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~ZeldaZebra
Hy there my name is Zelda Zebra. I have used other names but they do not illuminate my present. At least for the time being Zelda's page is where I will be posting my work. Becoming Zelda here will be easy. Allowing her to illuminate my life will be the challenge, but I have to, my survival depends on it. People in my RL and on this sight have suggested that Zelda is more of who I am than I was ready to accept. I felt like Plexiglas, with how easily people saw through who I thought I was presenting to the world...
Well it has been a few years since it posted this and Zelda is who I am. It just works so much better this way. I don't really know who he would have been had I tried to keep the old me any longer. Transition did not solve everything and it was hard to do at my age, but it solved a lot and it has been worth it. May the stripes be with you.
For years I felt something was wrong .... I hid.
When I knew it could never be ....I pretended.
When I heard that it was a nasty thing ... I fought it.
When I knew it would never leave .... I tried to die.
When I could not hide or pretend or fight or die ..... I lost hope.
When I asked for help..... I took back hope.
When I felt it as a part of me... I knew need.
When I felt it as me... I knew want.
When I feel at peace with it .... I will know me.
In case you have not already figured it out.
I am and always have been a woman.
I had to live most of my life as a man.
I have struggled to understand just what that means.
I work now on the details of looking and living what I have always been.
Z.
There are others but these are the main people in my writing.
Zelda Zebra = me some times known as Erin
Patty Pinto = The life partner I hope to find and may have found in two other people, neither are on FA. We are trying to work out bills and the mondaine things of living.
Jeanette Le pue = Who I thought I waned to be.
Ed = who I tried to be
May West = my dark side ;-))
mtfs transfurs Dark-Blade [A very good friend]
All writing reveals the writer, good writing illuminates the reader.
To feel joy we risk pain.
It is in the balance we build our life.
May the stripes be with you.
Well it has been a few years since it posted this and Zelda is who I am. It just works so much better this way. I don't really know who he would have been had I tried to keep the old me any longer. Transition did not solve everything and it was hard to do at my age, but it solved a lot and it has been worth it. May the stripes be with you.
For years I felt something was wrong .... I hid.
When I knew it could never be ....I pretended.
When I heard that it was a nasty thing ... I fought it.
When I knew it would never leave .... I tried to die.
When I could not hide or pretend or fight or die ..... I lost hope.
When I asked for help..... I took back hope.
When I felt it as a part of me... I knew need.
When I felt it as me... I knew want.
When I feel at peace with it .... I will know me.
In case you have not already figured it out.
I am and always have been a woman.
I had to live most of my life as a man.
I have struggled to understand just what that means.
I work now on the details of looking and living what I have always been.
Z.
There are others but these are the main people in my writing.
Zelda Zebra = me some times known as Erin
Patty Pinto = The life partner I hope to find and may have found in two other people, neither are on FA. We are trying to work out bills and the mondaine things of living.
Jeanette Le pue = Who I thought I waned to be.
Ed = who I tried to be
May West = my dark side ;-))
mtfs transfurs Dark-Blade [A very good friend]
All writing reveals the writer, good writing illuminates the reader.
To feel joy we risk pain.
It is in the balance we build our life.
May the stripes be with you.
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Pain and health care
4 years agoI have had two medically needy people in my home over the last several years. The nature of need is that it tends to hijack all other functions of the household, especially when it is not effectively treated. Treatment can be difficult and sometimes rejected by the people who need it. Sometimes we don’t know how to help. Sometimes we do.
It is maddening and hurtful when that treatment is withheld, especially because of system failure. When effective treatment is known and available but withheld administratively. I also work in medicine; I see this from both sides of a cone with a dozen or more sides. Our system will leave a person in moderate to saver pain, for lack of insurance, gap in insurance, or hope that expensive needs can be delayed until someone else will have to pay, the list is exhaustive.
I don’t have an answer to all of it. Right now, I am helping a friend through a painful episode that has been mismanaged, poorly explained and at times treatment has been simply refused. Some of this has been a lack of capacity that leads to long waiting lists to get treatment. Some of this has been in the hope this patient will just go away. Some of this is because this person hurt themselves preparing to move between states and jobs and they must wait until it is convenient for the new insurance to take effect.
Delaying treatment hoping the care will be deferred until someone else can pay for it is simply malicious. Refusing to take the patient seriously is bigotry. The gap is a system failure unique to the USA, Mexico, and I think Argentina. Most other nations have systems of care, that do not have the gaps we do, and do not provide an incentive to delay care. we did not.
The way we pay for healthcare allows us in the USA to pay for the most expensive health care on earth. For that we get less than the best outcomes and leave many people with no coverage at all. The fragmented way we try to provide care is confusing at best and malicious at worst. This is not a failing of individual caregivers or providers it is a failing of the system.
Single Payor is not THE answer, but it is AN answer for some of it. Medicare for all is not THE way to achieve that but it is A way to achieve it. When there is one payor there is no incentive to delay treatment until some one else will have to pay for it. That saves money and gives better care. When there is one payor there is no gap when people move or change jobs. There may be other ways to do the same thing, but single payor is one of the ways. Another might to have consistent rules in how bills are paid so that a system with insurers can look like a single payer system yet retain aspects of competition.
Our way of providing health care is broken and we argue about if there is something to fix. People want your vote and your money insist they work on this. Insist that the people who want to lead our country stay engaged in solving this problem. If we don’t they won’t and it will stay broken.
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