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~Gracedmarcus
♥♥♥ You will live on in our hearts, forever remembered, beloved friends ♥♥♥
2001 - 2014 | Red-Red "Fat Cat" | Ginger Tabby
2015 - 2021 | Caspian "Babbles" | Silver-coat Ragdoll-Exotic
2006 - 2023 | Coco "Loco" | Chocolate Sepia-Ragdoll
"While those that we loved may now be gone, fret not for their existence lives on in memory."
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Creator, Designer and Owner of the "Vipalis" Serpentine race.
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Featured Journal
Sometimes I ask myself, "Why am I not dead?"
2 months ago
Truth is, I've always avoided thinking about 'what comes next'. I try to live it up in the moment, to let the days last for as long as they can.
The people who know and see me face-to-face comment on how kind, caring and considerate I can be. "Yeah, I guess so." I would reply, behind a forged smile.
I know I bitch a lot, and that's half the reason I don't have a journal posted every week. I'm hurting, so fucking bad.
Yet I pick myself up and wear a fresh smile because I don't want anyone to fall into my quicksand of sorrow.
My 26th birthday may be only two days away but, these last few years feel as if they were only days ago.
I've been trying so hard to emotionally recover from meaningful friendships lost from a mere misunderstanding.
I really, truely miss many of those friends. I just can't come to terms with having my memory full of empty voids for each one lost.
Stockholms syndrome, I guess you could say. As some of these friends weren't the most innocent, to put it simply.
But well, another sob-story journal. I long to pass away in my sleep but, part of me cannot bare to abandon my family; no matter how many tears pool at my feet.
:,)
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