It's That Time Of Year Again! (Retrospective)
2 years ago
I suck.
No, seriously... a year since my last journal?! What the heck?!
Not that I've thought about writing something... again... and again... and again... and again...
But as I near my 52nd birthday in just one more day, I realized maybe it was time to update people on my life and things in general.
It's been... well, I won't lie. It's been a really rough time for me. While I have a job I started out loving, currently with the various things going on, I can't quite say the same, and that's both very frustrating and sad for me. I *want* things to be better, but the depressive side of me keeps saying, "It's just going to get worse, have fun!" I'm trying to fight that depressive side of me and see the positive things, but... yeah... 🙂
However, I do have the next few days off from work to just enjoy my birthday, and I know my housemate has planned a really nice dinner for me, so things aren't ALL that bad! 😄
As for my writing, I will not lie; my last journal, almost exactly a year ago, talked about how excited I was to start writing again, and I was! But then I had some much better writers review my latest piece and in the process, I began to doubt... MAJORLY. I second-guessed everything I written, and while they said the ideas/content was great, I felt I couldn't write competently and kind of... well, "froze" on any sort of writing moving forward. I want to get back and do the right thing, but I've been almost afraid to do so. My work situation hasn't exactly helped my confidence, either, sadly.
But I'll get there. So starting with catching up on my massive backlog of commissions I've received in the past 4 to 5 months, then hopefully finding my voice in writing again, I'll be a bit more active.
For all those who've supported me in the past and currently, I thank you. I hope my birthday on Tuesday is pleasant and uneventful, and I hope to please you with more works of my writing shortly, along with some of the many commissions I've received recently that you may not have seen yet!
Thank you all for my rambling at 2am in the morning, and I hope to make my journals a bit more of a regular thing. 😉
No, seriously... a year since my last journal?! What the heck?!
Not that I've thought about writing something... again... and again... and again... and again...
But as I near my 52nd birthday in just one more day, I realized maybe it was time to update people on my life and things in general.
It's been... well, I won't lie. It's been a really rough time for me. While I have a job I started out loving, currently with the various things going on, I can't quite say the same, and that's both very frustrating and sad for me. I *want* things to be better, but the depressive side of me keeps saying, "It's just going to get worse, have fun!" I'm trying to fight that depressive side of me and see the positive things, but... yeah... 🙂
However, I do have the next few days off from work to just enjoy my birthday, and I know my housemate has planned a really nice dinner for me, so things aren't ALL that bad! 😄
As for my writing, I will not lie; my last journal, almost exactly a year ago, talked about how excited I was to start writing again, and I was! But then I had some much better writers review my latest piece and in the process, I began to doubt... MAJORLY. I second-guessed everything I written, and while they said the ideas/content was great, I felt I couldn't write competently and kind of... well, "froze" on any sort of writing moving forward. I want to get back and do the right thing, but I've been almost afraid to do so. My work situation hasn't exactly helped my confidence, either, sadly.
But I'll get there. So starting with catching up on my massive backlog of commissions I've received in the past 4 to 5 months, then hopefully finding my voice in writing again, I'll be a bit more active.
For all those who've supported me in the past and currently, I thank you. I hope my birthday on Tuesday is pleasant and uneventful, and I hope to please you with more works of my writing shortly, along with some of the many commissions I've received recently that you may not have seen yet!
Thank you all for my rambling at 2am in the morning, and I hope to make my journals a bit more of a regular thing. 😉
Cheering for you! You can write! Just don't be too harsh of a critic on yourself. Enjoy what you wish to express. Also have a great b-day together with your mate and local buddies. ^_^
Thank you for the kind words and birthday wishes!
Always totodily welcome! 🎂(-^.=.^-)🎉
Happy birthday! Don't be too hard on yourself, just remember you've gotta make mistakes and take criticism to improve your craft. It just depends on how you take it. Once again happy birthday! <3
Oh, I know, I was just being a bit maudlin the other night; I do plan on getting back to writing soon, if all goes well! And thank you for the birthday wishes!