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~SpiderMilkshake
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My Paypal (if you are a commissioner--please send as "payment for goods and services"): Jetcadrai @ gmail .com
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Please be sure to check out my Etsy shop!
https://www.etsy.com/shop/SpiderMil.....=hdr_shop_menu
*Ask about other art sales*
I have a Redbubble now! ---> https://www.redbubble.com/people/sp.....ist_title_name
All the vore-related work in my gallery is an archive of a time when I was comfortable making that kind of work--I don't regret the work I did, but due to the pressures I experienced from the vore community and my own anxieties about my boundaries being stomped over I can no longer do it anymore. Thank you for understanding.
Art Trades are closed
Requests Status: Closed
Collaborations: Ask me! They're open! :D
My Paypal (if you are a commissioner--please send as "payment for goods and services"): Jetcadrai @ gmail .com
Please message me with commission details before sending any payment!
Please be sure to check out my Etsy shop!
https://www.etsy.com/shop/SpiderMil.....=hdr_shop_menu
*Ask about other art sales*
They/Them/Their pronouns, please! ^^
:-) There is no fatal vore, digestion, asphyxiation or any manner of snuff overlap in my gallery. Be assured! (Or be disinterested. XD Whichever is appropriate.)
I don't roleplay with just anyone! ^^ No RP solicitations from random strangers, please.
I use my Scraps gallery!
I have a Redbubble now! ---> https://www.redbubble.com/people/sp.....ist_title_name
I will gladly accept tips on commissions and other works. :-)
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Updates, and We Need to Talk
5 years ago
^u^; Hello all. Things have been busy, rife with trouble, with some ups and downs both.
I guess most of all I would like to apologize to people expecting me to get back on the non-fatal vore work. I must say, the possibility of my ever being comfortable making that kind of work ever again is scant to none. Especially not for other people.
Over the years I've had time and time again where it felt like people contacting me for that stuff were edging ever closer and closer to trying to find a "loophole" in my boundaries, and that's not counting the several times where I was contacted by strangers who seemed keen to play along with my boundaries only to try and get something "ambiguous enough" out of me to cross those boundaries. I even saw two or three cases in which that exact thing happened--a well-known non-fatal-only vore artist was commissioned, and the commissioner on reposting tagged it up and down with fatal terminology and story, completely disregarding the artist's boundaries. Even going so far as to track down the original posts on Eka's and adding "digestion" and "fatal" tags to it. That was petrifying to see as the notion of fatality in vore I believe is one of the things that causes my anxiety disorder and my PTSD to flare up. And I wasn't having it. It got frustrating and emotionally trying to the point where being asked to work on stuff I was formerly very keen on was nerve-wracking and tripping my anxieties. I wish beyond wish that it didn't do that, and that it didn't work this way. I really wish I could feel comfortable with this because truth is I still love endosoma. I'm just emotionally barred from it due to the emotional health risks coming from the small but insidious underbelly (pun not intended, but kind of hilarious) in the vore art community.
Aside from that... I really do want my work to stand alone for its own merits, not to only be enjoyed because some people take it as wank material (or... emotional wank material? I guess so, for those who enjoy it non-sexually). I don't want my work to be defined by a super-niche fetish to the point that people ask for nothing else, know me for nothing else, and basically just get surrounded by folks who are simply waiting for me to crank out more of the same. This revelation will probably upset the few who are only here for that purpose, and honestly I don't care if those types take off. The people who like my art, fetishy or not, will stick around. Or at least I hope they will because that's another fear I have--that the only reason people even bother to contact me on this site at all is that they're... hoping I crank out more of their wank material.
If it ever happens that I get the fortitude to work on my own fetish-related material again, please understand that it'll likely remain in the realm of personal art and no commissions or art trades should involve it. If I get pressured towards it again that gate will slam shut. I consider it a bit of social respect that I should be entitled to, to be allowed to have this boundary between what I'm personally comfortable with, and what I'm comfortable keeping in the realm of commissioned work.
My accounts are really short so I have reopened commissions to people in an effort to help support myself, but admittedly I have done so with some fear of people swarming me for fetish material again. This has proven to be absolutely what has happened so I am a bit emotionally compromised from it. Nevertheless, I still need the work in order to afford student loan payments and groceries to survive. Mental health shouldn't take a backseat, but it currently is. I have tried to be clear on my new commission sheet that fetish material is out, but I guess the damage was already done. To most people I am not Spider, I am "Spider that vore artist", and my actual artistic range suffers for it. I long for work, for interesting material to work on, for new characters to draw and pose and involve in scenery and art, and having a new response that isn't hinged on demands for kink would be so gratifying. But it's still far from happening, so I guess I have some PR to do.
I hope you all are doing alright. The holidays are abound and I'm trying to keep in a good spirit and continue self-care and intrinsic motivation every day. Hoping you all are doing better on that front and finding joy! ^^; I'm going to be online trying to psyche myself up while supper's going.
I guess most of all I would like to apologize to people expecting me to get back on the non-fatal vore work. I must say, the possibility of my ever being comfortable making that kind of work ever again is scant to none. Especially not for other people.
Over the years I've had time and time again where it felt like people contacting me for that stuff were edging ever closer and closer to trying to find a "loophole" in my boundaries, and that's not counting the several times where I was contacted by strangers who seemed keen to play along with my boundaries only to try and get something "ambiguous enough" out of me to cross those boundaries. I even saw two or three cases in which that exact thing happened--a well-known non-fatal-only vore artist was commissioned, and the commissioner on reposting tagged it up and down with fatal terminology and story, completely disregarding the artist's boundaries. Even going so far as to track down the original posts on Eka's and adding "digestion" and "fatal" tags to it. That was petrifying to see as the notion of fatality in vore I believe is one of the things that causes my anxiety disorder and my PTSD to flare up. And I wasn't having it. It got frustrating and emotionally trying to the point where being asked to work on stuff I was formerly very keen on was nerve-wracking and tripping my anxieties. I wish beyond wish that it didn't do that, and that it didn't work this way. I really wish I could feel comfortable with this because truth is I still love endosoma. I'm just emotionally barred from it due to the emotional health risks coming from the small but insidious underbelly (pun not intended, but kind of hilarious) in the vore art community.
Aside from that... I really do want my work to stand alone for its own merits, not to only be enjoyed because some people take it as wank material (or... emotional wank material? I guess so, for those who enjoy it non-sexually). I don't want my work to be defined by a super-niche fetish to the point that people ask for nothing else, know me for nothing else, and basically just get surrounded by folks who are simply waiting for me to crank out more of the same. This revelation will probably upset the few who are only here for that purpose, and honestly I don't care if those types take off. The people who like my art, fetishy or not, will stick around. Or at least I hope they will because that's another fear I have--that the only reason people even bother to contact me on this site at all is that they're... hoping I crank out more of their wank material.
If it ever happens that I get the fortitude to work on my own fetish-related material again, please understand that it'll likely remain in the realm of personal art and no commissions or art trades should involve it. If I get pressured towards it again that gate will slam shut. I consider it a bit of social respect that I should be entitled to, to be allowed to have this boundary between what I'm personally comfortable with, and what I'm comfortable keeping in the realm of commissioned work.
My accounts are really short so I have reopened commissions to people in an effort to help support myself, but admittedly I have done so with some fear of people swarming me for fetish material again. This has proven to be absolutely what has happened so I am a bit emotionally compromised from it. Nevertheless, I still need the work in order to afford student loan payments and groceries to survive. Mental health shouldn't take a backseat, but it currently is. I have tried to be clear on my new commission sheet that fetish material is out, but I guess the damage was already done. To most people I am not Spider, I am "Spider that vore artist", and my actual artistic range suffers for it. I long for work, for interesting material to work on, for new characters to draw and pose and involve in scenery and art, and having a new response that isn't hinged on demands for kink would be so gratifying. But it's still far from happening, so I guess I have some PR to do.
I hope you all are doing alright. The holidays are abound and I'm trying to keep in a good spirit and continue self-care and intrinsic motivation every day. Hoping you all are doing better on that front and finding joy! ^^; I'm going to be online trying to psyche myself up while supper's going.
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Classic Rock, Raggae, Various Folk Musics, Bits and Pieces of all others... ;) And the Modern Classical
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La Vita e Belle
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Pokémon, LoZ series, Interactive Exploration games
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ALL OF THEM, including the humans. Humans are such adorable, obnoxious creatures. XD
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Delicious Food! ^w^ All kinds!
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"I like to keep a bottle of stimulant handy in case I see a snake, which I also keep handy." --W.C. Fields
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