Commissions~
Posted 3 years agoOpen for flat color slots ~ feel free to DM me on twitter at WiccanRaccoon
Commissions~
Posted 4 years agoSince I have a humbling influx of new watchers- Im a lot more active on Twitter. If you're interested in W.I.P.s, bad raccoon puns and potential commission openings plz feel free to mosey on over to my Twitter page: @ WiccanRaccoon
Currently have a single slot available and a raffle going on too ^^
Currently have a single slot available and a raffle going on too ^^
MFF
Posted 6 years agoTook me a little while to warm up to it but having a blast in Chicago land. Anyone near by care to hang?
Not at the con but wanna read my ramblings on it? Find me on twitter!
Tobicoon
Im a try hard but I think its funny so nyah
Not at the con but wanna read my ramblings on it? Find me on twitter!
Tobicoon
Im a try hard but I think its funny so nyah
On my way~
Posted 7 years agoWas supposed to be heading out to MFF this morning, but due to some unforseen financial troubles.. That wasn't in the cards. Luckily, however, one of my best friends Rho wanted to hang out anyway, so I'm jumping on a plan for the first time in over fourteen years heading to Ohio to meet him face to face for the first time ^_^ Wish me luck
battle.net
Posted 7 years agoIf you have it and play overwatch on pc, give me your name! I need a teeeeam
Twitch
Posted 7 years agoI has one! Come watch sometime- https://www.twitch.tv/gypsyraccoon
Some goodness in the world
Posted 7 years agoI have no idea how many of my watchers are trans, but if you are and you're in the US and you're as nervous or scared as the rest of us, there's a hash tag on twitter- #translawhelp that is full of AMAZING people, lawyers willing to work pro bono to help with name and gender marker changes, and donors willing to help get passports should you need to get out of the country in a hurry if shit goes as south as we all fear it may. They've already matched me with a donor, and helped me find legal aide so if you feel hopeless and helpless [work's been alarmingly slow this year ;.;] there are people out there willing to give you all they can to make sure you're safe and know you're loved.
~Tobi
~Tobi
Overwatch~
Posted 7 years agoThe bathroom game
Posted 7 years agoSorry, this was just too amusing for me to not share.
STORY TIME:
Okay, so today I went to 2nd and Charles [a 2nd hand books/blu ray/board game/nostalgia sort of store] just to get out of the house and not on a job for a little bit. I ducked into the bathroom- the men's bathroom since it's technically still a 'problem' for me to use the women's restroom- and paused. I caught myself reflected by the mirror in my peripheral- maybe I'm not used to my hair yet, or the fact I'm wearing pants that show off a figure I'm not yet used to having, but for a moment I had a bit of a confidence boost.
'Yeah,' I think to myself. "I can do this. I can make this work."
So I go about my business and as I'm washing my hands.. The door behind me opens. 'Oh this should be good,' I muse under my breath and this guy walks in who could have EASILY passed for any grip ever.Tall, strong looking, black hair, thick beard, and he FREEZES. We make eye contact and there's a sorry forming on his lips, but he leans back slowly to check the symbol on the door..Just as slowly back to my gaze...To the door one more time.. It's at this point I'm desperate to tell him 'no, it's okay, I don't think I belong in here either..' But by now I'm too enthralled with this exchange. That, and if I open my mouth at this point I KNOW I'm going to burst out laughing. He checks the door one last time to be sure, and lets it slooooowly close.. He keeps watching me curiously as he disappears into a stall. It takes every bit of will power I have to straighten my back and walk out of the bathroom and the second I do a sound erupts from my throat that I can only describe as a witches most devilish sounding cackle. I scared an old guy right by the hallway to the bathrooms who had a book in his hands. Past-tense. Sorry old guy but that-..was the most amusing thing that's happened in a while.
TL:DR - maybe I need to start going places with an open m/f or family restroom..Or take my chances of running into an armed woman who's having a bad day in the appropriate bathroom..
MFF!
Posted 7 years agoOkay, so! My room is booked and paid for.
I've done the pre-registration thing already.
I know I'm missing SOMETHING and it's driving me bonkers. I'm buying my plane ticket tonight..Wtf else do I need? A badge, I suppose? Which-..Anyone know any artists who are into the badge thing?
Amusing [nerdy] coincidence..
Posted 7 years agoThis is just something that I, personally, found amusing >.>
Claire Walker- my collie character that I write stories about? Well I use the name "Claire' as an homage to my favorite female video game protagonist, Claire Redfield from Resident Evil 2. Claire, however, was not originally in Resident Evil 2. In what later came to be known as Resident Evil 1.5 the female lead was a college student and no relation to anyone in the current RE timeline named Elsa.
I only just today found out her full name. Elsa Walker.
I managed to name my character after 2 versions of the same role in one of my favorite games accidentally.
Claire Walker- my collie character that I write stories about? Well I use the name "Claire' as an homage to my favorite female video game protagonist, Claire Redfield from Resident Evil 2. Claire, however, was not originally in Resident Evil 2. In what later came to be known as Resident Evil 1.5 the female lead was a college student and no relation to anyone in the current RE timeline named Elsa.
I only just today found out her full name. Elsa Walker.
I managed to name my character after 2 versions of the same role in one of my favorite games accidentally.
Pass? Maybe just barely.
Posted 7 years agoSo twice today I was taken for a female by two complete strangers. Once- in publix, when asking a clerk for help- "Yes, Ma'am?" Without a hint of irony or sarcasm. Then the second time, walking out of a store in the mall, a dude started looking me up. Saw him grinning out of the corner of my eye until he realized I was trans and suddenly- "OH FUCK, HELL NO!" But still.. both were a huuuuge ego boost >.> Guess it's starting to show <3.
Now the hard part. I've been 'coming out' on set more and more. Some people I've worked with for a while noticed right away. Hasn't been a problem so far..So now I'm catering for my union hall tomorrow. means EVERYONE will know. Because I'm going to dress gender appropriate for the first time in front of them.
Also wtf are jeggings? They gave me some to try on in the mall and they're like.. a chinese finger trap for your legs. Fuck no.
Now the hard part. I've been 'coming out' on set more and more. Some people I've worked with for a while noticed right away. Hasn't been a problem so far..So now I'm catering for my union hall tomorrow. means EVERYONE will know. Because I'm going to dress gender appropriate for the first time in front of them.
Also wtf are jeggings? They gave me some to try on in the mall and they're like.. a chinese finger trap for your legs. Fuck no.
Overwatch
Posted 8 years agoHey guys- so seriously.. I'm beyond tired of getting screwed over by shit PUGs that want to play like it's Call of Duty. No team work. No communication.. Does ANYONE play or know anyone who plays on the PS4 that would be willing to work as a unit?
Overwatch
Posted 8 years ago'Lo boys and girls- 20 mins to go before Overwatch servers are up! Soooo anyone playing on PSN? Please be a dear and add me:
Gypsyraccoon
Thanks! See ya in the game!
Gypsyraccoon
Thanks! See ya in the game!
So I learned something about myself today.
Posted 8 years agoNamely? I can NOT give myself an injection. Because an injection means needles. And needles are bad. But I didn't know this for SURE, since today was the day that I was going to swap from oral estrogen to injection which works a hell of a lot better. So! I go to the doc's office, all my tests are normal and fine and everybody is happy. No big deal. So the nurse comes in to give me my 'training' and in the training session I have this needle in my paws and I'm all like 'aw, it's so cute. It's like an inch long and thin as hell so I can TOTALLY do this." So we flip our little bottles over and pull the stuff out of it, grab .25 of a CC [whatver the hell a CC is] of what I presume is Vitamin B12 since they don't have estrogen there. "Oh, this is water." She tells me. "The estradiol is actually a LOT thicker and a lot more oily so we'll need to use a bigger needle."
O_o.. Bigger.. Okay.
So out comes the REAL needle. Which by comparison is nowhere near as cute. 2 inches. A hell of a lot more round. So my first question, naturally- "How deep does this thing have to... Go?" I'm starting to feel a little woozy because Yes. I've had shots before. I've gotten a fucking tattoo before. But I don't WATCH the needle poking the skin. "About half way.
O_O.
Starting to get more than a little nervous here. Okay, so I inform her I'm ready to give it a go, I have an area on my arm all picked out- "Oh no, nonono. We can't use your arm. It has to be your thigh or your hip. Your call."
;.;.
So pants off, she shows me how to find a muscle on my thigh, hands me the ready to go, big girl needle that's all decked out with the cool little guard thing that'll make my life easier when I do it.. With a trembling paw I ready myself..start to shake-.."Okay, no. I can't do this." She asks me if I'd like her to do it just so I know what the needle feels like. "Sure..Yea.. Let's do that." "Okay, but you have to WATCH."
;.; part 2.
So. She proceeds to pinch the muscle, she jams the needle in, and I jump. All of .5 seconds I'm thinking "Okay, I can handle this..' but to make sure they hit the MUSCLE and not a VEIN you're supposed to pull the plunger back a little bit. If blood appears? You hit a vain. if no blood? You're golden. Well. I don't know how many of you have ever had air pulled out of a muscle before but it's the weirdest feeling.. and guess what? My muscle clenched. Hard. Grabbing the needle and hugging it like a bitch in heat hugs a knot. Oh and my leg jerked. Pushing another quarter of that damn needle into me. Hurt. Like. HELL.
So after all is said and done I'm shaking, rubbing my leg, nearly crying... Thank god Netsuye was there >.> From now on he's my needle monkey. I can't do this to myself.. at least not yet. x.x
TL:DR - NEEDLES FUCKING SUCK
O_o.. Bigger.. Okay.
So out comes the REAL needle. Which by comparison is nowhere near as cute. 2 inches. A hell of a lot more round. So my first question, naturally- "How deep does this thing have to... Go?" I'm starting to feel a little woozy because Yes. I've had shots before. I've gotten a fucking tattoo before. But I don't WATCH the needle poking the skin. "About half way.
O_O.
Starting to get more than a little nervous here. Okay, so I inform her I'm ready to give it a go, I have an area on my arm all picked out- "Oh no, nonono. We can't use your arm. It has to be your thigh or your hip. Your call."
;.;.
So pants off, she shows me how to find a muscle on my thigh, hands me the ready to go, big girl needle that's all decked out with the cool little guard thing that'll make my life easier when I do it.. With a trembling paw I ready myself..start to shake-.."Okay, no. I can't do this." She asks me if I'd like her to do it just so I know what the needle feels like. "Sure..Yea.. Let's do that." "Okay, but you have to WATCH."
;.; part 2.
So. She proceeds to pinch the muscle, she jams the needle in, and I jump. All of .5 seconds I'm thinking "Okay, I can handle this..' but to make sure they hit the MUSCLE and not a VEIN you're supposed to pull the plunger back a little bit. If blood appears? You hit a vain. if no blood? You're golden. Well. I don't know how many of you have ever had air pulled out of a muscle before but it's the weirdest feeling.. and guess what? My muscle clenched. Hard. Grabbing the needle and hugging it like a bitch in heat hugs a knot. Oh and my leg jerked. Pushing another quarter of that damn needle into me. Hurt. Like. HELL.
So after all is said and done I'm shaking, rubbing my leg, nearly crying... Thank god Netsuye was there >.> From now on he's my needle monkey. I can't do this to myself.. at least not yet. x.x
TL:DR - NEEDLES FUCKING SUCK
Support group -.-
Posted 8 years agoSo I'm not allowed to give specifics about anyone or what anyone has said.. Bear that in mind so this is more or less a journal without example and for that I'm sorry...
But I just can't, for the life of me, figure out what a support group is supposed to do to help someone. I quit drinking on my own, I quit smoking on my own-........Let me rephrase, I quit both of these horrible habits with the help of a select few friends and their patience. I didn't need a group of people sitting around me in a circle asking my name and having to say something about myself. But my doctor has requested I attend this support group since low and behold it's free, and since ultimately he's the one writing the piece of paper for my Spiro and Estradiol...I can't exactly say 'no'.
It's the most depressing, smothering environment I think I've ever willingly put myself in. I keep wondering if maybe there's something I'm missing but everyone starts to complain and then the therapist who's running it offers next to no advice or guidance, so the floor is left to offer suggestions and ways out which- either the people don't want to hear a solution and would rather bemoan their problems expecting a group wide 'poor you' response, or the solution is- in my unprofessional opinion- extreme and very much unhelpful unless the goal is to piss off as many people as you can and forcing acceptance by 'my way or the highway' with no room for compromise or mature discourse.
Or maybe there's something I'm missing entirely, I don't know. But after 2 sessions, both feeling much the same, I don't know what anyone gets out of this sort of environment. It's left me disheartened, and ultimately a hell of a lot more depressed than before I started attending. Doc appointment Monday so I'll see just how much he things I need this support group thing.
Fuck..
Posted 8 years agoTherapy from someone who specializes in Transgenderism or Gender Dysphoria: 110-150$ an HOUR
Vocal Therapy to better match the tonal quality and speech patterns of one's actual gender: 250$ for a 45 minute evaluation, then 150$ for a 45 minute lesson there after
Being trans is expensive but the real kick in the ovaries... NONE OF THE PLACES THAT SPECIALIZE IN EITHER OF THIS TAKE INSURANCE IN ANY FORM! What the flying fuck?! Really? ;.; Dammit!
Vocal Therapy to better match the tonal quality and speech patterns of one's actual gender: 250$ for a 45 minute evaluation, then 150$ for a 45 minute lesson there after
Being trans is expensive but the real kick in the ovaries... NONE OF THE PLACES THAT SPECIALIZE IN EITHER OF THIS TAKE INSURANCE IN ANY FORM! What the flying fuck?! Really? ;.; Dammit!
Zootopia...
Posted 8 years agoNeeds to be boycotted. No raccoons?! REALLY?! in a buddy cop movie? Not even as a TRASH COLLECTOR?!........
Jokes aside it was freakin' AMAZING and if you haven't seen it yet, go! Go go go! It's totally worth it! In 2d at least..Haven't seen 3d yet, but Disney's been nothing but awesome when it comes to that so eagerly awaiting a second viewing ^_^.
Jokes aside it was freakin' AMAZING and if you haven't seen it yet, go! Go go go! It's totally worth it! In 2d at least..Haven't seen 3d yet, but Disney's been nothing but awesome when it comes to that so eagerly awaiting a second viewing ^_^.
I can't stop...
Posted 8 years agoHuh.
Posted 8 years agoAnother interesting tidbit of information my mother saw fit to give me was 'boys are going to start treating you differently when they find out.."
It's no grand secret I lurk about on f-list quite a bit, usually just chit chatting but once in a blue moon I'll actually rp. I also have it written in plain English that irl I'm trans, mtf, yadda yadda yadda..So out of the blue this guy messages me and starts telling me how beautiful I am. I'm thinking he means, y'know, my character/fursona. "I have a big dick." Is the next thing out of his mouth. Maybe back before the whole hormone thing if I was REALLY horny [which has been odd lately o_o] I'd have just rolled my eyes and gone with it but just wasn't in the mood, was wrapped up in a few conversations with friends so I politely tell him that's nice to know but I'm not interested.
"wanna see a pic?" Not really, no. No I don't. Thank you.
I swear the next thing out of this dudes mouth *Gropes your titties.* Not sure if this is what my mom was talking about or what but... that's my story for the day.
It's no grand secret I lurk about on f-list quite a bit, usually just chit chatting but once in a blue moon I'll actually rp. I also have it written in plain English that irl I'm trans, mtf, yadda yadda yadda..So out of the blue this guy messages me and starts telling me how beautiful I am. I'm thinking he means, y'know, my character/fursona. "I have a big dick." Is the next thing out of his mouth. Maybe back before the whole hormone thing if I was REALLY horny [which has been odd lately o_o] I'd have just rolled my eyes and gone with it but just wasn't in the mood, was wrapped up in a few conversations with friends so I politely tell him that's nice to know but I'm not interested.
"wanna see a pic?" Not really, no. No I don't. Thank you.
I swear the next thing out of this dudes mouth *Gropes your titties.* Not sure if this is what my mom was talking about or what but... that's my story for the day.
I love my mother..
Posted 8 years agoSo my mom has been one of my strongest allies through this whole becoming the right gender thing after we had a long heart to heart. She called me her daughter for the first time ever a week ago when I started taking the pills. But I've noticed a..shift in the way she treats me. She's more snarky.. More conspiratorial? If that's the right word? like she's always letting me in on these little bits of ancient womanly wisdom. Like: "Don't grow your nails long. It's pointless. We only do that if we have to hide age spots." So today with her usual check up on me I decided to be a smart ass.
Mom: How are you feeling today?
Me: A little weird.
Mom: Weird? How so?
Me: Well.. I'm always hungry, I can't make up my mind on where I want to go, and I feel this overwhelming urge to bring up shit from three years ago...
To me it was funny, I was expecting a 'lol' or something back.. .instead I got this:
Mom: Okay. We can eat all the time, right it. The truth is you don't actually want to go anywhere, and women don't forget ANYTHING so start practicing how to keep your mouth SHUT. Love you.
I love my mom >.>
Now to go watch the Golden Girls for 2 hours.
Mom: How are you feeling today?
Me: A little weird.
Mom: Weird? How so?
Me: Well.. I'm always hungry, I can't make up my mind on where I want to go, and I feel this overwhelming urge to bring up shit from three years ago...
To me it was funny, I was expecting a 'lol' or something back.. .instead I got this:
Mom: Okay. We can eat all the time, right it. The truth is you don't actually want to go anywhere, and women don't forget ANYTHING so start practicing how to keep your mouth SHUT. Love you.
I love my mom >.>
Now to go watch the Golden Girls for 2 hours.
6 Days on HRT~
Posted 8 years agoAnd I'm going crazy from the side effects o_o. Oh I'm not about to stop, mind you ^_^ But normally speaking I prefer to be at least quasi active, if not physically then mentally, and I'm also very..rigid when it comes to my diet. But suddenly..everything sounds appetizing and i'm ALWAYS hungry..and for added fun I'm ALWAYS tired..I usually drink 2-3 POTS of coffee a day..I'm up to 4 and a red bull and a 5 hour energy and I'm STILL ready to crash at 7pm and sleep all day. When the doc said it'd be like going through puberty again I didn't realize I was basically going to be a teenager all over. Sleep all day, party all-..No, sleep all night, too, eat too much...
I'll let you know when i hit the emo poetry/dying my hair black and wearing eye liner phase. Until then, however xD Still going well. Just making some adjustments..and I have a tiny mountain of sweet tarts on my desk so for the time being..it's all good.
I'll let you know when i hit the emo poetry/dying my hair black and wearing eye liner phase. Until then, however xD Still going well. Just making some adjustments..and I have a tiny mountain of sweet tarts on my desk so for the time being..it's all good.
An amusing turn of events.
Posted 8 years agoSo today was the day. Got to go to the doctor, find out the results of my blood work and see if he'd be willing to pull the trigger and start hormone therapy with me. Sat down, apparently he checked to see if I'd been vaccinated against Hepatitis A..I haven't. I also haven't gotten a tetanus shot in who knows how long >.> But that's neither here nor there. "I need to know if you want one." "Should I have one?" "Well......" grr! "No. I'm okay." "Okay."
"So your white blood cell count is high...." O_O. I had no clue what that meant but the tone of voice he used..I thought I was suddenly dying. Again, panic mode, just want hormones and to get out the door and start being happy and all that jazz. "Do you feel sick?" "..No?" "Feverish? Sore? Are you coughing anything nasty up?"
"I quit smoking nine days ago.."
"Okay,. Well that explains it. You were smoking. Problem solved! So. We ran your Testosterone and Estrogen levels."
Moment of truth, my heart leapt to my chest, 'just don't tell me my testosterone level is too high for this..' which I don't even know if that's a THING.. But he showed me a chart. Apparently there's an 'acceptible level' of testosterone and Estrogen in someone in a male's body...Oddly my natural testosterone production is so low it doesn't register on that chart...and my estrogen levels are already really high....
"So this is going to be a breeze!" I was informed. Apparently I was grinning like a fool because the last thing he told me was "I love my job because I get to see THAT smile every time I get to change someone's life. None of my other colleagues get to see this. Their patients NEVER smile like that."
So I'm officially on hormone treatments <3 Happy day.
"So your white blood cell count is high...." O_O. I had no clue what that meant but the tone of voice he used..I thought I was suddenly dying. Again, panic mode, just want hormones and to get out the door and start being happy and all that jazz. "Do you feel sick?" "..No?" "Feverish? Sore? Are you coughing anything nasty up?"
"I quit smoking nine days ago.."
"Okay,. Well that explains it. You were smoking. Problem solved! So. We ran your Testosterone and Estrogen levels."
Moment of truth, my heart leapt to my chest, 'just don't tell me my testosterone level is too high for this..' which I don't even know if that's a THING.. But he showed me a chart. Apparently there's an 'acceptible level' of testosterone and Estrogen in someone in a male's body...Oddly my natural testosterone production is so low it doesn't register on that chart...and my estrogen levels are already really high....
"So this is going to be a breeze!" I was informed. Apparently I was grinning like a fool because the last thing he told me was "I love my job because I get to see THAT smile every time I get to change someone's life. None of my other colleagues get to see this. Their patients NEVER smile like that."
So I'm officially on hormone treatments <3 Happy day.
12 hours away..
Posted 8 years agoSo tomorrow's the big day. I get to sit in a doctor's office and sign a piece of paper acknowledging that yes, Hormones will give me breasts, and render me sterile, and there are risks involved..But Goddess I'm excited >.> And terrified. Excited because NORMAL. Terrified because..I grew up watching movies like 'The Fly'.. But wish me luck. As of 8:45 AM EST tomorrow, unless something went way wrong with my blood work..I'll have a prescription in paw for testosterone blockers and estrogen.
Silly journal
Posted 8 years agoSo I'm in one of those 'weird' moods where instead of asking you guys 'hey, ask me embarrassing questions!" I'm going to ask YOU guys one the likes of which that used to show up on fchan a lot when that was a thing...is it still a thing? I have no clue if it's a thing o_o I need to check the thing. Anymew- Shoot me a link of the last furry picture that you *ahem* enjoyed yourself to. Yes, let's put it that way.
Please bear in mind the rules of Furaffinity, and if these pictures happen to BREAK those rules..just keep 'em to yourselves, no judgments xD
Please bear in mind the rules of Furaffinity, and if these pictures happen to BREAK those rules..just keep 'em to yourselves, no judgments xD