Trying to Make It Through the Year
a month ago
Once again, a bit longer between journals than I'd like, but...
This year has not been kind. It's now over one year since I had my original eye surgery, and my eye still hurts on a daily basis. I literally wake up with my eye hurting, and go to sleep with my eye hurting. And the vision really hasn't improved much. Add to that the neck, back, and foot pain, and... yeah.
And on top of all that, our cat of nearly 19 years, Sox, was put to sleep in February. We tried to save him, but his systems kept failing, one by one, and in the end, we didn't want him to suffer any more. He was one of my few remaining anchors in this life, and now he's gone. I'm not sure how to deal with it.
I've started trying to catch up on upload backlog again; we'll see how long that lasts. At this point, I'm around 50-60 images behind, and there's many I never fully downloaded so I'll need to find them again.
Writing? Haven't had the energy or desire lately, not sure when it's returning.
Not sure if this year will be my last or not on this earth, but I guess we'll find out. I'm trying to hold on, but it seems that life really keeps throwing me curve balls, so we'll see...
This year has not been kind. It's now over one year since I had my original eye surgery, and my eye still hurts on a daily basis. I literally wake up with my eye hurting, and go to sleep with my eye hurting. And the vision really hasn't improved much. Add to that the neck, back, and foot pain, and... yeah.
And on top of all that, our cat of nearly 19 years, Sox, was put to sleep in February. We tried to save him, but his systems kept failing, one by one, and in the end, we didn't want him to suffer any more. He was one of my few remaining anchors in this life, and now he's gone. I'm not sure how to deal with it.
I've started trying to catch up on upload backlog again; we'll see how long that lasts. At this point, I'm around 50-60 images behind, and there's many I never fully downloaded so I'll need to find them again.
Writing? Haven't had the energy or desire lately, not sure when it's returning.
Not sure if this year will be my last or not on this earth, but I guess we'll find out. I'm trying to hold on, but it seems that life really keeps throwing me curve balls, so we'll see...
I cheer for you and wish you that you can find not only inner peace soon enough but also taht your recovery after your surgery will progress towards that you can feel much better soon.