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~Marvin
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Take a seat, there should be some folded chairs in the back.
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⚠ If you're looking for my old Flash animations and games, they are in one of gallery folders, but most of them don't work at all.
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Life update
2 years agoHello FA!
Fun fact about me
Did you know I make a journal entry once every 3 years on average? I guess it's time.Fun fact about you
If you remember me - wow you're old! But then again congrats on being still around and kicking, yay for you.Not so fun fact about Flash
So, the Flash apocalypse finally happened. It's been scheduled for a couple of years now, but I never really put much thought into it in regards to my works here on FA. The days since I had time to make Flash porn are long gone; I also realized how pitiful my drawing skills were and how they were not improving overtime, so I really didn't think much of the whole thing. And here we are in 2021. Most of my Flash porn is ruined and lost forever - oh well, maybe that's for the best, major part of that stuff was really crappy anyway. You can still access it all in theory, instead of deleting I moved it to an appropriate folder in the gallery, but like I said - most of that stuff is totally useless and broken now, especially wherever I used masking layers or a specific movie-clip based way to control the flow of the animation. I can't really do anything about those.Is this loss?
Kinda. I mean I'm not super happy about it. I've learned a lot while working on those silly things. Those animations and games were mostly of embarrassing quality, let's be honest, but still it was something I made and thus it felt personal. But like with all the loss in life, there is time of grief and time to move on. And I'm moving on.So... will I post stuff?
I'll be honest: it's not likely. My life was busy in my younger days and now - over 13 years after joining this website - I can hardly imagine myself finding the time to do anything worth posting. So if you're looking to trim down your watch list - I won't hold a grudge against you if you unfollow me now.I might still post art that I've gotten from others - as gifts or commissions - but like I said, it's rather unlikely I will post my own work here.
More facts about me
Furry and I
I've stepped away from the furry community as a whole; I limited my contacts to a handful of friends. I still consider myself a furry, but not necessarily a part of the community.Not sure if I have anything more to add here.
Fox and I
Hey so other news, I've changed my fursona. Oh boy oh boy this might turn into a longer rant. A fox was with me for a nice couple of years and the more time has passed the more I understood how mismatched choice it was. Marvin the fox was a character I created to deal with numerous problems of - well - mental nature. Bright colors, tight revealing clothes, gay to the brim. More gay than I ever was or - probably - wanted to be. Exaggerated in a comical way. Was it someone I desired to be? Or maybe a completely opposite side of the spectrum of who I was?I can already tell it's going to be a long rant. tldr: me no good fox
Without going into personal details here, I had some rather unpleasant experiences that were direct results of some of my terrible life choices tied to me trying to pursue that other personality, someone that I never truly was and - as it turned out - never really wanted to be.Shame it took so long to realize simple stuff like that. Then again, we all learn from our mistakes and grow as people.
And no, I wouldn't say fox was a mistake as a whole; I needed that. He was the counterweight, a mental relief, a way to escape. Not sure if I can find the right words to describe it. It worked, it kept me sane (to some degree). I think the problem started once that "fox personality" started trying to become more than just a background and didn't find enough space to fit. It's like with roleplaying games - if you're smart and try to play a dumb character it's fine, but rarely works the other way.
Sheesh, why am I even writing all this stuff.
Anyway, the fox is not my main anymore.
I've decided to join the ranks of the ungulates.
"Decided" is a bad word here; it just came naturally, I think. Sometimes you just feel the direction you want to follow, without even fully knowing why, right?
Why a horse
You're going to be mistaken if you say "because huge cock lol". And I'm going to sound cliché if I say "no, it's the personality". But of the two of us, I am the one that knows what's in my head so there were are.There is a whole set of layers of traits that just fit me much better and I feel more comfortable without pretending to be someone else. It's a lot of... relief? Alright, so what traits? I won't deny it's otherwise: I'm pretty easily intimidated (or dominated) and it's not difficult to scare me away. I run away more often than I fight back. Horses forgive but don't forget. Horses must feel safe - and I can't stress this enough, I can't think straight for shit if there is literately anything that upsets me at any time. Horses are stubborn and sometimes straight out mean. They can become self-destructive while trying to overcome their own weaknesses. They can be social but also can keep to themselves.
Yeah, I guess there is also a matter of physicality: I realize that my "twink days" are long gone and while I actually managed to lose some (a lot?) of weight and try to keep myself in nice shape, I gained some (not much but still) muscle and I feel like a heavy-hooved horse is a better fit for a middle-aged man I am.
There is more, but it would get more personal; and it already got far more personal (and lengthy) than I anticipated. So let's leave it at that.
See you space cowboys (cowgirls and others)
I guess this is it. I'm still around, still alive, living a busy life and trying to stay afloat with my own thoughts.So... see you in 3 years? Maybe less. Maybe never.
Either way, I wish you all the best in your lives. Thanks for reading this, I guess.
Take care.
As for your flash animations, have you considered possibl...
Thank you so much for the follow here!
Damn, love your OC, but seems it's a common hing to do~
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