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Goodbye, Dennis. I love you.
a month ago
I've been putting this off for a while now, but I need to let people know...
On April 20th, 2024, I said goodbye to my partner of 28 years, Dennis. A week earlier he'd had a massive heart attack that left his brain without oxygen for nearly 40 minutes. After a week in ICU and various scans, it was determined he was fully brain-dead. He wasn't coming back.
My housemate and I decided to let him go, as he wouldn't have wanted to be hooked up to machines for however long. We had him cremated and he was placed in an urn that is an actual working Herman Miller clock... he loved clocks, and he loved our home and sadly won't get to see the final remodeling done, but we plan on moving forward with that soon.
Words can not describe how scared and lost I'm feeling right now. He was my life, everything I did revolved around him, and even though we interacted a lot less in the last few years of his life (having different interests), there were still things we connected on - Disney, Legos, and until recently, various BDSM interests. But now that he's really gone, I feel like a leaf barely remaining attached to a tree with a violent wind blowing through, and eventually the leaf will break off and float aimlessly to the ground. And I have days when I really wish I was with him and not here any more, but I know that I have friends and family that love me very much and want me to stay longer, so I will do my best to ensure this.
So... goodbye, Dennis. I love you more than words can describe, and I will never forget you and will always cherish the good times we had together. Thank you for taking care of me these past 28 years. I miss you so much.
- Ken (Vaurien)
On April 20th, 2024, I said goodbye to my partner of 28 years, Dennis. A week earlier he'd had a massive heart attack that left his brain without oxygen for nearly 40 minutes. After a week in ICU and various scans, it was determined he was fully brain-dead. He wasn't coming back.
My housemate and I decided to let him go, as he wouldn't have wanted to be hooked up to machines for however long. We had him cremated and he was placed in an urn that is an actual working Herman Miller clock... he loved clocks, and he loved our home and sadly won't get to see the final remodeling done, but we plan on moving forward with that soon.
Words can not describe how scared and lost I'm feeling right now. He was my life, everything I did revolved around him, and even though we interacted a lot less in the last few years of his life (having different interests), there were still things we connected on - Disney, Legos, and until recently, various BDSM interests. But now that he's really gone, I feel like a leaf barely remaining attached to a tree with a violent wind blowing through, and eventually the leaf will break off and float aimlessly to the ground. And I have days when I really wish I was with him and not here any more, but I know that I have friends and family that love me very much and want me to stay longer, so I will do my best to ensure this.
So... goodbye, Dennis. I love you more than words can describe, and I will never forget you and will always cherish the good times we had together. Thank you for taking care of me these past 28 years. I miss you so much.
- Ken (Vaurien)
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