. But as of now and until I take this off my profile. Not wanting to RP.
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Celebration of the old and New
4 months ago
I'm mainly writing this journal for myself, but figured I'd share it with whoever wishes to read this.
2023 as a year overall was a year of change, challenges, and of loss. Near the start of the year of 2023, I was working a low paying retail type of job and ended up having to quit the job for my own health. Which was apparently good timing as my dog, Shadow, who I've had in my life since 2016 passed away on April 6th of 2023, which also just happens to be my father's birthday. On that day I ended up having a fender bender with a larger truck due to the stress of watching and feeling Shadow slip away in my arms. I saw the light in his eyes fade, but I knew he was going to experience a new life. That day was probably one of the top 10 difficult days in my life. BUT! Not all was bad, got to meet some pretty amazing people not even 24 hours later. I'm celebrating all the memories I've had with Shadow since 2016 and still wish to this day that there was something I could've done to change the outcome. But sometimes life is like that and medically there wasn't much they could do for him, so I had to make the most difficult decision in my life and decide with a heavy and painful bleeding heart, to give him peace. (He would've had a 97% chance of dying after being poked and prodded just trying to get him prepped close enough for surgery, and having to drain liquid in his gut. Long story.) I made a memorial to honor his memory, as he will probably be the closest I ever get to having a child in this world. (I know sounds nuts but hey)
I worked my ass off to try and find a new job, managed to hop around some temporary jobs that, I ended up quitting for one reason or another. Which made me feel like a failure and that I couldn't hold down a job. Then I was reminded that me quitting temporary jobs was just me trying to find the right fit. Sure enough I did, least on the path to where I want to be anyways. Yes, this job does come with stresses and its own version of bullshit. But its meaningful and impactful, making a difference in people's lives. So I am celebrating that!
I have met some wonderful friends this year, as well as some less than wonderful people I had to separate myself from once I saw the red flags. Then there are some friends I've met that I REALLY care about, but I had to let go for one reason or another. (You know who you are) Despite having met both wonderful people, compassionate caring people, and even those toxic people who entered and exited my life, I have learned greatly from.
Back in October of 2023, I attended my grandma's official Celebration of Life, which there was plenty of that. Which helped make the funeral side of things feel not so bad. Got to talk with and hangout with people I haven't seen in many years, good bit family, others family friends. Got to reconnect on some level with some people I felt I was becoming more isolated to. Which was good as that feeling isn't as strong as it once was after this time away from my normal routines. A break and a farewell to someone dearly loved, even if me and her didn't always see eye-to-eye.
I made great strides in my own work when it comes to my own mental health and how I see the world. Acknowledging that its not selfish to take care of my own needs instead of always having to focus on others for the fear of dealing with my own stuff. While also honestly and genuinely LOVING to help others and bring a smile to their face in one form or another.
2023 felt like it was dragging on, but perhaps it was just because of all the changes that were happening in my own life that made it feel like it was going so slow. Then at times felt like things I've done in 2023 happened a year or two ago, despite having happened during 2023. A year can feel like a whole lifetime sometimes, other times a mere few months.
I ended up, not just going to the pride parade here where I live. But managed to participate in it (wasn't planned just kind of happened), which is a story I'll have to tell for years to come. The realization that this lie inside my head this voice has been telling me for fucking years is, in fact, a fucking lie! There are SOOOO many people who would give all the love in the world just to see people be themselves. I don't really remember much of the parade outside of the sunburn I got from it. I just know I was in the furry section of the pride parade, which. Welp! No going back into the closet now huh? That experience though has helped combat one of my biggest fears of someone who is gay in this world.
Overall though, I think despite the massive challenges, struggles, and hurdles, with a good chunk of bad things happening not even mentioned here. The year 2023 brought a lot of good things and people into my life as well. Additionally, having to overcome some of the challenges and bad things that has happened during the year, has made me grow by leaps and bounds as a person and heading more towards where I'm wanting to be as a person, compassionate, adventurous, resilient, and brave. I grew a lot this year and honestly, if I had to look back at the year of 2023. It was a challenging and painfully difficult year in some parts. But overall, I'm glad I made it through and despite the hardships of loss, grief, depression, anxiety, and others. 2023 wasn't as bad of a year as I thought it was. So that, I am celebrating!
Anyways, if anyone did read this, thanks for reading. Again, this was more something for me to look back on to see where I've been and where I am now. But hey, for anyone who did get through all of this wall of text! You are amazing! Additionally! I hope everyone who reads this or even just this part here, will have a great 2024! Happy New Years everyone! See ya in 2024!
^_^
(Written Jan. 1 2024 at 3am)
2023 as a year overall was a year of change, challenges, and of loss. Near the start of the year of 2023, I was working a low paying retail type of job and ended up having to quit the job for my own health. Which was apparently good timing as my dog, Shadow, who I've had in my life since 2016 passed away on April 6th of 2023, which also just happens to be my father's birthday. On that day I ended up having a fender bender with a larger truck due to the stress of watching and feeling Shadow slip away in my arms. I saw the light in his eyes fade, but I knew he was going to experience a new life. That day was probably one of the top 10 difficult days in my life. BUT! Not all was bad, got to meet some pretty amazing people not even 24 hours later. I'm celebrating all the memories I've had with Shadow since 2016 and still wish to this day that there was something I could've done to change the outcome. But sometimes life is like that and medically there wasn't much they could do for him, so I had to make the most difficult decision in my life and decide with a heavy and painful bleeding heart, to give him peace. (He would've had a 97% chance of dying after being poked and prodded just trying to get him prepped close enough for surgery, and having to drain liquid in his gut. Long story.) I made a memorial to honor his memory, as he will probably be the closest I ever get to having a child in this world. (I know sounds nuts but hey)
I worked my ass off to try and find a new job, managed to hop around some temporary jobs that, I ended up quitting for one reason or another. Which made me feel like a failure and that I couldn't hold down a job. Then I was reminded that me quitting temporary jobs was just me trying to find the right fit. Sure enough I did, least on the path to where I want to be anyways. Yes, this job does come with stresses and its own version of bullshit. But its meaningful and impactful, making a difference in people's lives. So I am celebrating that!
I have met some wonderful friends this year, as well as some less than wonderful people I had to separate myself from once I saw the red flags. Then there are some friends I've met that I REALLY care about, but I had to let go for one reason or another. (You know who you are) Despite having met both wonderful people, compassionate caring people, and even those toxic people who entered and exited my life, I have learned greatly from.
Back in October of 2023, I attended my grandma's official Celebration of Life, which there was plenty of that. Which helped make the funeral side of things feel not so bad. Got to talk with and hangout with people I haven't seen in many years, good bit family, others family friends. Got to reconnect on some level with some people I felt I was becoming more isolated to. Which was good as that feeling isn't as strong as it once was after this time away from my normal routines. A break and a farewell to someone dearly loved, even if me and her didn't always see eye-to-eye.
I made great strides in my own work when it comes to my own mental health and how I see the world. Acknowledging that its not selfish to take care of my own needs instead of always having to focus on others for the fear of dealing with my own stuff. While also honestly and genuinely LOVING to help others and bring a smile to their face in one form or another.
2023 felt like it was dragging on, but perhaps it was just because of all the changes that were happening in my own life that made it feel like it was going so slow. Then at times felt like things I've done in 2023 happened a year or two ago, despite having happened during 2023. A year can feel like a whole lifetime sometimes, other times a mere few months.
I ended up, not just going to the pride parade here where I live. But managed to participate in it (wasn't planned just kind of happened), which is a story I'll have to tell for years to come. The realization that this lie inside my head this voice has been telling me for fucking years is, in fact, a fucking lie! There are SOOOO many people who would give all the love in the world just to see people be themselves. I don't really remember much of the parade outside of the sunburn I got from it. I just know I was in the furry section of the pride parade, which. Welp! No going back into the closet now huh? That experience though has helped combat one of my biggest fears of someone who is gay in this world.
Overall though, I think despite the massive challenges, struggles, and hurdles, with a good chunk of bad things happening not even mentioned here. The year 2023 brought a lot of good things and people into my life as well. Additionally, having to overcome some of the challenges and bad things that has happened during the year, has made me grow by leaps and bounds as a person and heading more towards where I'm wanting to be as a person, compassionate, adventurous, resilient, and brave. I grew a lot this year and honestly, if I had to look back at the year of 2023. It was a challenging and painfully difficult year in some parts. But overall, I'm glad I made it through and despite the hardships of loss, grief, depression, anxiety, and others. 2023 wasn't as bad of a year as I thought it was. So that, I am celebrating!
Anyways, if anyone did read this, thanks for reading. Again, this was more something for me to look back on to see where I've been and where I am now. But hey, for anyone who did get through all of this wall of text! You are amazing! Additionally! I hope everyone who reads this or even just this part here, will have a great 2024! Happy New Years everyone! See ya in 2024!
^_^
(Written Jan. 1 2024 at 3am)
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