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Surviving Emotional Abuse and Manipulation
a month ago
"I lived, bitch." is what I feel like saying. This post might be a bit messy and I'm sorry if I don't articulate it well.
I won't be naming names, as despite how it will look this isn't a callout post, but this post is going to be used as a bit of closure for me and it will be obvious who I'm talking about for those who were involved.
5 months ago now, I was emotionally abused and manipulated. I lost a relationship that meant the world to me, and in my emotionally vulnerable state I was used to hurt someone that my abuser did not like. Afterwards, I was lied about, and stories were spun to make it look like the break up was my fault. It's taken a world of strength to keep a smile on my face and even keep streaming after all he did to me, and during these last few months I've come to terms and realized that, while I did do some things wrong, my abuser is a Narcissist with a savior complex, with the tongue of a serpent, and the majority of problems were due to him not communicating and in some cases, outright lying, some could have been unintentional, but some were definitely malicious.
He convinced several of my closest friends to abandon me with untrue rumors he came up with that I can prove aren't right, they left without ever hearing my side. He ensured they wouldn't hear me out, on top of making me think everything was my fault, because we all would have realized things don't line up between us if we had properly talked it out. He also downplayed his own mistakes, like hiding things from me and lying to me, and triggering a trauma response within me by doing that.
It's because of this that I've been in a very deep depression, to the point I even wanted to end it all, I would not have survived if not for the few who have supported me, so many times I wanted to jump off a nearby rooftop. But I'm breaking out of it, and if any of these friends who left me check in and ever see this post-I implore you to read it all, and reach out to me for proof of anything you may not believe-because I have a lot of it. But I won't hold my breath or anything for those who can't admit they were wrong, you all left me in a depressed and suicidal state without a care in the world afterall, I can't tell you how much that hurt after the years of friendship I spent with some of you. I only hope this person doesn't hurt you in the future too.
In the end, I wasn't good enough for this person. I gave him everything I had, and he kept wanting more and more. It got to the point where he was all I spent my time on, even foregoing my work and ignoring other people in favor of spending more time with him, because it was what he wanted, and it still wasn't good enough. He kept wanting more, and more, and being someone who had never been in a relationship before that required my 24/7 attention, I didn't know how to handle it. He isn't wrong for wanting this of a partner, but he should have communicated it much sooner than he did.
Along with that and the course of our relationship, I made mistakes without a doubt, but these mistakes happened due to lies and miscommunication that I can prove, every last one of them, some cases of him saying I never told him something that I have a chat log of me doing so, and some even have a dose of hypocrisy, like how he flirted with other men without telling me, and led them on when he had no interest in being serious with them. These people deserved more honesty than that, as did I, and he's probably still doing it. He is also ridiculously non-confrontational to the point he spent months never telling me he had an issue, letting things fester to the point our relationship was put into turmoil over something that could have been easily avoided.
I have to be a bit vague since this is a public forum, but this runs so deep, and it pains me a lot that I lost friends to someone so manipulative, from all the gifts he got me and others to how he sweet talks everyone, so much as being romantic with them just so they'll do what he wants, I know now it was all for an agenda, while it may not have started as such, by the end of it he used me and my community to get a friend group and to cause pain, and has since done everything he can to bury any association he had with me, assumedly so his evil won't be found out. But I'm moving on, I won't let it control my life anymore.
It's thanks to my therapist and friends I was able to figure all this out.
This person is a narcissist, a manipulator, and someone who needs serious help. But he never will get that help, because he only cares about himself and what others can do for him in the end, using his money and influence to get on people's good sides so they'll do what he wants. Power is what he cares about, and he has a lot to hide, things that I can reveal.
This journal will stay up with comments off. If you're a viewer of mine who stumbled upon this, please don't worry about it-I'm okay. If you're one of those people involved who blocked me without ever hearing my side, and you want proof that you were lied to, hit me up. Not in a passive-aggressive shout, not in a note, but actually DM me and lets talk like adults should. My door is always open.
Despite everything, I don't want to ruin this person's life or what they have, which is why I'm keeping this to a mostly anonymous journal, I didn't even want to make this, really, but I had to get it out somewhere since a lot of people won't listen despite me having proof of what I'm saying, I won't judge anyone for continuing to be friends with them despite it all, I just want the truth to be known, and it's something I will always keep close for whoever wants to see it.
Everyone else out there, take it easy, and keep those snakes out of your life. This has been the most traumatic experience I've ever gone through, and I never wanted it to end this way because I truly loved him, but at least now I've learned so I can recognize these red flags in the future and never let my life or the people I love get taken advantage of again.
I won't be naming names, as despite how it will look this isn't a callout post, but this post is going to be used as a bit of closure for me and it will be obvious who I'm talking about for those who were involved.
5 months ago now, I was emotionally abused and manipulated. I lost a relationship that meant the world to me, and in my emotionally vulnerable state I was used to hurt someone that my abuser did not like. Afterwards, I was lied about, and stories were spun to make it look like the break up was my fault. It's taken a world of strength to keep a smile on my face and even keep streaming after all he did to me, and during these last few months I've come to terms and realized that, while I did do some things wrong, my abuser is a Narcissist with a savior complex, with the tongue of a serpent, and the majority of problems were due to him not communicating and in some cases, outright lying, some could have been unintentional, but some were definitely malicious.
He convinced several of my closest friends to abandon me with untrue rumors he came up with that I can prove aren't right, they left without ever hearing my side. He ensured they wouldn't hear me out, on top of making me think everything was my fault, because we all would have realized things don't line up between us if we had properly talked it out. He also downplayed his own mistakes, like hiding things from me and lying to me, and triggering a trauma response within me by doing that.
It's because of this that I've been in a very deep depression, to the point I even wanted to end it all, I would not have survived if not for the few who have supported me, so many times I wanted to jump off a nearby rooftop. But I'm breaking out of it, and if any of these friends who left me check in and ever see this post-I implore you to read it all, and reach out to me for proof of anything you may not believe-because I have a lot of it. But I won't hold my breath or anything for those who can't admit they were wrong, you all left me in a depressed and suicidal state without a care in the world afterall, I can't tell you how much that hurt after the years of friendship I spent with some of you. I only hope this person doesn't hurt you in the future too.
In the end, I wasn't good enough for this person. I gave him everything I had, and he kept wanting more and more. It got to the point where he was all I spent my time on, even foregoing my work and ignoring other people in favor of spending more time with him, because it was what he wanted, and it still wasn't good enough. He kept wanting more, and more, and being someone who had never been in a relationship before that required my 24/7 attention, I didn't know how to handle it. He isn't wrong for wanting this of a partner, but he should have communicated it much sooner than he did.
Along with that and the course of our relationship, I made mistakes without a doubt, but these mistakes happened due to lies and miscommunication that I can prove, every last one of them, some cases of him saying I never told him something that I have a chat log of me doing so, and some even have a dose of hypocrisy, like how he flirted with other men without telling me, and led them on when he had no interest in being serious with them. These people deserved more honesty than that, as did I, and he's probably still doing it. He is also ridiculously non-confrontational to the point he spent months never telling me he had an issue, letting things fester to the point our relationship was put into turmoil over something that could have been easily avoided.
I have to be a bit vague since this is a public forum, but this runs so deep, and it pains me a lot that I lost friends to someone so manipulative, from all the gifts he got me and others to how he sweet talks everyone, so much as being romantic with them just so they'll do what he wants, I know now it was all for an agenda, while it may not have started as such, by the end of it he used me and my community to get a friend group and to cause pain, and has since done everything he can to bury any association he had with me, assumedly so his evil won't be found out. But I'm moving on, I won't let it control my life anymore.
It's thanks to my therapist and friends I was able to figure all this out.
This person is a narcissist, a manipulator, and someone who needs serious help. But he never will get that help, because he only cares about himself and what others can do for him in the end, using his money and influence to get on people's good sides so they'll do what he wants. Power is what he cares about, and he has a lot to hide, things that I can reveal.
This journal will stay up with comments off. If you're a viewer of mine who stumbled upon this, please don't worry about it-I'm okay. If you're one of those people involved who blocked me without ever hearing my side, and you want proof that you were lied to, hit me up. Not in a passive-aggressive shout, not in a note, but actually DM me and lets talk like adults should. My door is always open.
Despite everything, I don't want to ruin this person's life or what they have, which is why I'm keeping this to a mostly anonymous journal, I didn't even want to make this, really, but I had to get it out somewhere since a lot of people won't listen despite me having proof of what I'm saying, I won't judge anyone for continuing to be friends with them despite it all, I just want the truth to be known, and it's something I will always keep close for whoever wants to see it.
Everyone else out there, take it easy, and keep those snakes out of your life. This has been the most traumatic experience I've ever gone through, and I never wanted it to end this way because I truly loved him, but at least now I've learned so I can recognize these red flags in the future and never let my life or the people I love get taken advantage of again.
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