Some news about me, my artworks and 2018.
5 years ago
Hello there, I make this journal to give some news.
I don't like to talk about that in public, but I think it's can be nice to do it now. Will help some of you to understand the situation and not force me to explain all, one more time (always pain for me).
For almost 10 months, I suffer from a serious health problem that impact deeply all my life for present and future. I still don't know if a full recovery will be possible one day... For now I only expect a stable situation that will allow me to be back to a more or less "normal" life. It was expected for this fall firstly, now delayed to early 2019.
Even if it's look similar to my 2011 accident, they are no link with it. I never expected something worst could happen like that. This level of pain was really extreme that I never thought it was possible. Fortunately, after 10 months, pain is now more or less controlled and thing evolve... It's really really show but go most of time on the good way, even if they're are very bad episodes...
The consequence of all that is really chaotic in my life. I spend all theses 10 months on bed with heavy treatment. I can't work, I can't move, I can't do any activity and my mobility is affected. This is the reason why I don't post lot things last time and I cancel all planned conventions since October 2017.
Sadly it will continue for coming times...
Last September (2017), I had an iPad Pro for my bday. Finally the only way to be able to draw a little, only days I'm not too bad. Still difficult from bed and really painful. I hope it not impact too much my artworks and don't make so ugly things. About usual and traditional drawing, that's totally impossible for me to make it now. Same for Livepics that I miss so much. I don't know when I will be able restart usual drawings (end 2018, 2019...). Until this moment, I still have this iPad art option and I will try use it when I can.
You can follow my artworks on Twitter @TitashMeerkat or on my Telegram channel. I limit the sharing to theses 2 networks for now because they allow easy and quick sharing. I will upgrade FA and others networks when I will be better and able to go on my computer.
As you can imagine all that impact badly my mood and treatment make all worst. Feel really depressive and bad most of times. If you find me cold, rude or distant, I'm sorry. After 10 months suffering and loneliness, I'm not really in mood to talk or be social anymore. The situation make me switch between sadness and angryness.
In addition to that I have to support very bad behaviors on IM: People (and friends) that act like asshole. That's crazy how some people can be so bad and painful. I don't know who I can trust me consider as real friends... I finally chose to change my phone number and abandon my old Telegram account to make me free of this shit. In same way, first bad message on any networks I will insta-block (friends or not). Sorry for the few persons that are not like the persons I talk. For now my priority is care about myself in this chaotic period. I will see later if I will change anything...
I miss a lot convention. Sadly not possible for now. I hope I will be able to make a convention soon. For now I cancel everything until 2019. I planned to go to NFC 2019 after the cancellation of the 2018 edition. Too early to have final decision: health evolution and the fact that I can't work until I'm better, make this plan more and more difficult... I hope 2019 will allow me to have little fun...
Thank you to Patreon patrons that continue support me even if I made less artworks. That's so nice. You contribute to make my everyday better: I mostly use your money to buy equipments that allow me to draw in easier way from the bed. My bed is like a new desk, now. Because you, I can draw with less difficulties and less pain.
Big thanks to the very few persons that was always here from beginning and support me and help me in this hell. It's sad to see how lonely we are when life fall and pieces... But theses persons are only one that can give hope and desire to fight even if it's difficult.
Thank you to the nice message I received sometime. It make everyday less sad.
Hope I wrote in not so bad English.
Miss you. Hugs
I don't like to talk about that in public, but I think it's can be nice to do it now. Will help some of you to understand the situation and not force me to explain all, one more time (always pain for me).
For almost 10 months, I suffer from a serious health problem that impact deeply all my life for present and future. I still don't know if a full recovery will be possible one day... For now I only expect a stable situation that will allow me to be back to a more or less "normal" life. It was expected for this fall firstly, now delayed to early 2019.
Even if it's look similar to my 2011 accident, they are no link with it. I never expected something worst could happen like that. This level of pain was really extreme that I never thought it was possible. Fortunately, after 10 months, pain is now more or less controlled and thing evolve... It's really really show but go most of time on the good way, even if they're are very bad episodes...
The consequence of all that is really chaotic in my life. I spend all theses 10 months on bed with heavy treatment. I can't work, I can't move, I can't do any activity and my mobility is affected. This is the reason why I don't post lot things last time and I cancel all planned conventions since October 2017.
Sadly it will continue for coming times...
Last September (2017), I had an iPad Pro for my bday. Finally the only way to be able to draw a little, only days I'm not too bad. Still difficult from bed and really painful. I hope it not impact too much my artworks and don't make so ugly things. About usual and traditional drawing, that's totally impossible for me to make it now. Same for Livepics that I miss so much. I don't know when I will be able restart usual drawings (end 2018, 2019...). Until this moment, I still have this iPad art option and I will try use it when I can.
You can follow my artworks on Twitter @TitashMeerkat or on my Telegram channel. I limit the sharing to theses 2 networks for now because they allow easy and quick sharing. I will upgrade FA and others networks when I will be better and able to go on my computer.
As you can imagine all that impact badly my mood and treatment make all worst. Feel really depressive and bad most of times. If you find me cold, rude or distant, I'm sorry. After 10 months suffering and loneliness, I'm not really in mood to talk or be social anymore. The situation make me switch between sadness and angryness.
In addition to that I have to support very bad behaviors on IM: People (and friends) that act like asshole. That's crazy how some people can be so bad and painful. I don't know who I can trust me consider as real friends... I finally chose to change my phone number and abandon my old Telegram account to make me free of this shit. In same way, first bad message on any networks I will insta-block (friends or not). Sorry for the few persons that are not like the persons I talk. For now my priority is care about myself in this chaotic period. I will see later if I will change anything...
I miss a lot convention. Sadly not possible for now. I hope I will be able to make a convention soon. For now I cancel everything until 2019. I planned to go to NFC 2019 after the cancellation of the 2018 edition. Too early to have final decision: health evolution and the fact that I can't work until I'm better, make this plan more and more difficult... I hope 2019 will allow me to have little fun...
Thank you to Patreon patrons that continue support me even if I made less artworks. That's so nice. You contribute to make my everyday better: I mostly use your money to buy equipments that allow me to draw in easier way from the bed. My bed is like a new desk, now. Because you, I can draw with less difficulties and less pain.
Big thanks to the very few persons that was always here from beginning and support me and help me in this hell. It's sad to see how lonely we are when life fall and pieces... But theses persons are only one that can give hope and desire to fight even if it's difficult.
Thank you to the nice message I received sometime. It make everyday less sad.
Hope I wrote in not so bad English.
Miss you. Hugs
Ce serai sympa mais je suis pas très sociable ces derniers temps. Le moral est assez bas...
*hugs*
Oui. J'en ai vécu des choses difficile part le passé (j'ai sur hériter d'un corps d'occasion), mais là ça dépasse tout ce que j'aurai imaginé. J'espère que les prochains moins sont plus positif, mais vu l'état du présent, mal barré.
Pas une maladie... Juste un corps défaillant droits le début et qui fini par se révéler...
I hope you're able to have some happy distractions, such as talking with folks on Skype/FB (or whatever folks are using these days) and visits.
Being in pain just in general sucks. I really hope your recovery comes soon. Being unable to do what you love can feel depressing. I have to explain to folks I can't go to some places or do certain activities either because of mobility problems or just not feeling well (pain or just feeling depressed).
A friend for a period was mostly bed ridden and could barely talk was on morphine daily. I visited as often as I could and it helped keep his mind off of things for a bit. Obscure jokes helped. Usually we just watched videos together to help save his voice, or he'd type.
Enthusiasm was not really here. Maybe when I write this text... But sadly most of times I'm really depressive. It's really difficult keep this mood. They are good days but not lot. But I try to continue and resist... But it's more and more difficult, sadly.
Hope one day I will be able see you again and have fun together. I miss that lot. 10 yes on sale bed in same room... Not fun. Hope the after will allow me to forget that.
Bah, nobody can help. Just need miracle...
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"You're much stronger than you think you are."
In theses moments you see your limits and sometime so close...
I really hope that things improve for you
J'espère sincèrement que vous continuerez à guérir, et de recevoir de bons sentiments et des contacts de vos chers amis qui se soucient vraiment...
* beaucoup des plumes très douce caresse vos oreilles *
PS: I suggest you writing in English, not easy understand Google translate result. ;)
MCFC was really lovely memories from me, maybe one of my best memories in con. I hope we will have moments like that again soon. My everyday is terrible, I miss a lot fun and things like that. Hugs.
je sais que cela ne mange pas de pain, mais je te souhaite sincèrement meilleur santé et bonne chance
J'espère qu'il y aura d'autres occasions comme ça prochainement.
Ça me manque beaucoup les conventions, surtout en ce moment où je suis coincé dans ce lit depuis 10 mois. Ça manque de voir des gens et passer de bon moments avec.
Yes I try draw when I can. Not easy and painful to do it when I can. But I prefer suffer than stay doing nothing. I need they for mood.
If I can do anything to help, please let me know.
Enfin passon, je ne découvre ton travail que maintenant et je n'ai qu'une chose a dire tous tes dessins ainsi que tes photos sont super(be), tellement que je pourrait mettre la totalité de ta gallerie en favoris. Et puis je découvre ce journal dans lequel tu expose ce qui t'es arrivé...
La vie est vraiment parfois extrêmement cruel et helas pas avec les bonne personnes... Enfin même si je ne te connait pas et que je découvre a peine ton travail sache que tu as mon soutiens. Même si, d'après ce que j'ai pu voir ici, les choses ne sembles pas allez pour le mieux. Dans tous les cas j'espère pour toi un bon rétablissement malgrès tout.
Je n'ai pas d'autre compte a part ici et Deviantart alors je ne pourrais pas vraiment suivre tes travaux mais j'attendrais aussi longtemps qu'il le faudra que tu sois rétabli et que tu puisse à nouveau partager tes super dessin avec nous .
Puisse ta situation s'améliorer au fil des jour des semaines et des mois Titash, tous ceux qui apprécient ton travail continurons de te soutenir ^w^.
(Ps : je trouve ton petit personnage absolument adorable )