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~xaotherion
Attention! I use my scraps for non-furry art.
I work almost exclusively in 3D, Blender being my software of choice. My artistic specialization is (photo)realistic tasteful furry nudity... multiple-leveled oxymoron, I know! All the more fun when I make it work.
My main online place so far has been Deviantart; this account here was made for keeping contact with friends who have most of their activity on FA. However, much better feedback I've received here when re-uploading some selected works made me consider FA to be a full-scale online place for me, rather than just a secondary mirror gallery as I initially thought.
I work almost exclusively in 3D, Blender being my software of choice. My artistic specialization is (photo)realistic tasteful furry nudity... multiple-leveled oxymoron, I know! All the more fun when I make it work.
My main online place so far has been Deviantart; this account here was made for keeping contact with friends who have most of their activity on FA. However, much better feedback I've received here when re-uploading some selected works made me consider FA to be a full-scale online place for me, rather than just a secondary mirror gallery as I initially thought.
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A mini-vent with a question
8 months ago
The question is: how do you interact with other furs? In any sense you'd wish to reply, really.
I probably shouldn't be writing all this in the first place, but today, ma asociality is vexing me more than normal, hence the vent part. So many folks say it is easier for them to interact online. For me it's the exact opposite. Even taking correction for being far (like, *really* far) from the boldest.
As long as we keep to an exchange of purely factual information, it's alright I guess. But any more personal or emotionally charged stuff comes up, and I'm getting anxious. Not being face-to-face deprives me of:
1) Non-verbal feedback. As bad as I may be at it, this is a feedback nonetheless. Without it, I feel as if the informational channel I use was surrounded by an "interpretational void" in which anything can happen, any misunderstandings can arise, and I'll be powerless to do anything about them as I can't provide my own non-verbal feedback too.
2) Perceived necessity to control my behavior and prevent any mental glitches from happening. This is a long story, but my mind has an unnerving tendency for "glitching", as if going through tiny, self-resolving stints of insanity, where my view of everything is skewed and my communication goes ways I regret later. I learned to mostly "iron it out" in RL communication, where *at worst*, said non-verbal cues inform me that things are getting weird again and I should double up my self-control, or disengage in a controlled fashion. Online, all this feedback-and-control part is absent and I can cause worst fuckery without even realizing until it's too late.
The big exception is writing long letters, I can stretch the process over many days and make sure I get my point across exactly the way I wanted. But this isn't much of online communication in the modern sense, rather the old art of letter-writing, just not on paper anymore.
The outcome is that all this leaves me feeling pretty much isolated (as IRL, I'm far away from everyone and everything). I'm quite comfortable communicating through art, also the comments are something I cherish. The other avenues of contact however, social media, chats, you name it - I cannot help but to avoid this like a plague. It has ended badly so many times before that I can't feel anything else than anxiety at the thought of it.
I probably shouldn't be writing all this in the first place, but today, ma asociality is vexing me more than normal, hence the vent part. So many folks say it is easier for them to interact online. For me it's the exact opposite. Even taking correction for being far (like, *really* far) from the boldest.
As long as we keep to an exchange of purely factual information, it's alright I guess. But any more personal or emotionally charged stuff comes up, and I'm getting anxious. Not being face-to-face deprives me of:
1) Non-verbal feedback. As bad as I may be at it, this is a feedback nonetheless. Without it, I feel as if the informational channel I use was surrounded by an "interpretational void" in which anything can happen, any misunderstandings can arise, and I'll be powerless to do anything about them as I can't provide my own non-verbal feedback too.
2) Perceived necessity to control my behavior and prevent any mental glitches from happening. This is a long story, but my mind has an unnerving tendency for "glitching", as if going through tiny, self-resolving stints of insanity, where my view of everything is skewed and my communication goes ways I regret later. I learned to mostly "iron it out" in RL communication, where *at worst*, said non-verbal cues inform me that things are getting weird again and I should double up my self-control, or disengage in a controlled fashion. Online, all this feedback-and-control part is absent and I can cause worst fuckery without even realizing until it's too late.
The big exception is writing long letters, I can stretch the process over many days and make sure I get my point across exactly the way I wanted. But this isn't much of online communication in the modern sense, rather the old art of letter-writing, just not on paper anymore.
The outcome is that all this leaves me feeling pretty much isolated (as IRL, I'm far away from everyone and everything). I'm quite comfortable communicating through art, also the comments are something I cherish. The other avenues of contact however, social media, chats, you name it - I cannot help but to avoid this like a plague. It has ended badly so many times before that I can't feel anything else than anxiety at the thought of it.
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