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Hello there cutie, I'm đźŤSweetie The Protogen🍬, I'm glad you found me, I hope you enjoy my cuteness
I can tell you that I'm
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And I love these cuties
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Plus I have my very own website that you can checkout below, that features all of my lovely and cute fursonas
https://sweetiecookieart.wixsite.com/myfursonas
On there I like to keep my lovely and cute fursonas in SFW themed stuff majority of the time, but on occasion I don't mind them being in some NSFW stuff too,
I'm usually creative, open minded and mature about all sorts of things regardless what it might be most of the time
But do feel free to message me about anything and try not to spam me and I'll try to reply to you A.S.A.P
Plus I love gift / fan artwork of any of my fursonas that wonderful people make for me, so feel free to let me know if your think of making so lovely stuff for me, I'll be more than happy to support / help you :)
I have my two awesome and lovely fursonas that represent me perfectly as to who I am and what I'm like:
There's đźŤSweetie The Protogen🍬 and 🍪Cookie The Shark🍪
⚠️As a reminder, please do not attempt to steal, claim or use any of my fursonas or the artwork itself, without my or artist's permission, thank you⚠️
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I'm dealing with mental health issues
a year ago
Hello there, you’re probably wondering why I am making this post, well….
I want to confess the heavy issues I've faced recently that have been going on since Christmas 2022, and to explain why I have not been as active or talkative as I normally would or should be, in the furry fandom.
Just to provide context to this story, my dad who currently lives alone, far away and has been divorced for over 10 years, has been suffering from many mental health and severe childhood trauma problems his whole life that he refuses to get help for and made far worse by drinking a lot of alcohol every single day, even if it puts him into deep debt, not to mention he's a former drug addict, which isn't helped by the fact that he's the type of person to have an extreme religious view and believes in any conspiracy theories.
Now that you have an idea what my father is, I’ll explain what lead up to my situation.
Ever since the divorce, as a kid, I wanted to show him that I loved and cared for him, and at the cost of my own mental health and freedom to be whom I wanted in life, and I did this often as possible, even though I shouldn't have needed to do so because I had hope that my dad could get better and be someone whom I knew cared for me not to mention being a part of my family.
However, his reckless actions, his overwhelming desire to find and tell conspiracy theories, poor living conditions, subtly manipulating me and my younger sister into seeing him, on top of me having to deal with secondary school bullying and exams, wore me down over the years to the point where in the summer of 2016, I was suffering from stress-induced insanity. However, with counselling, I overcame this horrible experience, forgiving my father, and went to college and re-discovered myself and later the furry fandom.
Overtime during 2018, I would discover that I was bisexual and in 2021, I would also discover that I was transgender, at both points in time, despite my father’s traditional and religious views, I wanted to come out to my family to explain who I am and why I am bisexual and transgender, at the time he said that he was genuinely accepting of me and still loved me regardless of his options or views.
And when I got to go to university in 2020 to study Games Technology and become a game developer, I finally had a legitimate reason for not seeing him for long periods of time, which felt so good, finally I had my first real taste at freedom away from my father without being regretful or worried about him.
But come Christmas 2022 history repeated itself, as I wanted to take a break from seeing him due to my well-being in decline and I needed to recover from seeing him so frequently and working so hard at university, and that's when he decided to go behind my back and disown me as his own child and call me a bunch of transphobic and homophobic things in front of my sister who is also affected by him previously along with the rest of my family.
When I found this out, I was really shaken, I've struggled to keep myself together, manage university life, or even talk with a straight face to anyone, and I felt alone unable to explain my situation to anyone at the time, I didn’t talk to him for the next three months from that point onwards.
I decided to confront my dad on (26/02/2023), to get any closure to what has happened and to try to have a mutual understanding.
I was able to confirm that my sister was still right about exactly what he said about being transphobic and homophobic behind my back, he didn't deny it for a second when I asked him about this, but he was in no way apologetic to me.
He also said that because of my desire to become a woman and bisexual, I had upset his lifelong plan to continue the bloodline and the family name as I was the only male child of the family, despite me explaining to him in detail and honesty about my identity and sexuality over the past years.
With his two-faced personality, he lied to me and said he was okay with me despite his religious views. The truth was finally exposed when I decided to take a break from seeing him and my sister decided to come around to see him randomly after Christmas.
To him, I'm nothing more than a prized stallion, trained and born to breed with other females to pass on the pure bloodline and the family name, and for my future children to repeat this cycle all over again for many generations to come.
I finally have the closure and truth I wanted, but I never thought he would be so cold-blooded about my very existence, I honestly didn't don't know how to feel about any of this or what to do at the time.
All I know is that my father has been very abusive to me and to the rest of my family for a long time, and I never want to talk or see to him again, no matter what.
I know this a lot for me to tell you all, but I wanted to talk to you about it so that I could help recover and not face this alone, in addition to all of you being aware.
I’m getting the necessary help and I am slowly trying to recover and move on with my life and be much closer to the furry fandom.
It's just hard having to recover from something traumatic for the second time and deal with university work all at the same time, but I still want to be the lovely, sexy and cute Protogen gal I know I am truly.
One day at a time, and things will get better.
Thank you for reading this.
I want to confess the heavy issues I've faced recently that have been going on since Christmas 2022, and to explain why I have not been as active or talkative as I normally would or should be, in the furry fandom.
Just to provide context to this story, my dad who currently lives alone, far away and has been divorced for over 10 years, has been suffering from many mental health and severe childhood trauma problems his whole life that he refuses to get help for and made far worse by drinking a lot of alcohol every single day, even if it puts him into deep debt, not to mention he's a former drug addict, which isn't helped by the fact that he's the type of person to have an extreme religious view and believes in any conspiracy theories.
Now that you have an idea what my father is, I’ll explain what lead up to my situation.
Ever since the divorce, as a kid, I wanted to show him that I loved and cared for him, and at the cost of my own mental health and freedom to be whom I wanted in life, and I did this often as possible, even though I shouldn't have needed to do so because I had hope that my dad could get better and be someone whom I knew cared for me not to mention being a part of my family.
However, his reckless actions, his overwhelming desire to find and tell conspiracy theories, poor living conditions, subtly manipulating me and my younger sister into seeing him, on top of me having to deal with secondary school bullying and exams, wore me down over the years to the point where in the summer of 2016, I was suffering from stress-induced insanity. However, with counselling, I overcame this horrible experience, forgiving my father, and went to college and re-discovered myself and later the furry fandom.
Overtime during 2018, I would discover that I was bisexual and in 2021, I would also discover that I was transgender, at both points in time, despite my father’s traditional and religious views, I wanted to come out to my family to explain who I am and why I am bisexual and transgender, at the time he said that he was genuinely accepting of me and still loved me regardless of his options or views.
And when I got to go to university in 2020 to study Games Technology and become a game developer, I finally had a legitimate reason for not seeing him for long periods of time, which felt so good, finally I had my first real taste at freedom away from my father without being regretful or worried about him.
But come Christmas 2022 history repeated itself, as I wanted to take a break from seeing him due to my well-being in decline and I needed to recover from seeing him so frequently and working so hard at university, and that's when he decided to go behind my back and disown me as his own child and call me a bunch of transphobic and homophobic things in front of my sister who is also affected by him previously along with the rest of my family.
When I found this out, I was really shaken, I've struggled to keep myself together, manage university life, or even talk with a straight face to anyone, and I felt alone unable to explain my situation to anyone at the time, I didn’t talk to him for the next three months from that point onwards.
I decided to confront my dad on (26/02/2023), to get any closure to what has happened and to try to have a mutual understanding.
I was able to confirm that my sister was still right about exactly what he said about being transphobic and homophobic behind my back, he didn't deny it for a second when I asked him about this, but he was in no way apologetic to me.
He also said that because of my desire to become a woman and bisexual, I had upset his lifelong plan to continue the bloodline and the family name as I was the only male child of the family, despite me explaining to him in detail and honesty about my identity and sexuality over the past years.
With his two-faced personality, he lied to me and said he was okay with me despite his religious views. The truth was finally exposed when I decided to take a break from seeing him and my sister decided to come around to see him randomly after Christmas.
To him, I'm nothing more than a prized stallion, trained and born to breed with other females to pass on the pure bloodline and the family name, and for my future children to repeat this cycle all over again for many generations to come.
I finally have the closure and truth I wanted, but I never thought he would be so cold-blooded about my very existence, I honestly didn't don't know how to feel about any of this or what to do at the time.
All I know is that my father has been very abusive to me and to the rest of my family for a long time, and I never want to talk or see to him again, no matter what.
I know this a lot for me to tell you all, but I wanted to talk to you about it so that I could help recover and not face this alone, in addition to all of you being aware.
I’m getting the necessary help and I am slowly trying to recover and move on with my life and be much closer to the furry fandom.
It's just hard having to recover from something traumatic for the second time and deal with university work all at the same time, but I still want to be the lovely, sexy and cute Protogen gal I know I am truly.
One day at a time, and things will get better.
Thank you for reading this.
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Protogen and Shark
Favorite Music
Rolling stones
Favorite TV Shows & Movies
Zootopia
Favorite Games
Shadow of war, Winds of change, Just Cause 3
Favorite Gaming Platforms
PC gaming
Favorite Animals
Protogens, Sharks, Synths, dragons and many more
Favorite Site
Furaffinity & YouTube
Favorite Foods & Drinks
All kinds of candy
Favorite Quote
Try to show the ones you love and care about, by cuddling them often
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