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~Fayyette
「⨏ α y e」🔊「musician, trance-addict, VIDYA GAMEZ」🔊
🌈「gay, garish, unlikable」🌈
💞♀「 Trans🏳️⚧️, She/her」💞
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2022 Update+Reflecting on the Past/Present/Future of Fayy...
2 years agoThanks to everyone who supported the 2021 release <3
Making music has been one of the most rewarding things in my life. The body of work I've built since 2013, as rough & broken as it was even upon release, continues to be something that I'm insanely proud of. This is partially because "I did the work", but MOSTLY because I managed to make all that music while dealing with abandonment, mental illness, gender identity issues, housing insecurity, & poverty.
Things are really changing though. Thanks to newfound stability I'm starting a new chapter in my life.
☐☐☐Sad Life Details☐☐☐
cw for this section: child abuse/trauma
There's no easy way to recap the last 5-7 years, but to sum it up in a briefly, my life turned upside down around the time I decided to pursue my gender transition. I was kicked out of my parent's home, tasked with supporting myself, getting through college, & transitioning in a dangerous world. Housing insecurity was a reality of much of my 20s. I was kicked out homes & fled bad living arrangements. I lost my trailer in 2021 due to COVID & a complicated situation I didn't manage well.
To top it off, I've been doing a lot of work trying to move past my deeply unfortunate childhood. I'm an abuse survivor who grew up isolated & alone in the countryside with nearly no outlets beyond immersing myself in video games & music. I've also come to learn that I live with ADHD, & a lot of struggling has come from my inability to manage my disability.
Others have had it worse than me, clearly, but I've dealt with some super unfortunate shit. I'm proud that I've survived this.
☐☐☐The Good News☐☐☐
Things really turned around in the last year. My loving partner in 2021 brought me into her home, & giving me an opportunity to heal. I now have a job that (mostly) pays the bills! I'm 29 now, & turning 30 this year in July. I'm working full time in Information Technology, & finally making some money. I'm dating someone who has helped me through this really hard journey. My goal is to not let my unfortunate past define where I take my future.
I've been getting into competitive Smash Bros (Melee, PM, a tiny bit of Ultimate). It has felt like a neglected passion, & has really unlocked a lot of new opportunities for me. I'm considering leaving IT for CompSci/WebDev, but that transition will take time. Gender stuff went really well; I turned out cute, & transitioning earlier in life did help a lot.
☐☐☐Reflecting on the Past/Present/Future of Fayyet☐☐☐
I'm partially writing this because, yesterday, I was getting stuff out of storage & I found my Midi Keyboard. I cried, realizing how much I miss practicing & writing music. 2021 was dramatic for my production skills. I was hired a tutor, working to really drill down the fundamentals & grow my sound. I think my 2021 release [ON+GT] showcased new technical heights, even if I've creatively been a bit stagnant over the past few years. I'll admit that I'm not super interested in pushing envelopes or redefining trance or whatever; I just really love the vibes, the sounds, the feels of trance & I find it to be a deeply expressive medium despite the artistic constraints of making DJ-friendly music.
I had this toxic cycle I used to create for myself
• post some music
• boldly proclaimed that THIS TIME was when things would change
• promising to develop my sound & level up my production skills.
I can say with confidence that, in 2022, I can't really do that right now. I've been tinkering in Ableton, writing lo-fi experiments & just having fun. I look forward to returning to grinding music more often, but at this time I don't even have a room to set my monitors & gear in. I'm looking to get back into it, at some point. Despite having picked another artist name to potentially move too, I do have plans to continue "Fayyet" for a little while longer, I have a few musical concepts I'd like to tackle.
I seriously regret not using FA to make more friends in the past, everyone I've met here has been legit, ngl. I hope to at least hang out on more; this place was always good to me & I genuinely enjoy hearing & seeing what people create. I did wanna reach out & mention that I've put my discord & Twitter handle up on my FA profile page, I'll do that here:
discord: [faye]#7897
twitter Fayyette
I also have a production-focused server that I've not really fucked with all that much, feel free to join if you just wanna blab & get my attention if you want:
https://discord.gg/tub8B8Qt
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