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Thank you for taking your time to visit my page. An aspiring writer/some guy with a hobby.
I live in Canada, Toronto, everything else is classified.
PS: sometimes will review a movie or talk about heavy topic (Sorry) in journals.
Forgotten Warriors Series: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....otten-Warriors
Follow the adventures of Chester, a young orphan from a small town who, one day, met an ancient warrior spirit. Now, granted powers, he has to form a team and save his town from the monsters of evil Lord Vaco, all the while learning more about the past he was never given. Inspired by old Tokusatsu series like Power Rangers and Digimon. Create as I go along, which is why it has Revised version. (https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....arriors-Revise)
Remember, Remember (Those Poor Unfortunate Souls): https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....e-Souls-Series
Norman is a normal monkey. Archie is a "being" created by Artemis. Artemis doesn't want me to know what he is doing. Follow the characters in their everyday life, all the while trying to find a way to make sure the world doesn't end. Includes snippets of DeVita and Schwartz, a "Knife and Fork" duo who originate from the "Garbage Area", a world where everything and anything exists, no matter how outrageous, as they try to make their living as scavengers. Experimental series.
Survive: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Survive-Series
Laura is a human who ended up in the world of animals. Or at least, they supposedly are. Everyone thinks they are "human", and while she is in a familiar place, everyone and everything is different. Furthermore, it seems that someone had orchestrated her her current predicament, leaving her with more questions. Meeting Dex, an VERY odd detective with personal sense of flare, she has to survive a world full of crazy animals, impossible murder cases, and dark secrets. Insanity galore awaits! Personal project since middle school, still working on it.
Summer Leaves: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery...../Summer-Leaves
Natsu was raised in a perfect family, by perfect parents, with perfect older brother. But unfortunately, he himself isn't perfect, and is in fact, a mess. Not wanting to disappoint his parents, his brother sent him to work for a quirky friend of his, in a town full of wacky, unpredictable, somewhat insane, yet charming people he'll come to love. A comedic series about learning adulthood. Another series that came since High School, and will also be short. Still working on it.
Thank you for taking your time to visit my page. An aspiring writer/some guy with a hobby.
I live in Canada, Toronto, everything else is classified.
PS: sometimes will review a movie or talk about heavy topic (Sorry) in journals.
Forgotten Warriors Series: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....otten-Warriors
Follow the adventures of Chester, a young orphan from a small town who, one day, met an ancient warrior spirit. Now, granted powers, he has to form a team and save his town from the monsters of evil Lord Vaco, all the while learning more about the past he was never given. Inspired by old Tokusatsu series like Power Rangers and Digimon. Create as I go along, which is why it has Revised version. (https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....arriors-Revise)
Remember, Remember (Those Poor Unfortunate Souls): https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....e-Souls-Series
Norman is a normal monkey. Archie is a "being" created by Artemis. Artemis doesn't want me to know what he is doing. Follow the characters in their everyday life, all the while trying to find a way to make sure the world doesn't end. Includes snippets of DeVita and Schwartz, a "Knife and Fork" duo who originate from the "Garbage Area", a world where everything and anything exists, no matter how outrageous, as they try to make their living as scavengers. Experimental series.
Survive: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Survive-Series
Laura is a human who ended up in the world of animals. Or at least, they supposedly are. Everyone thinks they are "human", and while she is in a familiar place, everyone and everything is different. Furthermore, it seems that someone had orchestrated her her current predicament, leaving her with more questions. Meeting Dex, an VERY odd detective with personal sense of flare, she has to survive a world full of crazy animals, impossible murder cases, and dark secrets. Insanity galore awaits! Personal project since middle school, still working on it.
Summer Leaves: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery...../Summer-Leaves
Natsu was raised in a perfect family, by perfect parents, with perfect older brother. But unfortunately, he himself isn't perfect, and is in fact, a mess. Not wanting to disappoint his parents, his brother sent him to work for a quirky friend of his, in a town full of wacky, unpredictable, somewhat insane, yet charming people he'll come to love. A comedic series about learning adulthood. Another series that came since High School, and will also be short. Still working on it.
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Recent Journal
Thinking about identity
a year ago
Weird isn't it, gender identity? How apparently it can be wrong for you?
The weird thing is, for me, I don't think I've ever stopped not being typical to my gender. When I was young, I would buy dolls instead of cars, imagine my hair as long, instead of short and cry easily, instead of holding it all in and lash out. I always thought that it meant that I was different from the others.
The weird thing is how these small things don't always pan out
I've been getting way too obsessed with a singular question as of late, one of which included my identity. And the funny thing is, it's been gnawing me, more and more as of late. Rarely have I ever imagined myself as another, but I never took it personally. It got to the point that it started to bother me during my everyday life. It was impossible, I am unable to think normally and get on the bigger question in my life. What am I doing here!?
So, I started looking into it. I've looked up what people say online. I considered what many mentioned and compared it to myself.
And weirdly, the more I looked, the more desperate I became in understanding about myself. What am I feeling? Why can't I let go of this feeling? Why am I so stupidly obsessed?
And so, I did the most intimate test. I tried to see myself, in my intimate moment, as another.
All I felt was sick and tired. I felt shaken and sick in the stomach. I felt odd about myself and what I was doing.
And then I looked in the mirror, and it was all alright. And thinking on it, it all makes sense now. I can see myself, as I am, no better or worse than I was before. A bit flawed, but with his own strengths. Not the best looker, but not uneasy on the eyes. Even now, looking at this thing that I have, I can't imagine without it.
I feel safe. I feel myself. I feel at home. I feel...right.
Perhaps, I will not stop wondering about what would I be if I were different. But, I thought I was looking into the truth of myself, when all I did was push my own buttons, thinking I can better myself. But the reality, I don't want to change what I have. I want to better myself, but with the way I am, I don't want to lose what I am.
And if I feel better as this, why should I bother with exploring someone that is not me? Sure, I can try out some tests, see if I feel better that way...but then I realize, I found it too much work. Do I really want it then, if I find it too hard? I wouldn't seek to change anything that I already got, in which case, why is this so necessary for me to do?
So what if I don't fall within the typical lines? I've always been myself. Even the others found that out. And so what if I don't always realize what I am supposed to do? I've reacted to so many weird situations, maybe it's just a sign of my own view of the world. Sometimes, I just don't see myself there, but that doesn't mean I want to escape my body. When I see myself in a photo, in a video, or in a mirror, I am happy! I can see myself and see that I interact with the world! That I exist, and not just in my own thoughts! And so what if I feel empathetic to all who I see and speak to? That's just how I learned to be with other people, and people are wonderful! But they do not represent me!
As I look back, I realize, I was way too scared of what Might be "true" than I enjoyed the thought of it being true. I was never hit with logic behind what I was feeling, I was panicking. I kept confronting the "problem", but all I did was pull myself into a spiral.
I am perfectly fine person, whose identity is also, perfectly fine. I am atypical, but not made "wrong", and I don't need to change myself. I don't have to seek a solution, as there is no problem.
Perhaps, I am still going to question myself about many more stuff.
But I think I figured out where I am on this.
Good day to you all,
From Your Kind Sir
The weird thing is, for me, I don't think I've ever stopped not being typical to my gender. When I was young, I would buy dolls instead of cars, imagine my hair as long, instead of short and cry easily, instead of holding it all in and lash out. I always thought that it meant that I was different from the others.
The weird thing is how these small things don't always pan out
I've been getting way too obsessed with a singular question as of late, one of which included my identity. And the funny thing is, it's been gnawing me, more and more as of late. Rarely have I ever imagined myself as another, but I never took it personally. It got to the point that it started to bother me during my everyday life. It was impossible, I am unable to think normally and get on the bigger question in my life. What am I doing here!?
So, I started looking into it. I've looked up what people say online. I considered what many mentioned and compared it to myself.
And weirdly, the more I looked, the more desperate I became in understanding about myself. What am I feeling? Why can't I let go of this feeling? Why am I so stupidly obsessed?
And so, I did the most intimate test. I tried to see myself, in my intimate moment, as another.
All I felt was sick and tired. I felt shaken and sick in the stomach. I felt odd about myself and what I was doing.
And then I looked in the mirror, and it was all alright. And thinking on it, it all makes sense now. I can see myself, as I am, no better or worse than I was before. A bit flawed, but with his own strengths. Not the best looker, but not uneasy on the eyes. Even now, looking at this thing that I have, I can't imagine without it.
I feel safe. I feel myself. I feel at home. I feel...right.
Perhaps, I will not stop wondering about what would I be if I were different. But, I thought I was looking into the truth of myself, when all I did was push my own buttons, thinking I can better myself. But the reality, I don't want to change what I have. I want to better myself, but with the way I am, I don't want to lose what I am.
And if I feel better as this, why should I bother with exploring someone that is not me? Sure, I can try out some tests, see if I feel better that way...but then I realize, I found it too much work. Do I really want it then, if I find it too hard? I wouldn't seek to change anything that I already got, in which case, why is this so necessary for me to do?
So what if I don't fall within the typical lines? I've always been myself. Even the others found that out. And so what if I don't always realize what I am supposed to do? I've reacted to so many weird situations, maybe it's just a sign of my own view of the world. Sometimes, I just don't see myself there, but that doesn't mean I want to escape my body. When I see myself in a photo, in a video, or in a mirror, I am happy! I can see myself and see that I interact with the world! That I exist, and not just in my own thoughts! And so what if I feel empathetic to all who I see and speak to? That's just how I learned to be with other people, and people are wonderful! But they do not represent me!
As I look back, I realize, I was way too scared of what Might be "true" than I enjoyed the thought of it being true. I was never hit with logic behind what I was feeling, I was panicking. I kept confronting the "problem", but all I did was pull myself into a spiral.
I am perfectly fine person, whose identity is also, perfectly fine. I am atypical, but not made "wrong", and I don't need to change myself. I don't have to seek a solution, as there is no problem.
Perhaps, I am still going to question myself about many more stuff.
But I think I figured out where I am on this.
Good day to you all,
From Your Kind Sir
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